nikolai-thorson:
It was moments like these that made him wish he was back home, where his mother would check on him daily, bringing bins of cold water sop off his sweat and help his body cool down. When he was younger and he’d gotten sick, he’d been confined to bed like this. He remembered how grateful he was to not be alone during it. It was nice to be cared for, and he couldn’t express how grateful he was that Ellie was willingly staying and looking after him when she had her own things to do. Moments of silence spread between them, he pondered what he was going to say, she was probably right, but the cold sounded so uninviting and all he wanted to do was stay curled up in his bed, sweat it out and hope he’d wake up the next day feeling maybe an ounce better. “ No. Not a cold shower,” he grumbled. Maybe if he resisted enough she’d just let him stay in bed. Any movement threatened his need to throw up and he really didn’t want to get vomit on his girlfriend. “You can tell me the truth, El,” he says softly because he hadn’t missed the way she’d sounded when he’d opened the door a few hours before. “’M not going anywhere, El. You don’t need to worry.” he said, and part of him meant him getting out of bed. It was quiet again, and she tried again to reason with him. He could feel his resolve on the matter fading and Nikolai sighed. “Okay… okay fine.”
What felt like ages later he rolled onto his side and slowly sat up, his head throbbing very much like a cartoon he’d watched as a child. Swinging his legs out over the edge of his bed he stood up, leaning against the bed. It took a while, but soon he was leaning against the wall of his bathroom, in just his boxers as the shower was turned on. Part of him wanted to go back to his bed, shivers ripping through him every few moments. “Babe, please. Can I just go back to bed…”
A small grin spread across her face as Eleanor shook her head. “Stop knowing me better than I know myself,” she said, trying to sound stern as he practically read her mind. Of course she’d been worried. She had never had so much to lose. Or, at least, the last time she had, she did indeed lose it. “Of course I was worried. I thought I was cursed,” she admitted in a whisper, toying with his hair. “But that’s nothing you need to be sorry for. You’re here, safe and sound, and that’s what matters.” And it was. Nothing else really mattered. The what-ifs and worst-case-scenarios hadn’t occurred. So nothing else mattered.
When, finally, he agreed to the cold shower, she felt a small sense of pride - especially because she wasn’t sure she had it in her to be stubborn any further, trying to push him despite his pain was impossible. “You’re already all the way here, Baby,” she whispered, making sure the lights were dim enough to spare him any more pain. “Get it over with and then it’s just you and me and your blankets.” Hopefully that was enough to sell him. “I already grabbed you your warmest, comfiest sweatshirt.” Silently, she put her hands on his back, rubbing slowly as she guided him to the shower. “Just a really quick in and out. With your nice soap and this fluffy towel... It’ll be over so soon,” she tried to promise, unsure herself what it was that he was going through.















