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I am not sure if I should keep posting on tumblr. 

To anyone who reads this, I hope you have a nice day. 

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Today was nice.

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Took a leave of absence from work so I can find remote work. I have been applying everywhere and I’m taking assessments to see if I can pass and be proficient. I really want to be close to Dan since he’s moving up north soon and working from home will give me more time to be flexible so I can see him more, I can finish my associates, transfer to a different school, run, take more photos, and maybe even pursue modeling. If things don’t work out, I am considering moving to China or Russia. It would be a nice fresh start. I could learn a different language and also teach English. It would be a different world and I would be excited to experience it.

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I’m trying to leave my job and look for other places for work. I can’t be there anymore. I want to work full time but something less strenuous and physically demanding. I just want to be with Dan. I’m also considering leaving the country and moving to China or Russia. I don’t know what to do.

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Update:

(The email account has been deleted)

My old Facebook email has been hacked. That’s great and I have no access to it because it’s tied to my old phone number. Someone is ordering stuff under that account. I can’t change the password. It won’t let me.

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Nothing but moldy blueberries where I’m volunteering. Make sure to eat blueberries. Not moldy ones, though.

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I’m just realizing on my pay stubs that it says I am still married which is not true I have my divorce decree. I’m only noticing this now. Every time I’ve filed for taxes I’ve filed single since my divorce.

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There is a possibility of me moving to nyc sometime soon! I think I may have found a place. I’m going to start selling all my stuff. I can’t bring it all with me. If this doesn’t work out then my next plan is moving to China or Russia. I don’t know if I want to be here anymore. I just want to start new but I want to with Dan.

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I had an amazing Valentine’s Day with Dan. ❤️ he’s the best thing to ever happen to me.

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Photo creds to my man. ☺️

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Dan and I went to the park on Saturday and it was really nice. We took photos together and he took some of me and I took some of him. He says he doesn’t want photos of us together shared until later only because I think his family might not approve of me, yet but he did show his aunt a picture of me and she says I seem nice so that makes me happy.

I want to leave my apartment when the lease ends and find roommates again so I can work less hours and focus more on school and running. Id love to move in with Dan by the end of my lease but I don’t think he can do that. He said he might be able to so I’m crossing my fingers. I would love to live with him if things work out between us. I know it takes time for this type of stuff. To truly know someone and see if we’re compatible even after the honeymoon phase and this is the only healthy relationship I’ve ever been in. He’s really special to me and I can honestly see myself with him for the rest of my life. He’s really sweet and handsome. I feel like I’m so lucky to finally have someone like him in my life. I’m in love with him. And I can’t wait to spend Valentine’s Day with him tonight. ❤️

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If it wasn’t for Dan, I think I would still be lost with no direction in mind. I’m blessed to know him. Even when he stays the night, I sleep better. I hope he knows how important he really means to me. <3

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Update: 1.3

(my covid test came out negative)

I emailed the volunteer coordinator to let him know that within the past two weeks I might have been exposed to someone with covid from work. I have an extra self test kit that I’ll use later tonight. And I’m working on my last name change. I’m a bit overwhelmed but I really want to build my resume/ portfolio and work somewhere else. I want to be a model and I want to pursue my running goals. I want to have a healthy work/life balance.

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I ran 22 miles this week and I plan on maintaining that for awhile. I would like to start joining some races this year. I really wish I could go to school full-time, too. I’m trying hard because I never really was given the opportunity so I have to give it to myself. And Dan has been my biggest help with everything. :’)

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Dan is the best thing to ever happen to me. I’m going to go to school and finish my degree. I really want a chance to make my life better. I’m blessed to know him. I just want the best for me and for him and I want to be his equal. I want to love him without financial dependency.

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Neuschwanstein Castle (Germany)