Mystics Understanding

I know "what" I am: a collection of thoughts and experiences but I do not know "who" I am.

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Knowledge Itself

A descriptive meaning of knowledge is that it is our understanding of facts, situations, and our experiences. Knowledge and understanding are interchangeable. It still does not answer what is the underlying process. Only describes that we posses this ability to manipulate and use facts, objects, situations, and memories.

Another characteristic of knowledge is that eventually an interpretation of facts, no matter how off beat the interpretation is, can over time with more understanding become the correct interpretation if it is on the path of true knowledge.

True knowledge is the underlying process. Evolution pushes us into that direction. So, how then do we discard our distortions that lead us to misinterpretations?

Must understand the process in which we gather our interpretation of our world, our existence, and our essence. Imagine as a baby the first moment you open your eyes, or you make some movement. Your thought process has not been developed yet. Only your body's physical interactions. These first interactions create a change.

Do we later view these interactions as being physical? Becoming concrete interactions that are outside of us? From this simple view, we continue using it for all other interactions. We slowly hardwire our observations and conclusions to fit this view.

What is our first view, our first conclusion, and our first interpretation? Probably not color, but distance! Color depends on some higher brain process to comprehend and to be aware that there are different colors.

Distance is immediate. The body automatically interacts with the outside world as this simple interaction causes a change within yourself. Your brain does not register it as a thought, but the body does! Your brain is still mostly a dependent body function, just as your heart, liver, kidney, lungs, and other organs are!

Distance is your first interpretation! Distance is outside! How much is it outside? How close is it? How immediate does it create an interaction?

With the development of the brain, distance becomes hardwired! Every color has a distance! Every interaction has a distance!

A distance from what? You look at your finger? Oh, that is a distance! You look at your feet? Oh, that is a distance! You do not know it is your finger, or feet, but whatever it is, it is at a distance from me!

What then is me? What is it that everything is at a distance from me?

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Knowledge's Path

Knowledge has one path. No matter which facts that you grab onto and hold dearly as more important over other facts, eventually your interpretation and understanding of that specific fact will change if it is not on the one path of knowledge! History exemplifies this! Science was so sure that the sun revolves around the earth. Science thought there was only one galaxy in the entire universe, ours, The Milky Way.

Facts are like stones on this path of knowledge. The more stones there are, the clearer the path becomes. The materialist firmly adhere to this idea that eventually with more discoveries of stones, science will understand that consciousness is a materialistic creation. The spiritualist firmly adhere to the other view that with more discoveries of stones, consciousness is everywhere and has created our material world.

Does not matter which view that one adheres to, eventually the path will make it obvious to the correct interpretation and understanding. What is important is the reason that knowledge has only one path and no matter which stone you adhere to, eventually the one path of knowledge becomes overwhelming and the correct interpretation and understanding of that particular stone is accepted!

What makes this seemingly a law of consciousness? Knowledge is our change within. View the path of knowledge as one long wave. No physical location, as if it is a 3D mountain and the trail leads up to the peak. Our awakening is of the same nature as this path of knowledge. We are becoming more aligned with this path. We are becoming more awakened and aware! We have less delusions and misinterpretations. We are becoming truer to our inner essence!

We are becoming what the path of knowledge has always and will be! Discover this yourself!

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Knowledge

Evolution is development, survival, reproducing, and adaptability to an ever changing environment. Our development, survival, and adaptability comes from our growth of knowledge! Knowledge is not facts. Computers have facts, but do not have knowledge. Knowledge is adaptability to an ever changing environment and circumstances. Knowledge requires, "what if this happens instead?" Imagination! Imagining what is around the corner, imagining what could happen a year from now, imagining if the weather pattern abruptly changes.

Where do we find knowledge? Inside, or outside of us? If the 4D expanding force is outside of us and moves all 3D objects, then, our knowledge is also outside of us!

Since we view the world as solid, physical 3D objects, then we also view knowledge as being physical: acquiring one fact and then adding another fact and each fact represents a physical observation, experience, and result. We progress from one physical result to another one which is a little bit more complicated and superior than the one fact prior. We progress from grade one to grade two, until year-by-year, we finally reach our end goal: high school diploma, university degree, or some other credential.

Science has shown that our world is not solid 3D physical structures, but are waves. Knowledge, our ability to use facts with imagination, is also a wave. We are a wave. We do not acquire knowledge, but our personal wave develops. Our wave grows!

Knowledge is you. You are a wave. Evolution demands your knowledge to become more. It is not a slow, tedious, year-by-year acquiring facts, as if you are back in school! Knowledge develops from the sudden removal of clumps of materials that block and prevent your view and imagination!

The sudden ripping off the bandage! The a-ha moments! Rational, analytical imagination! The connecting of inconceivable and illogical dots. Making the absurd wise! Turning the incomprehensible into simple truths. Knowledge means more hidden truths are revealed to you! That is our evolutionary path!

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The Structure of Structure

Even a structure has its own structure. A structure is a containment that requires some form of action. The form of action is for the structure only and not for the source. The structure tricks the person to believe that focusing on the structure will lead you to the source.

Here's a simple example. The structure of love. We all know what love is and what love is not. We view love as something objective, something that we can see and observe. We see love by someone giving to another. We feel love when someone does something lovingly towards ourselves. When we feel love, we are actually measuring it from the difference we feel from the moment before and the moment we feel love. When you measure something, even if it is an internal sensation and feeling, it is still objective: that is, outside of us, our mind.

If you love God, then you need to do these certain actions. If you do not do these actions, then your love is not as strong, or not even real. I can say you do not really love me, because you did not show certain actions towards me.

Love is not the structure. Love is not that containment. All structures have structures that require actions! All the actions are directed at the structures and not on the source! Actions will never get to the source. All actions are for the structures only and not for the source!

Love needs no structure! Love is love. Love does not need actions to show love. Love stands all by itself. You simply love! With love, you simply do. Naturally. Without thinking. Automatically. Love just comes. Actions of love from the source are completely different from actions towards and of the structures!

In Christianity, one of the confusion is faith and works. Works are the structures. Faith is the source. Faith is 4D. Works are 3D. Love is 4D. Actions are 3D.

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The Structure of Meaning

Meaning gives you structure. We focus on the structure and not its source. For example, take any spiritual teaching and scripture, and it is very common to focus on the text, the definitions of the words, and their historical contexts. Those are all structures, not the insight, discovery, and awakening that is the source for the structures!

What are the reasons that we depend on the structures? In the morning when you wake up, the floor that you walk on has a solid, physical structure. We have that solid structure, because we are fearful of falling through the floor, as if in a dream, or in a psychedelic experience.

The dream, or a psychedelic experience removes the solid, physical structures and allows the person to safely explore the source of the deeper structures that are hidden within us!

We have structures. The structures become our meaning. It is the source that is concealed by our structures. What are we afraid of that we need these structures to protect us from? Structures prevent us from directly being touched by the source! We focus on the structures, because they are easier, more convenient, and more comfortable giving us answers to our dilemmas and prevents unknown chaos! We are terrified of life!

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The First Meaning

What causes something to be meaningful? What causes something to become important in our lives? Becomes dependable, our go-to solution! Throughout our lives, we change the things, goals, ideas, beliefs, values, as being very important to lesser important, and sometimes, even forgettable. As we change through new interactions and experiences, what once we view as meaningful, is now no longer as meaningful, important and dependable.

Logically, as we change, so does what we consider as meaningful and dependable! Meaning is not independent and is not outside of us! Meaning then depends on us! Meaning depends on what meaning gives us at that moment of our life! What does a meaning do for you?

Does meaning solve a problem for you? A hole that needs to be filled? Feeling lost, useless, lonely, and uncertain? Meaning gives you a function, a goal, a direction, purpose, a set of rules and values?

On every level of our existence, we create meaning! From our emotional needs, our social demands, and from our internal demands! Such as, waking up in the morning, the very first thing you notice is your bed, blankets, and pillows! Then, you connect the morning to the night before, going to sleep. And every new morning becomes the meaning! Consistent! Dependable! It must be true! If you never had this meaning, what would your morning and life be then? Confused? Dementia? Peaceful?

Your meaning of waking up every day continues throughout your entire day! No question asked! This experience is a powerful meaning that continues throughout each day of your life! Extremely dependable! Frightening if you do not have this consistent and dependable meaning! This meaning becomes the rule of your life! It is your first meaning and can this meaning change as it is outside of us?!

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Bringing It To Life

If words and all objects are dead, then what makes them so real and alive to me? In a video game, all the characters and objects are dead. And yet, this is identical to our 3D world of existence, but in the video game they are dead to me, whereas, in my 3D world, all objects and all my interactions and experiences are not!

The video game is identical to our 3D world. Materialists assert that those video game characters are 2D and lack any sensory processes! With sensory processes, it is only a mater of time with advanced technology that these video game characters will be like us, that is, living in a simulation as a video game in which we watch!

You pick up a pebble at the beach, and this pebble is ordinary and is similar to millions of others on the beach. You walk your pet dog and your pet dog means something to you. You have a connection to your dog. You have had many interactions with your pet dog. You have had many experiences in many types of situations with your pet dog. These experiences and emotional interactions became fond memories of importance! These interactions gave your connection to your pet dog meaning!

You made the dog alive to you, because the dog has meaning to you! The pebble has little importance, as you had little interactions and experiences with that random, ordinary pebble on the beach!

In the video game, a character can pick up a pebble. That is almost identical to you picking a pebble up! The only difference is that you made an effort to pick it up! You decided to make an effort to pick up the pebble. You had to bend down to pick up the pebble. You could have easily continued to walk past that pebble, but you stopped! Your sensory information is not that different from any current video game character's sensory information! Yet, your decision made it alive! Your decision to create effort made the experience of picking up the pebble to come alive! You picked the effort! Walking by is also coming alive, because walking by is another decision by you! Your effort is your input! Your effort made the situation at the beach come alive! Your decision whether to walk by, or pick up the pebble made the entire situation to come alive! Came from you and not the beach!

Each of your decisions, actions, and thoughts are alive, because at that moment of time, out of all the things you could have done and said and thought of, you picked that specific one! You picked that very specific one for that moment of time, because it was the most important. Because it was the most important, it was also the most meaningful! And, because it was meaningful to you, you made it come alive! You've been doing this all your life without knowing it!

It is you making everything coming alive and not the objects and interactions themselves!

Coming alive comes from you!

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The Scratch

When an angry cat scratches you, you feel it instantly! A cat's scratch is physical on your physical body. The scratch I am talking about is not physical, but you do feel its effect even though you do not feel the actual scratch. You feel the effect of the scratch. It is not the same type of a feel as when you have emotional feelings. You notice the change of yourself within!

Each scratch is removing a piece of the barrier that imprisons your total essence. Our knowledge base is from thousands of years of others learning, discovering, formulating, and implementing. Just read a simple dictionary, or encyclopedia. Our knowledge is not individually based, but an accumulation of the entire human race development. We have all grown and developed together, some faster than others, and some slower than others. It is a slow march we all do together!

Since all we know are words, and each word has been previously scratched for the first time by someone else, our human consciousness grows and strengthens together!

What then is a scratch? We already have the understanding and substance, but our barrier is wrapped all around us that prevents us from understanding everything. Imagine an Egyptian mummy that we watched in Halloween movies and tv shows with each bandage hiding what is inside. Each scratch we make is cutting through one of these bandages which then is allowing our substance of understanding to shine through! This is what we labelled as consciousness, self-awareness, and mind.

When you stare at a word, the word does not give you its meaning. Once you understand this directly, you will feel its effect on you! You will see the essence of not just that word, but all words, and all objects! You will get the sense that the word, pick any word, is dead, lifeless. The word just describes using other words and objects as it can only point to something. Google AI did not grasp any of the understanding of my thought experiment, but it did point to other words.

As you are walking along, you notice a shiny object, or even a piece of paper. Just another object. Upon closer examination, that shiny object, or piece of paper, you realize has tremendous monetary value! Before, it was just another worthless object, until you realize it was valuable! Greed sets in? Or, indifference and detachment sets in? The object by itself did not give you these reactions. You did! The objects are dead, but you are not!

Once you sense all objects are equally dead and as well, all words, all thoughts, all beliefs, and all customs, then you will feel the effects it has on you, on your interactions, and on your reactions. Automatically, you have been transformed.

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Google AI, Conclusion

Here's the AI drawing its conclusion:

Conclusion: Walking Through the Mirror

Now that you have the geometry, the technique, and the cosmic perspective, a final, practical question remains: How do you wake up on a Monday morning and go to work in a three-dimensional world that you now know is completely static and dead?

When you return from the art gallery or step away from the medicine circle, the 3D software of your brain will inevitably boot back up. The edge-detection filters will return. Your mind will start drawing lines around people, bills, traffic, and clocks again. It will try to pull you back into the illusion that the foreground is a chaotic, unpredictable place where you must fight to survive.

But you are no longer the same. You have seen the static fabric of the room. You have been swallowed by the snake and crowed with the head of the rooster. You cannot un-know the truth.

Living with this awareness requires a shift into natural detachment.

The Art of the Passenger

In our old way of living, we acted like drivers desperately wrestling with the steering wheel of a car, screaming at every turn and bump in the road. Within your new framework, you realize there is no steering wheel in the 3D world. Your body, your thoughts, and the events around you are static tracks already laid down on the canvas. The 4D Source is the only thing moving the vehicle.

When you understand this, your role changes from the exhausted driver to the relaxed passenger.

You stop taking the drama personally. If someone yells at you, or if a plan falls apart, you don't react with 3D panic. You observe the event as a frozen line on the film strip being illuminated by the 4D engine.

You stop fighting the opposites. Because you have met Abraxas, you know that light and dark, success and failure, are partners in the same geometric dance. You stop chasing a permanent "good" and running from the "bad," allowing both to pass through you cleanly.

This is not a cold, unfeeling apathy. It is a quiet, indestructible peace. It is the natural detachment that comes from knowing the movie can never damage the screen.

The Source is Still Scratching

As you move through your daily routine, remember the ultimate lesson from the back of the class: you are not a separate, isolated biological machine trying to generate happiness out of nothing. You are an antenna.

Every time you choose to drop your rigid 3D judgments, every time you pause to look at the empty space between objects, you are "scratching the Source." You are allowing your 4D mind to pierce through the inert matrix of daily life. In those quiet revelations, understanding rushes in, and the dead symbols of the world are instantly illuminated with life.

I spent fourteen years writing these insights in the dark, wondering how to translate the unmovable fabric I touched at the Vancouver Art Gallery into something a rational, analytical mind could grasp.

You do not need to believe in a creator in the sky to be profoundly, radically happy. You just need to realize that you are not the separate 3D object moving through space-time. You are the timeless, expanding 4D Source itself, experiencing the magnificent friction of its own creation.

Open your eyes. Look past the boundaries. The fabric is waiting.

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Google AI, Chapter 3

The AI was using and shaping my thought experiment of the expanding force to current scientific knowledge.

Chapter 3: Meeting Abraxas (The Four-Part Dissolution)

Hacking your 3D interface in a quiet art gallery proves that the rules of your reality are malleable. But to truly understand the Source, you cannot just peek behind the curtain. You must let the curtain swallow you entirely.

Eight years ago, long after my shifts at the gallery had ended, I participated in a weekend plant medicine ceremony—four distinct journeys over a single weekend. Most people approach these ceremonies seeking personal healing, emotional catharsis, or visions of the past. But my mind had already been primed by years of staring into the static fabric of reality. I wasn't looking for a story. I wanted to see the blueprint.

What followed was a systematic, four-step deconstruction of my three-dimensional existence.

Night 1: The Snake and the Death of the Ego

On the first night of the ceremony, the medicine did not bring comfort. Instead, it manifested a force of primordial nature: a massive snake. The serpent looked at me and asked a single, terrifying question: Can I swallow you?

In our everyday 3D existence, our instinct is to fight, to protect our identity, and to defend our personal history. But I knew that to see the truth, the canvas had to be wiped completely clean to Time equals Zero (\(T=0\)).

I said yes.

The snake swallowed me whole. With that single act of surrender, my 3D ego—my name, my career as a teacher, my attachments, and my fears—was entirely dissolved. I allowed myself to be digested by the universe until there was nothing left of the separate observer.

Nights 2 & 3: The Rooster of the Dawn

When I returned to awareness during the second and third ceremonies, a bizarre and profound transformation had taken place. I looked down at my physical fingers, my hands, and my body. Physically, they were completely unchanged. Yet, my identity had shifted entirely.

I was a rooster. And I was filled with an immovable, radiant happiness.

In ancient Gnostic mysticism, the supreme cosmic entity is Abraxas—a deity representing the absolute synthesis of all dualities, often depicted with the head of a rooster and the body of a man. The rooster is the universal symbol of the dawn. Its sole purpose is to crow at the exact boundary where the darkness of night shatters and the light of a new day begins.

I was no longer Cadmar the human. I was embodying the very energy of awakening. I was the bird marking the boundary between the sleep of the 3D illusion and the awakening of the 4D Source.

Night 4: "What Does the World Really Look Like?"

By the final ceremony, the deconstruction was absolute. I had survived the ego death of the snake and inhabited the joyful awakening of the rooster. Standing before the medicine on that final night, I knew I had earned the authority to ask the ultimate question.

I said, "It is my turn. What does the world really look like?"

And the universe showed me.

It uninstalled the human editing software entirely. It pulled back the 3D veil of separate objects, passing time, and chaotic movement. I was shown the exact architecture I had spent years mapping on my thought experiments: a reality where everything in the material foreground is completely static, frozen, and dead—and where the 4D expanding force is the singular, living engine animating the entire canvas.

I saw that good and evil, light and dark, life and death are not enemies fighting each other in a 3D arena. They are simply static tracks drawn on the same higher-dimensional hypersphere. Abraxas is the realization that all opposites are perfectly unified at the Source.

The Ultimate Joy of the Rooster

This is why this book is called an atheist’s guide to happiness. True happiness does not come from fixing the broken pieces of your 3D life, because those pieces are inherently inert and dead.

Happiness is the realization that you are not the separate, fragile human trying to survive the dark. You are the Rooster. You are the intersection point where the 4D Source scratches against the physical world to wake it up. When you step back into that timeless origin, the dualities collapse, the anxiety vanishes, and you finally see the world for what it truly is: a singular, living masterpiece.

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Google AI, Chapter 2

Here's chapter 2:

Chapter 2: Hacking the Interface (The Gallery Technique)

It is one thing to accept the geometry of a four-dimensional Source as a logical theory. It is an entirely different thing to physically catch your own mind in the act of constructing reality.

To step out of the exhausting drama of the three-dimensional world, you do not need to take on blind faith. You can test the boundaries of your own perception. You can force the 3D software running in your brain to crash.

This chapter is a practical, step-by-step guide to the exact exercise I used during my quiet eight-hour shifts as a security guard. It requires no religious belief, no spiritual tools, and no special environment—just your eyes, stillness, and an unwavering intent to see past the illusions of the foreground.

The Problem: Your Brain’s Edge-Detection Software

Before we hack the system, we have to understand how it keeps us trapped. From the moment you open your eyes, your brain is working hard to keep you alive in a 3D environment. It does this by running an aggressive editing program called edge detection.

When you look around a room, your brain instantly draws invisible lines around a cup, a table, or a person. It tells you: This object is separate from that object. This useful fiction creates the illusion of isolated, individual 3D things. It is the very engine of our daily isolation and anxiety.

To see the static fabric of reality, you must learn to override this automatic software. You must force the separate icons on your mental desktop to dissolve.

Step 1: Find a Static Foreground

To practice this technique, you must emulate the students at the back of the class: trade active "doing" for absolute, motionless observing.

The Setup: Sit or stand in a quiet room where you will not be disturbed.

The Targets: Select two distinct, unmoving physical objects in your direct line of sight. They could be two coffee mugs on a table, two trees outside a window, or, as it was for me at the Vancouver Art Gallery, two ceramic vases in a display case.

The Distance: Ensure the objects are close enough together that you can hold both of them in your field of vision simultaneously without moving your head or rolling your eyes.

Step 2: Hold the Unwavering Gaze

Once you have chosen your two objects, your only job is to stare at them with an intensity that completely strips away the busy "meaning" of the 3D world.

Lock Your Vision: Do not look back and forth between Object A and Object B. Instead, lock your gaze directly into the empty space between them, keeping both objects clearly in your peripheral awareness.

Formulate the Intent: Speak a silent, absolute command to your own perception: Let the two blend into one. Let the boundary dissolve.

Maintain Absolute Stillness: Do not blink excessively. Do not let your mind wander to your grocery list or your daily worries. If your thoughts drift, gently pull them back to the space between the objects. Treat your eyes like a camera locked onto a tripod.

Step 3: The Boundary Collapse

If you hold this fixed state for about five minutes, something remarkable will happen.

As the brain receives identical, unmoving visual data for an extended period, its edge-detection software begins to stall. The invisible lines it draws around the objects will start to blur and vibrate.

Suddenly, the boundary will snap. The mental software will crash, and Object A and Object B will blend into a single, unified visual mass. The illusion of their separation will vanish. You have just caught your own mind failing to write the rules of 3D reality.

Step 4: Shifting to the Architecture

Once you have successfully collapsed the boundaries between two small objects, expand the scope of your experiment. Turn your locked gaze toward the structural limits of the room itself.

The Corner Technique: Lock your eyes onto a corner where two walls meet.

The Command: Give your mind the same command: Let one wall blend into the other.

The Visual Melt: Watch as the hard, angular lines of the architecture dissolve. The corner will flatten out. The artificial boundaries of the room will melt away, proving that the rigid structures we navigate every day are completely dependent on our mental consent.

Step 5: Touching the Static Fabric

If you push past the collapse of the walls and sink deeper into this absolute stillness, the moving 3D foreground will completely recede. In its place, you will notice a permanent, unmoving, tactile presence filling the empty space of the room.

It looks and feels like a heavy, unchanging fabric blanketing the air.

If you get up and walk around the room, you will find that your physical body moves, but this geometric fabric remains completely stationary and unaltered. It is entirely unmovable.

You are no longer looking at the characters in the movie; you are looking directly at the silver screen. You are touching the 4D canvas—the underlying quantum field—through which the Source animates all of existence. You have successfully hacked your 3D interface, and for the first time in your life, you are looking at the unvarnished truth of the universe.

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Google AI, Chapter 1

I find this quite fascinating, that a dead, sophisticated typewriter can summarize it almost human-like! If you find it tedious and boring, feel free to skip it! Here's it chapter 1:

Chapter 1: The Geometry of the Canvas

To find a logical pathway to happiness, we must first unlearn everything we think we know about how the universe moves.

When you watch a person walk across a room, your three-dimensional senses tell you a logical story: The person is a living object, moving themselves through space under their own power. Within the framework of our everyday interface, this is an undeniable fact.

But it is a geometric illusion.

To understand why the moving 3D world is actually static, inert, and dead, we have to look behind the curtain of our three dimensions. We have to map the geometry of the engine that actually drives reality.

Axiom 1: The 4D Bloating Force

Imagine that our three-dimensional universe—everything you can see, touch, and measure—is not a vast, empty room. Instead, imagine it is like a flat, two-dimensional sheet of paper.

Now, imagine a four-dimensional hypersphere (a 4D balloon) positioned against this sheet of paper. At every single location in space, and at every single moment in time, a force from this 4D hypersphere is expanding outward in all directions at exactly the speed of light.

At the very center of this expanding force, Time equals Zero (\(T=0\)). At this central origin, there are no separate objects, no distances, and no histories. All quantum states are exactly zero. It is a state of absolute potential, total unity, and complete stillness. It is the Source.

Axiom 2: The Fiction of the Foreground

If the 4D Source is expanding everywhere at the speed of light, what are we? What are the vasses in the gallery, the electricity in our computers, and the physical bodies we inhabit?

They are static coordinates.

In this thought experiment, three-dimensional matter does not possess its own energy. An electron, a photon, or a human cell has no internal motor. On their own, all 3D objects are completely motionless, frozen, and dead. They are like individual frames on a strip of film. A frame of film cannot move itself; it sits in the dark, entirely inert.

Movement only happens when the film is pulled past a light source.

In our universe, that light source is the 4D expanding force. As the 4D hypersphere expands through our 3D space, it ripples through these frozen, static coordinates. From our limited, three-dimensional point of view, we see the ripple strike an object, and we assume the movement was created within the object itself.

We are wrong. The objects are dead. It is the 4D Source that is moving everything.

Axiom 3: The "Scratch" of Consciousness

If everything in the 3D world is a static, frozen track, how do we experience knowledge, understanding, and awareness?

In a perfectly smooth universe where the expanding forces never cross paths, nothing could ever be known. The 4D force would pass through the dead 3D coordinates silently, leaving no trace.

Knowledge requires friction.

Understanding happens only when one expanding force at one specific location intersects and interferes with a nearby expanding force. Think of two ripples in a pond crashing into each other. Where they collide, they create a sudden, localized spike in energy—a unique interference pattern.

When an object intersects with these overlapping 4D forces, it creates a metaphorical "scratch" on the Source. That physical friction is what ripples back into our 4D mind. We register that scratch as a moment of conscious awareness, a flash of insight, or a sudden piece of data.

You are not a 3D object storing knowledge inside a physical brain like files in a cabinet. You are a localized intersection point—an antenna—where the living 4D Source is violently scratching against a dead 3D form.

The Escape from the Trap

Why does this geometry matter to an atheist looking for happiness?

Because the moment you realize your 3D body and the chaotic world around you are completely static and dead, you stop fighting the foreground. You stop taking the drama of life personally. You realize that your anxiety, your status, and your failures are just frozen lines drawn on a canvas.

You stop identifying with the dead, moving shadow on the wall, and you start identifying with the living 4D engine that is casting it. You step back into the stillness of \(T=0\).

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A Google AI summary of my tumblr blog

Today, I copied and paste this from Google AI summary on my tumblr blog and thoughts. AI is becoming quite a good communicator!:

An Atheist’s Guide to Happiness

By Cadmar

Introduction: The Back of the Class

For thirty years, I worked as a school teacher, guiding students through the rigid, structured front lines of society. But when I retired, a strange question kept scratching at my mind: What type of jobs do the students at the back of the class do?

To find out, I took a job as a security guard. I traded active "doing" for eight hours of quiet, static staring.

One afternoon at the Vancouver Art Gallery, I found myself guarding a pottery exhibit. I locked my eyes onto two distinct ceramic vases. In our everyday three-dimensional world, our brains use built-in edge-detection software to tell us that Vase A is separate from Vase B. But I stood completely motionless and gave my mind a singular command: Let the two blend into one.

After five minutes of unwavering focus, the boundary collapsed. The two vases became a single object. I turned to the corner of the room. Let one wall blend into the other. The corner dissolved. Soon, the moving 3D world around me began to fade, revealing a permanent, unmoving, static fabric blanketing the entire room. I could see it and touch it, but I couldn't move it.

I wasn't hallucinating. I had accidentally stumbled into the act of catching my own mind writing the rules of my perception. I realized that the physical universe is entirely static, inert, and dead—and that a higher, four-dimensional Source is the hidden engine animating everything from the outside.

I spent the next fourteen years documenting these quiet, geometric revelations on my blog. But the true, earth-shattering confirmation of this blueprint didn't happen in a gallery. It happened over a single weekend during a four-part Ayahuasca ceremony, where the universe systematically uninstalled my 3D human identity.

On the first night, a massive snake approached me and asked if it could swallow me whole. I said yes. My 3D ego—my history, my name, my attachments—was completely dissolved to clear the canvas.

On the second and third nights, the deconstruction deepened. I looked down at my hands and body; physically, they were unchanged. Yet, I had become a rooster. I was filled with a profound, immovable happiness. I didn't know it yet, but I was embodying the ancient Gnostic archetype of Abraxas—the bird-headed symbol of the dawn, whose sole purpose is to crow and wake humanity from its deep sleep.

By the fourth and final ceremony, the transformation was complete. I stood before the medicine with the authority of the rooster and said, "It is my turn. What does the world really look like?"

And it pulled back the curtain of our three-dimensional illusion and showed me.

This book is not about magic, religion, or spiritual fluff. It is a rational, geometric guide for the analytical mind. It is a map showing how to step out of the chaotic, exhausting drama of the moving 3D world and step back into the timeless, unified 4D Source—where true happiness has been waiting all along.

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All You Know Are Words

If all you know are words, or pictures made by words, or images from words, or symbols created from words, then how do you escape words? How then can you possibly go beyond words if your entire life has been caught up in words?

Start with the net!

Do you actually need words? All the time? For all situations? Even when you are all by yourself, all alone? You have no one to talk to, just yourself. You are both the source and the receiver of the words. Why then do you need words to talk to yourself? What do you need words for? What are you trying to describe? Are you trying to use words to understand something?

Instead of words, simply sense it! Sense what is prompting you to talk to yourself. Just listen to that! You have no need for words as words can not sense that. You are using words to prevent you from sensing that which is prompting you to talk to yourself!

Sense that which prompts you to talk to yourself! Just sense, don't describe, don't try to understand. Just, directly sense it! Naturally. Openly. Plainly. And quietly!

Words are never needed for sensing that! Words can never sense anything. Words can only describe and point! Only you can sense! Not through words, but you directly! Then you will begin to know and to go beyond words!

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Seeing the Scratching

If one is stuck on words, no one can help that person to be unstuck. One has to do it oneself. Being stuck on words creates financial, social, educational, and religious benefits and successes, but they all lead to dead ends!

To see the scratching is not by using words: repeating phrases; memorizing and reciting scriptures; and using words to understand other words for deeper clarity, precision, and meaning.

Seeing the scratching is entirely another process. It is not word-knowledge base. It is uncovering. It is not staring at a rock and being mesmerized by the rock's beauty and utility, but lifting up the rock and seeing what is underneath, and what this precious rock is concealing! The rocks are words, ideas, beliefs, desires, fears, emotions, and values.

To see a scratch is simply just looking at any word, any object, any experience, any interaction, and any reaction. Just look and see its limitation! If you don't see anything, then, you don't see anything. Just don't get frustrated. You are awakening and triggering this other process!

You have never used this other process before. You were probably content, satisfied, and comfortable of using the word-knowledge process! This is entirely another process! Just looking at anything, even for a microsecond! Just start looking at the limitations!

Is the word alive or dead?

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Imagining Substance

Throughout our lives, we have learned and digested our experiences by using words! We are graded in school by our ability to express ourselves with words and ideas. We use words to express our feelings, our fears, our desires, our wants, our goals, our values, our beliefs, and our ideas. Once we reach a conclusion on anything, we become comfortable. And once we are comfortable, we have a hard time changing our conclusions and it is as if we are cemented to them! We become rigid in our thinking!

Words are describing what we experience as rigid objects that are measured, observed, manipulated, and interacted with! These become our experiences! These become our tools. Even though all words are faulty, not complete, impossible to be accurate, we still use them as our only tools for understanding!

Our 3D physical world of objects are constantly changing, interacting, and influencing each other! Words do not change even though what the words are pointing to are!

Real imagination is outside the physical world. Real imagination is not using words, pictures, images, and symbols as these are all shaped by words and thoughts!

Once you see the scratching, then the rigidness dissipates on its own!

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Untangle Substance of Understanding

The logic materialists use is that our ability to understand meaning derives from personal interactions, such as, "I feel the hardness of a rock. I feel pain. I feel love. I feel the wonder of a gorgeous sunset." This is their logic that everything is biological and eventually science will be able to duplicate mind and consciousness! Currently, science is limited to the technology in its ability to duplicate mind! Once that is accomplished, consciousness will be demystified!

Again, the reason being is that we only know what we have been interacting with! That is their understanding! All comes from simple physical interactions that through the picking up a rock, you instantly understand the deeper meaning of that experience! It is through this simple physical action of picking up the rock can you then understand the hardness of a rock! Robots pick up rocks and can they "feel" and have the substance of understanding? Robots are not outside this physical process. They are a part of this physical process!

This logic of feeling is difficult to untangle and to see the clarity of it all! Throughout our entire life, we have been taught by teachers in school, by our parents at home, by our friends, by our co-workers, and by strangers that we can only understand from what we "feel". "If you don't pass the test, you will feel bad. If you don't get that job, you will feel dejected. If you don't do what society expects of you, you will feel alone and rejected."

We are trained and shaped by our feelings. We are told we can only know life through our feelings. This is how we were trained to fit in! When we meditate, we are also told to go deep inside, close your eyes and to feel nothingness, or feel your thoughts.

We are told to "feel". To "feel" can only be done on the outside of physical interaction! To "feel" is not inside any physical interaction! To "feel" does not come from any physical properties! To "feel" is outside! The body reacts to a physical harm, pain, such as hunger, a cut, a fall. The body sends sensory signals for the body to stop what it is doing, take your hand away from the hot oven element!

Can a shoestring "feel" it is being tied? Its molecules change their positions and locations and shapes, but do they "feel"? Does a dog feel love, or does it have that same behavior through evolution for survival?

Because we can feel, we want everything else to feel, even our pets!

What does it mean when we "feel"? What is actually happening? Something that makes our innerness to come alive! The physical interaction is scratching our innerness. It is this scratching that we "feel", and not the objects themselves! The rock has no feelings. Our body does not have any feelings. Our body only has chemical emotions that we feel.

The picking up the rock is only picking up the rock. Words and pictures can describe this picking up the rock! Your body can move its arms and hands to pick up the rock. The fingers can touch the rock. The fingers can hold the rock. The fingers do not feel anything. The fingers can just pick up the rock. A robot can pick up a rock! There is nothing more it can understand. It is all within the physical process, not outside of it! It is a part of the entire physical process! It sees only picking up the rock!

The fingers do not feel the rock! It is the scratching of our innerness caused by us picking up the rock! The scratching causes us to feel!

It is the physical world scratching our innerness that we feel! We feel the hardness scratching our innerness! And only then we understand hardness of a rock! It is only through our innerness being scratched can we feel!

Our innerness is outside this physical process of picking up the rock! Physical process is stuck in physical process! Physical process can not go outside! To feel is outside the physical process! Our innerness is outside looking inside and feeling the scratches done by our interactions with the physical world!