Due to life has not had a stop yet.
I were lying on the bed, just like a cat which was sick. It’s a rainy day, not much, but it’s enough for me to feel emotional. It’s wind, not much, but it’s enough for me to feel dizzy. Okay, I decided to call boss in sick and told him I wanted to be at home. Yes. I wanna shut people out today, I wanna be alone, just today. I wanna think a little today, I wanna be lazy, just today.
I opened laptop, went through all files which include all pics. I saw these faces. You know, some persons come quietly then leave without a noise. There are some relationships which are so thin that they are ended up even we haven’t felt about them. But the funny thing is we have to pretend that we are good. They were smiling happily in pics but I dunno the reason why my tears were dropping.
Thinking …thinking …past is some things which are near to us, but they are also some things which are too far from us. Sometimes, we make someone sad, angry. Sometimes we put ourselves over all others and end up some relationships with some people whom we like or even we love a lot. But sometimes we live with all our hearts and our heads unconditionally and uncalculatingly. Sometimes we are just so confused cuz we just realize that time still goes cruelly second to second, who we are today are not as same as who we were yesterday. Yes. We grow up day by day and …we …change …
Sometimes, we need to take a break for a while to look back and arrange our hearts. There are some things which we want them to disappear from our lives, or things which we regret every single time we think about them. That’s life. Many things we want, but we cannot have and vice versa. But past is for looking back instead of staying. It’s time to put all things into a corner of our left chests. It’s time to forget things which made us unhappy. It’s time for hurts to be healed and it’s time for scares to blur.
We can live happy lives or sad lives. Nobody can live our lives and nobody can help us live from the beginning to the end. Therefore, let’s live like a kid, let’s fall, let’s stand up and let’s walk. It’s time to be an adult. It’s time to fall deeper, stand up harder and walk faster cuz when we find our stops, it’s time to stop walking, time to look back and time to say goodbye












