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indie audra denbrough of stephen king's it | est. sept. '19 | written by tara { she/they, 25 }

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okay okay i am not capable of running more than 3 indie blogs lmfao so pls follow audra @ephemaera uwu

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guys what if i moved audra to my multi

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ok update leaving fearfollow would make mee too sad so im gonna be a 4 blog havin bitch i think

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so i think im gonna bring audra back ebgiurbgiur

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stan & audra — “how are you feeling?”

assorted injuries / aftercare ( accepting )

stan’s never been so tired before in his entire life.

it’s as if every one of his cells has been sapped of their energy, the act leaving him sore all over, bed bound, and really, really goddamn tired.

( oh yeah, and in the hospital - but that’s not that important. )

after a few slow, heavy blinks, he decides he’s just going to talk to audra with his eyes closed. he knows she’s real, the hand she’s resting atop his own is warm, and well — corporeal ? so she’s not a figment of his imagination, or a trick conjured up by an inter-dimensional, soul-eating alien.

that, and bill did mention she was planning on visiting later this afternoon. oh look. it’s the afternoon.

shaking his head to clear away the mental fog, stan winces when the movement jostles a few stitches, but he’s able to spare audra a glance, the slightest corner of his mouth tugging up in a grin.

“ you know, not great if we’re being honest. ”

understatement of the century.

it’s funny–– it’s hardly been a week and audra already feels like she couldn’t possibly imagine her life without the losers. the feeling is warm and new, but had the sense of being something old and well-worn. audra is sure it’s just a side effect of them being good people; bill’s childhood friends welcoming her with open arms. the sensation must be about ten times worse for bill. he’d lived most of his life never remembering them, the profound impact they’d had, even if its shape had never been clear.

still, her affection for the group is real, strong. she gazes down at stanley like he’s an old college buddy who used to hold her hair back at parties. audra doesn’t mind if he can’t open his eyes, and even the smallest of grins has her smiling widely.

“oh, really? because it’s doing wonders for the rest of us.” she sniffs with a feigned sense of ease. “yeah, it’s been doing wonders for my skin, actually.”

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It: Part 2 (1990)

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CONTENT WARNING for discussions of abuse of power, physical threats, minor sexual harassment (i only say minor because it’s like vaguely implied and i’m probably reaching?)

okay im not even putting this in the tags because its my blog and im gonna fuckin!!! okay

SO!!!! I THINK ABOUT THIS A LOT BECAUSE THE MINISERIES???? LIKE REALLY GOES IN ON GRECO (AUDRA’S PRODUCER/DIRECTOR) BEING NASTY??? and i’m always so interested in like? the role greco (or whomever runs the shoot) and like how? he manipulates audra? like idk i feel like the miniseries just alludes to such an abuse of power on his part and i think that’s so representative of what audra has struggled with?

like hollywood as an industry and the pressures of it making her feel like she has to bend over backwards to be pleasing and easy to work with and like present in all the right places at all the right times

and the way that greco is a) threatening her career [which, in my mind, means exposing her previously secret battle with addiction]

b) like? speaking about her in a way that like? stands out to me as violent. i mean he LITERALLY says he could become a violent enemy and CRUCIFY her like????? i don’t think physical threat is absent from this conversation and i don’t think it’s the first time he’s threatened her to be completely fucking honest.

not to mention c) in the next part of this post, he literally like expresses his desire for the end of her marriage. i realize on one hand audra being married to bill is like not convenient for financial reasons bc she listens to bill and he’s like dragging his feet with the shoot and he’s A Distraction or whatever but like??? is greco coming onto her? i feel like it could be there, to be honest. i think he’s using every tactic in the book to intimidate her and i also feel like he has a weird kind of jealous/inc*l thing going on with her and i just decided to yell about it im so sorry to anyone who read this lmao

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❛❛ pleqse— Please stay with me tonight? I don’t want to be alone. ❜❜ I love human kitty who loves audra and in spite of having one eye is still capable of being fully 🥺

soft/caring sentence compilation | accepting

Audra’s brows quirked up, pulling together high on her forehead. “Hey, yeah. Of course I will.” Without meaning to, she drew her lips into a slight pout, tucking a stray tendril of hair behind Kitty’s ear. “What’s up, beautiful?” The words may have sounded cheesy from anyone other than Audra, but she truly meant them. She loved Kitty with all her heart, and she was worried. Something had seemed off, but Audra did her best not to pry, knowing that it was sometimes too difficult for her to talk about. Already, she wished that she could crush whatever it was that was hurting her dearest beneath her heel–– but the time for protective anger could come later. “I’m here, you’ve got me. And if you want to talk about it, I want to listen.”

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soft/caring sentence compilation | accepting

audra immediately perked up at the suggestion. “aw, really? that would be so much fun! are you sure?” of course she knew that fred’s offer was genuine, but it was hard for her, sometimes, to accept such kind gestures. during her first years in hollywood, offers of kindness had masked bad intentions. that, compacted with the fact that audra hated to ask for anything from anyone made her a little skittish. 

but this wasn’t ‘hollywood,’ this was fred. relax, audra reminded herself, you’re allowed to have friends and you’re allowed to rely on them.

“i’d really like that,” she finally said, offering a genuine smile. “name a time and a place and i’m there.”

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soft caring sentence compilation

❛❛ I took your hoodie and I’m not giving it back. ❜❜ 

❛❛ Please just… just hold me. ❜❜ 

❛❛ C’mere. Lean on me. ❜❜

❛❛ You look like you need a hug. Come here. ❜❜ 

❛❛ I’m never leaving this blanket nest ever again. ❜❜

❛❛ I know you don’t like hugs, but… I could really use one right now… ❜❜

❛❛ Just stay a little longer. Please. ❜❜

❛❛ It’s so cold outside, but you’re so warm… ❜❜

❛❛ I’m sorry. I should have asked first, just… it reminded me of you. ❜❜

❛❛ Let me hold you for a while. ❜❜

❛❛ It’s okay. I’ve got you. ❜❜

❛❛ Everything hurts. Being with you is the only good thing in the world anymore. ❜❜

❛❛ Hey, hey, don’t cry. It’s okay. C’mon, come sit under the blanket with me. ❜❜

❛❛ All I want to do is sit and eat cookies and watch cheesy romcoms right now. But I’d love some company. ❜❜

❛❛ I brought blankets, takeout, and your favourite movie. I know it won’t fix everything, but it might help. ❜❜

❛❛ Please stay with me tonight. I don’t want to be alone. ❜❜

❛❛ I made some tea. Now, do you need to talk? Or should I just put on some music? ❜❜

❛❛ I’m not going to leave. I’ll stay as long as you need me to. ❜❜

❛❛ Your hair’s soft… I just want to pet it until I forget everything but how soft it is… ❜❜

❛❛ Shh, shh. It’s okay. You’re alright. You’re safe now. ❜❜

❛❛ I know you’re hurting right now, and I’m so sorry. Tell me what will help and I’ll do it. ❜❜

❛❛ I just want to see you smile again. ❜❜

❛❛ This is stupid but… could you sing to me? You have such a nice voice, and I think it might help calm me down… you don’t have to, but… ❜❜

❛❛ Lay your head in my lap and try to get some rest. ❜❜

❛❛ wait , did you just say you love me? ❜❜

❛❛ i’m so happy! ❜❜

❛❛ is this a gift for me? ❜❜

❛❛ hey! i’ve got something for you! wait right here! ❜❜

❛❛ i love you. ❜❜

❛❛ wow … your smile is breathtaking. ❜❜

❛❛ let me take you out on a date. ❜❜

❛❛ so what will it be tonight? ❜❜

❛❛ you know , you’re really cute. ❜❜

❛❛ shh … don’t cry. ❜❜

❛❛ so … do i get a goodnight kiss? ❜❜ 

❝  i’m here for you.  ❞

❝  let me help with that.  ❞

❝  i’m here.  ❞

❝  nothing’s gonna hurt you.  ❞

❝  if they do it again, you tell me.  ❞

❝  i’ll protect you. ❞

❝  i’ll make sure nothing bad happens to you.  ❞

❝  let me take a look…  ❞

❝  i’m a phone call away.  ❞

❝  you should have called me.  ❞

❝  here, sleep.  ❞

❝  if you wanna talk, i’m here.  ❞

❝  hey, shh, it’s okay.  ❞

❝  i’ll never let you go.  ❞

❝  you’re with me now.  ❞

❝  nothing’s gonna take you from my side.  ❞

❝  i’ll do what i have to.  ❞

❝  i need you to stay here, okay? i got this.  ❞

❝  it’s safe here.  ❞

❝  i’m fine, let me see your face.  ❞

❝  we’re gonna have to keep ice on that.  ❞

❝  i like seeing you smile.  ❞

❝  you’re so beautiful.  ❞

❝  you don’t have to talk, we can just sit together.  ❞

❝  i miss/missed you.  ❞

❝  let me do this for you.  ❞

❝  i’m on your side  ❞

❝  i’ve got your back, okay?  ❞ 

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hoo hoo big summer blowout

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so as im sure you guys have noticed ive been a lil scarce here bc my brain is? being stubborn i guess and my muse for audra has been p low :(

BUT i decided to reboot and rebrand (lol) my long neglected multi so if ur into it, follow me over there @faltlines

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     ❛           i    miss    moments    like    this    more    than      anything.           ❜ 

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❛    god, so do i.     ❜    audra replies, dramatically pitching forward on the couch so she’s half sprawled across regina’s lap.   ❛    i wish we had come up together, you know?    ❜    she says wistfully,   ❛    we could have had an apartment together and it would have been at least a few years of nothing but this.   ❜