Fairytale got twisted and decayed

Cassandra. 25. Slytherin. College Graduate (still weird to say). Music Obsessed. Disney Obsessed. Tea Junkie. Makeup Hoarder. Random. Chocoholic. Driven. Rusher. Whovian. Galaxy Defender. Reaper Crew. TWFanmily.

[cassieandra13]

Things are starting to feel so out my control I'm not sure what to do or how to act anymore.  Things are bad, money is bad, work is bad, the only thing that is not bad is Michael and I.  

We spend so much time trying to figure out how to stay a float and not sink into our growing mountain of debit that I am honestly afraid we are never going to start the life we want, and I so desperately crave.  I can understand why he wants to wait, and I do completely understand he wants everything to be as perfect as he thinks I deserves and he wants for himself.  I get it and I would never take that away from him.  I am so sick of waiting though.  I just want to get married and start our little insane accident prone family.  I want the little starter house with the walls I can paint and my own little kitchen where I can play suzzie homemaker and just be happy.  

I'm tired of feeling like I'm second in my own life, but I feel like I'm drowning, and the debit isn't getting better and Michael is being turned down for job after job and I know it's taking it's toll on him, so I just stay quiet because I know reminding him that I am not getting anything I want right now it's going to do nothing for his mindset.  I don't think I will understand why life insists on kicking us while we are down, but I'm starting to wonder if I will ever be able to stand up. 

[cassieandra13]

July Empities

Dove Revive Conditioner -  Current go to.  Already have a new bottle.  Might change it up after though

Sarah Michaels Rose Shower Gel  - Not bad, but it takes a lot for a shower gel to wow me.  The scent could be over powering at times.

Mary Kay Timewise Age Fighting Moisturizer - I loved this stuff.  Just need to finish a few other things and save up some money first

Bath and Body Works Vanilla Bean Noel Body Lotion- Smells great, my favorite holiday scent, whenever I finally need more lotion I will taking a trip to B&BW

Proactive Refining Mask - works nicely when I need a good face mask.  I have a bunch of these built up so I guess it is ok that I kind of like it

ELF Moisture Care Lip Color in Ruby Slipper -  Sure pretty color

[cassieandra13]

June Empties

L’Oreal Shadow Stick 972 Perfectionist - Just like the one listened in last month, this one was hard as a rock when I went to use it.  

White Rain Tropical Coconut Shampoo - Crap

L'Oreal Shadow Stick 812 Attentive - dried up

Maybelline Illegal Length Mascara- Finally used up.  Should have thrown it away months ago but I just kept reviving it

NYC Flatliner Metropolitan- Pretty color but really hard.  It might be because it is old, but it isn't really used so I think it may have been like that when I bought it

NYC Flatliner Blackout - Same as above

Random Hotel Shampoo - I don't know what I keep grabbing these things, they always suck

Victoria's Secret Pink Lemonaide Lip Gloss - I tried to squeeze every last bit I could out of this, but it's gone finally.  I loved the color and smell of this.  Would buy it again if I ever need lip gloss

Carmex - Need to go buy more.  This is my go to chapstick/balm

Black Sparkly Hot Topic Eyeliner - Worked well on the waterline, but just a normal black liner

Simple Eye Makeup Remover - I got this in the UK when I got a large selection of the Simple Line.  This has been my only disappointment in the line.  It does not remove water proof mascara and stings my eyes.  Those are simply the 2 most important things when it comes to makeup remover to me.

L'Oreal Shadow Stick 382 Authentic - another one that dried out.  Really pretty green color.

Rimmel London Cool Matte Mousse Foundation - really dark for me unless I was super tan.  Not a horrible foundation but I wouldn't buy it again.  

Random NYC or Wet and Wild Eyeliner - I have had it for so long the name actually rubbed off.  Good eyeliner, worked well on the water line

Lemony Flutter Cuticle Butter - Loved this stuff but I had it for so long it went wonky.  Might buy it again in the future.

Pure Instinct Pheromone Perfume - Had for so long the scent changed.

I have no idea how I went through so many things this month!!  

[cassieandra13]

Survived my first ever pregnancy scare...... yea let's not do that again

[cassieandra13]

May Empties

Clarisonic Gentle Hydro Cleanser - Come with my Clarisonic, I’m so glad it’s done.  I hated it

White Rain Tropical Coconut Conditioner - Bought at the Dollar Store.  Hated it, and I never should have bought it in the first place.  I thought it would be a quick tie over, and it was a mistake.

Cover Girl Clean Pressed Powder - It was good.  I'm not super picky about my powder.

L'Oreal Shadow Stick 842 Meticulous - I actually really liked this at one point because they didn't crease when you put them on.  Sadly this was pushed to the back of the drawer and now it is dried out.

Pantene Pro-V Moisture Renewal Fine Hair Solutions - I don't have fine hair but this was left by Michael's Mom and Sister when they helped him move in.  I don't know if it counts because I didn't buy it, but it was sitting under the counter taking up space and I used about half so I am counting it.

Dove Revival Shampoo - Already Repurchased.  

Mario Badescu Strawberry Face Scrub - Didn't actually finish this, but it is super old and I never really liked it anyways.  Should have been thrown out ages ago.  

Total Empties - 7

Total from past posts - 11

That is 18 empties and I said I wanted to finish 16 more before I moved in with Michael.  Our move in date for the new APT is June 17th.  

[cassieandra13]

April Empties

So this month is a little jaded because I actually de-potted some lipsticks and put them into a pill container.  They arn't actually empty because I am still using the lipsticks but now they will get a lot more use.  The containers I am throwing away will be listed here because most of the colors were just from Markwins Christmas packs and don't actually have names.  

It's a 10 Miracle Leave In Product - I'm actually super sad to see  this little bottle go because I loved this product.  Alas it is expensive and I have half a bottle of one leave in and another full one waiting to be used.  If I ever find myself with the extra cash, I will repurchase

Softsoap Berry Blend body wash- Good when I needed cheap body wash, nothing special though.  Won't repurchase

Bliss Naked Body Butter - I think this was a "birthday gift" from Sephora one year.  I did like it and it soothed my skin nicely.  Most likely will not repurchase only because I have no many body lotions.

Carmax Soothing Lip Balm - I go through these like water.  Already repurchased.

Covergirl Nature Luxe Lipcolor in Clay - This was a little to sheer for my liking, but worked perfectly for days when I was at work and in the sun because of the SPF

ELF Hypershine Lip gloss in Cloud Nine - Just your average lip gloss.  For a dollar I would buy again if I needed a clear lip gloss

Urban Decay Primer Potion (Trial Size) - I think I actually finished this a while ago but it was just sitting in my make up drawer because I was going to cut it open to get the last bit out.

Lipsticks

T.I.M.E. lipstick in Plum 2

Wet and Wild 502

Avon Kiss Me Pink

Revlon Berry Rich

JANE Forget Me Not

3 Markwins Lipsticks

JANE Kisstory

Wet and Wild 541A

Artistry Lip Color Coraline

Artistry Lip Color

Max Factor Wild Pink

Wet And Wild 507A

Total Empties This Month: 6

[romamilleniale]

Jesse Hanson - Back to Boston

A local artist showing some love to the town we love. Stay strong all who were effected and all who call Boston their home.

[cassieandra13]

March Empties

Super Late I know!!!!

April Bath and Shower Body Lotion (Apple Pomegranate Scent) I can not believe my favorite body lotion comes from the Dollar Store.  I am working through a B&BW ones right now so I can try another scent of this.  It feels amazing and just melts into the skin.

CVS cotton balls

Rimmel Hide the Blemish Concealer - DIdn't love it, didn't hate it

Random loose blush small pot - Didn't really finish it, just added it to another loose blush to get it out of the drawer

I am also throwing away three tools that I am not using, and will never see myself going back to

ELF Blush Brush - From the $1 line.  It's scratchy and sheds like woah

Wal*Mart eyelash curler 

Wal*Mart Blush Brush - I believe it's essence of beauty or something like that.  Sucked like the ELF one

[vintagethiings]

[cassieandra13]

Random life musings

Where April is starting tomorrow I know I need to do my March empties, but they are currently sitting at my place, while I spent last night at my boyfriends.  I have only a few things though.

I have decided that April is going to be a "No Buy Month".  There are quite a few new things out in the drug stores that I want to try, but I have a TON of similar products that I want to use up first.  April will officially be my rediscovery period.  I have already semi-started that when I got my Beautifully Disney makeup bag, because I changed out a lot of my products when I switched out of the ELF one I was using.  I have already found one blush that I can't believe I shoved to the back of the Blush drawer.  

However this just rules out frivolous buying, makeup, nail polish, body wash, etc.  If I run out of shampoo, or toothpaste, I will go out and buy it.  This doesn't include clothes either, because for Kings I have to wear all black, and I honestly do not have much of that currently sitting in my closet.  After tomorrow I will at very least be taking a quick trip to Wal*Mart for a few things and then a few other things once I start getting my paychecks.  If I do buy something though I am going to try and record it here just to prove it was needed and not shopping because I am bored.

I'm super excited to start at Kings on Monday.  Granted it is just orientation and then 2 very oddly set up weeks of training, seriously I have the most random days off!  It's going to be nice to start a "Big Girl" job that is somewhat within my major and pays well.  The first week I am working about 30 hours, which will be the single largest paycheck I have gotten in a while.  The fact that there is so much room to possibly grow is exciting as well.

Going to look at an apartment tomorrow with Michael and I couldn't be more excited.  Even thought the 2 styles we are currently interested in are not available, we will still get to see one, and there is so much about this community we like right now, that we have kind of stopped looking else where.  I know that is not the smartest of plans and will maybe poke around, but it is such a great thought that we are doing this together.  It is a HUGE step!

I'm going to go and finish catching up on 90210, the joys of being sick!  

[cassieandra13]

Products I have Finished Jan/Feb

In an effort to save money and space in my life, I am currently (and finally) trying to use up products I already own instead of going out and buying something just because it is new an interesting.  I figure by keeping a list I will know how much I have used up, and be able to look back and figure out if a product is worth buying again whenever I completely run out of something.  Below is what I finished in Jan/ Feb

Dove Revival Conditioner - Already repurchased

 Dollar Store makeup wipes - Never again, they stung my eyes and barely removed anything.  Sadly I still have another pack to finish.

Equate Naturally Beaming Daily Moisturizer - Not a fan.  I bought  this because it is suppose to be comparable to Aveno and I wanted to try that one.  I had to use so much to get my skin to feel moisturized.

Clinque Moisture Surge (Travel Size) - Works great on days where my skin needed extra moisture.  Will repurchase when I have the money and am in need

Crest 3D White toothpaste-  This is the one with the 2 different parts.  Nothing amazing, worked will and left my mouth feeling clean.  Didn't notice much in the whitening aspect.

Bath and Body Works Vanilla Bean Noel Shower Gel - My favorite scent, took my months to finish (started in June, finished in Jan) Will not repurchase soley on the fact I don't think I will ever use up all the shower gels I have.

Carmax Healing Cream - Only a sample size that comes with their lip balm.  Actually works really well so I will not be disappointed every time I get a new little tube with my lip balm.

Random Hotel Shampoo

Random Hotel Conditioner 

Sunsilk 24/7 Anti Poof Cream (Travel Size) - Worked well as a leave in conditioner.  Don't think I would repurchase though ( not even sure this brand still exists

Clean & Clear Morning Burst Facial Scrub (Travel Size) - Good but not great.  I have used  this before and will most likely buy it again if I need a scrub and have used up all my other face washes.  

Total products used up:11

Not a bad start.  I would like to use up about 16 more before I move in with Michael.  I still have a ton of stuff under my bathroom sink and that's not even counting what never made it to Florida in the first place.

[fluorideuraniumcarbonpotassium]

[cassieandra13]

2013 rant

Well 2013 is off to a great start, she said sarcastically.  I was so excited to start part time at Disney, knowing it would be a bit of a struggle for hours, but I didn't think I would actually go weeks without getting any hours at all.  I am going to have to EHH it like my life depends on it, because it actually does.  I'm hoping to hear form Universal soon so maybe my paychecks will normalize a little, or I am going to have to hit the grind of waitressing, Michael even gave me permission to work at Hooters.... though I would have to drop close to 50 pounds before they would even hire me.

In the meantime, in the process of moving from Vista to Bella, and my rents coming down, I realized how many built up products that I need to use.  That and Mike making fun of the amount of makeup I own.  However, what Mike thinks or not, I do need to use up a bulk of my products (which will also save me money currently) which is why I am going to start keeping track of the empty products I use up each month.  Little victories (if you can even call it that) but it will also help me keep track of the products I did or didn't like.  Some stuff has been sitting around forever.

I'm also trying the weekly money saving plan.  I saw it on facebook and it's where you put the dollar amount that matches the week away. (week 1 = $1, week 2 = $2)  So far, so good, but then again, we are only in week 2.

[beben-eleben]

[averytinyhedgehog]

These two were supposedly based on a real couple, who said they wouldn’t board a life boat as long as there were younger people still aboard the ship. They both went below deck, presumably to their room, and that’s the last time they were seen.

;________________;

[moo58]

Isador & Ida Straus

The couple had been married for 41 years at the time of the disaster. They raised six children together, and were almost inseparable. On the rare occasion that they were apart, they wrote each other every day. They even celebrated their birthdays on the same day, although they were well apart from one another. During the sinking, Titanic’s officers pleaded with the 63 year old Ida to board a lifeboat and escape the disaster, but she repeatedly refused to leave her husband. Instead, she placed her maid in a lifeboat, taking her fur coat off and handing it to the maid while saying, “I won’t need this anymore”. At one point, she was convinced to enter one of the last two lifeboats, but jumped out as her husband walked away to rejoin him.

When last seen by witnesses, they were standing on deck, holding each other in a tight embrace. Their funeral drew some 6,000 mourners at Carnegie Hall.

A monument to them still stands in a Bronx cemetery, it’s inscription reads: “Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it.”

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why wasn’t the movie about them

[jiyaajale]

why wasn’t the movie about them

[queenbeefygordita-deactivated20]

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[honeyed]

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[just-shadle-deactivated20220212]

I cry everytime i see this :’(

[violentrose]

‘Why wasn’t the movie about them.’ That’s an amazing point. It would’ve been so much better tbh.

[heartdisney-blog]

:)

[jankyass1-deactivated20121012]

if you catch me on the street listening to my ipod and i do a swift head turn i’m probably in the middle of filming my imaginary music video. do not disturb.

[yapped-deactivated20210406]

I have found my people.

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