Fractured Psyche

Witness my descent into marvelous chaos 31M, bi, little perverted, can talk about anything for hours, I like interesting questions

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So I guess I should do the obligatory get to know me post.

I'm CalmElegance, you can call me Calm or Nox.

I'm 31 and have been dealing with depression and PTSD for most of my life.

I don't let my mental issues get to me for the most part though.

I do, however, really like doing coke. It makes my mind stop being fucked off to me.

This blog is going to be pretty chaotic with posts ranging from coke to kinky sex and openly talking about my fetishes and kinks to real deep topics.

For the most part I'm an open book and my ask me thing is open. I've got the anon setting on too just in case you want to ask something a little out there.

I'm not really too sure what else to put here.

Oh maybe I'm a guy and I'm bisexual? People put that here right? Anyway, as the header says, Witness my decent into marvelous chaos.

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I just can't get over the pure joy I feel when I get a bag and start snorting. Do I need drugs to have a good time? No. Do I need shoes to walk outside? Also no but in both cases, it sure fuckin helps and makes a difference!

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I don't need the coke to be happy, I don't need the coke to feel good. No, I need the coke to deal with humans. I swear I can't fucking stand people who can't take a hint to just shut the fuck up and leave me alone. Like seriously, I'm over here in the corner alone not talking to anyone just trying to enjoy my coke high. Why do you feel the need to come over here and ruin it? Happened recently at an after party, I went with friends who opted to leave me to my own devices as usual(I'm used to being the one that gets left behind) and some random dude sees me sniffing from my jar and comes up to talk. Like, no dude I'm not giving you my drugs, get your own, I don't fuckin know you and you're not even cute.

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It's not unhealthy if it's the only thing that holds my mind together right? Right? Well in any case, I'm not going to stop. It's not a problem because I can fund it and take care of all my bills. Besides, it's not everyday, just when I feel like it.