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[bippus]

when i was born they rushed all the nurses into the room. called the whole hospital. Here’s the baby that doesn’t cry they said

[sagehole]

we love to applaud performative masculinity

[bippus]

I was a stoic

[grimeclown]

 “hi welcome to mcdonalds what can i get for you?”

“yeah can i get a deluxe quarter pounder with cheese?”

“absolutely, do you want the meal or just the sandwich?’

“uuuuuh hold on”

*fishes something out of my pocket*

“mikey what do i do?”

“get the fries. youll need the energy in the coming days”

*stuffs it back in my pocket*

“uhh yes please  the meal would be great”

[texcritterspizzajamboree]

serious question: can anyone else see this post? am I hallucinating?

[meme-loving-stuck]

this is like Schrodinger’s fucking meme because half the time the pic is deleted and the other half it’s visible

[kaban-bang]

[overtea]

The details of Carol and Helen slowly revealed, and Carol having to reconcile the image of her wife and their marriage she has in her head and her memories with the new information that she never got from the real Helen but are told to her by the Hive, who are using Helen’s memories and mannerisms to manipulate Carol. It’s so fun to me, and one of the more interesting parts of the show.

I’m not interested in categorizing Carol and Helen as a failmarriage or a necessarily toxic relationship. I think it’s painful for Carol to grieve and miss her wife while also having to recontexualize important aspects of their relationship. Helen never finished reading her book. She thought of her writing as fluff, cotton candy. She put a motion sensor in the alcohol cabinet when they were preparing to freeze Carol’s eggs to eventually have a baby together. We don’t know what happened after that, but they never had a child together. I think we can speculate different possibilities, but my mind floated to Carol not abstaining from drinking, and Helen pulled the plug on them moving forward with having children, or brought up shelving the idea, but she never confronted Carol about her drinking when she was meant to be abstaining.

I don’t view Helen as controlling, but I think the parallels with the Hive monitoring are intentional. I think we are meant to see that individual humans are fallible, too. Humans do things under the guise of love all the time. We don’t see Carol and Helen’s history, we don’t know how alcoholism has marked their marriage. But Carol’s car has a breathalyzer, and Helen kept a motion sensor in their home. It’s clearly territory that has been tread before. Carol simply explains to Manousos that Helen didn’t like her drinking. We don’t know if Helen used the sensor after Carol froze her eggs. I lean on the side that she didn’t, not afterward, because Carol doesn’t seem to restrain her drinking in front of Helen. But it’s still there.

I don’t think it’s a coincidence that Carol jumped to assuming the Hive was bugging her and didn’t consider Helen, because Helen never gave her a reason to assume she’d track her movements (or Carol didn’t want to assume something like that of her wife). I also don’t think Carol would have believed the Hive so immediately had she not determined they can’t lie to her. But, of course, the new information still hurts her, deeply. And she can’t confront Helen. She can’t hear Helen’s side, she can’t forgive Helen, because Helen’s not here to ask for forgiveness. And the eggs—that future, it ends up coming around to hurt Carol in the end, again. That potential future promised for her and Helen, they never saw it through, and it’s been colonized by the Hive.

[actual-changeling]

something about helen and carol watching the sky together, but now helen is gone and the sky is watching her instead.

a sacred memory, an experience that connected them, turned into just another way of the hivemind controlling and monitoring her.

[sturkabush]

i know carol being tortured by her femmesona is delicious to think and read about, but i also love the idea of her and helen going shopping for womenswear like they’re shopping for halloween costumes and making bets about who can find the most hetmaxxed garbage outfit in the department store and having a countdown reveal where they both open the doors to their dressing rooms at the same time and then piss themselves laughing at each other. they call each other carolyn and helena when they’re in het drag and it’s kind of a silly funny time for them (they’re coping)

[lesbianwitchvampires]

no but when Helen reads the fan question of "is there a man who inspired Raban" and Carol goes "that's hilarious" and then "Put down George Clooney." And Helen looks exasperated, because that's the most obvious answer you can give, but Carol has the brilliant foolproof argument of, "What's wrong with him?" And Helen's like, "At least be cool about it, like uhhh what about some Brazilian soccer player? Dreadlocks! Dreadlocks are cool!" (your fave dead wife is problematic) And somehow this is a closeted bestselling hetero-romantasy author, and her manager who does a lot of research, and neither of them have so much as looked at a top 10 sexiest men alive list.

I just

[loonysaurus]

they took the world. then they took helen. now they’re taking away the last shreds of a beautiful, potential future that carol and helen planned together :’)

how could anyone find her insufferable when she’s LITERALLY in the torture chamber 💔 my poor baby 🤕

[haughtyraban]

helen umstead in grad school reading classic english literature and suffering through extensive analyses of prose, theming, subtext and history:

carol sturka on a legal pad six beers in: what if ice was hot and the sun was chartreuse

[sturkabush]

i think something we don’t meditate on enough re: potential zosia unhiving is that the moment carol realizes it’s possible, she will also understand that helen could have been unhived and brought back if she didn’t die. if she just caught her when she fell.

i don’t think carols first thought would be ‘ok now i will fuck the hot polish stranger.’ it would actually be ‘oh shit… you could have been my wife’ and then she would have her eight millionth mental breakdown

[loonysaurus]

plurb in another universe thoughts…part 3 ☹️❤️‍🩹 (forgive me)

[pupzleo]

218 BY RICARDO REIS TRANSLATED BY MARGARET JULL COSTA & PATRICIO FERRARI

[mintjuliee]

[carolsturkas]

Helen L. Umstead haunting the narrative pt 1/???

[sturstead]

“[Helen] was uniquely her, uniquely calling Carol on her shit, uniquely loving Carol despite her other crap. And this subject comes up in little sprinkled way throughout the series, what is it like to be loved uniquely vs. what is it like to be loved because everyone loves you. And she wanted to be uniquely loved, and Helen gave her that” — Rhea Seehorn

[haughtyraban]

[itberice]

[kendrysaneela]

PLURIBUS EMMY NOMINEE SWEEP!!!!