Don't you worry, daddy's home.

Liz. Just a girl's The Boys blog. Full on, idiotic Butcher girl. Also loads of Karl Urban appreciation. Sometimes I write. Because a stranger is just a friend you ain't met yet.

[captainofmybigwetdream]

My Time at Sandrock

We Touched and Went Our Separate Ways [WIP, ao3]

Owen/OC, Logan/OC, chapters: 3/?, words: ~13.9k

Summary: The town of Sandrock had reached out to the Civil Corps and the Free Cities for help, and Portia had answered. Little did they know that this approach to the solution might turn out to be just as unwelcome as the problem itself.

The Boys

Billy Butcher - A Prequel [WIP, tumblr, ao3]

Piecing together Billy Butcher's life before The Boys.

Pt. 1: 'Cause London Is Drowning [ao3]

You're Streets Away From Where It Gets The Roughest, words: ~2.6k [x]

Every Word That's In Between Is Just A Waste Of Breath, words: ~5.7k [x]

Pt. 2: Always One Bad Day Away [ao3]

What Was I Before You?, words: ~8.8k [x]

I Never Knew How to Save You, words: ~8.5k [x]

Febuwhump '22 - Billy Butcher / The Boys Edition [WIP, tumblr, ao3]

These can be read as rewrites or deleted scenes and mostly take place during the events of season 2 of The Boys.

Day 5: “Let me see.”, words: ~1.4k [x]

Day 8: No Anaesthesia, words: ~1.9k [x]

Day 16: “Does that hurt?”, words: ~7k [x]

Alt 2: Trapped under a collapsed building, words: ~8.7k [x]

Supernatural

Be Careful What You GISH For [WOH, ao3]

Castiel/Dean Winchester, chapters: 3/?, words: ~15.2k

Summary: Item 13. VIDEO. (May be up to 45 seconds) Summon an angel to help you with your hunt. Greet them appropriately. Authenticity is key, but open to interpretation. Or: “Not this crap again.” – Dean Winchester, hunter

MUSE

A Minority Of One [WIP, ao3]

Matt Bellamy/Dominic Howard, chapters: 11/?, words: ~53.1k

Summary: “During times of universal deceit, telling the truth becomes a revolutionary act.” - George Orwell

Upside Down [collab, ao3]

Matt Bellamy/Dominic Howard, chapters: 18/18, word count: ~135.2k

Summary: Based on the LJ mkmeme prompt: A rich music collector has almost everything he ever craved for, almost. One special object is still missing in his collection: Matthew Bellamy!

The Road To Truth [collab, ao3]

Matt Bellamy/Dominic Howard, chapters: 1/1, word count: ~15.7k

Summary: Loosely based on this Livejournal mkmeme prompt: Pre-relationship Belldom. Matt writes a list of New Years Resolutions, one of which is to stop lying. On the morning of January 1st, he finds himself physically incapable of lying, resulting in hilarity (think Liar Liar.) But also, because he can no longer lie, he finally admits his feelings to Dom.

Check this post for updates. Leave a comment here if you want to be tagged. I LIVE FOR THE FEEDBACK, LUVS.

Also, do NOT copy my work, post it elsewhere, translate or do anything with it without my permission! I won't hesitate to steal Billy's crowbar and come after you!

[captainofmybigwetdream]

The Hate That You Carry

She was scared of him. And who could blame her? Worst thing was, he knew the look on her face, had seen that look countless times before. On his mother’s face. On Lenny's face. Had even felt it on his own face. Every time his father had taken out his anger on them.

Part 3 of Always One Bad Day Away (Part 2 of the series Billy Butcher - A Prequel)

Word count: ~5k

Rating: Mature

A/N: It's me again! Feedback is always greatly appreciated ;D

Tag list: @amethystpagan

"You know you really didn’t have to do all this, right? There’s no need to impress me.” 

Becca entwined their fingers as they left the restaurant, happily smiling up at Billy. Her cheeks had a pink tinge to them, but it was only partly due to the wine she’d had. 

“Whatever do you mean?” Billy smirked back cheekily.

“Well, we don’t usually go out like this. And you know I don’t need fancy dates, either.”

“Oh, but this is a special occasion, innit? One-year anniversary and all?”

“One-year… What? Billy, that’s not for another six days,” she laughed softly and tilted her head in question. 

“No, it’s not.”

“No, I’m pretty sure we had our first date on the 7th of September. We rented that stupid action flick, got Chinese take-out, and spent the night not watching it.” 

Keep Reading on AO3

[captainofmybigwetdream]

I Never Knew How to Save You

"So, you’re happy. [...] One year ago today, you got ten of our brother’s killed, and you’re happy."

Part 2 of Always One Bad Day Away (Part 2 of the series Billy Butcher - A Prequel)

Word count: ~8.5k Rating: Mature

A/N: It's me again! Feedback is always greatly appreciated ;D

Tag list: @amethystpagan

“You want the garlic minced or pressed, luv?” 

“Definitely minced! I don’t think I even own a garlic press.”

“I was afraid you’d say that.”

Becca chuckled at Billy’s exhausted sigh as she bustled about the kitchen, always keeping an eye on the boiling pasta. She’d put him in charge of cutting vegetables, half of which he’d never even heard of before. It should have been at least a bit disconcerting how skilled he was with a knife while being all fingers and thumbs when it came to cooking. For some reason it wasn’t, though. Becca wasn’t the best of cooks, either, but at least she knew how to follow basic recipes. 

Keep reading on AO3.

[captainofmybigwetdream]

What Was I Before You?

"One night in London and he was already thinking about bolting. The mere thought of being in this city again made him nauseous."

Part 1 of Always One Bad Day Away (Part 2 of the series Billy Butcher - A Prequel)

Word count: ~8.8k Rating: Mature

A/N: Okay, so I've been trying to get back to finishing all the stuff I've started and this one has been sitting in my folder for over a year now. Although part one of the series isn't finished yet, I finally decided to start posting part two anyway as they can be read as standalone stories. Blame my impatience if you have to. Now, enjoy and let me know what you think!

Tag list: @amethystpagan

It was dark. Why was it so fucking dark? It was an all-consuming, terrifying kind of darkness. It felt thick and deafening, numbing all his senses. He couldn’t even tell if his eyes were open or not. It crept across his skin, took over his mind. He could feel it in his guts. There was nothing else to focus on than the complete absence of light. 

Until a shot was fired, and the sound reverberated through his body, setting his blood on fire with explosive force. His hands tensed around his HK417 and with something close to shock he realised that he had fired that fatal first shot. Suddenly he was hyperaware of people screaming all around him as a hail of bullets came down. He had ended the ceasefire. 

Only when he saw his brothers dropping like flies, did he realise that the darkness was gone. There was blood everywhere, bodies on the ground like they had been laid out just for him to see. He needed to act, to protect, to kill their enemies. But he couldn’t move. His whole body was frozen to the spot. His trigger finger had cramped up and all the air had left his lungs. Without warning a sharp pain was blazing through his shoulder, blood quickly seeping into his uniform as an agonised cry escaped his lips.

Keep reading on AO3.

[captainofmybigwetdream]

Random post:

Some of the men I have obsessed about (or am currently obsessing about) in my long history of obsessing over unattainable men.

[modelsof-color]

Nyaueth Riam at GCDS SS 23

[angryschnauzer]

I'm seeing patrick star, am i? Is that right?

[newshoes-samedirt]

[catchaspark]

According to Know Your Meme, on August 18th, 2005, Erwin Beekveld brought forth this work into the world. HAPPY TEN YEAR ANNIVERSARY, THEY’RE TAKING THE HOBBITS TO ISENGARD.

[timefortigers]

sheds a single tear

[catchaspark]

every august 18th my notifications break and i go, fuck, tumblr has failed me once again, but it hasn’t. it hasn’t failed me. it’s just the taking the hobbits to isengard-iversary. happy 12 years

[poetry-protest-pornography]

Happy 17 years of this glorious video!

[studentlifeproblems]

[kdx78]

[meredithdraper-deactivated20150]

Happy March 32nd, everyone!

[tshifty]

you can only reblog this once a year

[writeouswriter]

Look, if I introduced a WIP on here excitedly and then promptly never mentioned it again, it doesn’t mean I’m not working on it, it means I’m slowly rotating it in my mind like a rotisserie chicken and then went out to the grocery store to buy several other rotisserie chickens while I wait for it to cook and then slowly started rotating those rotisserie chickens and repeat

[bundibird]

Theyre right and they should say it.

[politicalmamaduck]

Writing about a child rapist did not make Vladimir Nabokov a child rapist.

Writing about an authoritarian theocracy did not make Margaret Atwood an authoritarian theocrat.

Writing about adultery did not make Leo Tolstoy an adulterer.

Writing about a ghost did not make Toni Morrison a ghost.

Writing about a murderer did not make Fyodor Dostoevsky a murderer.

Writing about a teenage addict did not make Isabel Allende a teenage addict.

Writing about dragons and ice zombies did not make George R.R. Martin either of those things.

Writing about rich heiresses, socially awkward bachelors, and cougar widows did not make Jane Austen any of those things.

Writing about people who can control earthquakes did not make N.K. Jemisin able to control earthquakes.

Writing about your favorite characters and/or ships in situations that you choose does not make you a bad person.

It’s a shame that in this day and age these things need to be said.

[nyarnamaitar]

Or, in short: the narrator =/ the author.

[oblakom-deactivated20200302]

You know what else is a shame? This nowadays tendency of putting on the author the responsibility of teaching their readers morality.

Authors are allowed to write morally ambiguous characters.

Authors are allowed to write downright despicable characters - and guess what they are even allowed to make despicable characters charismatic and likeble and the protagonists of their stories if they wish - because absolute monsters exist only under the bed.

It is not up to the author to spoonfeed the readers about morality and Yes I know this character did a bad thing and I am going going to show it in the story and make other characters call them out of it and– Bullshit.

The authors should be able to write what they want without having thousands of people jumping and their throats claiming to know them, their ideas and their morality based on what they write.

It’s not up to the author to teach you about what is right and what is wrong.

[theanishimori]

It’s not up to the author to teach you about what is right and what is wrong.

[octopuscato]

This here. You don’t have to study literature to understand that no, books aren’t there to teach you about right and wrong. That happens at your family, to some degree at school, and yes, parents and teachers might use literature to emphasise their messages. But that doesn’t mean all - or even most - books exist for that purpose.

[valtsv]

your first kill together as a couple is an important relationship milestone

[captainofmybigwetdream]

I'm back for the asks !

5, 13, 36, 57, 59 ? ^^

5. What is your relationship status? I am very much single with a splash of unrequitted love and loneliness. The usual, really x'D

13. Do you hate anyone at the moment? In my personal life, no. Sometimes I feel like I'm incapable of truly hating anyone like that, although my uncle might deserve it. On a more global scale I do (of course) despise people like Putin. Yeah, has to be Putin.

36. Do you give out second chances too easily? Really depends on my feelings towards the person in question, but generally yes.

57. Do you believe in true love? Mmmmhhhh... I want to say yes. I really, really want to. But I don't believe that everyone gets a chance at experiencing what it really feels like.

59. Do you like the snow? I can not emphasize enough how much I love snow!!! I am such a big fan of seasons in all their glory. But once again, climate change is a bitch, right?

[captainofmybigwetdream]

hellooo!! for the ask game: 11, 24, 32, 59!!

Oh hello, thanks for dropping by!

11. Do you like someone? Yeah, the friend whom I mentioned in my previous reply was very... dear to my heart. But since he's vanished things have become quite fucked up for me "love" wise. Getting over him is ridiculously difficult for me. I don't even want to say how long it's been becuause it's embarrassing.

24. What is/are/were your best subject(s)? Definitely English (I'm german) and Biology. My best and favourites by far.

32. What is your favorite color? It's a tie between crimson and black. And teal!

59. Do you like the snow? I LOVE snow. The calm, the cold, the sound, the soft lighting... Unfortunately, we don't get a lot of it around here anymore. Climate change sucks, am I right?

[captainofmybigwetdream]

Hey ! For the ask game ;)

2, 14, 33, 37, 62, 68

Oookay, let's see.

2. Who did you last say “I love you” to? That one's actually easy. It was my cousin who's also my best friend. There's no one I say I love you to as often as I tell her.

14. Do you miss someone? Yes, there's two people I miss a lot. My dad who died three years ago. And a guy who used to work with me. He sort of vanished from the face of this earth after he got fired.

33. Do you have trust issues? If trusting way to quickly is a trust issue, then yes. A big one.

37. Is it easier to forgive or forget? For me it has to be forgive. It's much harder to forget.

62. What makes you happy? Oh man, that one's hard... at the moment I'd say simple things like watching my comfort shows. Definitelty friends, family and my ponies. And writing! It gives me a sense of accomplishment like nothing else.

68. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? Has to be @zecklein. As much as we love going down the fanfic route, we can also be pretty serious and deep.

Thanks so much for dropping by in my inbox! Expect me in yours shortly!

[livixdunne-blog]

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?