The heart

"Sometimes you don't want to know the end of a story. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow."

[cassie-macmillan]

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[cassie-macmillan]

I gotta go my own way.mp3 or Laure’s goodbye letter under the cut.

Dear elementals,

It is with a heavy heart that I announce to you that I am leaving the roleplay. It was a very hard decision to take but one I have been circling around for a while now. For months I was only staying out of loyalty to the roleplay, my fellow admins and the plots I had going with other players. I also love my characters so much that it breaks my heart to let them go. But in the end, I have to put myself first and the group will do just fine without me. My departure has nothing to do with any of you but everything to do with me. I have to deal with my own issues and feelings which I do not wish to details in here, as I want this letter to stay positive. But mostly, I am at a point in my life where I need to focus on myself and I can no longer invest the energy and time elementum and all of you deserve. 

I will miss this place a lot as it used to be my home for almost five years. It was the first roleplay I ever joined and I was the luckiest to have stumbled upon such a gem. Forgotten made me grow as an English speaker, as a writer and as a person. I will forever be grateful for the opportunities given to me and for my time here. I was hashtag blessed to write and form bonds with amazing players. All of you are incredibly talented and it was a privilege to write with you, to read you on the dash and be your partner for all these years. I often felt so insecure and lame compared to how marvellous you people were. I think I did not compliment you enough and I should have because you deserve to know just how amazing you are. 

I wish all of you the best and this is not a farewell as I do not exclude coming back at some point but for now I have to go. I want to leave peacefully and with only good memories of this place who used to bring me so much joy and not stretch this experience to a point were I am miserable. You are more than welcome to contact me on my personal if you wish to and I would be happy to give you my musing blog url so maybe someday we can write together again in a 1x1.

Thank you for everything and as we say here : je vous aime très fort. 

Laure

[dom-weasley-blog]

The cumulative stress of recovering from the wedding and launching straight into exams had had it’s toll on Dominique. She came out of the exam hall tired and drained, wishing she could go back and correct the mistakes she already knew she’d made. Concentration had been an issue for her lately.

“Well, I don’t think that could possibly have gone any worse. And I’m going to have to wait until the end of summer to find out and it’s unbearable. Why can’t they just tell me now that I’ve failed and have it over with? I need a drink. And plans for summer.”

[cassie-macmillan]

“I’m sure it’s not that bad. I’m not happy myself. I hope they’ll be lenient with us because of the circumstances. I’m not on for a drink but I can watch you. You can always visit me ! Or invite me to your beach house.” 

[zekenoevil]

Post-NEWTs

Uh, I just put true for all the true and false. It’s like, half chance of being right, right? That was, like, really hard. There were way too many questions. 

[cassie-macmillan]

“I do hope you’ll pass but that is kind of bad to leave it to fate.”

[the-storm-macleod]

Cassie, no. I wasn’t even there, I’d have nothing to talk about. It’d be unfair to people who acctually need it

[cassie-macmillan]

I thought you were. So many people attended. But yes if you don’t need it, there isn’t much point in comming. 

[dom-weasley-blog]

St.Mungos/The aftermath

[dom-weasley-blog]

“I know, but I can’t help dreaming.”

[cassie-macmillan]

“Maybe you’ll have a cute doctor.”

[hal-lelujahlongbottom]

Sure thing Cass, I’ve got time

[cassie-macmillan]

Great ! Thanks ! It’s for my support group. I hope more people will come.

[johanna-on-fire]

Well, I’ll try and counter that and get all the people I know to come. Don’t even worry. 

[cassie-macmillan]

You’re amazing ! Thank you.

[hipsdo-lie]

Hogsmeade

[hipsdo-lie]

“I can’t keep mooching of Lawrence forever.”

[cassie-macmillan]

“Is it just for the summer ? Or on a more permanent basis ?”

[hal-lelujahlongbottom]

Excuse me? What’s going on here?

[cassie-macmillan]

“Just hanging some posters. Care to help me ?”

[hipsdo-lie]

Hogsmeade

“Welcome to Weasley’s Wizarding Weezes, is there something I can help you with?” 

[cassie-macmillan]

“Hey ! I didn’t know you were working here. There are so many new people.”

[attitude-mayte-vary]

This year sure went fast. I can’t believe it’s almost summer again. Do you and your brothers have any plans?

[cassie-macmillan]

I’m kind of relieved to be at the end to be honest. Not really or he hasn’t told me. I just want to be with my family and friends. Do you have plans ?

[johanna-on-fire]

Okay, well, Tyler Alvarez is a little shit and everyone knows that. Whoever’s acting like him is probably the same. 

[cassie-macmillan]

Maybe. I just hope they don’t deter people who want or needs to come.

[the-storm-macleod]

Cassie. This is me we’re talking about

[cassie-macmillan]

I know. But Prue will probably be here and I know for sure Johanna is coming. You should be confortable with them and it’s a safe place.

[windmila-blog]

“Traumatizing… freeing.” She snorts, taking a drag from her cigarette. She decided to read the humming in her veins as excitement rather than anxiety. “They lived. Don’t understand why they need to talk about anything. Just silly, really. They should be out living.”

[cassie-macmillan]

“We’re lucky to be alive but that doesn’t mean we are fine. It’s been a horrible time. Talking can help you get better. Instead of doing all those nasty things.” She gestured at Mila’s cigarette.

[deeper-end-of-dupond]

Impossible when you exist in zah world

[cassie-macmillan]

You’re going to make me blush

[dom-weasley-blog]

St.Mungos/The aftermath

[dom-weasley-blog]

“I just want to get home and see everyone now. I need this ordeal to be over.”

[cassie-macmillan]

“I don’t know if that is going to be possible. They might want to keep you in observation for the night.”