Life is Complicated

The worst part about life is handling the sacrifices, hardships, sufferings, and mistakes we all make. What's even harder is not being able to find some one who understands you.

[carlysapenguin]

So excited for tomorrow 😍 #lovethis #disneybound #cantwait #disneyland #imexcited #woohoo

[carlysapenguin]

"She loves but is never loved in return. She gives but never recieves. She listens but is never heard. She is the young woman looking to be seen. She is me." Because of what I found out today, I took it out on my kids at work 😪 I went through same crap.. Again 😣 It was completely uncalled for and unprofessional in my part... 😓 I guess I never learned my lesson... But now I have... 😞 Never again will I go through all of that... I promise...😔 #sodone #overit #needsomespace #shewillbeloved #fanfiction #pinoy #pacificislander #filipino #workwasntfun #ihateliferightnow #stressful #stressfulnight #iguessimdone #whatever #givemeicecreamforthepain #selfie #thisgirl #fanfictionpoems

[carlysapenguin]

Eating lunch before the Kadiwa Binhi Special Service with @dvtre and Jefferson There is a first time for everything 😍 #poke #sogood #food #foodporn #delish #givememore #kadiwa #kadiwamember #inc #iglesianicristo #ilovethis #ilovefood #pinoy #filipino #fobforlyf #pacificislander #okay #firsttimer #firsttimehere (at Pokinometry)

[carlysapenguin]

Guess who has an Annual Pass?! THIS GIRL!!!!! Had a wonderful day at Disneyland with @dvtre @ditzayy @fiiisheee Ashely, and Kevin 😁 Can't wait to go again with the crew 😘 LOL Photobombed 😂 "Who's this girl?" #disneybound #annualpass #funday #disneyland #ilovethem #goodday #theymakemehappy #friends #inc #omglikeno #iglesianicristo #pacificislander #filipino #fobforlyf #pinoy #kadiwa #kadiwamember #disneywiththecrew (at Disneyland Resort)

[carlysapenguin]

"This was the great and terrible 10" I. Can't. Stop. Crying! #faultinourstars #cryingmyeyes #damnitall #whyme #ihatethis #abooktoamovie #stillmademecry #reading #inolongeracceptthis

[carlysapenguin]

"You lied when you said you needed me and that I'm worth every second of your time. But you know what dear? You never need me and you aren't worth my a millisecond of my time" - 😁 You know what? When he lies he isn't worth the time. My life lesson learned. #fanfiction #reading #ilovefanfiction #confidence #weirdgirl #imamwhoiam #selfie #lifequotes #lol #lovely #great #fobforlyf #filipino #amazing #boundtotheonesilove #foreverboundtotheonesilove #mylife #nowthatshowyoudoit #tired #okayimdone #pinoy #pacificislander #peaceout

[carlysapenguin]

To my percussion students at Norco High School, Tonight you guys did wonderful! Thank you for the hard work on your first competition. We shall get your score higher, and we will work harder to reach that goal! Tonight was the test and your experience will make you work harder, keep up the good work guys! Tuesday we'll work hard on practice, and we'll perfect our show. Let's make this a year to never forget! Love always, Your pit instructor Carly #norcohighschool #norcopitsters #pitproblems #pitsters #mypit #workinghard #work #ilovethem #foreverboundtotheonesilove #boundtotheonesilove #great #wonderfulnight #goodjob #letsdothis #nowthatshowyoudoit #lol #love #lovely #mylife #thanksgodihaveyou #youmakemehappy #pinoy #pacificislander #percussionprobs #filipino #workingonasaturdaynight (at Norco High)

[carlysapenguin]

"I love her. Her smile, her laugh, her actions, her words. I love her being, and especially because she's a person that isn't worth leaving." -😘 #fanfiction #quotes #lifequotes #iminlove #hesforeverinmyheart #ilovefanfiction #reading #filipino #pinoy #pacificislander #fobforlyf #foreverboundtotheonesilove #love #lol #lovely #amazing #specialperson #youmakemehappy #okayimdone #great #boundtotheonesilove #newtothis #novels #mylife #lovequotes #tired #selfie #didmymakeuptoday #peaceout

[carlysapenguin]

Happy Friday!!! Just thought I'd wear my "Walk to End Lupus" T-shirt today 😘👚 Have a good day everyone!!! #lupus #lupuspatient #lol #didmymakeuptoday #friday #haveagoodday #love #lovely #filipino #fobforlyf #pinoy #pacificislander #boundtotheonesilove #foreverboundtotheonesilove #amazing #mylife #whattheheckman #fridayismyfavoriteday #peaceout (at Santa Monica College Performing Arts Center)

[carlysapenguin]

Fo sure we're grubbin' #yumm #amazing #ilovefood #ilovemymom #shrimplovers #shrimp #food #filipino #fobforlyf #pinoy #pacificislander #great (at The Shrimp Lover Redondo Beach)

[carlysapenguin]

Yeah... My "Elmo" mallets have officially began to fall apart... I think it's time to buy a new set of Marimba mallets LOL #pitproblems #percussionprobs #dunnowhathappened #what #firstworldprobs #whyme #dafaq #damnitall #theyarenolongerfuzy #inolongeracceptthis #great #anotherproblem #damnyou #irritable #justneedabreak #tired #lol #pinoy #filipino #pacificislander #fobforlyf #whattheheckman #okayimdone (at Santa Monica College Performing Arts Center)

[carlysapenguin]

Because you always save the best for last. A little over 19 years ago, the woman holding me gave birth to me. This woman not only have me life, but has also saved my life countless times.. My mom is my hero and another main reason why I continue to fight for my life everyday. Happy Birthday Mommy, you not only gave me life and saved it, you formed me into the young woman I am today. I hope you had a wonderful 41st birthday. Love always and forever, your daughter Carlene Tiana Cui #iloveher #shesmymom #ilovemymom #happybirthday #shesgreat #haveagoodbitrthday #mymom #mommy #myhero #mylife

[carlysapenguin]

Happy Birthday to this wonderful woman right here!!! Ate Chanelle you made my life so much happier with you in it!!! You're very sweet, funny, and it's super easy to talk to! Although we aren't that far apart in age, I will always think of you as an Ate I can always count on! PLUS! You and the group of Kadiwas I spend Wednesday Nights and Sundays with make my life so much more special! I know we're celebrating on Sunday, but that doesn't mean I can't post now AND on Sunday 😁 Have a wonderful day Chanelle!! Be good on your 21st birthday! #iloveher #happybirthday #shes21 #haveagoodday #lol #specialperson #specialday #foreverboundtotheonesilove #boundtotheonesilove #shesgreat #wonderfulwoman #youmakemehappy #thanksgodihaveyou

[carlysapenguin]

ALRIGHT!!! Stop tagging me 😒 Here is my 20 Facts: 1. My full legal name is Carlene Tiana Cui 2. I've been a Lupus Patient since August 23, 2011 3. I am a Make A Wish Child 4. I moved half way through my high school career 5. I graduated from RUHS in the Class of 2013 6. I am madly in love with penguins, Captain America, and the color purple 7. My major is Biology, emphasis on Marine Biology 8. My minor is Music Education 9. My dream college is the University of Hawaii at Manoa 10. I am in my second year at Santa Monica College 11. I support three different organizations (outside of church); the Lupus Foundation of America Los Angeles, The Renal Support Group, and the Make A Wish Foundation 12. I am a proud Kadiwa Iglesia Ni Cristo member 13. I hold the office of Choir Member 14. I am currently a front ensemble instructor at Norco High School 15. I love baseball (GO DODGERS!) 16. Aquariums and Dodger Stadium are my happy places 😁 17. All my friends and family are all VERY important to me 18. I have an addiction to coffee 19. I always get sick on my birthday, that's why I hate celebrating it in the actual day.. 20. I find my age irrelevant There y'all go! If you're tagged y'all gotta do the 20 facts!!! #20factsaboutme #selfie #satisfied #lazy #laziess #random #tired #inc #incmedia #iglesianicristo #kadiwa #kadiwamember #quittaggingme #okay #incforlyf #fobforlyf #foreverboundtotheonesilove #filipino #pacificislander #pinoy #nowthatshowyoudoit #boundtotheonesilove

[carlysapenguin]

[Day 14]: It was a fun day at work! Had one out of the two and we ended up going to beach to make sand walls 😘😁 #working #whataday #wonderful #reallycute #tired #santamonicapier #santamonicabeach #santamonica #awesome #amazingday #daysfinallyover #satisfied #love #onehundredhappydays #hundreddaychallenge #happydays #great #greatday #goodnight #makingsomemoney #babysittingjob #toomuchfun #sand #sandwalls #gotsoaked #100daychallenge (at Santa Monica Beach and Pier, Santa Monica, California)

[carlysapenguin]

[Day 14]: Had a great day working with these two beautiful young girls 😍 We made milkshakes, pasta, and played Monopoly until their mom came home.😄 I get another day with them tomorrow 😁 and I'm actually excited about it 😘 #working #whataday #wonderful #ilovethem #incforlyf #inc #love #money #makingsomemoney #somewhatsatisfied #cantwait #cannotwait #boundtotheonesilove #finally #funday #filipino #fobforlyf #foreverboundtotheonesilove #superhuman #awesome #amazingday

[carlysapenguin]

[Day 13]: more stress was added to my plate today... But hey no said work wasn't stressful!!! Besides all the stress I had a pretty chill day!! It was nice to sit on the couch and watch Anime until WS tonight 😍 I'm sleepy, yet I'm so hyped up for tomorrow... Dude... I think I have super human abilities 😳😁 Well, I should maybe try and make more energy for tomorrow... It's gunna be a long day 😒 Now for bed and then work tomorrow!! I AM SUPERWOMAN!!! 😎 Night! #whataday #working #lazy #laziess #whathappened #iguess #inc #imokaynow #incforlyf #iglesianicristo #imsomewhatmiserable #ohgreat #money #makingsomemoney #stressful #stressed #pinoy #pacificislander #goodnight #filipino #fobforlyf #finally #damnitall #daysfinallyover #everyoneisconspiringagainstme #yunohelp #ugh #onehundredhappydays #hundreddaychallenge #happydays #100daychallenge #verytired #tired #needadayoff #needavacation #nowthatshowyoudoit #anime #animefreak #awesome #superhuman #abnormal #weirdgirl