to my 19 year old self.
hello Cameron. I know you think you're stressed now but trust me, it gets tougher, then better...but tougher first. just have faith and appreciate the present.
I don't know how much I want to spoil for you but I must let you know, college doesn't work out, but it's for the better.
The girl you're with now isn't your forever, I think deep down you know that already. the girl you meet after her will become a big part of your life. And the girl you meet after her will break your heart, put it back together, then break it again. it will hurt deeply, I can't say yet if you'll ever truly get over it.
now onto the good ( I know you're like wtf)
you do get you're own car, two actually. you get your own apartment with a balcony. your income is unstable but by the grace of good, you're never broke and you get to do what you want everyday. shit, today you went cycling, hung out with a friend, considered going to a soccer match, and played video games. things are overall good.
I will say tho... you do lose your hair :( but you and everyone says it actually looks good. so you learn to love it.
you become closer to your father, and your mother.
As for advice ummmm... idk you've never been too good at following directions and that doesn't change.
But i'd say, don't rush. learn to take EVERYTHING slow. be patient. THINK before you speak. save your money too, I know you don't have any right now but you come into some eventually so learn to be frugal, look it up.
its 4am and the overthinking mixed with deep reminiscing has caused me to write this.
and also because I know you only believe what you see, ill leave you a picture to prove everything gets better. its from a work trip in New York. you were there for a week and are now considering moving there full time.
the future is brighter than its ever been.
