Not the punk rock pixie of my dreams

"I woke up one morning tired of being treated like dirt. So that's when the person people would walk over became well somewhat done with it. Sure I hadn't faintest clue how to do this. But I'll figure it out." ~S.A.P (From a story I may write) 

[candyhalo]

Meant to post that poem elsewhere since has to abandon this blog... Whoops

[candyhalo]

I don't know what I believe

Maybe God is a fraud

Or maybe it's like when somebody lets go of the bike

Expecting you to do it on your own

Yet here I am having crashed into a tree

Shoes and pants tangled in chains

My feelings are complicated

Childhood religion's in questions

I don't think it is honest enough

You got to put forth effort

You got to pray as if persistence gets results

Attending church doesn't magically cure depression

I only can speak for and live my life

Nothing's wrong with being gay or trans,etc

Family can be full of shit

I think everybody got it all twisted

Even for a so called progressive church

Still miles from getting basic concepts

And if my cousin loves girls

Who is everybody else to deem it wrong

Let her be free to do so

Without added stress

Cause I have been that route

Minus the accepting parents

[looniemoonie-blog1]

#1 baths

[pdagoth-archive-blog]

*strums guitar strings* I wish I was a cis boy

[cosmosoler-blog]

like if you want to be a disembodied thought being

reblog if its due to dysphoria

[the-stellar-kindergarten]

Trying to explain your sad be like-

[thetroublesofbeingtrans]

if ur dysphoric as fuck and want to smash ur entire body with a very large hammer clap ur hands

[cur-sed]

[uservik]

magnus bane + using his magic to save people

[princeofedom-deactivated2019071]

Magnus Bane + books

[candyhalo]

Therapy appointment first thoughts: No thanks After meeting the therapist: Okay finally I got an decent person who treats me like an person and what not

In other news this speech went down and it was wonderful Therapist: Come on ask me a question isn’t fair to you to have to answer so many and not ask any Me *panics*: Are you lgbt friendly? Me mentally: I TAKE IT BACK BAD IDEA MY MOUTH JUST UGH Therapist: Yeah are you supportive of the community or anything-mean I don’t know much but I’m not biased don’t have to reply back if you don’t want

Also notable mentions Therapist: Compliments my unintentional sarcastic comments/the fact I smirked afterwards (Rarely smile around people,or feel at ease so points there) Therapist: *says a thing that makes my day,possibly week* Therapist: You sure you don’t want to go to the treat room and get something Therapist: It’s okay-but do want you to bring that up later on Therapist: Maybe I can learn from you-feel free to correct me Therapist: I like it keeps me on my toes (Referring to how I use meh in an really interesting format of speech)

Walked in expecting to get emotionally exhausted,become moody Walked out trying not to smile/holding back happy tears Even was slightly truthful despite lying a good amount which was so weird

[overtxre]

nothing flashed before my eyes no pretty angels, and no bright lights all I saw was the devil’s soul and it looked a hell of a lot like my own

bath salts // highly suspect (via overtxre)

[badass-boytoy-deactivated201802]

Favorite Things To Do After Top Surgery

-Sleep shirtless -Work out -Build my chest muscles -Run -Walk around in my underwear -Stand up straight -Shirtless selfies -Buying new shirts (that I wear 40% of my day) -Tank tops and douchebag shirts -Massage my scars -Put lotion on my nips -Look at myself in the mirror -Sending shirtless selfies to friends/family -Change in the locker room -Show off the progress I’ve made on my body -Hugging people -When someone playfully hits my chest or puts their hands on it -Smiling

[anthony-kate]

#talk about boyfriends being extra™ #or to put it mildly #another sign that they are simply perfect for each other

[anthony-kate]

1x06 | 2x10

bonus:

[bane-light]

A very important list

[matt-daddario-deactivated201803]

A lot has changed