a wonderful caricature of intimacy

Take me back to feeling like the world would just keep dealing me the right cards every time.

[carterblack-blog]

do you ever just remember old characters that you fucking adored and suddenly you're tearing up on your couch at half past midnight on a monday

haha yeah me neither

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[carterblack-blog]

212 azealia banks

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[carterblack-blog]

stronger kelly clarkson

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[carterblack-blog]

Same Carter, (some of the) same awesome people, different RPG -- just moving from Soulmates in San Diego to LAX.

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[emily--bell-blog]

No, that makes sense. Change isn’t easy, but you do have options. Have you thought about seeing someone? Like, someone who knows how to deal with stuff like this. I’m sure they have support groups or something that could help. 

[carterblack-blog]

Yeah, I have to go back soon and they're considering putting me down for therapy... I don't want to have to tell everything to someone who doesn't know or care about me, though.

[emily--bell-blog]

I don’t think badly of you, Carter. I’m just worried. We don’t have to tell the twins about this until they’re older, and maybe not even then if you don’t feel comfortable. You’re a great role model; you’re just going through a rough spot. We all have them, and if you show the twins that you can get over it, I’m sure they’ll be incredibly proud of you. True, but that doesn’t mean you can’t just forget about eating for the rest of the day. Alright, that’s good. 

[carterblack-blog]

That makes one of us, then.

There's a bit more to it than just wanting to get better. Like... I want to do it for the twins, but whenever it comes to actually putting it into practice, it's too difficult and I don't have enough willpower.

[emily--bell-blog]

Ah, cool. Yeah, I’ll try to get you tickets. I don’t think it’ll be a problem. You passed out!? Oh, god, Carter. Why didn’t you tell me until now? I know you are, but that doesn’t make the fact that you passed out any less….awful. Okay, that’s good, but what about the rest of the day? You can’t just eat in the mornings. It’s a good start; but your body needs more food in order to function properly. 

[carterblack-blog]

I didn't tell you 'cause I knew you'd freak out! I mean, it could have been worse... and I don't want you to think badly of me. And I didn't want the twins to know because I don't want them to have such a bad role model. Hey, breakfast is the most important meal of the day, so it's less okay to skip that one than the rest of them. I drink water throughout the day and I'm functioning okay.

[emily--bell-blog]

I try my best, okay? Yeah, I meant that opening night was the 8th. Sorry. Actually, I think I can get everyone tickets for opening night. I’ll have to see who’s available. Aw, you’re too sweet. Carter, I love you, but I don’t think that’s all that happened. People don’t go to the hospital for being a little sleepy. I know…but are you eating enough? I’m sorry if I’m prying, I’m just worried. 

[carterblack-blog]

Oh, right. 'Cause I'm going to a concert on the 9th and I don't wanna miss your big day. ... Okay, fine, I sort of tripped going up some stairs and passed out a little bit, but it wasn't a huge deal. I'm just kind of fragile sometimes and I was really hot 'cause I had a few layers on. I am! I eat at least one thing before I leave every morning.

[addison-campbell]

You’ll get there someday, I promise. 

[carterblack-blog]

Because you want me to make sure nobody murders you? I got your back.

[emily--bell-blog]

No, not really. Tolerate is probably a better word. Alright, I will. I think they’re going on sale pretty soon, though, because the show is on the 8th. What!? That is definitely something serious. What happened? Are you okay? 

[carterblack-blog]

But they're my other babies so you have to pretend to love them. Isn't it running for multiple days? You know it's gonna sell out 'cause you're in it. Nothing happened, jeez, I just fell asleep again. And they weren't allowed to keep me there for longer than a night if I didn't want to be there. -shrugs- I've been eating if that's what you're worried about. Every day like I promised.

[emily--bell-blog]

Pretty good. The schedule has been crazy, but it’s nice. Ugh. Those damn cats. You don’t sound so sure. What’s going on? 

[carterblack-blog]

You love those dumb cats. Also, let me know when tickets for your show are available 'cause I wanna go. It's no big deal, really, I just had a bad day at work so I went to the hospital for evaluation and had to stay overnight. Nothing serious.

[emily--bell-blog]

Oh, I will. Thank you

No, not really. Just Our Town Stuff. How have you been? 

[carterblack-blog]

How's that going? River was napping on top of your scripts this morning so they might be a bit furry. Uh... alright, I guess...

[emily--bell-blog]

Yeah, I know. I’m definitely going to be on my toes a little bit and try not to rush into things. 

[carterblack-blog]

Obviously. You're not stupid. And just let me know if you need me out of the way for the night.

Is anything else new?