take two, redive

tripping between Umbrella Academy Klaus and Drarry. I lied, it's all OFMD now. I lied again; apparently, it's Hazbin Hotel now.

[calistomyth2]

"And what if Abel was secretly evil?

What if we all got stranded in the void?

"What if," "what if," "what if.""

[thecraftgremlin]

Where’s that one post that’s like Reasons Why My Wife Cried This Week and when are we gonna get a fanfic of that but Ryland Grace.

[stargirl-and-potts]

Reasons my human has cried:

* New student, very small. Grace said it was pebble. Pebble is small Earth rock. Pebble likes name.

* He found out Eridians have no gender rules.

* Students brought him mineral sample. After he stopped crying he said he loves show-and-tell game. Human naming conventions oddly literal.

* I told him Earthsun grew bright.

* I took him up atop atmosphere bypass elevator to look at stars.

* He woke up from nap and found me still with him. I did not wait on his chest; he says I am heavy like “elephant” and he “couldn’t breathe.” I laid my arm over him instead, kept him close, feeling safe. He said “cuddle” was warm.

* Before class he heard younglings singing.

* He has plants in house from sprouts on ship. Plant grew “bud.”

* Engineers got seawater temperature right. He took off shoes and stood in water, sighing. He didn’t care about pants getting damp. Cried until shirt was also damp. Humans very endlessly wet.

* He missed “Doritos.”

* Adrian helped food scientists make taumoeba dried paste. Made it crunchy after heating. We fused it into triangle form. Told him it was Tauritos. That made him laugh-cry. Laugh-cry is rare and precious.

* He remembered Eridians have no gender rules.

* We made him celebration outfit. Used metals he calls pretty. He can see frequencies named “colorful” and “shiny.” These make humans happiest.

* I gave him hug when he wasn’t expecting it. Easier to hug close now with exosuit. Hug when Grace sitting down so he does not fall over.

* Told him to think long time, stay with me as long as he can.

[biceratops7]

Tadc episode 9 SPOILERS

So I finally saw it. Holy fucking shit.

The real Jax being shut behind a boarded up door, every cruel persona he’s constructed united in their hatred of him.

The anxious part of himself that’s barely tolerated so long as he shuts up and lets the others control him giving Pomni the key. She waits a second expecting Jax to come with her before the camera pans down to the chain. He’s too scared himself but something in him badly needs that door to be opened again.

The entire flashback being in first person until the memory with Ribbit. The camera slowly drifting into third person as he can’t quite bring himself to fully say what it was he told his mom, to Ribbit who was there then or Pomni who’s here now, but he doesn’t have to. Ribbit understands, and finds a way to show him without saying it out loud.

There’s a hand reaching out, a bow, a flushed face, then the close ups end and… there she is. All of her in frame through Pomni’s eyes. She wanted someone to see her again.

Then the abrupt cut back to first person as she throws the bow to the ground, and proceeds to ruin every opportunity she has to accept the love she’s offered because being happy in this way is terrifying. Her looking in the mirror to taunt herself is the only time we see her face again in this sequence.

Her at the end of things crying that she doesn’t want to go because maybe things could be different this time. She sees everything she could be in a brilliant light and wants suddenly to live more than anything, but it’s too late. She doesn’t get that second chance, but she didn’t want to die with no one knowing who she was.

[absolutedream-art]

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3 (You're Here)

After the events of "Truth or Dare", Pomni and the crew respond to Jax's recent close call with abstraction. Though they show their support, will it be enough to convince Jax to change his ways and begin following a new path?

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Part 1

Part 2

Part 3 (You're Here)

After the events of "Truth or Dare", Pomni and the crew respond to Jax's recent close call with abstraction. Though they show their support, will it be enough to convince Jax to change his ways and begin following a new path?

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[bicryingpotato]

Emo trans fem Jax cures depression, I can prove it!

But be careful, if abused it may also cause: gender transition, sapphic thoughts, grief, and you’ll spend the whole day singing Isn’t she lovely? by Stevie Wonder and get kinda of sad, but if you just ignore cannon for a moment, she can cure depression.

Edit: I’ll add this, because it looks like some people missed it but my drawings are inspired by this baby girl, who appears for like 2 frames, 1 hour (and 8min I think) into the movie.

Spoiler:

I almost died right in my seat with the conformation she IS EMO! Headcanons do come true.

And something very funny I only realized when I got home, I was wearing almost the same look but with a tshirt saying I knew she was trans ahhahdhaua

[biceratops7]

Wait I literally JUST realized the icon on her shirt is a lock right over her heart 😭

[chelshiart]

jdjhfhehf so uh i blacked out for an hour and a half in the midst of thesis stress, and this was in my iPad when i woke up???? anyone else want to see ryan gosling on the show? lol

[artistoons-blog-thing]

To be cringe is to be free (Very apt phrase as I include my human designs version (technically for my AU but it also fits for canon) under the cut)

[nia1sworld]

Deserved

[theninthmember]

tadc spoilers

I think probably the biggest surprise of the finale for me—well ig that’s not true; somehow palpatine returned was the biggest surprise, followed closely by sudden cut to abstraction—but a surprise of the finale that was big to me was that Jax… wasn’t an egg. she was just in the deepest, most reinforced, deadlocked prison cell of a closet she could make for herself.

Like obviously it makes a lot of sense, I’m not saying it’s out of place with the rest of her character… I think was just so certain that part of her repression included some amount of self-deception. Of a refusal to acknowledge even the possibility of transness. Of a forced ignorance, an insistence that I don’t know where that thought came from.

The fact that she’s known this definitively about herself the whole time—enough to come out to her mother long before the series starts—enough to half come out to Ribbit and instantly regret it—makes her whole arc feel so much… sadder. Working so hard to protect and hide herself from everyone, to convince them all she was someone she wasn’t… denying it to herself when she knew it was there… She must have been so miserable and terrified and exhausted, all the time.

And by the time she finally realized things didn’t need to be this way, and that she wanted things to be different… it was simply too late. View from halfway down, and all that.

[bugsnax]

the neopets subreddit is actually really good sometimes

[biceratops7]

TADC SPOILERS WITH JANKY PICTURES

There is not a single thing on earth you can say to convince me this is not an awkward closeted teenage girl

[calistomyth2]

"I didn't know you could play the piano."

[ohwowhereiam]

went in a jax hater, came out in tears

[calistomyth2]

Let's gooooo

[calistomyth2]

Something hit different this time. I feel sad. I feel so unbelievably sad

[calistomyth2]

Let's gooooo

[valntinemacabre]

first and only digital circus fanart

[astraleliza]

MASTER POST

[astraleliza]

from when i was putting it all together

[whencartoonsruletheworld]

ok sorry still mad about people misinterpreting a certain Plot Point in the tadc finale so. under the cut

"oh so the trans character kills herself??? this show is transphobic" JESUS CHRIST YOU PEOPLE ARE INSANE. Jax repressed himself to the point of abstraction, then Pomni finds a way to reach him even through his broken mental state, and the gang puts him in a safe and comfortable blanket fort where s/he can relax and get his senses back in order without hurting himself or others. The other abstractions get to be seen being happy and at peace. No it's not IDEAL but it's basically like having a mental break that just needs some care and attention instead of Cellar. We do not see any Abstractions get fixed but the episode does leave it open-ended as to how much they will one day be able to be reached, and the characters have eternity to figure it out. Jax finally opens up to Pomni in that headspace and it's far from impossible she can still talk to him in this state.

it's also not like Jax is the only trans/queer character. Zooble is nonbinary/genderqueer and makes it through the entire show, is given emotional depth and weight to their own dysphoria and character struggles, and then gets to end the show with their human self opening a successful (implied) queer bar and their digital self having epic gay sex!! (entire theater cheered and clapped at that btw)

like. look me in the eyes. do you think that a trans woman show creator would write a trans woman character just to kill her out of malice?? like do you think she was maybe trying to say something with the abstractions and Jax's repression and the fact there is still hope and time for him and his human self?? are we operating on this level of media literacy or are we just looking for things to get mad at

"i saw the tv glow is transphobic bc the main character never comes out"-ass thinking