welcome to the rot box !! a small selfship blog !!
you can call me capsule and i use he/it pronouns - i appreciate you stopping by :P
this blog is dedicated to gushing about f/o’s and feeding the depraved gays of fandom communities. i write with male readers in mind and will mostly use gender neutral or he/him pronouns. sorry women, i’m a gay guy with gay needs
asks and stuff are open if you wanna talk or request !!
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quick warning that i do sometimes repost suggestive content but won’t write it myself !! apologies if that makes you uncomfortable
it’s not very often i find a m! reader centric blog and im happy there’s one in trigun !!
what is ur opinion on midvalley the hornfreak?
I HAVE NOT BEEN ON HERE IN A WHILE HELLO
i still get so happy seeing people interact with this blog oh em goodness getting a notif in my inbox made me twirl about all silly
MIDVALLEY THE HORNFREAK !!! i think he is such an interesting character and his design is soooo good (all the trigun men are drop dead gorjus let’s be so real)
i’m still making my way thru trimax so i’ve only like seen him through 98 BUT I THOUGHT HIS FIGHT SCENES WERE SOSOSO GOOD
it’s not very often i find a m! reader centric blog and im happy there’s one in trigun !!
what is ur opinion on midvalley the hornfreak?
I HAVE NOT BEEN ON HERE IN A WHILE HELLO
i still get so happy seeing people interact with this blog oh em goodness getting a notif in my inbox made me twirl about all silly
MIDVALLEY THE HORNFREAK !!! i think he is such an interesting character and his design is soooo good (all the trigun men are drop dead gorjus let’s be so real)
i’m still making my way thru trimax so i’ve only like seen him through 98 BUT I THOUGHT HIS FIGHT SCENES WERE SOSOSO GOOD
being a part of self ship and seeing ppl older than me self ship is really cathartic. i often feel embarrassed by still being into fictional characters in my 20s because all of my friends i knew since i was younger have moved on and can't relate to me anymore and i feel like they look down on me for still being into fictional characters so intensely. but then i see people selfshipping in their late 20s and 30s and beyond and i remember that there's nothing wrong with this and self shipping is a beautiful healing thing, and that even if my friends don't understand me, there are people who do. i just love you older selfshippers <3
Hi!! After a recent realization of the original poster, I have decided to make a different prompt list for September! Its pretty lax and any medium of creation is accepted! The whole point is to have fun :)
Simply use the tag #SafeshipSeptember when posting and ill reblog all that i see!
Skip days, switch prompts around, do whatever you’d like! Go crazy!!! Be free!! Have fun!!!
Feel free to also @ me in posts if you want me to see! I dont mind at all :]
Have questions? Dm or send an ask!
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1. First date/Meeting
2. Cold weather
3. Park date!
4. Trying on outfits
5. Eating together
6. Dancing together
7. Napping/cuddling
8. Museum date
9. Picnic date
10. Making a meal together
11. Brushing the others hair
12. Gender/Role swap (can be outfits, aesthetic, etc.)
13. Listening to music together
14. Stargazing
15. Playing a board/video game
16. Carpool karaoke
17. Beach date
18. Selfie!
19. Any of your AUs, or an idea you have for one!
20. Petting zoo/zoo date/aquarium if you prefer
21. Taking care of a pet/animal (ex. Walking dog, snuggling with cat, etc.)
22. Carnival
23. Coffee Shop
24. Pillow/Blanket fort
25. Watch a sunset
26. Haunted House 👻
27. Roller skating (or ice!)
28. Botanical garden date
29. Free day!
30. Farmers market (or another free day if you want :)
Selfshipping is always going to be an extension of self love for some of us. It's always going to be a way of self-soothing. It shows us a part of ourselves still has the capacity to love us.
Your f/o loves hearing you talk. They don't find you annoying. They love the sound of your voice. They listen intently to you with a soft smile on their face. <3
staring my f/o(s) in the face with stars in my eyes, begging for them to accept my love because for SOME reason half of them DARE think they aren’t worthy of it
“i just don’t get what i’ve done to deserve you, i’m not worthy of the love you want to give”
“respectfully i’m going to need you to shut the fuck up”
as much as i thrive on the idea of my f/o(s) taking care of me just IMAGINE taking care of them instead
helping them bathe after a particularly hard day, indulging them in simple love and affections, cooking for them, helping them change - the possibilities are endless
and you KNOW they would feel so insanely grateful over you doting on them, the idea that you still love them and are willing to take care of them even when they can’t
oh they are going to be thinking about it for a long time - and it’ll make their cheeks warm and their heart flutter just that extra bit more every time they do
levi, who is usually riddled with self-doubt and anxiety, making his choice instantly and being so far the most sure of it
levi being protective of all his younger brothers
mammon being observant and protective of, and worried about all his brothers
satan being willing to sacrifice the happiness he just got so the others can be happy
the others all coming to tell him how stupid that was before wrangling him into a group hug
FUCK'S SAKE the lesson even made that grumpy old bastard cry
no but for real he was audibly choking back tears while he finally laid out all his guilt and regret and had the therapy session that's been a long time coming
fuck he was willing to beg his father for forgiveness because he thought that was what the others wanted, and he was willing to let them go and stay back with satan even though being seperated from the others would have broken him
And also after 5 long seasons we finally got some open communication between the brothers
Lucifer finally said exactly how he feels about all his brothers and satan and it killed me dead :)
it's also insane to think about this lesson from mc's perspective because god imagine how much this must have hurt.
Just standing in the background and watching this family finally embracing each other and admitting to how much they love each other and taking the first step to move past the anger satan feels towards lucifer and being so so goddamn happy for them and so proud and absolutely bursting with love for them.
But also feeling this hollow sinking disconnect from it all, like they're watching it all through a filtered screen, because this isn't how it happens....at least not for them.
their lucifer has never had to face this choice and so has never been pushed to this corner where he became so overwhelmed that he had no choice but to tell everyone the truth.
They're looking at this loving family and trying to breathe through the aching longing for their own family, to truly be a part of all this, and it hurts even more because this is their family, ....but it's also not.
they've been accepted here but they don't belong here, not truly
It's not the family they grew to know and love and painstakingly become a part of....
it must hurt beyond understanding to see familiar faces finally moving past something that's hurt them for so long and wanting to celebrate with them but knowing out there somwhere their real family is still struggling through this very same issue and that their disappearance is only further causing pain
anyway *pulling up a word doc* i'm fine *trying to desperately articulate all this in a fic while pretending my vision isn't blurring* everything is A-Okay!
Okay so I've been going insane in the last few hours since the new episode of Stampede and I needed to share my very incoherent thoughts.
So here we go: (please excuse my grammar, I'm typing this up in an absolute craze)
Please note, there are major spoilers here
[Plant in context to Trigun will be capitalized btw]
I want to start off by pointing out the whole idea with calling the creatures that Vash and Knives are as 'Plants' and 'seeds' in the first place--that in itself is so much. Not to mention Noman's Land is a desert plant with little to no flora at all.
The idea and symbolism of life and rebirth presented with the idea of plants. Like how flora are usually the first type of lifeform to come back post mass extinction events. How plants are primary producers in the food chain, how life couldn't be sustained without plants giving up oxygen, food, and converting the sunlight into energy/sugar. Despite being giant moth flower humanoid creatures, the Plants in Trigun are doing essentially the same thing. Except they aren't renewable and they might also be sentient.
In addition to that, in media, seeds are usually a representation of hope. And in this case, a seed pod carrying the hope of humanity. I've been likening it to dandelion seeds. I don't think our group of guys were the only space-fairing fleet that was sent out from Earth.
I don't know how much of this symbolism is intentional and how much of it is completely accidental, but boy howdy is it there and am I going to eat it up.
Geraniums!
First off, the most obvious one is geraniums. The flower is very much thrown into our faces. What does it mean?
Okay so there's like 400 types of geraniums out there, they're not like a specific species- and when people say 'geraniums' it usually also includes pelargoniums which are a different genus. But you're not here for me to monologue about flower classification-
Well, operating under the assumption they're using the most common type of red geranium, which, funnily enough is not a geranium but rather a pelargonium. Pelargonium x hortorum. Commonly known as zonal geraniums or garden geraniums. I don’t know if I even need to expand on the idea that Vash and his story (and the Plants in general) are represented by geraniums. If the red coat wasn’t already a giveaway, I think the newest episode definitely makes it very clear. Well, first off I think it's interesting that they’re not ‘true geraniums’ (different genus, same family). Like how Vash and Knives look human but aren’t ‘true humans’.
(Did you know geraniums can reproduce asexually via their roots by just…sprouting a new plant? It’s called clonality. Anyways yeah, I’m too lazy to expand on it but there it is. You can probably see the connection I'm trying to draw here)
Furthermore, let’s look a little bit into what geraniums represent. So according to the vast knowledge of the interwebs (I will put the links I used at the bottom.) geraniums are “attributed the powers of love, peace, healing, elegance and spirituality. They mostly have desirable symbolizing meanings, including fertility, health, joy, protection, frustrations passing away, and true friendship.” Red geraniums in particular are attributed to protection and ward against evil., spiritual beings and saints. “The geranium flower was a symbol of prosperity in Egypt, longevity in Japan, and immortality in China”. *Stares at Vash and Knives*. Gods…immortality…saints. Alright Nightow, I see you.
Look, I’m not done here. DURING THE VICTORIAN ERA geranium took on a slightly more negative meaning. Envy, deceit, folly, foolishness and stupidity. Although they were also seen “as ‘horticultural bourgeoisie’ and a sign of ‘crudeness and thoughtlessness of taste’. Geranium became a symbol of industrial mass culture.” This was probably unintentional (and if it is intentional, holy fuck.) but the idea that Earth in Trigun was destroyed by the folly of humans because if mass industrialization? Hello???? OKAY.
There’s just so much history with geraniums. I’m STILL not done. Let’s talk a little about geraniums and Christianity, yeah? You know, the thing that Trigun is chock full of symbolism of.
So first off, tradition. (I am not Christian, nor do I know much about Christianity, I just did some research on the topic so feel free to correct me.) I do believe there is a tradition to buy and gift red geranium on Good Friday? (I can’t find a very credible source about this, just some blog posts so idk) And the red is to represent the blood that Jesus sacrificed for the people. How he was beaten and bloodied because of his love for the people. How…he was given a purple cloak that turned dark with blood while he was mocked.
Sound familiar?
Do we want to talk about Vash’s red coat turning black in the latest episode? Or maybe how traditionally dying Plants are red and healthy ones are blue? But Vash keeps himself covered in red?
Now, here’s an interesting fact. Did you know, wild geraniums look very different from the ones people like to commonly grow in their gardens? This is the spotted cranesbill (Geranium maculatum), the most common wild geranium. Look, maybe I’m stretching it here, but cultivated Plants vs independent Plants, anybody?
Anywho, not the point I was trying to make. Did you know another common wild geranium is called the Saint Robert’s Geranium? Robert’s? While no one really knows who the ‘Saint Robert’ the flower is named after, it has a very fun symbolism. Check this. The seed pod of this flower supposedly looks like the beak of a stork, which had people believe that they could help a couple who wish for children with fertility when used as an amulet and placed under the bed. cough Ep 11 pregnancy scene cough. Apparently, medicinally they’re also used to staunch blood flow from wounds. Despite that, in certain regions, it was seen as an ill-omen plant associated with death because snakes would often hide in its leaves. Snakes? Like…in Adam and Eve? Like as in temptation? As in Knives and Vash?
Okay last bit on geraniums. Just a little on the colors. In episode 11 of Stampede we see the giant plant root monster thing blooming flowers. I have assumed that they are black geraniums, aka Geranium Phaeum
aka mourning widows. Of course, I could be wildly wrong but the meaning of this is fun so hear me out. While there doesn’t seem to be a direct meaning for black geraniums, we can clearly draw some conclusions on the common name for this flower. Like seriously, mourning widow? They’re also known as dusky cranesbill and black widow. Obviously associated with death (and grief?) and apparently maybe marriage??? Doesn’t help that geraniums can be considered a traditional bridal flower too. I think they’re also associated with melancholy. Anyways, on the other hand, blue blooms usually symbolize calm and peace while purple blooms symbolize royalty, accomplishments and admiration.
So in context to the blooms we see at the end of ep 11, grieving for the loss of someone (Rem, his memories), rising to his Plant roots (haha get it?) and being ‘at peace’.
HEY LET'S TALK ABOUT DOGWOOD
So I remember reading somewhere that he’s named after a singer or band or something but– His name is so close to dogwood that I could not pass it up.
Dogwood is a blooming tree that seems to have a representation in Christianity. There’s a legend about the tree and Easter. So apparently, the cross that Jesus was crucified on was made from Dogwood, because of such it was cursed and blessed. Cursed to be small so it can’t be used to make another cross but blessed to bloom beautiful flowers at Easter time.
The flowers of the Dogwood trees always bloom with four petals, like a cross, the center like a crown of thorns. Each tip of the petal is indented like it's been pierced with a nail and discolored like it was stained with blood. So goes the story.
I think it's interesting that Wolfwood’s name is so likened to this flower/plant and I don’t believe this is unintentional. LIke it’s right there. Cursed by the Eye of Michael to grow too fast, blessed to be strong and hard to kill. Is/bears the cross that brings Vash to Knives in the end.
Lilies (and other Flowers)
So, I personally think the plants look a lot like lilies. And lilies are commonly attributed to the virgin Mary. They typically represent purity, innocence and rebirth. They are often gifted at mourning flowers as well and are one of the most popular flowers at funerals.
Either that or the blue-eyed Mary flower, which has less meaning attributed to it other than its name.
Anyways, that's all my thoughts for today. Thank you for reading all the way down here if you make it hehe
If people find more flower symbolism or have thoughts please let me know, I want to hear them!!!<3
Geranium history and meaning: https://www.pansymaiden.com/flowers/meaning/geranium/
Geranium and Christianity: http://www.whispersofhismovement.com/2012/04/05/geraniums/
