the night I am crying myself to bed is mostly the night I am sorry for myself.
And nothing I have to sorry tonight, called me masochist, things that (everybody said) must be hurt, mostly get me hi!
pertama dan utama sekali ini ceritanya lagi surprised, thank God, for not letting me cry, but subtitute the tears into some kind of a horrible ache in my left side head, yup, migrain you named it! Apapunlah yang penting masi gaya, kalo ditanya lo kenapa? Pusing! daripada lo kenapa? nangis yaaa??? Uuuuh shame! ;p
All night, I am just trying to figure out why I feel so.... hmmm messed(?) I dont sure what is called, confused but dont know what I am confusing for, yup, messed, right?
and here a battle started; my heart feels like mess, but my head trying to find; why.
I want something, what I find is not the exact thing I want. I can't force the thing to be what I want, simply, it is not made for me, maybe for someone else. Proposition said that, the thing is determined for each of us, soooo what is determined for me, is somewhere out there, arrive someday(or perhaps it is only when I keep on learning to find it). So the only thing I have to do is let this thing I've find go, right? right? Right???
So this is not love (according to my opinion. Yeaaaaa what do you expect?).
here, finally, a little fact, a little out of topic:
Immanuel Kant: Rasional adalah suatu pemikiran yang masuk akal,sesuai aturan hukum alam.
Contoh: Pesawat dengan berat ratusan ton dapat terbang adalah hal yang rasional. Karena pesawat tersebut telah dirancang sedemikian rupa, sehingga sesuai dengan hukum alam
Nabi Ibrahim dibakar tidak hangus, adalah hal yang tidak rasional. Karena sesuai hukum alam, api itu panas. Namun kasus ini dikatakan logis (logis supra rasional), pemikiran yang kebenarannya hanya mengandalkan argument, tidak dengan hukum alam; Api adalah ciptaan Allah, yang terdiri dari dzat apinya, dan sifat panasnya. Allah sebagai pencipta dapat memerintahkan api tersebut untuk panas, hangat, dingin, semaunya, dan untuk menyelamatkan Ibrahim, dibuatlah api tersebut tidak panas, logis.
Love can be logic, because that is love, love is blind(argument).
Rasionalnya, according to my case, it just gonna be like that, love it or leave it, and nothing you need to cry.
So far, i can solve this situation with head, though my headache get worse, but finally, I dont know if I should have thanks or instead shame for this actually not about love, accomplised.
Maybe this is just about learning, fight for what you deserve. it's still make senses, it is not love. or, perhaps, not stupid love. pfffft.
And looong time ago, I were in love, I've tried to make it right, but it didn't seem to work out, when finally it didn't even makes sense, I gave up, I couldn't find the reason why I have that blind, the only reason is I were in love, never make senses, I feel so so so sorry for myself when finally realize that I love the wrong person, I cried.
Dont take it too serious, hehe, I enjoy the process, finding, and loving, and leaving, and hurting, and realizing, and learning, though it is hurt, there are the A,B,C, i wanna reach the next and next chapter, till I find the best part of all.
and I wish someday, I'm gonna be in love again, with the right person. I will.
(this actually story about yesterday, my head was to painfull to face the light yesterday)
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