I'm back on my bullshit

| Milo | 19 | He/They | Binge eating and restricting | DONT REPORT, JUST BLOCK | CW: 140.2lbs | GW1: 130lbs | GW2: 110lbs | UGW: 95lbs | I'm using this to cope with my ED | Been at this shit for 8 years |

[caffeinegremlinn]

I'm back!! I went 9 days binge free and then messed it up yesterday. I was maintaining a lot but I've gotten better at fasting. Doing a 36hr one now

[caffeinegremlinn]

Inactivity

Gonna be inactive the next couple of days, I’m really struggling and need time to myself 💛

[caffeinegremlinn]

I spent an hour cleaning the kitchen because it was filthy and my dad never cleans it properly and I feel so much better. I’m feeling kind of productive now and it managed to help stave off binge urges

[caffeinegremlinn]

I maintained weight today. I don’t know if I should restrict lower or up my intake. Someone help /gen

[aroseforno-one-deactivated20221]

adulthood really does hit you like a fucking truck when you spent all of your teenage years thinking you were gonna kill yourself eventually,

[jonskory]

white people in fandom: i wanna be a better ally, black lives matter! stop asian hate! we must be anti-racist. white people we HAVE to do better! if i'm doing something racist please let me know. i'm so sorry as a white person-

fans of colour, especially black people: maybe actually listen to us then? ao3 has a serious racism problem and they've made our fandom lives horrible. they need to take down the racist fics, and slave fics. there's a double standard to how they treat us because they acted with swiftness to take down the fic that clogged tags but not the ones that mock BLM, AAPI issues and the ones that have racist porn. we're uncomfortable seeing you guys unironically stan them without thinking critically and it's just making things worse for us. even to this day, ao3 has not crafted a proper anti-racism policy and we feel like we're just screaming into the void. *make multiple posts and essays explaining our disenchantment, and the many ways the beloved archive quite frankly, doesn't give a fuck*

white people in fandom: it's a CHARITY! you're just a stupid anti! if you hate it so much don't use it! if the site takes down the racist and slave fics it becomes censorship. it doesn't affect me so i don't care and i'm gonna continue supporting them and not saying anything about it and fuck you and your gofundmes that you need to survive! *has blm in their bios*

fans of colour:

[thatspookyagent]

Reblogging especially cause white folks (who are way too involved in ao3 and fandoms) wanna put posts on my dash that are the exact same kind of rhetoric that OP is describing above.

Like y'all would really rather outwardly support a site that turns a blind eye to so much racist bullshit than like idk help other people. The hypocrisy is so strong, like white people be the main ones talking about how fandoms should be safe spaces for everyone when y'all really just mean safe spaces for just white folks. Just say it. Cause y'all mentalities really be like lol fuck people of color unless they share a marginalized identity that we as white people can and they're highlighting discrimination other than racism cause then its no longer a "them problem", now its a "we problem".

Also every white person who reblogs racism based posts and conversations especially are the hugest hypocrites of them all cause y'all will do everything in y'all's power to appear engaging and like you're acknowledging your whiteness but then turn around and reblog ignorant posts with zero nuance or thought beforehand cause it only matters to you that those posts cater to white people and nobody else.

And g-dforbid a person of color makes a space on their own that's friendly towards non white people or better yet, calls out white folks cause y'all hate being reminded that your whiteness and white privilege is still very much relevant and there, no matter what queer identity, disabled identity, etc y'all have. Anyways I know where I stand and the kinds of white people I need to avoid. And I also know who I need to soft block and hard block to.

[caffeinegremlinn]

I didn't binge today.. I stuck to my limit today. That's 5 days binge free now! Woop woop

[mx0kcal-deactivated20211103]

Having a google doc with all of my moots’ urls is the ultimate edblr culture if you ask me

[peachjambobatea]

Bye I have a file of screenshots of their users in my gallery 😭😭😭

[caffeinegremlinn]

Me too Peach 😭😭😭😭

[caffeinegremlinn]

My brain really going “binge. No fast, no binge, No wait, fast.” And I’m sat here like “the fuck you want me to do then?”

[caffeinegremlinn]

Update, I’m craving a pb&j so I asked my dad if he can get some jam from the store on the way home. If I have 1 pb&j instead of trying to ignore the urges I’ll be less likely to binge. I’m also going to have some fruit with it 

[caffeinegremlinn]

My brain really going “binge. No fast, no binge, No wait, fast.” And I’m sat here like “the fuck you want me to do then?”

[deviika]

—Chris Mc Geown

[fibreone4life]

Ouch

[caloriegoblin-deactivated202112]

inspired by something my best friend just said-

what are everyone's thoughts on sucking lemons just as is, like drinking straight-up lemon juice

[gimmetheb0nes]

Omg I’ve been doing this since I was a toddler! I love lemons sm :D

[star-err0r-deactivated20240405]

yes! lemons r amazing

[peachjambobatea]

I like sucking on lemons but I wouldn't drink straight up bottled lemon juice if that makes sense???

[sandersstudies]

Hey

If your anxiety, depression, or executive dysfunction is making you scroll endlessly on your phone or laptop

Stop

It’s okay, I’m not mad. It happens to everybody sometimes. It’s frustrating, isn’t it? But it’s time to get up now.

Don’t worry! You don’t have to do that

One Thing,

just get yourself a glass of water for now, or brush your teeth, or pet a cat.

After you’ve done that, maybe you could make yourself a nice cocoa, or open a window. If you’re feeling really crazy you might finish a homework problem, or respond to an e-mail, or wash a dish.

But no matter what, if you get up then you’re moving forward, and I’m

super proud of you!

I know you’re having a difficult time, but I’m really glad you’ve made it this far, and I love you!

Have a nice day my friend, I’ll see you soon, but right now it’s time for you to get up.

[sandersstudies]

@ every single person who reblogged this post by telling me that did something productive, from wiggling their toes to taking a drink to actually doing homework: I’m so so proud. Keep being strong, friends.

And if you reblogged even though it didn’t work last time, here’s hoping it will this time! I’m proud of you, too. 

[minthyy]

I know there are people, who have eds, but don't want to make a whole blog dedicated to that, so they just follow ed blogs with their main account. What I would like to ask is that if that's the case for you and you start following me with your main, non ed account, then please, send me a message and let me know, because otherwise you'll get blocked. I have no way to tell if you already have an ed or not and want to use my account to trigger yourself. I don't want to be the reason for anyone's ed, I don't want to trigger anyone into this, so that's why I'm blocking any non ed account who follows me. So again, if you have an ed and follow me with a non ed account, please let me know.

[caffeinegremlinn]

I feel like an awful friend. Me and my best friend I haven't seen in months made plans to see a movie tomorrow and I just don't want to go. It's so draining having to plan travel and get on the bus into town and sit there watching a movie I've not even bothered to watch the trailer for.

[shivering-skeleton]

there are 6 types of ed tumblr accounts:

1. Vent account

2. Thinspo dump account

3. ED memes account

4. All three of them together

5. The recovering account

6. T-worded accounts

[slavery]

[macbethz]

Fuck I’m at a fencing tournament and literally a minute after I reblogged this my dad told me that he talked to the point people and I’m probably going to win a medal.

[seananmcguire]

BURN BAGEL BURN

[gothiccharmschool]

OH WHY NOT?

[harukami]

I need to follow up to say I reblogged this last night, and this morning I got some of the best news of my life, like, a life dream come true news thing.

Bagel what are your powers

[acabosetotal]

FUCK, I though it was just another lucky meme but LISTEN. Since a week ago I was waiting a phone call to confirm me if I got a job or not in my university. I reblogged this yesterday’s night “just for fun and because I don’t want any bagel to be mad with me”, and today’s afternoon, while I was losing my time as always, the professor I was supposed to work with called me and asked me for my personal information to start working with her.

THE BAGEL POWERS ARE WAY TOO MUCH FOR THIS WORLD

[token-white-friend]

I GOT A JOB THE DAY AFTER MY QUEUE POSTED THIS THE FIRST TIME AND I JUST REALIZED IT WHEN I SAW IT AGAIN HOLY GOD

[noodle-dragon]

The bagel hasn’t let me down yet!

[blackcatgodess]

I got a job offer after reblogging the bagel. Believe in the bagel!

[anayely420]

🙏🏼

[sonsfantasies]

Worth a try lol

[theblizzardsix]

i could use some good news or even a good girl 

[pantspooplover]

Go lil bagle! Show me your power!

[itaachiyama-moved]

Okii then!

[blastlight]

THIS IS THE FIRST THING ON MY BLOG

I GOT ASKED OUT FOR THE FIRST TIME AFTER I REBLOGGED IT

[cuappatea-deactivated20200216]

wait but whats happening with the bagel tho

[toca144]

Giv news

[maiskinny]

This bagel better do me and my skinnies some wonders.

[st0nedsk1nnygrl]

im passed my drivers test🙏🏽

[becoming-a-flame]

pls

[notjoyfulanymore]

Oh hope this works, i need some good news in my life lmao

[airm0ld]

plz bagel plssss 🙏

[fiftyshadesofthinspi]

BLESS US ALL OH HOLY FIRE BAGEL

[kissmycoldlips]

Bagel, pls

[skinnybishhh]

Plzzzz i need this

[vanilla-koke]

ALL HAIL THE BURNING BAGEL!

[failedaned]

Gotta do what you gotta do lol