pairing: secret bf!Jaehyun x secret gf!reader ft pining Yuta
genre: smut. that's it, I think lol.
warning(s): public sex, voyeur Yuta, choking, dirty talk(?), creampie.
wc: 513. not too long :))
a/n: since it is officially Christmastime, I suppose I'll throw you guys a lil bone.
You finally spot your secret beau at SM's annual Christmas party and he looks good. So good that you end up pulling him off to a not so private corner, backing yourself onto a wall. While he’s standing in front of you, placing one hand on the wall near your head, you've already busied your hands unbuckling his belt and untucking his shirt.
He chuckles and shakes his head at you, licking his lips as he says “you want to do this right here?” To which you look him in the eyes with a nod and run your tongue over your bottom lip, seemingly in slow motion.
Your hand that snuck its way glide into his pants quickly tell you that he’s gone commando for the night. Naturally, his boldness arouses you even further so you impatiently begin stroking him- your free hand drifting beneath his turtleneck, feeling his torso and bringing him closer to you.
You plant teasing kisses on his neck and feel his shallow breaths, a soft, husky whisper meeting your ear, “I want you to take me right now.” Which has you pulling back to make eye contact as your grip tightens, now stroking him in a slow circular motion.
“Yeah? You want to go the rest of the night talking to these men- your friends who want me? Thighs slick beneath my dress? Them having no clue your cum is filling me up? ” The tortured mix of a groan and whimper he releases as he tightly gropes your ass tightly is beautiful.
His fangs on your bottom lip with a sexy grin on his face. He, now being the one to teasingly pepper your lips with featherlight kisses, nods. His eyes look at you with fresh delight when he notices you, too, decided to forego panties.
No longer patient, he guides himself into you. His hips deliver quick yet meticulously deep strokes, fingers immediately beginning to simultaneously massage your sensitive bud. “You gonna take my cum?” You can only whine softly and nod looking into his eyes “yes Jae”
You pant as he brings a grip to your throat. “Don't cum yet.” His slowed pace making his deep strokes more prominent. Your eyes wander as you press your lips together in an attempt to quiet your noises.
You're internally startled when your eyes connect with Yuta's, the blatant yearning reflected in them have you unintentionally squeezing around the man inside of you.
His tightened hold on your throat paired with the fast strokes of his hand on your pearl, you find yourself approaching a climax sooner than anticipated- which of course, does not go unnoticed by Jaehyun.
He runs his tongue across your lips and says a singular: “Now.” Then is when your orgasm is triggered by the feeling warm ropes of his seed emptying inside of you.
Coming down from our high you fix each other's clothes looking around and giggling. During your scoping of the room, you are, again, met with Yuta whose eyes are still locked on the pair of you with inflamed desire.
I just get out of the shower and my little sister calls me- not even greeting me, just saying "where's mom?? there's a shooting and she's not answering her phone." so I'm just like "wait what?? I think she's in the shower right now so she may not have it" and my sister says "I don't care, take the phone to her"
so I go to my mom's room and my dad is asleep, I knock on the bathroom door because I'm not sure if she's taking a shit or actually in the shower. so I go in and tell her about the shooting and she's like "what?? where is she? is she safe?" and I relay the questions and give my mom the answers that she's in one of the residence halls.
fast forward to my mom coming in my room she's like "you banged on the bedroom door and the bathroom door and your dad is now awake and now I have to be up for hours getting an earful about how she doesn't need to go to that school" and I'm like "???? actually I didn't even knock on your bedroom door because I knew he was asleep" and she was like "well he's awake now and I'm gonna get an earful"
so I responded with "so I shouldn't have told you until you got out????" and she was like "no. but why's you come bang on the door if she was safe? you're big sister." then she talks to my sister and leaves my room.
she comes back maybe 15-20 minutes later and says "I don't expect you to understand why I'm upset- it's not about disturbing your dad, but I have to be the one up for hours listening to him talk about how your sister doesn't need to go to any more events because this is the third time it's happened. I thought you knew she was safe which is why I was wondering why you came banging on the door but that's not the case. I guess it came across as if I was blaming you so I'm sorry if it did. I just wanted it handled differently. you're usually more conscious of him being asleep."
in my head I'm like "well it's not my fault it's dead silent in your room. plus this nosy ass nigga sleeps with one eye open anyway." but I respond with "well I was first being considerate of your privacy. and I didn't bang on the door but it's not every day my sister calls me to tell me there's a shooting near her"
and she was like "well this is the fourth time she's called me about something like this. you can tell me in the future, just be mindful of your dad. I didn't mean to make it seem like I was blaming you so I'm sorry."
after that I didn't say anything but "goodnight" and "I love you too" because I'm not in the mood. and this is exactly why I don't like apologies. they never mean shit and I never feel shit when I receive them. & I promise I was really minding my entire business the whole night too. just some bs.
Daily reminder that black women/girls aren’t just beautiful when we have lightskin, or makeup, or curly hair, or light eyes, or ‘’exotic’’ features. we are also beautiful and valid even when we aren’t extra ordinary.
we’re not just valid when we look mixed or racially ambiguous. we’re not just valid when we can be paraded around as a ‘black queen’ or when we have ‘black girl magic’
and even if you are considered any of the above, that’s fine, you’re still valid, but i am saying this to highlight the fact that many of us only recognize and appreciate black women only when they go above and beyond, whether it be through success, or when we fit a eurocentric beauty standard.
people only seem to respect black women when they have certain features that, in their minds, aren’t typically afro-centric ones. for eg, people will shame a black woman for her wide/big nose, or say that ‘’shes pretty, but her nose messes her face up’’.
society doesn’t respect black women who are just ordinary women living their lives like everyone else. we aren’t allowed to be bare-faced and basic and feel comfortable, especially if we’re darkskinned, or disabled, or trans, or fat.
we’re only given the same amount of respect thats given to other women as a default, if we can be fetishized or exoticized. not to mention the fact that society is so determined to strip black feminine presenting people of their femininity.
the way you’d see people appreciate a skinny white woman for being bare-faced and all natural in sweats just relaxing being average, thats not what we get. as a black woman/girl you have to work twice as hard to get half as much as anyone else. hell, even in our own communities we face this. everyday we see other black people, especially black men, be prejudice against their own people to appeal to white supremicists.
so pls stop. respect black women. respect black girls. respect black disabled and neurodivergent women. respect black queer and trans women. respect attractive black women, respect unattractive and average black women.
we aren’t only valid when we can be fetishized, bc believe it or not we are valid and normal human beings even if we aren’t fuckable.
no matter what features we have, or whether or not our features are typically afro-centric [even though, they are. there’s no ‘’right’ or ‘’wrong’’ way to be black. if that feature is on a black person, it is a black feature], our beauty is not our redeeming factor that prevents us from being less valid, even if its treated as such.
we are not beautiful in spite of our blackness, we are beautiful because of it.
Me as a writer: I feel like I’m repeating myself, I’ve already used that theme, I’ve already written that kink, that other character uses that speech pattern so this one in another fandom can’t, I feel like I’m writing predictable things, is this different enough from that other thing I wrote, are people filling out bingo cards by my work? :sobbing:
Me as a reader: oh hell yeah this hit the spot exactly, I hope this writer has written 20 more just like it
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