Cam💜

Finally doing me

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Time is something we definitely can’t get back but yet I still let it affect me

Idk what it is but the weight I put on my shoulders of not pulling out of a toxic relationship just eats at me. I hate that I let so much damage happen to myself, didn’t give myself time to handle all the feelings I’ve bottled for years. Not only did I hurt myself, but I did hurt also the person I thought was the love of my life by wasting both of our times, too many what ifs that I try not to dwell on and am looking forward to move on from

Now every time I have a chance with someone I enjoy being around I put too much stress in my head to not mess things up. There’s times where I am being myself, I’m loose. But there are times I’m so nervous or I’m constantly thinking about how I’m going to woo her but it’s too much thought honestly. If anyone knows me they know I over think everything, I hate that part about myself, but my thoughts go away when I’m enjoying whoever’s presence.

I guess where I’m trying to get at is, my head calms down when I’m with her, obviously things are feeling like lust but who knows what could happen. And I’m just ready to move on from my past and look forward to something way better. Tired of beating myself up all the time, going on lonely drives thinking about where did I go wrong with this girl, or this one or her. I need to chill out and just not soul search so hard, it just exhausts my head.

Idk man, it’d be cool to get some therapy. I could roughly guess there was a time I didn’t talk to my ex for maybe 6-8 months or so and during periods when we weren’t together life was great. But going back and forth with her for almost 10 years bro, I can’t help but be ashamed of myself for digging myself in a hole and almost emotionally numbing myself to the fullest. Thank god I had a loving mother that showed me how to care for others because that’s my mask, I like making other people happy but unfortunately that also doesn’t let me think about myself, which is something I haven’t done in awhile because that lead me to putting too much weight on myself to not waste my exes time.

It’s time to start doing things for myself, I have 3 weeks vacation this year and I need to turn myself around. I’m 24, turning 25 at the end of the year and I just want joy. I’ll be back here sooner tumblr because I need some kind of ventilation

Much love, Cam💜

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Been feeling very low for quite sometime now and I’m not sure how to bounce back. Definitely in need of a change of scenery but as always my biggest fear is doing things on my own. I’ve always been so dependent on someone helping me get around, I know I can do things on my own, I think what I’m most scared of is looking for that change and being let down, expectations not being met, which is stupid, I’m too much of a perfectionist and put too much weight on myself but isn’t that a good thing? Idk man this is just my head racing

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Make your intentions clear.

We all are here for a reason, and there are many reasons to be here. Everyone wants to feel needed, included and even flirted with, we all have a need to be desirable. Please keep in mind that we are emotional little animals and can take things to heart.

If all you want is playtime and nudies, be up front about it, don't hide what you want because there are others that want the same thing. Some of us are fragile and don't want to be manipulated.

If you want romance, make it clear as to what you desire. Don't let someone guess what you want, only you know the answer to that, we're not mind readers.

If all you want in a relationship is to have someone guide and encourage you, let them know. Don't wait until they try to expand the relationship and get hurt because they didn't know.

Be honest in all your words and actions, it'll come back to bite you if you aren't.

Giving yourself over to someone is a very serious decision, don't let them rush you, make it clear up front what you want and need. Likewise, taking on someone as a sub or little is an extremely important role. Take time, lots of time to decide, keep them in the loop.

Be upfront if all you are seeking is friendship and not a serious relationship. Is it possible for something to arise from the friendship? You bet, just always be communicating. Don't be upset if they don't reciprocate, they have been living off of your initial intentions.

If all you want is a high headcount on your blog, don't flirt and tease people to get you there. These are real people with real emotions, not numbers.

If someone messages you or sends you Asks, respond. I don't care who you are and how many DMs you think you get, everyone deserves a response. Be open about your intentions, but for crying out loud, these people invested time in you to message, message everyone back. Trust me, you're not that important to brush someone off.

I want to make one thing very clear, if you do develop a relationship with someone and do move to the sexual aspect of it, aftercare is the most important thing that you can do. Do not, and I mean never ever have playtime then immediately leave. If you don't have time for aftercare, you certainly don't have time for playtime. Both parties need aftercare, it is more important of a connection than the sexual portion.

Be nice to one another and make your intentions clear.

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Did you miss me enough to drink, and did you drink enough to miss me?

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Still be feeling alone, helpless, even when my friends are there for me I know I still have to go back to an empty bed. Still accepting be alone but I hate sleeping alone. Accepting pain and heartbreak with passion while loving it? Almost like I like the pain, it feels deserving?