The world ended when it happened to me.

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[can-i-give-up-now-please]

Disclaimer: I know I make some heavy posts, I live with chronic suicidal ideation. I write to express myself and I hope it may also help some people feel less alone. I am under a team and recieving support and treatment, please don't worry about my safety - they are looking out for me. I also sometimes really struggle to reply to comments or messages because of my anxiety but they are so appreciated xxx

[d-i-d]

[sa-dnesss]

“I don’t know how to do this anymore. I don’t know how to get better. My head is a dark place and it only gets worse, day by day. and I have no idea how to stop the darkness from coming in. I have no idea how to save myself anymore.”

—

[sa-dnesss]

and just like that, I’m back in the same place I fought so hard to get out of

[byesuggestion]

i hope i die soon

[stay-close]

I'm sad; not the kind of sad that fades away next week or next month. The kind of sad that shows up one day ten years ago out of the blue and seems to stick with you. The kind you cannot seem to shake. The kind that no one ever talks about.

— Lynette Simeone

[lilithmaze1998]

I'm too fucking old to be dealing with this shit. Should've killed myself when I was 16.

[fucklife101]

I feel like everything is falling apart quicker than I can pick up the pieces and put them back together.

[ru1n3r]

i think if i had the option to never have existed i would pick that

[becherdireinen]

How many nights have you wondered if life will ever get easier?

[abnormall]

[wishing-for-deathx]

I look at others and I feel so sad for myself. I’m just existing. And they are living. They are able to move on and get ahead in life but all I do is stay stuck in the past and suffer

[maybeshehasbpd]

it gets worse before it gets way worse

[sweet-tournesol]

i am so fucking lost with myself and scared about the future

[dustbinflower0]

For most of my life I haven't wanted to live

[can-i-give-up-now-please]

I want to die, I don't want to do this anymore, I don't want to be here anymore, I have absolutely no interest in 'getting better', my reality is that 'better' is just short periods of relative stability that never ever last, I don't want to live this life

[can-i-give-up-now-please]

I'm just really not sure that I'm going to make it through this life. I can't catch a break, I can't trust any moment when I feel ok, because everytime I think I've come out the other side something else knocks me back. I don't know that I want to survive, I really don't think I do. What's the point of holding on and making it out the other side, because I've made it to the other side, I truly have two or three times I have finally been ok, but each time over the years I end up back here again. I don't want this life, I don't want to exist in this world, I don't want to exist with my brain.

04/06/26