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oh haruka. 19. student & consultant.

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hello! haruka’s mun here just to say that this account will be on a hiatus until june 10th! if you follow me on my other account, you know that the end of the term is coming up & i need to focus on preparing for finals and things of that sort. i’m at an odd point in life right now, so ooc matters need most of my attention for now. however!!!! i will be back!!! i’ll slowly answer some stuff here, but i’m not promising anything... anyway!!! thank you for reading this! 

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Haruka is always one to be up for adventure, so when her friend invites her to meet him at his school, she doesn’t decline. In all honesty, she’s always been curious about SNU. With her being a Yonsei student, she’s mostly bound to her campus, rarely visiting any other schools unless she knows someone who attends there. Hence, her slight confusion when stepping foot onto campus. She does well in masking the confusion on her part as she wanders around the school, settling on a bench near the department he studies in. A quick glance at her phone tells her that she’s a bit early though and she sighs as she curls her legs beneath her and waits. 

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“That guy? I figured… but there’s nothing to stare at, and I like girls.” Eyes narrowing in the male’s direction, he soon looks away worriedly. “There, that’ll get rid of him for a long time.”

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“Ohhh~” A grin appears on her features and she watches, with thinly veiled amusement, as the man quickly turns away. Turning her attention back towards the other, she lightly scoffs.“Nothing to look at? What a lie. You’re very pretty, in case you didn’t notice. How’d you do that though? Whenever I glare at people, they say I just look like a pissed off kitten.” 

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Wilson had always warned her of walking around the city late at night, but she wasn’t one to heed his advice. If anything, it made her nightly trips even more frequent. Tonight was one of those nights and her destination was a random park within a few miles of her apartment. As she approached the entrance, she saw another presence sitting on one of the many benches. Shrugging to herself, Haruka continues and slowly picks her way over towards the shadowy figure. Upon coming a few feet closer, a brow raises as she recognizes the face of the other. “Oh. Hyerin? What’re you doing here?”

[callidxm]

I’m afraid I cannot explain myself, sir.

Because I am not myself, you see? 

about + guide + reblog & follow!

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starter call! please like this post for a starter

length will vary & will most likely include pre-est. relationships!

[callidxm]

"I know what is what."

source: here + status: accepting 

Is that annoyance that she senses? Perhaps so. Regardless, the grin that she wears doesn’t falter even the slightest. Instead, she offers an amused hum as she scans over the other items that decorate the shelves. “If you say so, Anthem.” Waltzing down towards the end of the aisle, she patiently waits for him as she turns the apple in her hands over and over. “You look lost again. Are you sure you’re feeling alright? Or are you just having one of those days? It’s no good putting up a front with me. You know that I can see right through you.”

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contrariwise, if it was so, it might be; for @vuotriste​ in response to this post 

Lies and liars are her foundation, the cornerstone of her life. She can spot a lie from a mile away, but, as they say, it takes one to know one and Haurka knows the art of lying all too well. Some may hate her for it, might despise her for twisting the truth into a vial lie, but she has her reasons. Besides, remorse has never been one of her strong points. Survival of the fittest is what she says, and if she has to tell a white lie here and there, then so be it. 

Grinning at her companion, she takes a bite of her fry as she hums a response. Swallowing, she wipes her hands on a napkin before leaning forwards just a bit. “I suppose I could try.” Tilting her head to the side, she pauses for a moment before continuing, tone light. “It might be hard though. You could say that I’m a natural at spotting lies. It’s taken years of practice, but I guess I could give you a few tips... On one condition; you let me get the strawberry milkshake.”

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“You don’t get to tell me who’s overreacting. You’re under-reacting!" 

"All murder is illegal. Also, attempted murder." 

"Well, that’s just mean. And kind of weird." 

"We cannot tell you. We’re not allowed." 

"Murder wasn’t my intent." 

"I meant nothing by it." 

"We have forgotten so many things." 

"I guess I was wrong earlier—I don’t know. Weird, right?" 

"I have conflicted feelings here." 

"It is not a feeling I wish to experience again." 

"So, let’s not waste any more time." 

"I don’t remember what I was just saying." 

"That is—ugh. I’ll have to think about what that is." 

"You need to run." 

"This day started bad, and it does not appear to be getting better any time soon." 

"You can guess what happened, I think." 

"I know that there is more coming, as always. This is what I know." 

"Don’t look. You will not at all like what you see." 

"It’s all a shame, whatever it is. Such a damn shame everything is." 

"You are weak. You are nothing." 

"I know I am safe. Sadly though, I am not okay." 

"I don’t know. But I’m trying to find out, okay?" 

"I know what is what." 

"You know, it would upset me if it weren’t just who you are." 

"I could do so many things to you without you feeling it. Remember that if you remember nothing else." 

"You seem kind of— I mean, lately. Lately you’ve been—" 

"It’s awful when you can see the reason for someone’s feeling toward you while knowing wholly that they’re wrong." 

"I do my best with what I have. I don’t have much." 

"I’ve been working on something I’d like to show you." 

"Denying that you are guilty is a major sign of guilt." 

"Ask me what?" 

"I mean, I know. I know everything." 

"I wish I did not know." 

"You know, I don’t want to talk about it just yet." 

"It’s a shame anything had to change. I sure do dislike change." 

"Not saying that it is a long time—uh, who knows what a long time is even? Not me! But it just seems that way, that’s all." 

"Here I am, as I thought I might never be." 

"These days, the world seems to never be ending for some and not others." 

"The world is a worse place now than it ever was before, but far better than it ever will be again." 

"The past is always better than the present. And the future is the worst of all." 

"I extend my deepest sympathies. Not that my sympathies will do you any good." 

"Have you ever remembered a life you did not lead?" 

"It was a better day earlier. Back when I hadn’t heard that story." 

"This present, this now, is no good. No good at all!”

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sinship (like friendship except u sin together)

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& so what – if my feathers                 are burning. I never asked for flight.

Ocean Vuong, from “Devotion,” Night Sky with Exit Wounds (via fillorian)

[nightshade-emo-blog]

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“Curiosity often leads to trouble.”

source: here + status: accepting 

A laugh bubbles from her throat and she muffles the sound with the palm of her hand. Lightly coughing, she sobers up almost instantaneously and gives a grave nod. “My friends always used to tell me something like that. ‘Oh Haruka! Don’t you know that one day your curiosity will land you in your grave!’ A bit dramatic if you ask me, but I knew what I was doing.” Arching a brow, she eyes the other for a moment. “Are you trying to warn me against something? Or am I supposed to take that as a threat? Either is fine by me.”  

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while haruka isn’t a compulsive liar, it is dutifully noted that she is one to dance around the truth quite a bit. ask her a question she doesn’t want to answer? she’ll answer, but there’s no promising that she’ll actually answer. 

( side note: baffle them with bullshit is one of her many mottos. )

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“Do you suppose she’s a wildflower?”

source: here + status: accepting 

It’s an odd thing to ask, but it’s most definitely not the weirdest one she’s heard. Humming for a moment, she studies the girl in question, from her hair to the polish on her nails. A ‘try hard’ it seems, someone who oh so desperately wants to fit in. Brown eyes take in the curve of her lips, the way her eyes flicker to the right after she says something and the way she seems to curl in on herself. She’s a tragedy in the making, but Haruka supposes that some may find comfort in acceptance from the masses. Shrugging a bit to herself, she turns her gaze back towards the other. “She could be. Actually, she would be, but a widflower cannot be tamed and she’s already let her petals wither. Notice how she looks for approval after everything she says. No wildflower would give a damn about other’s opinions.” 

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“Better look first, for if one drinks much from a bottle marked “Poison” its almost certain to disagree with one sooner or later.“

source: here + status: accepting

Brown eyes blink for a moment, the words only momentarily throwing her off. The bottle that touches her lips is slowly pulled away and set down on the table before her. A brow raises, curiosity coloring her features before her finger comes to draw circles in the condensation. Offering him a grin, she taps the side of the bottle with her nail. “Are you saying that you poisoned me? Or did we suddenly fall into the universe of Snow White? You could be the evil queen and I could be the innocent fair lady.”