calamaty™

19 y/o physics student living vicariously through video games

[skeptical-lynx]

a little something for Batstarion Sunday

twt:

https://x.com/skeptical_lynx/status/1789735339793195058?s=46&t=EuBiJuFrpmM7JiLiuDbaCA

[suziesamico]

I won't explain

[mistercrowbar]

Astarion: “No one ever cared about me >:\”

Karlach, standing 10ft away: “ME I CARE I CARE SO MUCH”

[lillagrim]

[relelvance]

In what world is tall muscular man not conventionally attractive

[piedude]

We've all been down here too long. I truly think there's a chunk of tumblr's population that can no longer survive sunlight.

[reagan-slayer69]

women will say “hear me out” and show u a photo of pyramid head and then tumblr users will go “this is a perfectly normal man and an ice cold take”

[orkazh-arts]

When the party comes back early to camp ✨

[naggingatlas]

[naggingatlas]

low poly sims 4 frog chuffing back a fat log monday

[tsrmarina]

Quick little sketch ✍️

[marigoldorlando-deactivated2024]

I’m tired but the thoughts of happy Shadowheart just vibing at home, trying to make some bread and living her best life are healing

[n0ahsferatu]

anyone else get really pissed off when astarion looks at the camera with the biggest wettest eyes known to creation. like GIRL we see them!!!

(inspired by this post:)

[bgthree]

Hey so this interaction is devastating

[krembruleed]

astarion is cheating

[chonylolu]

me: I have GOT to get weirder!

also me when I do get weirder: *visibly shaking* I'm going to be killed with hammers by everyone for being a freak.

[calamaty]

sometimes I look back at this screenshot and marvel at how he can look with such...love and desire at Tav in the Act 1 scene. I aspire to be on his level of manipulation tbh

[fridaypls]

Astarion, but with Neil Newbon flavoring

I'm calling it done. Packed in as much tattoo symbolism as I could. Feel free to repost on other sites. Can someone share this with Neil? I left Twitter forever ago and went back to share this with a new account, but it's terrifying in there, y'all.

[omgitssvpernxva]

[keylana-dragon]

head empty

[astarionformayor]

Was astarion's fate pre-tadpole the worst out of all companions? I mean... He was literally a slave in a sex-trade. His pimp being Cazadouche, who would take everyone he brought home and kill them. If he failed to do so, he would be tortured in ways that would easily kill a mortal.

He was starved and made to live in the darkness for a year for failing to bring home supper for Cazadouche once. He had to completely disassociate from his humanity, to the point where he literally can't even remember who he was before he was turned.

I often think about how he has high perception (and of course he does, cause he is a rouge) but hear me out: from a story-perspective, it would make sense that his perception was high as a trauma response. Always having to be hyper-vigilant (and keep his wits about) as to not piss off Cazador or his siblings. Even going through a far-less macabre experience for 2 years as an adult can make you hypervigilant to the point where you're dysfunctional.

And this was going on for 200 years. That isn't even a fathomable amount of time for a human. And the fact that, after all that, his humanity was intact.... He was able to fall in love, make friends, and be happy. He really has so much empathy. His empathy was a crux for 200 years, but it remained intact nonetheless.

As a survivor, Astarion has made me realize things about my healing journey that i never had thought of before. I think that's one big reason why he is a comfort character for so many of us. We can relate to him for what he's been through. We see a part of ourselves in him, and we want to help him and to hold him. We want to cherish him and tell him everything is going to be okay.

Maybe all this is for us is just a way to detach from the feelings of selfishness and shame that arise when you give yourself slack. When we see ourselves in Astarion, and we want to tell them everything is going to be okay, maybe we are really telling a part of ourselves that everything is going to be okay.