Help me please
My sister, she made me suffer. Everyday i felt it that she saw me as nothing that she is such a perfect little bitch who is such a spoiled brat. I tried to protect her from our relatives, so her bitchy and mean attitude won't come out. But, she did anyway and my grandma even know how mean she is to me and my twin sister. I know since the day one she always think i'm a freak. That i never and will ever had a good and fun life like she claims is "her life". She saw me a stupid person. She once called me "you are not smart academically" and made me feel like such a stupid person. I felt so low and had no self esteem since i was a child. I'm scared to tell my parents what good things happen to me because i feel like my sister will sabotage it as something usual. I was once wanted to be am architect and that she said "you have a taste in house but that doesn't mean you can be an architect" and i rember it was in PIK we were about to go out for lunch. She once told my twin sister too that she chose being a pilot and not going to college will make her attitude "childish" (as if she is grown up) and that she once told me when i failed my test to go tk Med school she said "maybe you should try another faculty" with a fucking bitch tone and i still can picture her face when she said that to me. When i went in to the college she always tell me how not intrested she is to try on the college i'm in as if it was a trash. She literally said to me that my university is trash and hers is better. She always come up to me by like how amazing and how beautiful she is. Talking about herself being complimented in a car for hours just to tell us that "she is sooo pretty" that everyone saw her as this fucking perfect bitch. She cheated on her bf, she stole my money to look good in front of her new potential bf after she ran out of money because she constructed her face to put filler on her face. She act like she was sorry before and promise to give the money back but she never once talk about giving the money back to me. My mom never even told her to give the money back to me. Like my mom wants me to forget about this shit she did to me. Like she wants me to forgive her by just letting it go and letting me feel like a fucking useless person. I save that money. I needed that money too because i live far from home because of my college. That money she took was the money for me to live in my dorm. For my food, my transportation money, books for college, etc. She dont have to get me. She didn't experience what i have. All she wants was to everyone look at her perfect, smart and pretty just like what she wants. She literally wants me and my twin sister to be the shadow. The shadow of her lights that shine on everyone's face while me and my twin sister keeping all the fire she cause because of the shine she was creating. We hid the toxic so everyone won't know how arrogant and mean she is to us. How low she looked at me and my twin sister. She acted humble but the truth she treated our family like trash. She treated my mom like a trash thinking that she is no one and stupid because my mom is "only" housewife. The housewife who took care of her and even wake her up for her activities. She can yell at my dad just because she feels like it. But, i blame my parents. Everything happen because of them. They always want me to forget all her mean and shit things that happen to me and twin sister. She once beat me so hard because i stand up for myself. But, my family never spoke or even treated her with a punishment and thats why she never feel like she deserve to be punish. My mom, always say nice things about her in front of me when i'm mad at her. Making me feel guilty. Making me feel like a total shit. She wants me to forgive her but never in her head wants to change the way she treated me and my twin sister. She always thought what my sister did as a pilot is easy and immature. She always think it's easy to do because what she did is the hardest and no one can ever do it but her.
