remember when you were 10 and you would hang out with your friends in order to Look At The Computer together like you went to their house and experienced the information superhighway together. and then leave
1.05 -> 1.06 requested by @littlespoonevan <3
(in episode five, ilya conceals his feelings with language; in episode six, ilya feels safe enough to say that he's terrified out loud) (all because of shane's earnestynuke heading straight towards his walls)
Waaaas this supposed to be for Make It Sexy March? Yes. Did I forget about it? Also yes. Here's some blindfolding and prostate milking with aftercare. I wrote it after 9x13, so there's references to part of this being a way for Buck to be comfortable being blindfolded. You can read it on AO3 here, but it's short as hell at about 1200 words, so I'm posting it all here:
Buck is shivering, but he's warm. He's so warm and safe, even though it's dark and he doesn't know where the next touch is coming from, but he knows it'll make him feel good.
Tommy's lips brush his ear, and his fingers move inside Buck, stretching him and pressing, milking him. âYou're almost done, sweetheart.â
He bites back a sob and nods, and nails scratch carefully across his inner thighs before strong, thick fingers curve around his balls. Buck feels pressure again, the deep kind that makes him cry out just before the release. He feels it through his whole body, the shivers taking over, and he slaps his hand against he doesn't know what, but it's soft and easy to grab as he wails through the feeling. It's loud and comes from somewhere deep inside like it's being wrenched out of him.
Then it melts away like a retreating wave, and he feels boneless. Tommy's fingers ease out of him, and there's soft noises before arms are around him, pulling him sideways against a strong body.
âYou did so well, honey, you're so good for me,â Tommy murmurs, rocking him slowly. âI'm going to take the blindfold off, okay?â
Buck nods but buries his face in Tommy's neck for a moment. He likes the safety of the dark that Tommy gives him. It's not scary and isolating and full of danger, he's never been hurt in this dark. When he's ready to give it up, he lifts his head and lets Tommy untie the blindfold. It gets lifted away, and the light is dim enough that he doesn't have to squint against it.
âThere you are,â Tommy says, smiling and curling his hands over Buckâs cheeks. âHey, sweet boy.â
âHi, Daddy,â he says, smiling even as his eyes flood with tears. They're happy tears, he thinks. Maybe overwhelmed, but it's not the bad kind of overwhelmed.
âOh, honey, that was a lot, wasn't it?â Tommy murmurs, kissing his forehead and pulling him close again so Buck can nuzzle back into his neck. âBut I knew you could handle it. I know how strong you are. I know you'll let me take care of you.â
Buck's breathing hitches with a sob, and he nods. He knows he can trust Tommy, that's why they do this. It feels good, but it's also trust. It's learning to let someone else care. It's leaving himself open to someone else and knowing that they won't take advantage or hurt him.
âDrink this for me, please,â Tommy says, opening something. Buck smells apples.
It's the juice that costs more than it should, but it's good and Tommy likes getting it. Buck smiles when he sips it, and Tommy's eyes crinkle as he smiles back. The sweetness hits Buckâs tastebuds and makes him feel more in himself, not just in his head but his body, too. He closes his eyes and feels it go down his throat, cool and sweet and a little tart.
Tommy picks up his phone and taps a few things, and Buck hears the air conditioner kick on. He's warm and sweating, and it feels good against his skin. He sinks back into Tommy's chest and sighs.
âI only used two fingers, though,â Tommy teases, and Buck laughs. âGood.â
âHow do you feel?â
âLike I helped,â Tommy says, kissing his hair. âGrateful, satisfied, proud. Good stuff.â
âGood stuff,â Buck agrees sleepily.
Tommy reaches over to push away the sex blanket. It's one of those waterproof ones that they finally bought for times like this. Buck cums a lot on a normal day, but if he's being milked or edged or overstimulated, it gets to be a lot. Towels didn't always cut it. Then the regular soft, knitted throw gets pulled over them, and Tommy puts it around Buckâs shoulders.
âDid you cum?â Buck asks, his tongue thick in his mouth still.
âOh, Christ, like ten minutes ago or something,â Tommy says, laughing softly. âYou were gone, though.â
He gives Buck more juice and has some, too, and then Buck lets himself drift for a bit. Tommyâs breathing syncs with his, his chest and stomach going in as Buckâs pushes out. He has his eyes closed, but he sees the light filtering through the lids and the lack of pressure tells him he can open them at any time if he wants. He's warm, he's safe, and he's been wrung out like a dishcloth.
When Tommy's stomach growls, Buck pokes it lightly and growls back, and he bounces a little off Tommy's belly when he laughs.
âHold on, I planned for this,â Tommy says, reaching for the nightstand and opening a protein shake. âI don't want to get up yet.â
âMkay,â Buck mumbles. âLemme know.â
âI will.â He sets the bottle back down and settles an arm across Buckâs back. âYou know what I want to do next time?â
âHm?â
âSwallow, I kept thinking all of that was going to waste on the blanket,â he says, his fingers tracing lightly around the curve of his shoulder blade.
âYou know, I was thinking the same thing,â Buck admits with a laugh. âBut we were already in it. Next time.â
âNext time,â Tommy agrees, kissing his hair. âAny other suggestions?â
âCan you fuck me in the middle? Instead of cumming on me.â Buck likes getting marked by Tommy, but he likes it better when he can see it. He'd rather feel Tommy stretching him open and using him when he needs to cum.
âI'm sure I can muster up theâow,â he protests when Buck pinches his nipple. âYes, I can do that. But you can't cum, so not for too long.â
Buck sighs. âFine.â
âSorry, is someone not getting fucked enough?â Tommy asks, squeezing him tight enough that Buck laughs. âAre you deprived of dick?â
âNo!â Buck protests, laughing. âI just want it longer.â
âBaby, if it was any longer, I'd pass out when I got hard,â Tommy deadpans, and Buck grabs a pillow to smother him with but gets blocked. âThis is supposed to be intimacy and communication time!â
âMurdering someone face-to-face is intââ
He gets cut off by Tommy rolling and pinning him before he even realizes what's happening. It's really hot.
âHuh,â he says, blinking at the ceiling. âWrestling?â
âWhat?â
âWe should wrestle,â he decides, wiggling a little.
âNow?â Tommy asks dubiously.
âNo, later, I can't get hard right now.â He relaxes under Tommy's grip. âBut I like this.â
Tommy hums thoughtfully and kisses his neck. âWeâll talk about it when we're not high on endorphins.â
âOkay,â Buck agrees easily, because he knows he's right. He does wrap his leg around Tommy and pull a little. âForm of: weighted blanket.â
Immediately, Tommy lays on him, crushing Buck under his weight. It feels perfect. And he can feel Tommy burrowing his face between his pecs, so he knows he's happy, too. If they could, they'd both be purring.
âYou wanna spank my hole next time?â Buck mumbles.
âWe'll see,â Tommy replies from the valley of his pecs. âBut probably yes.â
âOkay,â Buck sighs, smiling and closing his eyes.
Buck/Tommy, Buck/Others
Rated: E
Word Count: 2,627
Summary: This must be what a roasted turkey feels like on Thanksgiving.
If someone had told Buck two years ago that he'd be hereâon his back and blindfolded, completely naked, and surrounded by men of all shapes and sizesâhe'd've laughed himself into another coma.
But now, he's practically vibrating out of his skin with excitement. His belly's tight. His nipples are pebbled from the air conditioner. His dick is so hard he thinks he might pass out.
"All right," he gasps with a grin. "All right, let's go."
@mugsywrites mused in a comment about the logistics of Tommy being at the gangbang and wondered if they ever do anything like it again once they're back together, and I'm glad SOMEONE has their thinking cap on because YES I DO HAVE THOUGHTS about this and I want to share them!
re: Tommy being at the gangbang:
I think Tommy was invited by one of the other guys. Buck had specified during the planning stages that they could bring someone(s) they trusted and I think Nwole was the one who extended the invitation. Nwole's a hedge fund manager but he also does other types of investment work, and Tommy's been going to him for years (at this point, Tommy doesn't actually need to work a day in his life, which is why he's always up for potentially throwing away his career). Nwole was like "I'm going to a thing in a few weeks and the guy has strict rules, but I can bring a friend.... if you're interested. You'll need to get tested first." And Tommy hemmed and hawed and wrestled with guilt because he still feels like he belongs to Buck and that fucking someone elseâeven anonymouslyâwould be a betrayal, but then he decided that it had been a year since he'd heard from the man, who'd obviously moved on, and what the hell. And then he walks into the room that night to see Buck laid out like a feast and is like "well, fuck me, I guess."
And Tommy probably white-knuckled his way through everyone else's turns, listening to Buck moaning and crying for people who aren't him, hanging at the back of the room, catching glimpses through the crowd of Buck's body rocking with every thrust and his mouth wrapped around a dozen other cocks, and then Nwole looked back after everyone else had gone like "the hell are you waiting for?" And the crowd had parted a bit, so Tommy had a perfect view of Buck lying there, panting and cock-drunk, fingers curling around empty air, his legs splayedâleft wanting. And Tommy has never been able to deny Buck anything he wants.
re: post-reconciliation
I think they revisit the gangbang thing maybe a few years after getting back together. They're in a really good place and Tommy brings it up when they're watching gangbang porn and idly jerking each other off on the couch, and Buck's like "I'm completely 100% happy and satisfied with what we have, I don't need anyone else" and Tommy's like "I never said 'need', I said 'want', and what if we planned it together" which summons Clipboard!Buck from the depths of hell. They spend weeks figuring out logistics: where, when, who, what... they invite Nwole, Kyle, Kyle's husband, and Spencer (although Spencer can't make it because he's accepting an award that night), and a few others.
The night Buck Bang Bonanza 2⢠("I'm not calling it that," Tommy says) happens, Buck is laid out and blindfolded like he'd been the first time, except this time he's lying with his back to Tommy's chest, his head on Tommy's shoulder. That had been a joint decision: Buck was going to be on offer, but Tommy would be the one offering him upâpart of the action the entire time by directing people, giving suggestions, doling out warnings as needed, etc. (In a parallel universe, Tommy's inside him the entire time because it's actually Buck Bang Bonanza: The DP-ening).
It's a rousing success and everyone has a blast. And since I'm imagining this took place in their living room in order for both Buck and Tommy to feel comfortable by being on home turf, they host an afterparty cookout where everyone gets to know each other and hang out. Nwole ends up meeting Pedro, an internal compliance officer, and they spend the entire party arguing about high-conviction trades and how they can't stand each other's profession. After they've been dating for five months, Nwole calls Tommy to blame him for the fact that he's so happy.
Tommy finds the whole thing hilarious and he and Buck have a rip-roaring good time coming up with ways to spin the circumstances of how Nwole and Pedro met to prepare for the best man's speech Tommy will undoubtedly give someday.
A huge blocklist of manually curated sites that contain AI generated imagery for uBlock Origin & uBlacklist. - laylavish/uBlockOrigin-HUGE-A
Install this blocklist using the instructions on the GitHub page. For Firefox, you will need to install uBlockOrigin for this. Google Chrome no longer allows the uBlockOrigin extension, so I'm assuming you're at least primarily a Firefox user - or about to be (see browser alternatives below).
For Google Chrome or mobile browsers, this will work with uBlacklist. See the GitHub page for full details on compatibility.
Remove AI Widgets:
If you go to your uBlockOrigin Filter lists page, you can select to filter out AI Widgets - this should completely remove the 'AI Mode' widget/button from your Google search page, in addition to the work done by the Huge AI Blocklist.
Using the uBlockOrigin Huge AI Blocklist filter has made my Google searches look like they used to, and gives me genuine search results.
Look at this. It's beautiful. It's informative. It's not a heap of burning trash bloated with fake information made up by a hallucinating chat bot.
We can go even further: return to the old school search results.
Now, the above results are great and should be free of generative AI junk, but some people would rather not see any of the summary widgets or 'people also ask' box at all. Fear not! You can remove all that by using the 'Web' mode in the Google search bar. Click the 'More' drop down menu and select 'Web'.
Huzzah! Incredible. It's like a functional search engine again.
You can make this the default Google search mode in Google Chrome using Method 1 from this page (https://allthings.how/how-to-turn-off-ai-mode-in-google-chrome/). Unfortunately, I don't know if there's a way to do this in Firefox too. This is why for the most part I still use DuckDuckGo (see below) as my default search engine, and only use Google to supplement my searches on the rare occasion I'm just missing something.
Remember, if you clear your cookies, your search engine preferences will reset, including any settings you enabled/disabled to avoid AI. This applies to DuckDuckGo as well; check your settings every time you clear your browser!
Extra filters (optional):
I've also added four filters (their order doesn't matter) to the My Filters page. Full disclosure: I'm not sure they still work, or may only work on Chrome, but I'm keeping them anyway, just in case.
From https://www.reddit.com/r/uBlockOrigin/comments/1i7kg83/comment/m8lllwr/: see which solution in the list works for you, it seems to be different for everybody.
From https://allthings.how/how-to-turn-off-ai-mode-in-google-chrome/:
www.google.com##.Beswgc
www.google.com##.olrp5b
www.google.com##.hdzaWe
Make sure you hit the apply changes button when you add filters.
Browser alternatives: escaping Google Chrome.
If you haven't jumped ship from Chrome yet, I'd recommend doing so. Sometimes Chrome outperforms Firefox for niche purposes or because a website doesn't bother to fully support non-Chrome browsers, but the days of Chrome being the superior browser are long gone â by about 10 years. If you're trying to escape Chromium browsers, beware that a lot of the popular Chrome alternatives are just Chrome in a different hat.
Firefox has been the most popular non-Chromium browser for years, and for good reason. However, the company running Mozilla Firefox has annoyed their users, me included, by refusing to take an anti- generative-ai stance, and even included AI features in the Mozilla Firefox browser. Most Firefox users specifically use it because they hate Google's enshittification and want a privacy-focused, clean browser that doesn't hog their RAM and CPU for no reason. So, you can imagine that Mozilla's attitude has pissed us all off recently. You can turn off the AI features in Firefox with the built-in settings, but the company has recently steered straight into the burning garbage heap by saying they want to make the browser based on AI.
Waterfox and LibreWolf:
There are really good alternatives based on Firefox (open-source) which are not affiliated with Mozilla (the company), if you don't like how it operates. Waterfox and LibreWolf are even more trimmed down and privacy-focused than Mozilla's Firefox, and don't use AI. Anti-ai statements: Waterfox and LibreWolf.
From this page: https://programming.dev/post/42546774
In short: LibreWolf is for those who want a âlocked-downâ fortress out of the box, while Waterfox is for those who want a privacy-conscious browser that still feels like a normal, convenient daily driver.
Choose LibreWolf if: You want the highest level of privacy without having to manually edit config files, and you donât mind occasionally âfixingâ a broken website or re-logging into accounts.
Choose Waterfox if: You want a privacy-respecting browser that supports Firefox Sync, has an Android counterpart, and handles streaming sites/logins without any extra friction (it supports WideWine out of the box, which lets you stream DRM protected content (netflix, hulu, disney, etc).
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I've heard good things about both of these browsers and will investigate them further to decide whether to personally switch from Mozilla Firefox.
DuckDuckGo:
I would also recommend installing the DuckDuckGo extension to your browsers and setting it to be your default search engine.
I've had DuckDuckGo installed on my browsers, Chrome or Firefox, for like 10 years now. It is a good search engine, it's unobtrusive, and blocks trackers, cookies, and does not save any data about you. I've also used it as my default mobile browser for years, along with Firefox mobile, which you can add the AI Blocklist to (see again the GitHub page). I haven't tried the DuckDuckGo desktop browser yet, but I imagine it works just fine like the mobile version. I think DuckDuckGo's browser is also Chromium-based, at least indirectly. I use Firefox with the DuckDuckGo extension so I can have a widely-supported, non-Chromium browser, but include all of DuckDuckGo's anti-tracking features.
Note: DuckDuckGo has included AI in its browser product, however you can opt-out of all AI features with the built-in settings and they will not push it on you like Google does. I hope they remove AI features entirely in the future, but for now I am comfortable with the barriers in place to keep AI out of my face. Firefox also has AI features like Chrome does, which you can turn off with the built-in settings.
There's also noai.duckduckgo search, an alternative version of its normal search engine which removes AI-generated images and turns off AI results/assists by default. Even though DuckDuckGo's inclusion of any AI features annoys me, its policy to make these features 100% optional builds trust with this browser/extension/search engine.
You can always use Google search if you need to, but with uBlockOrigin and the AI Blocklist filter added on, at least you shouldn't have AI-altered search results or the AI overview anymore.
Other browsers exist, probably:
There are certainly more non-Chromium alternatives out there, but Firefox, Waterfox, and LibreWolf are the top three recommended to me. That link to alternatives, plus this ComputerCity page are the best lists I could find in a brief search. If you google "non-Chromium browsers" you'll get a lot of mixed results which require a bit of digging to realise they're not really recommending you what you looked for at all.
I've heard about Ecosia over the years, and while I like the idea of a search engine that plants a tree for each query, I don't think that's actually what happens â at least, that's what they used to be reputed to do, but I believe that's an unsustainable business model which has likely changed. In 2026, Ecosia says it uses 100% of its profits for the planet and runs its search engine off clean energy. That's cool! It's still Chromium-based. And it also uses generative AI for chat bots, so I don't trust its principles on environmentalism. I need to do more reading on this to form a stronger opinion about it.
I hope this post has helped at least some of you have a better experience browsing the web and googling your questions.
The Huge AI Blocklist really has been an amazing tool to keep my internet life free and clear of a lot of generative AI rubbish. I'm not a tech expert by any stretch of the imagination, but I'm savvy enough to understand what genAI is and does, and that the more I learn about it, it's even worse than I thought. I truly hate it, and I hate the enshittification of all our experiences, even those as simple and innocent as googling "snow leopard" or "how to cook pasta" or "what is a phascogale" (go ahead and test your freshly-cleaned search engines out with that one hehe).