A/N: I haven’t been active on tumblr for a while now, and I want to come back. My personal life has honestly been shit recently, and this has always been my safe haven. I wrote up this short piece, because I needed to vent some feelings. It almost feels a little too personal, but I want to stop censoring my feelings.
Usually my blog is feel good and fluffy, so fair warning, this is pretty angsty. I tried to keep it somewhat neutral, so that you could interpret it as a reader insert if you wanted, so yeah...read on if you dare
It shouldn’t be a surprise.
There are a million good reasons for any friendship to come to a close. Except, this time it stings. Like a hand reached into your chest and squeezed your heart like a sponge. Wrung it dry until there was nothing left to feel, save for the dull ache of loss and loneliness.
It used to be magic, when the two of you were together. It felt as if you could be yourself, true to the core, no inhibitions, no reason to twist the truth. No reason to say “I’m fine”, because honesty was precious when you were together.
Now, it’s not so precious. Not since he saw you and turned away. He was laughter, and life, and everything you held dear. No need for other friends, because they wouldn’t understand you like he did. So yes, maybe you shouldn’t have trusted so deeply, or maybe it was just doomed from the start.
So why do you dream of him, of the memories you shared. It feels as if you’ve lost a brother, a piece of your heart. The cracks in your soul will heal, but the scars will stay there forever. Even your subconscious calls out to him, begs for the clock to rewind, back to the happy times. “Time will mend all hurt”, or so the saying goes. But it doesn’t feel like that, it seems that time just makes the pain worse.
The worst part is that you should be angry, but all you can feel is love.
Maybe that’s why it hurts so bad.
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