90% multifandom chaos, 10% mental illness

Alex || they/them | dey/deren | ze/zem || young adult || find me on ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/users/actualchangeling || trans, aro, lesbian, queer || let's just say there is SO MUCH wrong with me || not spoiler free for anything i post about || topics will be tagged on request

[actual-changeling]

Hi, you can call me Alex or whatever variation of my username you'd like. <3

I'm in my early twenties, use mainly they/them pronouns, and there is a lot wrong with my brain (both affectionately and in a decidedly not fun way). I have memory issues, so I can and will forget things, including replying to messages. You are ALWAYS invited to send me a reminder—please, please do, I will not be offended, pinky promise.

This blog is 90% multi fandom, 5% personal shit and 5% misc posts that I like. My DMs are open, so feel free to message me and interact however you like!

Asks are tentatively being opened again. Do you have any "controversial" fandom opinions you feel will get you killed in the metaphorical town square? Send me an anon ask, and I'll post them (with my thoughts) for you.

If there's something you want me to see, I don't mind getting tagged in posts either.

Please don't be an asshole. I'm incredibly bad at judging my own tone, so if I come across as overly intense or upset, chances are I am actually not—I'm just passionate about the things I enjoy.

I write fanfiction both here on tumblr and on ao3 under actualchangeling. Requests or ideas are fine, though I cannot make any promises.

PHM fic masterpost can be found here!

I will be tagging spoilers for any newly released shows and episodes. If there is something you would like me to tag spoilers for/in general, just shoot me an ask or dm!

alex yells at the void -> misc personal stuff

Currently following and tagging for:

Interview With The Vampire: alex watches iwtv, iwtv spoilers

Project Hail Mary: alex and project hail mary

Good Omens: alex watches good omens

The X Files: alex watches x files

The Murderbot Diaries: alex and murderbot (for books & show)

Pluribus: alex watches pluribus

Doctor Who: alex watches doctor who, dw spoilers

If tumblr dies/becomes unusable, find me on pillowfort as actualchangeling

My other misc current active special interests are Doctor Who and Good Omens, but I dabble in a lot of other fandoms, too. Among those are Marvel/Iron Man, Lucifer, TLOU, The Magnus Archives, Welcome to Night Vale, Prospect (2018), and many more.

My tag system for original posts applies to all fandoms I am currently actively engaging with and follows the same patterns. I tag spoilers when I remember to for about a week, so consider this blog to be very much NOT spoiler free.

alex talks x -> meta, analysis, interpretation, or opinion posts

alex writes x -> either self-promotion or tumblr specific ficlets, without any fandom addition it's original writing of some kind

Any personal posts that are not fandom related are tagged as following; feel free to block them if you're just here for the fandom madness!! I really do not mind.

alex yells at the void -> misc personal stuff

alex gets personal -> potentially triggering discussions of my trauma or mental health, vent posts

Last but not least, the tag for my queue is I’ll follow queue anywhere you go. It's a TLOU reference for those who are curious.

[actual-changeling]

whatever you do never think about the fact that every single sunrise reminds eva of what she was forced to do, what she did it for, hoping against everything that it will be worth it.

that looking at the sun will hurt again and burn the guilt out of her.

[c0nji]

[only-cat-memes]

[clementine-kesh]

imo you get the most out of engaging with media when you strike a balance between treating characters as people (reading interiority into their actions, considering the effect of various aspects of their identity, etc etc) and as vehicles for storytelling (what narrative purpose do they serve, how do their actions and personality function to convey the themes of the work, etc etc). because of course characters are literary devices but also there’s a reason we use literary devices written to embody realistic people in order to tell stories

[cloudabserk]

separation anxiety

[sharkfiinn]

loser duo

[actual-changeling]

probably a very unserious idea but it would be so fucking funny if eva had a service dog that is also called grace.

it's trained to alert for and help with her migraines and make sure she takes care of herself (alerting to low blood sugar or symptoms of exhaustion, interrupting her when she gets sucked into something for too long, etc.).

and since the dog was there first it's "grace" and "human grace", or grace one and grace two. sometimes it's obvious which one you're referring to, other times you have to specify which grace you saw sleeping on her office floor.

eva's two saving graces.

[sluttynurse]

probably the worst attitude tumblr unintentionally cultivates is "the world out there is completely dangerous for you and no one can possibly understand you, so you should isolate yourself from it and avoid interacting with it as much as possible"

[thearmandthinker]

i love people who love evil characters without feeling the need to defend them! i love it when people love their characters evil and nasty and vile in all the ways they can be, from the regular stuff to the taboo, and can confidently say it without having to defend their horrible, nasty, vile actions. i love people who don't feel the need to woobify their favourite characters. i love people who don't try to twist the bad deeds of a character into good deeds with wild leaps of logic just to have reason to like them. i love people who don't try to iron out all the bad deeds of their favourite characters to like them, essentially defanging them and their actions and making them boring. i love people who know their favourite characters are manipulative and self serving and who love them for that because it makes them just as complex as their good qualities. i love people who leave room for their favourite characters to be flawed and intricately complex in every way. i love people who are secure enough that they understand you do not have to vehemently defend the terrible actions of a character to love them. i love you all, you're so rad and interesting and smart.

[aenslem]

His thoughts, his words inspire and influence thousands for centuries. If he dies now, who knows what damage that will have on future history? Words matter! One death, one ripple, and history will change in a blink. The future will not be the world you know. The world you came from, the world you were created in won't exist, so neither will you. DOCTOR WHO | The Haunting of Villa Diodati

[reactionimagesdaily]

[glavilio]

[guiltfactory-moved]

everything is a reference when you're crazy

[argumate]

I keep thinking this! very frustrating

[argumate]

fuck!

[actual-changeling]

there's a world of angst to explore in eva stratt trying to navigate her way through a bunch of old white men that 90% of the time do not respect her as a person, let alone a woman.

the condescending tone of voice, casually talking over her, acting like they know best, trying to put themselves above her, and, of course, the sexual harassment.

eventually, people do part in front of her and she can silence a room simply by standing in it, but what did it take to get there?

how many times did a man try something before realizing there will be consequences for his actions and he has no power over her? how many times did grace stand next to her, quietly burning with anger and the urge to punch a guy in the face, while she turned herself to stone until the other person caved in?

how many times did he overhear dismissive or sexually charged comments, wanting to draw attention to it, to embarrass whoever dares to fucking talk about her like that, just to remember a conversation he'd had with her once?

late at night, though night is relative on a plane flying to a ship; they're chasing the sun and losing.

a few hours earlier, she had quietly shaken her head when he'd opened his mouth to defend her, and he'd swallowed everything he wanted to say and closed it again. she didn't say anything herself, and logically he knows, he knows, why and the position she is in, yet he can't help but ask—

"why do you let them talk about you like that?"

he winces, it sounds accusatory and that's the last thing he wants to be. eva doesn't seem to mind his tone, though.

"attention is power," she says without looking up from her tablet with a smooth voice, "and time is something i do not have enough of to waste on pitiful creatures like that."

with a non-committal hum, he turns to stare out the window and into the dark, spinning a pen between his fingers. round and round and round it goes.

"it bothers you more than it bothers me," eva states after a little while, and he shrugs before finding her eyes in the reflection.

"of course it bothers me. you don't need someone to defend you, i know that, and i know this is nothing new for you either. i just—" he sighs and tilts his head to face her, leaning against the cold plastic.

"i don't get how they do it in the middle of a crowd and no one intervenes, no one says anything, no one challenges them. if you'd let me, i—"

"you'd call some highly-influential businessman a staggering waste of carbon and get our funding cut?" a smile plays around her lips, faint and tired, but he sees it, he always does.

"rude of you to assume i wouldn't come up with something new."

eva makes a sound that could be a laugh and he calls it a win, leaning back in his seat to try and get some sleep.

hours later, grace slowly comes to realize that yes, her attention is power, and yet he cannot recall a time she has cut him off or abandoned their shared conversation like she does with so many others.

when he speaks, the most powerful woman in the world listens, and he has no fucking clue what he's done to deserve that kind of respect.

meanwhile eva would never admit it out loud, but many times it has been his reaction and anger that has kept her calm. it's safe, somehow, and while she needs no knight in shining armour, it's comforting to know he will step between her and the world without hesitation and thank her for it.

[thememedaddy]