having an iliad summer. doing a ton of brooding. might be blinded by selfishness and/or rage. considering unexpectedly dying to my hubris. hopefully that wont have devastating effects
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THEIR BROTHERS WHO LOVE EACH OTHER IN A SIBLING MANNER.
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Warnings : SMUT! let me know in the comments if Iâve missed anything
Summary : Youâre being married off to the mysterious Na-Baron of Giedi Prime. Feyd Rautha is a strange man, but his confusing mannerisms frustrate you throughout his stay in your planet. However, how do you supposed he feels about you?
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Feyd Rautha is a leader.
Feyd Rautha is a prince.
He has a whole nation willing to submit to his every request. He does not have time to be waiting for his alleged âbrideâ.
So why is he standing in the hallway like a lost child? It only heightens his anger, his frustration.
You must be making him wait out of spite, since itâs so obvious you harbour no reason to appreciate this marital alliance. Heâs already drafting up wicked ideas of what his witch for a wife will look like; clearly you havenât shown yourself until the last moment to be spared from any chances of spending time with your new husband.
Of course, itâs no secret that the Reverend Mothersâ breeding program may seem âunfairâ to some. Like pairing such a worthy, well-bred prince such as Feyd with a young woman who hasnât been raised right - this must only benefit the alliance of nations and different species.
His posture can only be described as perfection. His shoulders drawn and broad, hands tucked behind his back in an orderly manner to appear more powerful - after all, first impressions are important for alliances.
Even in thought, he cannot call this a marriage. The very thought of it leaves a bitter taste in his mouth, one that he desires to get rid of as quickly as possible.
However, with perfection comes sacrifices. Since the moment he stepped foot onto your land - your territory - Feyd braced himself as if he were walking straight into an ambush and you were the enemy. His muscles strained against the plain, dark cloths heâd adorned today instead of his usual armour. He was vulnerable to his surroundings now, unshielded and alone.
He pays close attention to the hallway he finds himself dawdling in. Itâs dim, built with smooth bricks that are cool to the touch. But that is no distraction for what is to come any moment now.
In mere moments, the two of you were to meet for the first time and officiate your marriage. You were to be his wife, provide him with children and continue the Harkonnen lineage. That is what a successful alliance was, as well as what was expected of by the Reverend Mothers who set up this marriage in the first place.
Feyd forces any kind of hesitation out of his mind, why should he be unwilling? All you needed to do was perform your marital duties and live with him. You donât even need to be in the same room with him after that. It was simple enough for Feyd to understand after it had been instilled in his head ever since heâd been born.
Feyd was ready to commit to making this alliance work out for both of your nations. As for his own martial duties? It would be as easy as his fights in the arena, entertaining even. Youâre just another enemy he needs to fight off in another way.
He doesnât flinch when the door next to him opens slowly and your father comes out, inviting him in to meet his newly wed.
Then he saw you.
He cannot begin to explain the flood of unfamiliar emotions that crashed once he caught sight of you. He knew you wouldnât look like his own kind - but this is something entirely different. You are unlike his Darlings back in Giedi Prime, unlike any kind of princess or woman who has come to witness his battles. His feelings towards you deviate from the usual ones heâs been indoctrinated to feel. Youâre beautiful in a way that aches.
You are the beginning of his newfound hunger for something new, something he simply doesnât want to understand.
Feyd Rautha is smitten. So profoundly smitten, it causes him pain that he doesnât enjoy for once. It gnaws at his bones as he continues to glare at you while entering the room.
âPlease, My Lord, have a seat.â You sound mostly unaffected, he isnât able to piece together what is forming inside your mind. But he can already tell. Youâve probably studied him before this, obvious from your lack of surprise which surprisingly pains him. He wants to know what youâre thinking.
Deep down, he craves to know if youâre experiencing the same feelings as he is now.
Even if he canât decipher them.
He opts to stand by the chair youâd gestured to, but it only brings a small hint of confusion as you rise out of your chair to greet him.
âFeyd Rautha Harkonnen, you are a mighty warrior and prince. I am glad to become your wife and unite our nations.â Youâre dressed for the occasion; your pure white gown flows while you move, practically making your face glow as if you were the only significant thing in the room. And you were to Feyd.
You were his bride.
You were his and that is what mattered to him. Having possession over the finest woman in all the land, it was like a blessing in his honour.
He ignores your suspiciously dull tone, overcome by the sheer beauty that he is currently facing instead.
âAs am I.â Feyd struggles to force these words out, he could almost choke on them. His raspy tone seems to shock you, your eyes widen for a split second.
But then you relax just as quick, crossing your hands over one another as you look up at him to talk.
âIn my culture, we commemorate marriage with rings. A symbol of our union. We took the time to forge a pair for the occasion.â
Heâs too busy watching your lips to pay attention to the servant holding out the rings, but quickly takes one and entraps it inside his fist.
âMy Lord? Will you not wear your ring now?â
He almost felt himself falter at the sight of your concern - it seems genuine. The gentle frown on your lips as you wait for an answer tugs at his chest. You wanted him to honour your nation, you wanted him to honour his own marriage.
Feyd doesnât answer, only unclenching his fist slowly and then sliding the ring onto his finger. It fits perfectly, prompting him to examine it for a couple of moments before being interrupted by you again.
âI made sure to choose the most special designs for us. We both have a gem sacred to our culture in the centre of the ring. Look.â You guide your hand towards his cautiously, observing his reaction for any kind of surprise or aggression.
Feyd stays as still as a stone, allowing your tender hand to gesture to the gem encrusted in his wedding band. Although the jewel is a deep, crimson colour it has a small glint that catches his eye. It looks rather simple compared to his Harkonnen style ring, symbolising his lineage and loyalty to his own nation.
Now he had to balance two kinds of priorities: his marriage and his clan.
âWhen will the ceremony take place?â He finally manages to muster up something showing any kind of intelligence, but it doesnât phase you. Youâre probably already thinking about the rest of your life with a cold, barbaric sadist.
âWell, right now we have just officially married. This was represented by the rings. Tomorrow, we plan on hosting a dinner before I leave for Geidi Prime. Is that all?â Your question isnât intimidating or full of anger, rather more curious. Heâd like to think that you wanted to know more, but now Feyd is mentally batting this newfound want to please you, have you smile or praise him. He is too busy to consider what your true intentions could be.
âYes. I want to be shown to my chambers.â He nods, placing his hands behind his back once more. To you it looks polite, whereas Feyd sees it as restraining himself. He canât shake the urge to touch you, claim you properly as his own and see if youâre any different from his own kind. Is your skin softer? What does your hair feel like? All of these questions rush through his mind continuously, pushing his boundaries further and further.
You have no time to respond since Feyd has already left the room, practically charging out with a servant trailing behind him. He cannot bear to look at your face any longer.
It will only feed his delusions of the possibility of love in this alliance.
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Feyd is no stranger to the nighttime, but the peace that comes with the loneliness is new to him. When he usually stalked the halls in Giedi Prime, tension was thick in the atmosphere, so thick it couldâve choked him. But that wouldnât have deterred Feydâs other senses. There was always some reason to have his guard up.
Yet, as he stared up at the moon from the courtyard, there was only the sound of his quiet, quick breaths. He was still dressed in his cloths from earlier, hesitant towards the idea of becoming any more vulnerable if he let himself adorn his nightclothes. The breeze presses against his face gently, gliding off of his skin and clothes as he absorbs the new sensation of the cool air. Your planet was almost as mysterious as you, so many things unexplained that he surprisingly cannot say a bad word about.
The soft patter of gentle footsteps on the cool stones disrupt his solace, prompting Feyd to whip his head in your direction. Youâre making your way towards him slowly, holding up the hem of your nightgown to prevent it from getting any stains from the damp grass of the courtyard. His eyes glaze over your figure highlighted in the moonlight, but only more dramatised from the thin, white fabric of your gown. He quickly averts his gaze before youâre able to get close enough to notice, pretending that he hasnât even bothered to look at you.
You donât say anything as you approach. Your hands lie limply by your sides once you stand beside him, tilting your head up to look at the moon.
âDo you not have a moon in Geidi Prime?â Itâs soft and cautious, as if youâre treading water and trying to see if youâll sink.
âWe do. It isnât like your planet at all. Hardly anything is similar.â His sentences are short and unintentionally as sharp as his posture.
âThat is why weâre married, is it not? To bring together two nations who could benefit from each other.â
He nods in agreement and watches you out of the corner of his eye; he can see the subtle curve of your lips and how it changes your entire face tremendously. Feyd canât tear his attention away from you.
âIâm glad that you came to my planet, my lord. Iâm sorry if this isnât how a princess should speak⊠but it will help my people and that is my sworn duty. Thank you.â You add, bowing your head to him shortly. Itâs an embarrassment for a princess to be acting so informally when unchaperoned, you scold yourself.
He nods again, and you can feel a hint of amusement bubbling within your chest.
âYou donât talk a lot, do you? Are all Harkonnens like this?â Youâre trying not to faint at the possibility of getting shut down or even attacked, yet it hasnât unnerved you entirely. You donât know enough about your husband to know what to expect for your honeymoon in Giedi Prime - which can have consequences for the better or worse.
Finally, he tilts his head in your direction. His eyes linger on your face as his mouth opens to respond.
âNo.â
You chuckle, putting a hand to your mouth as you smile and look up at him with those bright eyes that Feyd is beginning to grow some kinds of strange feelings for.
âOne of my warriors was sent to Giedi Prime when I found out who I was to marry, so I could understand who I would spend my future with. He saw you fighting in the arena - you were much more talkative then.â Your tone is playful as you wait for an answer, shifting closer to him.
Feyd is biting his tongue, letting the molars press deep to the point he feels some kind of pain that brings pleasure. His usual way to cope with complex feelings.
But heâs not even sure of what these current feelings are.
Feyd usually categorises âcomplexâ as a mix of emotions heâs used to. As if itâs a formula. For example, anger and confusion can lead to frustration, which is something heâs been feeling a lot since heâs laid eyes on you.
But that is not the case this time. He is having an irregular formula that could lead to disaster.
One part of his mind is primal, downright carnal as his gaze flickers to the low neckline of your dress. The way your collarbone is illuminated in the moonlight, how little of your body is covered by this âgownâ as his eyes roam your shoulders and neck.
The other is unknown. He cannot piece together why youâre like this, why youâre doing these horrible things to his mind and body. What they could cause him to do if these games go on for too long.
âI am very excited on the battlefield. Like a little boy.â He scolds himself, crossing his arms as he reflects on his last time in the arena.
âWell, I donât think thatâs a bad thing. You are just enjoying yourself.â
âSo you understand the pleasure of winning battle?â
Youâre a taken aback at his direct question, almost shrinking as he peers deep into your eyes.
âI am not usually involved in warfare, but I do find there are other ways to seek this kind of pleasure you speak of.â Youâre a little flushed now, nervous of where this topic of âpleasureâ could lead to. Itâs midnight and youâre alone in the courtyard with your newly wedded husband - what could go wrong?
âI am no child. I understand what you speak of when using the term âother waysâ.â Heâs much closer now, glaring down at you with such an intensity that you feel as if heâs searing marks into your skin from his gaze.
âI am so sorry, Na-Baron. I- I should not have brought this topic up! It is very shameful, so I must depart now.â You turn to leave, about to grasp onto your nightgown when his sudden grip on your wrist makes you gasp.
âWhy did you call me Na-Baron?â His tone is low, intimidating and sending sparks down your spine that shouldnât be there.
âBecause⊠becauseâŠâ you find yourself at a loss for words, too nervous to attempt to form a response.
âYou say that I am your lord, so you are my lady.â His voice comes out raspier, every word has an edge to it as he speaks. You cannot help but feel as if this is a command.
As youâre about to retort, state that heâs never called you âhis ladyâ so far, he leans in closer. His plump lips are parted, allowing his hot breath to fan over your skin. It spreads a sweet, hot sensation that brings up a fever in your mind. Suddenly, your judgement is a little more clouded, intoxicated by his presence.
âYou have not said that I am your lady yet.â You whisper, exhaling shaky breaths as your eyes dart from his gaze to his lips. Then again. Itâs a battle that youâre losing as youâre too focused on the subtle movement on his lips as he lets out shallow breaths.
âTomorrow. Tomorrow, at the meal, I will make sure everyone knows you are mine. My lady.â He adds, letting go gently and backing away. His expression remains stern, but there is some kind of mischievous glint in his eyes. A warning of the true nature of this prince.
You try to make out any kind of smirk now spread across his lips, but heâs completely blank. Youâre unable to figure out if heâs teasing you or genuinely took your word. You can only assume the best of your husband and what he seems to be planning as you trudge back to your room confused.
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Your father knows how to celebrate - whether it is marriage, birthday, or even a funeral he has never failed to plan the most suitable occasions.
You are hitched into a tight, colourful gown that was made specially for you. This explains why you donât complain when the strings are pulled in a slightly painful way, when the emergency embroidering needle pokes you a couple of times or even when youâre beginning to feel a little self conscious. What will Feyd think?
At that moment, you catch a glimpse of your reflection - why are you so concerned about him? At the beginning of the union, you were so well versed in how to be a good wife and princess that you had no time to consider your own feelings. You could only follow the schedule. Yet in such a short time heâs managed to chip you down into the scared little girl that youâve always been and can never deny. Itâs embarrassing. Youâre embarrassed for yourself.
Heâs given you too many different kinds of signals to allow you to consider his true motives, which completely throws you off after the short encounters from yesterday.
This morning, he greeted you swiftly before going to prepare as if last night never happened.
You scoff, looking down at your ring and brushing your thumb over the jewel now. Heâs playing with your feelings. Clearly this is just a honeymoon stage for him: prepare you to continue the Harkonnen line, and then leave you in Giedi Prime to fend for yourself with a whole new nation awaiting you.
Youâre just a prize to him.
âYour Royal Highness?â
You turn around hastily. Your handmaiden awaits with shoes in her hands, looking up at you with concern.
âAre you okay?â She continues, handing you the shoes gently.
âI am content. Why shouldnât I be? I am married to the Na-Baron and joining our nations in the process, which will benefit everyone.â You canât see how hasty your answer was, how automatic it seemed. It was the only feasible reason to marry the Na-Baron, since true love was not a possible idea anymore in the Reverend Mothersâ breeding program.
Your handmaiden nods feebly, allowing you to sit down and hand the shoes back to her. Sheâs slipping them onto your feet before a much more quieter question hastily escapes her mouth.
âAre you sure thatâs all?â
You blink.
Youâre about to open your mouth to speak, to try and organise your emotions with someone who isnât your unpredictable newlywed.
The door opens and your father strides in cheerily, much to your frustration.
âCome on, dear. The table is set and everybody will be seated soon.â
You donât say anything. You donât do anything but what youâre told.
Right now, you just need to listen to your previous training and avoid Feyd Rautha. Heâs only trying to follow his own rules too.
You walk with your father, arms linked firmly as the two of you approach the large dining hall. It has been decorated top to bottom in lavish jewels that shine, ribbons that wrap around the entire room and lanterns hanging in corners, feebly illuminating the already bright room. However, when it darkens, they will provide a dim light for a more relaxed atmosphere. Youâre not phased by any of this, your father has been planning this ceremony since you could walk. Even though some believe your planet is more âbackwardsâ, there is still one similar goal - providing heirs to the throne. You shouldnât be standing alone once your reign starts, as believed by all the Reverend Mothers who have also instilled this idea into your father.
Along comes Feyd Rautha, the Na-Baron, looking for a suitable wife to continue the Harkonnen lineage and help him rule - itâs almost too perfect. The Reverend Mothersâ were onto this completely.
You only look around, a blank expression pasted onto your face. Itâs clear as day how bored you are, which prompts a remark from your father.
âHas he said anything to you?â His tone is deep with suspicion. He eyes you carefully, his brows furrowed in concern.
âWhat?â
âThe Na-Baron. Has he upset you, my dear?â You abruptly stop in your footsteps, meeting your fatherâs gaze.
âNo, father. Itâs fine. Itâs nothing at all.â You shake your head dismissively, sighing and wringing your hands together now.
âYou will get used to it - thatâs the part that strengthens your marriage. Getting through the hardships and coming to face your situation with a heart of gold, the one that Iâve raised you to have.â He smiles at you fondly, pinching your cheek gently.
Although his words donât seem to comfort you, you still smile back and nod goodbye as you walk down the long hall to reach your seat.
In the traditional manner of your nation, the bride and groom sit on opposite ends of the large, winding table that stretches from one end of the room to the other. This gives you plenty of time to enjoy the lack of the Na-Baronâs presence, as he seems to trick your mind everytime he is near you.
You take your seat, sitting upright in the grand, wooden chair. Itâs hard to get comfortable, forcing you into position for the entirety of the dinner.
Feyd has now entered the room. His stride is intimidating, emitting solidity and power. Heâs dressed in an all black uniform once more, but his ring is clear on his finger as he pulls his chair out from across the hall. Youâre able to see the subtle glint, which almost makes you want to change your mind. Maybe youâre just assuming the worst.
However, you never knew what to expect with the Reverend Mothers and their underlying sinister motives. For now, you choose to avoid him and carry on with your marriage as calmly as possible. As if it were simply just a business negotiation.
He acknowledges you carefully, nodding towards you before settling himself in his own chair. You only nod back clumsily and cease all contact from there.
Guests arrive slowly. Friends from aristocratic families and governors are the majority, but there are still many people who were invited due to their hard work and contributions to society recorded recently. You make sure to greet them all grandly, smiling and allowing them to shower you with compliments. The Na-Baron stood beside you, watching you intently as you interact with everyone in sight. He doesnât say a word, his jaw tense and teeth grind together as he watches with lidded eyes.
You falter under his gaze for a moment, but stiffen and keep your composure. If this is how he was going to play, then you were just going to trap him in your own game.
For the rest of the celebration, you avert your gaze away from the Na-Baron. Right now, your main focus is the people and celebrating your nation as well as the marriage.
The meal goes swimmingly - empty courses and platters of food now litter the grand table after such a long feast. So long that by the time youâd finished, the sun had set. You focus on swallowing oddly shaped lumps of food, trying not to choke on even the smallest crumb from the searing gaze of Feyd Rautha.
Although, even when you turn to the most obscure corners, seats and groups of people - Feydâs eyes are glued to you. His dark eyes blend with his pupils, creating some kind of animalistic glint when the lights reflect in his enlarged pupils. You can almost feel two bruises forming into your back from the intensity of his glare.
-
Feyd isnât hurt, heâs not injured or scratched - but heâs been cut deep. So deep that heâs been searching from the origin of this seething pain since this morning; he almost destroyed his room with the pure frustration bubbling within. He knows it has to do with you. Youâre the only woman whoâs managed to sway him so strongly that his defences have been drawn back in hopes of some sort of victory.
However, tonight is leaving him with anything but victory as he canât psychically tear his eyes away from you without feeling tortured. Even if you seem to feel the opposite.
Youâre so carefree; you talk to the guests with ease and float around the hall in your gorgeous gown that he just wants to rip to shreds. He canât bear with his facade of yours.
Thatâs when he decides heâs going to end it. Right here, right now.
-
Youâre in the middle of a conversation when, over the chatter and laughter, you hear it.
Charging footsteps across the hall. You cannot deny who it is, and youâre grasping for any idea of what to say when he now stands beside you.
âMy wife.â He declares, unbothered by the concerning throttle filled charge from seconds ago. His voice is sudden, hoarse like usual and rough around the edges.
Youâre at a loss for words, smiling timidly at the couple you were just talking to as he now takes your arm firmly and links it around his own. When you finally look up at him, heâs not smiling. Heâs unreadable right now.
The cool fabric of his black cloths rub against your skin, barely covered by the sheer fabric of your sleeves.
âMy husband.â You nod at the couple, who hastily bow to him.
For the rest of the night, heâs attached to you like a bodyguard. He doesnât talk, doesnât smile and does not look at you once. The only sense of security seems to be the arm still linked with yours.
-
âWhy did you do that?â
He pauses when you tear your arm away from him, staying still in his position as you create distance between the two of you.
âWho do you think you are? Do you think you can- can give me so many different ideas about you? Is that okay? Is it, my lord?â Your voice trips and stumbles as you struggle to even consider what youâre saying as the words fall out of your mouth with no regard for the Na-Baron.
âI donât understand you! I know itâs been such a short time- and you cannot seem to talk to me- but I just need to know what your intentions are! I am married to you! I deserve to know!â You continue, pausing to gasp for air and let your shaky breaths fill the large, empty room of yours.
The celebrations had died down and the Na-Baron had decided to walk you to your room. Yet on the way there, your tears seemed to form and burst the minute the two of you were locked away in your room.
âMy lady..â he murmurs, approaching you slowly. Youâre crying, sniffling and backing away with every step he takes.
Youâre so desperate to get away from him, but at the same time youâre dying to just throw something at him.
With too many thoughts rushing through your head, the thought never occurs to you of where you were actually going with your unsteady backwards footsteps.
âMy lady.â Heâs much closer than you realised. You attempt to back up further, but meet resistance with your wardrobe. A strong arm now blocks your last method of escape, caging you against the wardrobe.
He has you cornered. His eyes watch you intently, plush lips parted slightly as he breathes hard.
âYou have bewitched me, changed me for what I am. I am no longer a warrior, no longer the Na-Baron since the moment I saw you. I knew that I was to be your husband, but I also knew that as a woman so capable and beautiful - I did not deserve you.â
His face has contorted and twisted into something entirely different; jaw tense with anticipation, eyes soft and pleading as they look at you directly. Heâs waiting for you to say something, anything.
Youâre in utter shock. This must be the most words heâs said since meeting you, but youâre hanging on to every word. Looking up at him with so many emotions swimming through your eyes that itâs like a turbulent sea.
He exhales, before continuing to speak.
âBut I want you. I want you to be mine - my wife.â He sucks in a breath after saying this, as if it pains him somehow to spill such a secret. His brow line furrows in frustration as he attempts to explain, âWe barely know each other, but all I know is that thereâs been something about you that I ache for. Do you understand? You play with my feelings, my lady. You confuse me, anger me and entice me all at once. A warrior like I shouldnât feel this way, he shouldnât let his guard down for a woman. But that is what Iâm willing to do right now in order to make my intentions clear.â
As he whispers this, he offers a hand to you carefully. Feyd now watches you intently, waiting for your response.
The room is dim, slithers of moonlight drag across the room in strange rays, casting a glow on the Na-Baron. Heâs utterly pitiful in this moment, the moon now bringing to light his vulnerability.
You let out a jagged breath, desperately searching for words to say. When you canât seem to find any, you bring your hand to his slowly. Your fingers intertwine and clasp each other firmly - an invitation. His hand is cold, calloused and engulfs your own.
You look up to him only to find that another layer has seemed to vanish, his dark eyes now gaze at you longingly. They trail over your dress, and you can almost hear the cogs ticking in his mind.
You swallow thickly, before letting out a hushed murmur, âAre you attempting to undress me with your eyes, my Lord?â Thereâs a bit of humour to it as a ghost of a smile graces your lips, but itâs overcome by that suddenly dry feeling in your throat and newfound, carnal want for Feyd Rautha.
âIf I wanted to, your dress would be in ruins by now, my Lady.â He may banter with you, but thereâs also some concern hidden beneath. Do you want him to touch you? What if you donât like it?
Yet, with a small shrug, you respond.
âI wonât stop you, if that seems to be what we both want.â
His eyes widen slightly, the rush of giddiness that he would usually feel after winning a battle seems to flood his senses. Itâs shameful how he now lets go of your hand to run both of them down your waist. Itâs deliberately slow. Teasing, even.
âThe ties are in the back, Feyd.â You urge, prompting him to move his hands to your back and begin to remove your dress. Heâs still lightheaded from the rush of sensations encapsulating his mind, but heâs able to force out his question.
With his arms wrapped around your waist to reach your back, his face is buried in the crook of your neck now. His hot breath sends shivers down your spine as he speaks.
âDo you like this dress?â You can feel his lips against your neck now as he talks, but sense him holding back. Heâs waiting for the right moment.
You shake your head.
He instantly rips the drawstring of your corset, itâs deliciously animalistic as he tugs it off and allows himself to get a good look at you. His eyes wander hungrily across your body, glancing up at your face as he searches for any reaction.
Youâre completely frozen, overwhelmed by the different sensations rushing through your mind: the cold air on your bare skin, his warm, shallow breaths as they leave patches of heat on your body and his intense, unrelenting gaze.
âDo you want this?â
Thereâs a pause as you attempt to muster any words out of your dry throat. You finally swallow any anxiety, before answering in a whisper.
âYes, I do.â
His lips are so soft as they push against yours, plush and comforting in contrast to his rough grip on your waist and back to pull you in as close as possible. You donât retort, arching yourself into him and reaching a desperate arm to wrap around his neck. His hands are large, calloused and cool to the touch as they press into your skin hard. It only pushes you further into him, moaning into the kiss at the pleasurable pain.
Suddenly, you pull away to gasp for air only to be met with dark, pleading eyes that seem to beg you to stay.
âI.. I want to..â youâre a little out of breath, flushed and nervous as you place both hands on his firm chest. Your fingertips trace over the cloth lightly, but ultimately reach his buttons and claw at them hungrily. Your efforts are futile as youâre too enveloped by lust to register how to unbutton his clothes, leading him to place a hand on yours to guide you slowly. Button by button, he reveals himself to you.
His skin is pale, smooth as you run a tentative hand over his chest. His heartbeat is rapid, his breathing is strained as his gaze is fixed on you. Heâs got a chiseled body, unscathed and untouched for a warrior. You can only let out a shaky breath as he begins to guide you to the bed, a hand cupping your face.
Youâre not thinking straight, your mind finally coming to a halt when you realise your situation. Heâs on top of you now, on both knees as he leans over to stroke your face, which has been frozen with shock.
âMy lady..â Feyd murmurs, pressing a kiss to your forehead. Heâs surprisingly gentle, but you can feel is erection pressing against your stomach as heâs worshipping your beauty.
You squirm under his grip, strong hands gliding over your neck and shoulders attempting to make you wait. But youâre becoming greedy, you want him now.
A small whine escapes your lips as you try to create some kind of friction, which causes him to smile. Itâs a smirk. Cocky and teasing as it spreads across his lips.
âYouâre desperate, my lady, arenât you?â His voice is still low, hoarse as he tries to not lose his focus from the slight tingles of pleasure the friction is providing him. He wants to engross himself in the moment before ravishing you, no woman has been so vulnerable in his grip like this before.
He leans in, his gaze trailing along your features as he searches his prey for weak spots. His mouth lands on your neck, sucking on the delicate skin hungrily. You canât remember what heâd said before, plagued by the newfound sensation of his wet saliva cooling the hickey tainting your skin.
You donât even want to answer, a sigh escaping your lips at the pop of his mouth as he pulls away from your neck. A small, desperate whisper is all you can force out before you try to move your hand down to your thighs. Itâs grabbed by his own and pinned back into the mattress.
âDonât over-exert yourself, my lady.â Heâs still smirking as he begins to steady himself at your entrance, but is just as desperate as you are to get his fill.
Your thighs are pushed apart with his spare hand, allowing him to let out a satisfied groan at the sight of you. Without warning, his hand lets go of your wrist to find your clit. His fingers brush against it softly, caressing a soft moan out of you which only prompts him to continue much harsher. The sounds are obscene as he toys and teases you, only aiding his own pleasure as he watches you clench around nothing.
The tip of his dick presses against your entrance, forcing you to attempt to push out your hips in hopes of fulfilment. Youâre unable to move properly, his cold hands tighten around your body. As you writhe in his grip, your gaze flickers up to meet his. Thereâs a suspicious glint in his dark pupils, paired with the subtle upturn of his parted lips.
Suddenly, sharp sensation erupts within your body, one that tries to push your thighs together to only have them wrap around his firm waist. You can feel the pleasurable stretch as Feyd only savours you inch by inch as he pushes himself in as far as he can. Your skin prickles with heat, spreading across your body like a rash as you find yourself flushed and gasping for air as he pulls out suddenly.
Itâs not for long, pushing his dick inside quickly again just to hear your staggered cries. Your body seems to move on its own, rocking yourself against him as he pushes in and out. Heâs intoxicating, altering your mind to primal instincts.
His movements become sloppier, his climax becoming more inevitable with every thrust. Feyd begins to lose composure, plump lips parted and panting as his thumb still rubs your clit forcefully. Youâre both growing impatient, his begging now becoming audible as the words stumble out of his mouth.
âPlease.. pleaseâŠâ youâd never known the Na-Baron to be the kind of warrior to say âpleaseâ, but youâd driven him over the edge.
Youâre also growing louder, whimpering and whining for your climax to come quick and hard. You want it, and you want it now.
Youâre the first to come, crying as your eyes roll into the back of your head. Your back arches into him as an explosion of pleasure races through your body, tingling through your lower abdomen. However, as the waves of climax subside, you become increasingly more vulnerable to Feyd Rautha still pounding into you.
It only takes him a few more thrusts, but your arm is released from his grip as you cling onto his back. Your nails tear at his skin, the pangs of borderline pain bringing tears to your eyes at the sheer ecstasy of it all.
You hear his breath hitch in your ear, his mouth opens with a gasp as he buries himself inside you for his release. His cum is searing hot, filling your insides hastily as his chest rises up and down rapidly. Feyd doesnât move for a moment, processing what just happened. But after a few seconds, when your hands loosen and droop down his spine as theyâre overcome by fatigue, his arms wrap around you slowly.
Heâs embracing you.
Youâre both hot to touch, skin slick with sweat as your bodies press against each other. Yet, both of you donât find any disgust in this. Instead, itâs replaced by a sense of comfort. The certainty that youâre his Lady, as he is your Lord.
Hello đ Can I read somewhere your smut fanfics with Feyd Rautha?
Hi! I honestly did NOT expect that previous post to blow up, so this is an update to everybody who liked or commented on that previous post (thanks for the encouragement!!!) HOPEFULLY I can finish it over the weekend or even before that to post it on tumblr! And I also do occasionally post on ao3 (@/JacobLover69)
Long story short Iâll try and finish it tonight!
Summary : Thereâs a little tension between you and Phillip, but surely you can avoid it? Not when you get tipsy at your welcome party and share a rather intimate moment, revealing some feelings in question to each other.
Word count : 3.4k
A/N : was about to post this earlier then realised a funny glitch had happened and the whole beginning had been deletedâŠ. So I had to redo it and I PRAY itâs not choppy or anything!! Anyways thank you to everybody who read part 1, I appreciate all of your support and hope this part lives up to your expectations! :))
All morning, your mind seemed to be preoccupied.
You prepare your tea in utter silence, finding peace in the soft clank of utensils on plates while your parents eat at the table. Your shoulders are hunched and your back is to them, which allows a little more privacy to let the events of earlier sink in.
Phillip Graves.
Phillip Graves was on your porch. He teased you.
And you let him.
Youâre busy pouring hot water into your mug, now attempting to recover everything about that meeting that your mind allowed you to.
It was almost horrible how good he looked, prompting you to keep your head low as you approach the table with your mug cupped in your hands.
He was so tall, so broad and so much more handsome. However, now he brandished a scar sliced deeply into his cheekbone from what you saw. It contrasted his tanned skin and stood out among the small nips and marks heâd collected on his skin since seemingly forever.
His hair fit perfectly under his hat, small dirty blond strands peeking from underneath. You felt as if he was teasing you. Look at me now, look at what you missed out on.
You blow on your tea quietly, hiding the fact itâs actually a deep exhale to comprehend the sight you saw this morning.
Leaning against the arch of your porch, he was wearing a red flannel which managed to hug him in all the right places. His broad shoulders were now defined and so were his arms. The plaid flannel pulled up to reveal his strong, muscled forearms wasnât warding you off at all.
Itâs embarrassing that you remember these features from such a short meeting, causing you to raise your mug to your mouth slowly in an attempt to cover the sheepish smile appearing at the memory of how he used to hold you back then. The way his warm hands cupped your face perfectly, as if they were two pieces connecting in a jigsaw puzzle. You now wished you couldâve gotten a better glimpse at them this morning.
âIs something wrong, dear?â Your mother takes notice of your silent routine, which makes you eye her nervously.
âNothing. Just.. Phillip-â
âWhat does that boy want?â Your father interrupts, facing you with an accusatory glare.
âHe said your fencing had arrived, wanted you to pick it up.â You mumble awkwardly, wishing you could sink into your mug of coffee and never return. Itâs barely been a day and the city seems to be calling your name already with open arms.
You wouldâve happily embraced it again, but now youâre here. No regrets, right?
âOh. Alright.â He shrugs, stretching and getting out of his chair.
Alright?
What is going on?
Ten years ago, your father and Phillipâs rivalry seemed to be unmatched. It pretty much was the talk of the town - the love-struck teen and the unmoved father.
You donât respond, draining your mug and sitting there stock still. Thereâs a lot to process this morning.
Like the way Phillip barely looked at you. His eyes only grazing over your face for a split second before directing his attention to his truck or the front door. Itâs a little obvious if you say so.
But you canât help but mourn over the way his gaze would tenderly trace over your figure, how he took his time to memorise any scar or beauty mark somewhere across your body. Heâd always run his thumb over his gently at first, but as the two of you got more comfortable in the relationship he learned how much you loved it when he kissed any of your birthmarks.
You stop yourself; you have a husband, you canât be thinking like this. Youâve moved on.
And clearly Phillip has moved on too. Probably for the better, you reassure yourself. Itâs been 10 years, everyone seemed to have given up on chances of you returning.
Youâre rinsing your cup in the sink when your internal argument seems to be intercepted by your father.
âIâm heading into town to pick up some equipment, would you like to come, dear?â As he finishes his sentence, his warm hand pats your shoulder gently.
You try not to give off any startled reaction to this sudden touch, you donât want your family catching onto your mental battles with the memories flooding back so quickly and harshly into your mind once more.
You watch him for a second, heâs pulling a very hopeful yet playful smile, raising his eyebrows in invitation.
âSure, Pa. Iâll come along.â
He cracks a grin, clapping your shoulder happily before turning away.
âBe dressed by 10!â
Youâre overthinking this.
Theyâre just clothes, you reassure yourself but canât help shrinking from the intimidating way the assorted pieces of garments glare at you from their position on the bed.
It never used to be this difficult, or at least you donât remember it like this. Maybe it was because you were a teenage girl and wore all the cute little dresses and cropped items you could get your hands on. You never used to worry like this.
Probably because of Phillip.
You tense a little at the thought of him again. Yet you do remember how heâd savour every outfit you wore, even if youâd worn it before.
âYou look great, honey.â Heâd whisper to you at some point in the day, his hands comfortably stroking your waist as his eyes would examine every inch of you.
You caught yourself smiling fondly at the memory, but itâs countered by the sudden remembrance of his coldness this morning.
You donât waste any more time, grabbing whatever catches your eye to throw together an ensemble. Itâs not like anyone will care.
The town is sure lively. Youâre trying not to act surprised at the influx of new faces meshed with old ones and little children running around, sharing old traits from former classmates.
Just a reminder of how far youâve seen to have gotten in your marriage with Louis. The only success being his job - youâre just working in his office so he can keep a very inattentive eye on you. You groan and lean back into your seat, trying to shield yourself away from prying eyes that throw cursory glances at your fatherâs large, quite obtrusive car.
Thinking about Louis and the city was enough to completely lower your mood, including the past memories and flickers of Deja vu when one of your senses encounters something vaguely familiar. Itâs like a magic spell of some sort, fleshing out your life 10 years ago and how it may have affected you if youâd stayed.
The car reverses into a parking spot and you hear the thud of the drivers door slamming shut.
âSweetie, hop out. Iâm sure uncle Jimmy will be shocked to see you.â He adds, grinning and patting the car firmly. It seems playful but in reality itâs a bit of a threat.
You slip out hesitantly, allowing the beams of the full sun to encase your body with warmth as well as the now very noticeable sounds and voices flowing around you.
Itâs so much quieter than the city yet very distinct, while on your painfully slow journey to the entrance of the shop you overhear someone reciting their shopping list, gossip between two old ladies and complaints about the weather.
This all leaves your mind the minute the shop bell rings as you push open the door.
âFinally, what took you so long?â Itâs a rhetorical question. Your father stands by the counter expectantly, looking eagerly to you then to Jimmy at the counter.
Heâs not really your uncle, just a saying.
Just a neighbour who used to bring his daughter around, then stopped frequenting after an âincidentâ broke out at your school and realised it would be a hazard to bring the bratty 13-year-old over again.
Heâs not a bad guy, you reassure yourself. Sauntering up to the counter with a smile across your face, he returns it and chuckles at the sight of you.
âYouâre all grown up now! I remember when you were just a small thing, hon.â He gestures with his hand, amusement clearly visible on his face at this ârare sightingâ of the girl who finally came back.
The city mouse becoming the country mouse she used to be.
âJust what I said! Sheâs all big and successful in the city, you see, Jim? Even married too!â He exclaims.
Your dad has a habit of doing this, which youâve grown used to - showing off in front of any other middle aged man. Maybe theyâre competition? Who knows.
Youâre smiling very calmly, nodding and chuckling lightly just to ease the time and escape from this conversation. The words only begin to sink in once you hear a very specific sentence. More like a word.
A name.
âYeah, howâs your nephew Phil doing? He an errand boy now? Came round this morning to tell me about those fences.â
âOh yeah, heâs doing just fine. Pretty damn skilled too, if you need some help with those fences Iâll send him over later.â
You almost freeze.
You canât interact with him more than once today. You need a break from his painfully pretty face, silky smooth voice, breathtaking blue eyes-
âNo need for a later, Jim, Iâm right here.â
Itâs coming from behind you.
No time to shrink or hide, but that would be futile anyways. Itâs almost silly how worked up youâre getting.
âSpeak of the devil, Phillip. Sorry I missed you this morning.â Your dad turns and greets him happily, you can hear the clap as their hands collide into a hearty handshake.
You also turn to face him, forcing a smile as his gaze lingered on you.
âNice to see you back in town, Y/N.â He comments, his hands drifting to hold onto his belt rather than shaking your hand. Or touching you at all.
You think itâs because of the tension, the unresolved problems left behind 10 years ago that are apparently prevalent now still as you canât seem to look at him for too long.
From the way his hand tightens around his belt loop, heâs feeling similar to you.
âPhillip? You mind coming round sometime to help an old man out?â Your dad interrupts this strangely intense moment, as Philipâs face seems to ease to his usual soft smile and attentive manner.
âSure can do. But I donât want to interrupt that party youâre having later with the neighbourhood.â He adds, probably an attempt to weasel out of seeing you again today.
âNonsense! Youâre practically family so donât give me any excuses, just get your ass over there.â
And with that, your father lets out a hearty laugh and claps a hand on your shoulder. You try not to look as winded as you are from the utter force he exudes.
âIâll see you soon then. Tom. Y/N.â He addresses the two of you with a fairly civil tone, but itâs hardened at the edges.
He walks out and you desperately drag your wandering eyes away from his form fitting flannel and jeans.
The party is civil.
Thatâs all you can say about it, because thereâs not much else to really pay attention to other than the small, seemingly riveting conversations everybody seems to be having apart from you.
Obviously people come and ask how youâre doing and what your current life goals are, but you just throw out a few repeated phrases youâve found reassures them the best from the masses of people who flocked to you when walking around town earlier with your father.
Itâs not exhausting, but more nerve-wracking. Not everyone wants to see anybody apart from their own family achieving something more in their lives. At least, thatâs what you look like to them.
Youâre just tired.
So, so tired.
Youâre observing the overall party from a swing in the backyard. Your dress delicately spread across the seat and hanging off of the seat a little. Itâs a bright pink, which your mother insisted didnât âwash you outâ whatsoever and was the perfect choice for a party.
That is if youâre attending a five year oldâs tea party. Which you would rather.
Kids donât tut at you when you explain your job to them, neither do they spout vaguely critical comments when they believe you arenât listening.
âItâs nice to see her back after so long, donât you think?â
âOh yes, sheâs definitely⊠blossomed⊠into that beauty of hers.â
âExactly!â
You can only sit and watch, unbothered at this rate. Youâre married and have your life together; people just want to pick at anything they can.
Everything seems to change when the familiar honk of a horn rings from the front of the house. Youâre practically leaning out of your chair completely to catch a quick glimpse.
However, you instantly relax once more as your father comes into the backyard accompanied by Philip Graves.
White button up, soft blue blazer thrown on lazily and jeans. You donât want to linger on him, itâs not right. Itâs not fair.
So you get up and do something about it.
You stumble out of your chair, walking down to where everybody seemed to be congregating and looked around for the bowl of your motherâs special punch.
Maybe if you drowned yourself in punch it would avoid having to look at his pretty face. His infuriatingly beautiful face.
Your movements begin as careful, long pours of punch with the ladle into your glass as you throw around polite smiles and chatter. As you refill your glass more and more, the familiar sound of punch swishing in the cup begins to ring in your head. And so do the conversations around you.
You donât know how long youâve been idly sipping punch for, but itâs enough time to let the effects of the rather strong beverages -mixed in by your mother- take effect.
You forget that youâre a grown adult now who probably shouldnât be drinking like a party girl on a weekend. But that thought slips out of your head too quickly to develop into rational feelings, so you just laugh it off and sloppily place the glass on whatever stable surface is the nearest to you.
Wandering through the groups of people, sometimes barging past and almost tripping headfirst into the grass or just walking right in the middle of a conversation just for the convenience of it.
At this rate itâs only to justify why your head feels like itâs melting. God, what was in that punch? Itâs not like youâre the biggest lightweight on Earth, but itâs been awhile since youâve drank that hard in such a short period of time.
At least, thatâs what you realise looking back on the situation.
Right now youâre just trying to get back to your seat. Solace away from all the faces you keep bumping into. Somewhere that isnât spinning, and spinning and spinning.
And spinning.
You slump back into your chair, utterly drained from the strenuous journey of climbing three steps while drunk. Itâs such a huge achievement that you smile to yourself, satisfied with your efforts.
Youâre busy taking a moment for this newfound quiet to settle into your raving brain when a blur of blue and brown seems to appear in the corner of your eye.
âHereâs the girl of the hour.â Heâs suddenly next to you, leaning against the wall of the house with his arms crossed over his chest.
Now that heâs here, youâve been dying to get a better glimpse at his muscles than this morning.
You only smile passively at him, letting the words flow into one ear and out of the other as your eyes are now fixated on his strong arms.
Phillip isnât offended by your lack of response, more so concerned at the blankness in your expression.
âSugar? You alright thereâŠ?â He questions, a little amused at your wide eyed, careful examination of his muscles.
Without thinking - which you seem a little bad at doing right now - your hand reaches out and your fingertips glide over his bicep. Itâs solid, sturdy and hugs against his blazer in a flattering way.
Now youâre smiling even harder, fondly remembering how heâd carry you home when you were too tired to walk after a date. Or his joy when youâd run to him and heâd instantly wrap his arms around you and spin, your dress would almost float.
You donât know why these memories seem to flood back at this very moment, but it furthers this euphoric state that youâre slowly slipping into.
âRemember when you used to hold me like a princess?â You murmur, looking up at him with a tenderness evident in your gaze.
He attempts to hide the way his eyes widened at your question, or how heâs beginning to falter or look away. Youâre not very aware of it in that moment - but it haunts you afterwards.
âI do. Because you were. Are.â He adds, almost firmly as his hand moves to yours and his fingers brush against your knuckles. Itâs funny how he seems to instinctively slow his movements purposefully just so heâs gentle with you, as if you were a doll.
âIâm not.. Iâm not a little girl anymore..â you sigh, accepting his fingers intertwining with yours now. His rough, calloused fingers that always seemed to soften in your grasp. The hands that always seemed tense or even clenched in fists most of the time, but were always laid out for you to touch to your liking as your relationship progressed.
He doesnât initially notice something nudging on his fingers, but glances down at your hands out of curiosity.
Thereâs two rings on your hand. One on your ring finger and another on your middle; itâs easy to tell which one was made by a lovestruck boy professing his dedication to a high-school sweetheart, whereas the other is flashy, decorative and unthought of. It didnât strike him as something you used to wear, especially when it clashed with the other ring. His ring.
The ring he saved up for and pleaded for ever so desperately as he handed over his wages to his uncle, asking him for advice on what to make for his girlfriend at the time.
But that didnât seem to matter anymore. Not when this ring was clearly an engagement ring.
I was planning to come here when I got married, the statement rings in his mind.
âI know. Youâre a big girl now, hm?â He chuckles dryly, using humour to cope with the fact youâre touching him. Even after your tense conversation this morning; the conversation that mostly consisted of him speaking and you watching, mouth agape as if youâd just seen a ghost.
He thought heâd been dead to you anyways, especially with your sudden disappearance and lack of communication. Was he that insignificant?
Clearly not, he interrupts his doubts. Clearly not when youâre touching him the exact same way you did like 10 years havenât passed and you werenât already taken by some lucky bastard. Engaged. Basically married at this rate if heâs lucky.
His hand slips out of your grasp seamlessly. Deep down heâs berating himself, practically begging himself to hug you, hold you, kiss you so hard his lips bruise and he cannot possibly breathe anymore.
But he doesnât do any of these things.
Youâre looking up at him plainly, waiting for his next move. Thereâs no animosity or embarrassment clouding your face like the way it was in his uncleâs shop or your front porch.
Itâs just you.
The dreamy, doll-like girl heâd happily mapped out his future with while she listened attentively, chirping in her thoughts about what she wanted to do in the future alongside him.
âSorry, sugar. Iâve got to go to work now.â He whispers, turning away and walking off again. Walking away from the one thing he craves. Heâd lost his chance, so what was the point?
He may as well just watch you succeed from afar, living a life that doesnât involve a country bumpkin from her past ruining her plans.
His footsteps become a little forceful, digging into the dirt and kicking any little stones out of his way.
God, he probably looked so stupid.
He drives off without another word, leaving you a little dazed as you lay back into your chair. You donât want to even try to think about what just happened, so you just sit there for what feels like forever until people begin to disperse.
Slowly but surely, the crowd grows smaller and smaller and the minute everybody is gone, you run up to your room.
You run as quickly as you can, not waiting to hear your parentsâ questions or concerns. This was all a mistake.