A thing a wrote about a mitski song and hilson
Ā Ā I'm your man by MitskiĀ
You're an angel, I'm a dog
Wilson would be the angel in this because he is always right and he isn't rude and messed up like House, and House would be the dog because he always sees himself in a negative way, and the dog also represents how house always wants to be with Wilson because he knows that no matter what he says to him he will never leave and just that thought alone brings him comfort.
Or you're a dog and I'm your man
This part is what makes this connect a lot with House and Wilson because Wilson is like a dog too but in this scenario House is a man, a man because he is not trustworthy and he can't be an angel he's so self destructive to the point that it affects other people and makes it so that people avoid or hate him, House knows this so in order not to get hurt he's always rude to people so they avoid knowing the real him.
You believe me like a god
This lines connects to House because House knows that Wilson believes that he can get fixed but House knows he cant or wont allow himself to be a better person, which makes Wilson keep believing that he can and rewards him for being a human, it's just a circle that keeps repeating and they are both aware of that, but they don't know how to stop it or they can't because Wilson knows that if he leaves him, House will be way more miserable even though he knows that if he leave he would be better off and House also knows this but he knows that if Wilson leaves he would kill himself best case scenario and that's what is causing that cycle.Ā
I'll destroy you like I am
This also connects to House because he keeps setting low bars for Wilson to the point where he gets rewarded for showing his emotions and still House can't do that because of his deep rooted daddy issues and mommy issues, he just can't open up to him and Wilson still believes he can. I just wanted to add that this is why in the last season when Wilson realizes that he is dying he yells at House because there is no way that House can be a decent human being and respect his decision of not dying in the hospital. (also wanted to add that this song its about religion alot which connects to House a lot because the line that goes āyou believe me like a god,I destroy you like i amā shows that he believes that god doesn't exist and that if he did he would hate him because he sees god like a destroyer/bad thing.
I'm sorry I'm the one you love
I think House's secretly is sad that Wilson is stuck with him and I think he punishes himself for it so he finds ways to bond with him without showing any of his real emotions but Wilson just wants to connect and understand house in a emotional level, House just refuses despite him knowing that he's the one can stop this cycle which builds more resentment towards them.(I also wanted to add that Wilson also has problems that add to the cycle but i'm no mentioning them Because this song talks about their relationship in Houses perspective)
No one will ever love me like you again
When House realized the Wilson was gonna die he knew that nobody was gonna be like Wilson, someone who is so nice to the point where they will suffer so people can view him as good person, though there are many people like that, not many like House because of his manners only Wilson can do that, to prove Wilson selfishness, there was a friend in a episode that treated Wilson like crap, despite Wilson knowing this he donated a liver to him, House was so mad at him because in a way he was jealous, it wasn't just jealousy he saw Wilson being just as miserable as him the only difference is that Wilson seeks validation from people around him but House doesn't, in that scene he was shaming him in a way so he could stand up for himself, I say shaming because he said something like āwhat happens if you die, what about meā which shows how manipulated House really is.(I also wanted to add that the reason House and Wilson are good friends is because they're both miserable in their own way.)
So when you leave me, I should die
In the episode where House realizes Wilson is gonna die he wants to die because Cuddy left, his old wife left, Chase left everyone who can deal with him left, that gave him no will to live so I think that once Wilson dies he will kill himself because I don't think he can change.
I deserve it, don't I?
In the last episode he was debating whether to die in the fire or that he shouldn't, this line really shows how House sees himself in a negative way. I also wanted to add that when House was debating whether to kill himself he was hallucinating many characters that either died or left him this represents how cowardly House is, he can't even convince himself to not to kill himself so he hallucinates people that he meet convincing House not to kill himself, that's how much self worth he was.Ā
I can feel it getting' near, Like flashlights comin' down the way
I don't have much to say about this because this part reminds me of that one scene where House ākills himselfā and there were flashlights all around the place.
One day you'll figure me out,I'll meet judgment by the hounds
This part just shows how much this song relates to House, he knows that one day he will understand him and he will see Wilson analyzing every bit of it, he doesn't want that because he doesn't like being judged by people, he feels the same way about god, someone who is judgemental and will punish you for it.
People always gave me love, Others were never to blame after all
The first line says people always gave me love, it connects to house because his psychiatrist said something like āyour lucky you have people that love youā, the second lines says āothers were never to blame after allā because people hate him but he hates himself more, he feels as though he should be punished for being him.(also wanted to add that there was a scene where chase got stabbed and he blamed himself for it despite it being Chaseās fault, when the committee let him go he got mad because the committee was gonna put him to jail but didn't, this also connects him to how he sees religion, he wants to believe in god but he can't, he wants people to be punished for their wrong doing too but he can't follow rules so that's why he is not religious and doesn't like religious people, he wants to be a rebel.
You believe me like a god,I'll betray you like a man
This connects to House and Wilson because Wilson believes he can be a good man and believes in him and gets let down (like a man) every time but that just makes him addicted to fixing everyones life (which is another reason this cycle keeps repeating), Wilson keeps rewarding him thinking he's making progress in transforming him into a decent human being but he purposely lets Wilson down so he can punish himself because in his mind god won't do it for him, instead god has made him smart and always right and house thinks that's unfair. This part just makes the song whole by connecting it to the first part of the song. I love this song because it tells us a story that you can interpret the way you want while also delivering a message to the audience. Mitski is so crazy for this.
