[earth shoves me] hit or miss

[cascadic]

terrafrma‌:

                          “ah…” when aqua pointed out his lie, his shoulders slumped. he felt bad for repeatedly lying and worse when aqua brought it to lie. though she didn’t seem upset with him or anything. that was good at least. “i’m sorry…” he spoke softly, meeting her eyes for just a second before they darted back to the ground.

                          “i…i didn’t know what else to say.” he felt his cheeks flush in embarrassment. even if he was close to aqua, he still had trouble talking to her. even after all this time, he still struggled. he wished he wasn’t like this. he wanted to have more confidence in himself and overcome his anxiety that drove him into silence. 

                          “and i’m sorry for interrupting you.” he felt guilty for disturbing her while she had been reading. he was silent for a minute, trying to think of something, anything to say before he spoke up again. “have you been having a good day…?”

                                 aqua figured that was the case. she knew talking wasn’t his strong suit, even with people he’s known since childhood. she was sure that the anxiety of coming up with what to say only made that worse. aqua was an introvert, but she wasn’t shy and she didn’t have the amount of anxiety that terra had. it must be painful for him. the least she could do was be patient and listen. 

                                                 “ there’s nothing to be sorry about. ” she smiled. in fact, it meant a lot to her that he tried so hard to get past his anxieties so he could talk to her. aqua wouldn’t say that to him, though; she didn’t want to come off as condescending nor did she want to overwhelm him. 

                                                  “ i have. nothing too unusual happened, so i consider that a good thing. ” especially with all the drama involving lightning and windy lately. she leaned back against the couch a bit, wondering in the back of her head what it felt like to lean against terra’s chest. it was something she’d done when they were children, but he’d obviously grown a lot since then-- ah. what was she thinking again? “ what about you? did the rest of your classes go alright? ”

[cascadic]

terrafrma‌:

                    it seemed that he and aqua were the only ones around right now. the others must be in class or doing something else. terra had been sitting in the living room, fiddling with his thumbs this entire time. aqua, on the other hand, had been reading. even if the two had been friends for over 10 years now, terra still found himself nervous when it came to talking to her. well, he had trouble talking to most people, but especially aqua. it wasn’t because he disliked her, no it was the opposite. it was because he liked her so much. he had been in love with her for years now. though he was far too nervous to confess. 

                     still, he wanted to be closer to her. he wanted to spend time with her. he wanted to talk to her. the problem was, he didn’t know what to talk about. he had to think of some excuse. “aqua…” he couldn’t meet her eyes as he spoke, far too nervous to do so. “did…did you um…get the notes for our last class? i…fell asleep.” the second he said that, he realized how idiotic it sounded. he and aqua sat next to each other and terra never fell asleep during class. “i mean…i was distracted. and i didn’t understand what the professor was saying.”

@cascadic

                                    every day, terra walked home from class with aqua, even on the days when her classes ran later than his. it was something they had done in high school and the habit continued when they started going to college. that meant they always came home at the same time. sometimes, aqua had other things to do after class, but usually, they spent the rest of the day together. even if terra felt awkward in these situations, aqua was still grateful for his companionship after all this time. she was grateful for her other friends, too, but no one was as close to her as terra ( even if he held himself back ). 

                                                  aqua slid the bookmark in her book and closed it when terra spoke, giving him her full attention. he still rarely held eye contact with her, but that was okay. she would wait patiently for him to do things at his own pace. 

                                                  “ you’re always welcome to read my notes, but i know you don’t need them. ” she said directly, though her words were soft and held no malice. aqua had seen him taking notes. terra was always attentive in class; if she had noticed he wasn’t paying attention, she would have asked him if he wasn’t feeling well. “ you can talk to me about anything, terra. you know that, don’t you? ”