i choose to burn out, rather than fade...

3rd vent sideblog because i'm addicted to making these, not okay, and i don't want anyone to worry about me

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intro and a little psa

hey, it's Cassandra. this is my 3rd vent account because too many people knew about my past ones.

a few notes/guidelines you might want to know:

i've been clean since April 29

like my posts all you want, I don't really care

don't be a jerk

unless we talk a lot please don't DM me and ask if I'm ok, it's nothing personal I just don't want that to happen in the future (I really appreciate all the people who did use to reach out btw)

please don't assume a vent post I make is about you. a lot of these apply to things happening irl and not on tumblr/discord

thanks for reading :P

(some stuff that I'm saving for myself is below the cut)

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crying and spiraling because someone said the word "thin" is totally and completely normal and fine right

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and I thought I was smart

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i'm reaching the "burn" part of "burnt out gifted kid" a little too quickly for my liking

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i don't think I'm finishing school anymore I think school's gonna finish me

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relapsed.

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I want to hurt

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no one cares

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fuck whatever demon posseses me

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oh the jealousy is soooo back

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one thing makes me want to sob

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oh fuck.

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everything hurts again

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I ate :(

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okay great I somehow fucked it up again

[ju6iter]

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it never happens anymore