nakatsukasa.

A CAMELLIA IS A FLOWER WITHOUT SCENT.

[camellie]

independent rp blog for tsubaki nakatsukasa of the soul eater manga. mutuals only and highly selective of who i follow.

heavily headcanon based, though following manga timeline.

so my tusbaki is 17 years old at the beginning of the manga, making her 18 at the end of SE ( this is based on personal interpretation, as her age is never stated but she is visibly a few years older than maka ) . HOWEVER, if i happen to see anyone s*xualizing the kids/spartoi or writing gross/ inappropriate ships OR aging them up for gross purposes, i’m gonna hardblock and probably pray for ur soul. some of yall need to stop being disgustang!!

psd is called hott by amour

nosta, 24, she/her. i’m gonna be ur mom.

[camellie]

starter all matess tehe

[mitchellwrites]

deathless ♚ sentence meme

You will always fall in love, and it will always be like having your throat cut, just that fast.

You are going to break your promise. I understand.

You’re lonely too.

It will stop your breath, how cruel I can be.

I am a demanding creature. I am selfish and cruel and extremely unreasonable.

I am your servant.

I crawl at your feet; for before your love, your kisses, I am debased.

For you alone I will be weak.

I belong here, and you will not deny me.

I say these things, and the world listens.

I do not tolerate a world emptied of you. I have tried.

In the dark, I have pored over the loss of you like pale gold.

I will not let her speak because I love her, and when you love someone, you do not make them tell war stories.

I moved the earth and the water for you.

You will always run away with her.

You will always lose her.

You will always be a fool.

You will always be dead, in a city of ice, snow falling into your ear.

You have already done all of this and will do it again.

No one should be judged for loving more than they ought, only for loving not enough.

We look terrible to you, and severe, and you see our blood flying.

What we carry between us is hard-won, and we made it just as we wished it to be, just the color, just the shape.

There need never be any rules between us.

Let us be greedy together; let us hoard.

Do not leave me, swear that you will never leave me.

I am selfish. I am cruel. My mate cannot be less than I.

Sleep with fists closed and shoot straight.

I can’t abide a poor liar.

You look like a winter’s night. I could sleep inside the cold of you.

Oh, quit that. Blushing is for virgins and Christians.

Scold me; deny me. Tell me you want what you want and damn me forever. But don’t leave me.

Bad luck relies on absolutely perfect timing.

In his own country, Death can be kind.

What is the world but a boxing ring where fools and devils put up their fists?

Men die. It’s practically what they’re for.

I am no one; I am nothing.

Nothing in me was not made by you.

A revelation is always the end of something. It might even be cause for grief.

Just tell yourself a story that’ll satisfy you and pretend he told it.

Forever isn’t bright; it isn’t like that. Forever is cold and hard and final.

I savor bitterness - it is born of experience. It is the privilege of one who has truly lived.

If you want to kill yourself, do not use us as your knife.

What did I do wrong? Was I boring? Did I ignore you?

Don’t you dare speak to me like that.

I have worn nothing but blood and death for years.

I have fought all your battles for you, just as you asked me.

I have learned not to cry when I strangle a man.

I have learned to watch everything die.

I am not a little girl anymore, dazzled by your magic. It is my magic, now, too.

Are we not devils?

No one is now what they were before the war.

I have not seen you without your skin on.

Close up your head; your brain is getting loose.

We obsess. It’s in our nature.

I’ve a devil of a habit for being right.

In war you must always choose sides.

If you try to be a bridge laid down between them, they will tear you in half.

We are all dead. All equal. Broken and aimless and believing we are alive.

My old bones will follow yours soon enough.

It is better to be strong and cruel than to be fair.

I will see him with his skin off before I agree to fall in love.

After love, no one is what they were before.

I have survived, but I have not been spared.

In the space of one heartbeat to another I loved you and I was lost to you.

Frighten me, make me cry, only come back.

It’s not so bad, my darling. Being dead. It’s like being alive, only colder.

You’ll think it’s love, while he dines on your heart.

You will be so beautiful when you are old.

I cannot keep you and I cannot let you go.

You will live as you live in any world…with difficulty, and grief.

I look at you and it is like my throat being cut.

She said you’d come and I swore to eat your heart.

I still want to kiss you.

My heart is being cut in two. I cannot bear it.

What happens to anything beautiful?

I have to know, I have to or else you will just rule me until the end of everything because you know and I do not.

[camellie]

       I’VE NEVER THOUGHT OF MYSELF AS MAGNIFICENT …     tsubaki                                        nakatsukasa of the soul eater manga. by nosta.

[ohisms]

𝑫𝑬𝑨𝑻𝑯 𝑶𝑭 𝑨𝑵 𝑶𝑷𝑻𝑰𝑴𝑰𝑺𝑻 .    (   lyric starters  originating  from  the  works  of  grandson .   mature  &  dark  themes  are  present ,   tread  with  caution .   ) 

❛  tell  me  what  you’re  trying  to  hide .  ❜ ❛  look  me  in  my  eyes ,   tell  me  everything’s  not  fine .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  got  a  secret  i  need  you  to  keep .  ❜ ❛  beg  me  for  mercy .  ❜ ❛  i’m  not  so  brave ,   &  i’m  not  so  smart .  ❜ ❛  i’m  doing  you  a  favor .  ❜ ❛  i  did  a  lot  wrong  that  i  can’t  make  right .  ❜ ❛  i  can’t  cope .  ❜ ❛  there’s  no  difference  between  you  &  i .  ❜ ❛  there’s  no  way  of  stopping  this .  ❜ ❛  is  there  anybody  out  there  that’s  paying  attention ?  ❜ ❛  i  try  to  do  my  part .  ❜ ❛  how  did  we  get  here ?  ❜ ❛  one  day  i  know  i’ll  regret  it .  ❜ ❛  i’m  in  love  with  the  pain .  ❜ ❛  idle  hands  are  the  devil’s  best  friend .  ❜ ❛  won’t  you  help  me ,   please ?  ❜ ❛  we  might  not  make  it  ‘til  the  morning .  ❜ ❛  i’m  a  sick  joke .  ❜ ❛  we’re  stronger  when  we’re  together .  ❜ ❛  it’s  the  same  shit ,   just  a  different  year .  ❜ ❛  i’m  terrified  none  of  it  matters  at  all .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  gotta  get  out  of  here  as  quick  as  i  can .  ❜ ❛  there’s  a  knock  at  your  front  door .  ❜ ❛  beg  me  for  mercy .  ❜ ❛  do  exactly  what  you’re  told .  ❜ ❛  don’t  listen  to  them ,   you’re  not  free .  ❜ ❛  there’s  nobody  that  can  stop  me .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  got  one  life  so  i’m  gonna  live  it .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  want  to  move  on .  ❜ ❛  where  the  fuck  do  we  go  now ?  ❜ ❛  my  heart  keeps  fucking  up  the  motherfucking  plan .  ❜ ❛  i’m  done  playing  games .  ❜ ❛  nobody  make  a  sound .  ❜ ❛  the  higher  the  crime ,   the  harder  the  fall .  ❜ ❛  everybody  told  me  ever  since  i  was  young ,   i  should  bite  my  tongue .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  know  where  i’m  gonna  go .  ❜ ❛  i  will  not  apologize .  ❜ ❛  i  think  it’s  time  for  a  change .  ❜ ❛  get  down  on  the  ground .  ❜ ❛  sometimes  the  bad  guy  wins .  ❜ ❛  this  is  my  one  shot  at  redemption .  ❜ ❛  i’m  looking  up  at  rock  bottom .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  want  to  get  left  behind .  ❜ ❛  is  this  what  you  wanted ?  ❜ ❛  i  wish  i’d  read  the  signs  better ,   ‘cause  the  writing  was  on  the  wall .  ❜ ❛  i’m  just  trying  to  get  used  to  these  changes .  ❜ ❛  i  thought  i  had  the  upper  hand .  ❜ ❛  one  day  you’ll  understand  why  i  pushed  you  away  as  i  ran .  ❜ ❛  what’s  your  alibi ?  ❜ ❛  i’ve  gotta  get  out  of  this  town  somehow .  ❜ ❛  the  bad’s  been  slowly  getting  worse .  ❜ ❛  what’s  your  life  worth ?  ❜ ❛  i’m  still  trying  to  find  my  identity .  ❜ ❛  somebody  call  the  doctor !  ❜ ❛  that  which  you  fear  is  that  which  you  become .  ❜ ❛  does  any  of  this  pain  have  meaning ?  ❜ ❛  i  was  in  over  my  head .  ❜ ❛  should  we  just  say  ‘to  hell  with  it  all’ ?  ❜ ❛  i’m  gonna  get  away  with  it .  ❜ ❛  you  think  that  you  can  stop  me ?  ❜ ❛  this  isn’t  gonna  be  some  little  fix .  ❜ ❛  i’m  sick  of  being  an  optimist .  ❜ ❛  don’t  resist  the  temptation .  ❜ ❛  we  can  all  be  saved .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  feel  something .  ❜ ❛  i’m  feeling  all  this  pressure ,   it’s  a  weight  on  my  shoulders .  ❜ ❛  i’m  looking  for  the  proof  that  i’m  alive .  ❜ ❛  all  i  ever  wanted  was  a  little  piece  &  quiet .  ❜ ❛  i  am  the  thing  you  created .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  tried  getting  better ,   did  all  of  the  twelve  steps .  ❜ ❛  if  you  love  me ,   let  me  go .  ❜ ❛  you  deserve  all  you’ve  got  coming .  ❜ ❛  i  spent  my  last  dollar  on  a  motherfucking  cab .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  got  no  hope ,   not  a  sliver .  ❜ ❛  sometimes  the  good  things  don’t  last .  ❜ ❛  i’ll  do  anything  for  you ,   just  tell  me  what  you  need .  ❜ ❛  the  goodbye  is  the  hardest  part .  ❜ ❛  i  never  thought  it’d  come  to  this .  ❜ ❛  everything  will  be  okay .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  done  bad  things  to  good  people .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  got  no  self  control ,   it’s  the  root  of  my  evil .  ❜ ❛  if  i  were  you ,   i  wouldn’t  love  me  neither .  ❜ ❛  i  keep  on  looking  at  the  world  like  i’m  an  optimist .  ❜ ❛  we  can’t  go  back .  ❜ ❛  have  you  ever  thought  that  you  don’t  know  it  all ?  ❜ ❛  i  wish  you  would’ve  called .  ❜ ❛  save  me  from  myself .  ❜ ❛  nobody  really  cared ,   so  it  never  really  mattered .  ❜ ❛  what’s  the  point  in  fighting  for  a  happy  ever  after ?  ❜ ❛  i’d  rather  drop  dead .  ❜ ❛  don’t  give  up  that  easy .  ❜ ❛  i  can’t  keep  my  shit  together .  ❜ ❛  life  is  a  bitch ,   she  doesn’t  fight  fair .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  live  for  something .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  die  for  something .  ❜ ❛  this  won’t  last  forever .   nothing  ever  lasts  forever .  ❜ ❛  i  think  i  need  some  guidance .  ❜ ❛  you  don’t  have  to  hurt  anymore .  ❜

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[camellie]

       I’VE NEVER THOUGHT OF MYSELF AS MAGNIFICENT …     tsubaki                                        nakatsukasa of the soul eater manga. by nosta.

[camellie]

                     “    sorry,   I        –    I   didn’t    know    this    spot    was    occupied    !    ”

                apologetic   is    her    tone,    fumbling    with    the    red    skirt   of    her    attire,    Tsubaki    remains    standing    a    few   feet    behind    the    stranger,    and    in    the    dim   light    of    the    full    moon,    only    their    cloaked   silhouette    is    visible    to    her,    lit    up    from   time    to    time    by    the    flames    of    the    fire   dancers    below.    While    the    spectacle    is    definitely   something    to    behold,    Tsubaki    prefers    solitude    to   large    crowds    gathered    below    the    rooftop    to   witness    the    autumn    festival.    And    there    is    also   the    fact    that    she    is    currently    searching    for   her        energetic    companion,    long    lost    in    the   ocean    of    fire    nation    citizens    celebrating.

           “    I   never    see    anyone    climb    up    here    …    ”    she   mumbles,    dares    to    climb    a    few    steps    up   towards    the    cloaked    figure    (   she    feels    no    uneasiness,    but    slight    anxiety   to    be    the    only    one    speaking    at    the    moment,   as    if    she    feared    she    would    mess    up    her   words    at    any    given    moment    ),   “    but    it’s    a    better    view    than    from    the   ground,    isn’t    it?    ”   (  @zuikko​  )

[camellie]

                     she’s    covered    in    flour,   and    half    –    baked    dough,      other    ingredients   scattered    across    her    hair    and    arms    (    a   sight    to    behold,    a    fire    extinguisher    in    her   hand    explains    the    obvious    stench    of    smoke    and   burnt    pastries    in    the    room    ).    and    as    she  exhales    a    heavy    sigh,    Tsubaki    blows    a    stray   hair    from    her    face,    leans    against    the    wall   and    places    the    now    emptied    artifact    on    the   rug    beneath    them.

                 “   so,    i    guess    i    won’t    be   asking    Blackstar    to    help    me    bake    the    second   round    of    cookies    …    ”    voice    sounds    defeated,   smoke    still    pours    through    the    kitchen    door   behind    her    as    she    glances    up    at    Yukako    with   apologetic    smile,    “    sorry,    i    completely    forgot   you    were    stopping    by    !   do    …    uh,    you    want    a    cookie?    I    think    i    saved   about    five    or    so    before    i    had    to    use    this   to    put    down    the    fire    …    ”   (  @ymagishi​  )

[camellie]

I WANT TO WRITE.  LIKE THIS!

[vhsmeme]

* love ♥ starters

‘ want me to stay? ’

‘ we’re almost home. ’

‘ you should be in bed. ’

‘ we can share it.’

‘ stay there. i’m coming to get you. ’

‘ shh, shh. you were dreaming. ’ 

‘ grab my hand. ’

‘ i’m just going to pick you up. ’

‘ everything okay? ’

‘ i won’t leave you behind. ’

‘ don’t worry. better out than in. ’

‘ who did that to you? ’ 

‘ sit down and rest. ’

‘ sweetie, i would never think that. ’

‘ come lay down in my lap. ’

‘ i know you think you’re all alone out there, but you’re not. ’

‘ call me when you get home. ’

‘ we should change those bandages. ’

‘ you’re safe here. ’

‘ honey… ’

‘ of course we love you. ’

‘ wait here. i’ll go run a bath for you. ’

‘ take my bed for tonight. ’

‘ i promise. ’ 

‘ you’re always welcome here. ’

‘ don’t talk like that. ’

‘ bad dream? ’

‘ talk to me. ’  

‘ it’s okay to cry. ’

‘ you need to be more careful.’

‘ we should hug this out. ’

‘ i worry about you. ’

‘ can i hold your hand? ’ 

‘ because i care about you. ’

‘ it made me think of you. ’ 

‘ take care of yourself. ’

‘ put your seatbelt on. ’ 

‘ where did you go? ’ 

‘ i didn’t mean to worry you. ’

‘ i made breakfast. ’

‘ sing something for me? ’

‘ open it and find out. ’

‘ how long have you been like this? ’

‘ you look nice. ’

‘ here, take my jacket. ’

‘ close your eyes and try to get some rest. ’

‘ focus on my voice. ’ 

‘ i meant every word. ’

‘ i was here all night. ’

‘ look both ways before you cross. ’

‘ you don’t have to talk. ’ 

‘ this is your favorite, right? ’

‘ you’ll feel better in the morning. ’

‘ you have a nice laugh. ’

‘ here, take my jacket. ’

‘ you could stay here. with me. ’

‘ we’ll figure it out together. ’

[camellie]

warriorhe​:

 ❝  hello  i’m  sokka  nice  to  meet  you.  ❞     sokka  holds  up  a   sock  puppets.   ❝  this  is  my   friend,    foofoocuddlypoops.  ❞  

@camellie​  liked  for  a  canon  dialogue   starter.   

               “    oh,    I    …    uh,    hi   –    ”    caught    off    guard    she    is    by    the   little    puppet    in    the    boy’s    hand,    she    blinks   twice    before    it    sinks    down    on    her    that    she’s   staring    at    it,    and    that    could    be   considered    rude    –    she’s    not    used    to    not   being    partnered    with    blackstar    for    the    academy’s   missions,    therefore,    anyone’s    antics    other    than   her    meister’s    are    still    difficult    for    her    to  grasp,    “    i’m    –    i’m    tsubaki    !   ”    awkward    wave    of    her    hand,    a    second,   smaller    wave    to    the    puppet,    “    I    usually    sit   at    the    front    of    the    class,    so    I    don’t   think    we’ve    talked    before.    it’s    nice    to    meet   you    !    ”

[edenmemes]

legend of zelda starters

❝ courage need not be remembered, for it is never forgotten. ❞

❝ you’ve met with a terrible fate, haven’t you? ❞

❝ am i so beautiful that you’ve got no words left? ❞

❝ forgive me. i’m a coward at heart. ❞ 

❝ you and i aren’t as different as we thought. ❞ 

❝ this time, we fight together. ❞ 

❝ if all else fails, use fire. ❞ 

❝ the history of light and shadow will be written in blood. ❞

❝ what makes you happy… does it make others happy, too? ❞

❝ it’s a secret to everybody. ❞

❝ do you ever feel a strange sadness as dusk falls? ❞ 

❝ tell them the war has ended. ❞ 

❝ many years ago, i felt so free… ❞ 

❝ we all deserve a happy ending, don’t we? ❞ 

❝ they were all good people…my people. ❞ 

❝ be careful about going around judging people by their appearance. ❞ 

❝ may the winds of fortune be at your back. ❞ 

❝ you have great eyes. they’re proud and wild…like a feral beast. ❞

❝ no matter what, a fake is a fake, and no matter how much you try to dress it up, the real thing always wins . ❞

❝ guess what? you got it for free. are you proud of yourself? ❞

❝ your true face… what kind of face is it? i wonder… the face under the mask… is that your true face? ❞

❝ you’re the bad guy. and when you’re bad, you just run. ❞ 

❝ you’ll come with me, won’t you? ❞

❝ this is your fate. don’t feel discouraged, even in the darkest of times. ❞ 

❝ may we meet again in another life. ❞

❝ you don’t have to look so sad. ❞

❝ everything. everything i’ve done up until now…it was all for nothing.. ❞

❝ i wonder, if you do the right thing, does it really make everyone happy? ❞

❝ whenever there is a meeting, a parting is sure to follow. ❞

❝ those who do not know the danger of wielding power will, before long, be ruled by it. ❞

❝ your friends… what kind of people are they? do these people think of you as a friend? ❞

❝ the flow of time is always cruel. ❞

❝ my bloodline endures the ravages of all the years. it survives. ❞ 

❝ the sight of your appalling hair makes my gorge rise. ❞ 

❝ we are fine here. we will greet the morning together. ❞ 

❝ i really am just a failure. ❞ 

❝ it’s dangerous to go alone. take me. ❞ 

❝ conquer yourself. ❞ 

❝ even though it was only a short time, i feel like i’ve known you forever. ❞

❝ it’s time for me to make up for my mistakes. ❞ 

❝ people are disgusting. my own father and mother are disgusting. you must be disgusting too. ❞ 

❝ there are some things in life you can’t change no matter how hard you try. ❞

❝ thought i chose the thief’s life, but it really chose me. ❞ 

❝ i’m not doing anything suspicious. really! ❞

❝ forgive your friend. ❞ 

❝ a man is an animal, too. ❞

❝ oceans…oceans…oceans as far as the eye can see. ❞

❝ heroes fade eventually but legends never die. ❞

❝ please…heal my sorrows. ❞

❝ i grant my eternal love to you. ❞

❝ he who wields such power would make a suitable king for this world, don’t you think? ❞

❝ i always believed you would come…because i know you. ❞

❝ it is destiny that you and i can’t live in the same world. ❞

❝ shadow and light are two sides of the same coin. one cannot exist without the other. ❞

❝ your slumber these past moons must have been restless and full of nightmares. ❞

❝ your gods have destroyed you. ❞

❝ your words are kind and your heart is true. ❞

❝ i believe this is what you call…happiness. ❞ 

❝ the mortal blow puts your life on the line. ❞ 

❝ your ears will bleed from the sounds of your own screams. ❞

❝ i consider the time spent with you some of the most special memories i have. ❞

❝ a sword wields no strength unless the hand that holds it has courage. ❞

❝ you fight like no man or demon i have ever known. ❞

❝ the thousand years of raindrops are my tears. ❞

❝ time passes, people move…like a river’s flow, it never ends. ❞ 

❝ it seems shadow has been moved by light. ❞

❝ the thunder that strikes the earth is my anger. ❞

❝ to tell you the truth, I’m feeling a bit frustrated, and right now I just need someone to vent to. ❞

❝ isn’t it petty? little battles like this? ❞ 

❝ wait! do not be so hasty. ❞ 

❝ a thing that does not change with time is a memory of younger days. ❞

❝ don’t ever forget me. if you do, i’ll never forgive you. ❞

❝ if it is something that can be stopped, then just try to stop it. ❞

❝ my hate never perishes. it is born anew in a cycle with no end . ❞

❝ we’ll be friends forever, won’t we? ❞

❝ do you have any idea how that made me feel inside? Furious. Outraged. ❞

❝ i’ve taken all that you had to give… though I did not want it . ❞

❝ i follow the strongest side. that is all i have ever known. ❞

❝ he wasn’t talking about strength, like lifting stuff. he was talking about being brave. ❞ 

❝ believe in your strengths. ❞

[camellie]

tsubaki nakatsuka.sa is gonna change the world someday and i’m not sure she even knows it. 

[camellie]

       I’VE NEVER THOUGHT OF MYSELF AS MAGNIFICENT …     tsubaki                                        nakatsukasa of the soul eater manga. by nosta.

[camellie]

moondeitys​:

❛  …  maybe you do,  but i don’t.  ❜  he knows what she’s talking about,  is familiar with the heaviness on his shoulders that he’s never once put down.  in a way,  she sounds like amu                                               optimistic,  kind,  one to ramble a little too much for anything coherent to come out of it.  and if he was to be honest,  if he was to scrape away a layer of that glacier that’s come to wrap around him like a cocoon,  he’d tell her the words are comforting even if he doesn’t catch most of it.  he’d tell her thanks for the reassurance with the barest of smiles,  one dipped in a teasing color just to lighten the mood.  if it was a different situation,  maybe he would’ve even given her a problem or two of his  (  the problems that weigh heavy,  heavy,  heavy on his shoulders  ;  atlas in the form of a teenaged boy roped into a dog eat dog eat dog world  ).    except this isn’t a different situation,  and he has no reason to melt away the walls he keeps around himself.  as far as he’s concerned,  they are coworkers with a similar goal,  and he is a wild animal leashed to a selfish organization intent on wringing him dry.  ❛  just so you know,  this is only temporary. i don’t really have any intentions on getting tangled up with something unnecessary.  ❜  he turns towards the hallway,  head tilting towards the dark.  ❛  and there’s something up ahead,  if you want to go check it out.  ❜

                          She    feels    herself    deflate   a    bit    (    encouraging    words    are    all    she    can  offer    towards    the    boy    with    the    blue    hair   and    somber    eyes    ),    still,    she    keeps    herself  steady    and    standing,    dares    even    to    take    a   few    steps    towards    Ikuto,    slowly    and    soundlessly,   as    if    she    feared    he    would    lash    out    if    she  took    him    by    surprise    (    blackstar    usually   does    –    he    doesn’t    like    being    caught    off   guard    ).    nails    press    into    her    palms,    an   old    habit    that    shows    a    bit    of    anxiety    –   she    doesn’t    know    what    to    say    when    he   falls    silent    again,    like    he’s    decided    those   to    be    his    final    words    and    no    other    attempt   at    communication    is    made.

                   But    then,    he    speaks    again,   and    his    statement    quirks    a    brow    from    Tsubaki,   eyes    that    were    cast    to    her    shoes    now    raise   to    meet    Ikuto    (    there    is    something    akin   to    indifference    in    his    gaze    –    does   he    not    care?    ),    and    as    he    says   it    –    unnecessary    –    Tsubaki    grows   slightly    confused,    enough    so    to    murmur,    “    i   mean    …    i    thought    it    would    be    important    to   you    .        you    were    part    of    this    before    me   and    blackstar    arrived,    so    i    just    assumed    –   ”    voice    is    cut    by    his    quiet    remark;    senses  try    to    adjust    to    the    dark    quicker,    and    she  reaches    for    her    weapon,    “    i    don’t    hear   -    i    guess    your    hearing    is    better    than    mine   …   ”

[camellie]

“ you didn’t get hurt. that’s what matters. ”     (  @ymagishi​  )

                                           “    i    know    …    i    just   –    ”

               there    is    hesitation    in   acknowledging    the    other’s    words    (    it’s    not   a    matter    of    pride,    but    of    responsibility    thrust   upon    her    shoulders    from    an    early    age    ).   Tsubaki    thinks,    even    if    she    doesn’t    realize   it,    that    she    must    protect    everybody    around    her   –    must    take    care    of    everybody    the    way    she  would    her    meister    (    even    if    he    does    not  need    it,    either    ).    to    have    almost    failed   to    protect    Yukako    weights    heavily    on    Tsubaki’s   conscience    as    the    other    finishes    cleaning   her    cuts    and    gashes,    abdomen    wrapped    up    in   fabric    precariously    made    into    bandages.    

                        “    you    could’ve    gotten   hurt    as    well.    as    part    of   the    academy,    i’m    supposed    to    protect    all   civilians    –    ”        she    sounds    quite    a    bit   like    Maka    at    the    moment    (    they    seem   to    share    that    perpetual    weight    of    being    the   responsible    ones;    Soul    has    said    so   before    )    .    and    as    she    exhales    heavily,   Tsubaki    nibbles    on    the    inside    of    her    cheek,   dull    fingernails    press    into    her    palms    enough    to  cause    a    sting    (    a    childhood    habit,    she   thought    it    long    gone    ),    “    it’s    just    …   i    simply    need    to    be    stronger    –    so    there  won’t    be    a    next    time.    ”    decisiveness    is   visible    in    her    eyes;    she’s    already    trying    to   stand    up    despite    her    injuries,    “    miss    yukako  …    i’m    sorry    that    i    put    you    in    danger   …    !    ”    palms    are   pressed    together,    as    if    praying    the    other   girl    will    forgive    her    for    it,    “and    thank   you    so    much    for    the    bandages    !    ”