Let’s talk about:
Anxiety
Anxiety can ruin you. Trust me, I would know. It manifests itself differently for many people. It often starts with intrusive thoughts. You can’t help yourself but be worried, tense. More often than not, you’re not sure why. You’re not sure why meeting new people or going outside makes you feel like you can’t breathe, like your heart is nearly ready to explode. After all, everyone does it, so why is it so hard for you?
Then, you start to worry some more. You keep telling yourself that you should be able to do what everyone else does, but you can’t. And every time you realize that it feels like you keep falling down a hole like you’ll never be able to be “normal”. But then the question is... Is there such thing as a normal person? What exactly is normal in this world anyway?
Anxiety disorder changes your life, it’s basically your brain entering fight or flight mode over everyday things. It can affect your relationships, your work or school, and your own self-esteem. You can start to feel helpless like you can’t do anything. You don’t trust or believe in yourself, and it hurts. But then, how can you get out? How can you control that fear, the overwhelming panic that can come with all of this?
There isn’t just one answer. Everybody is so different and will need different techniques, but one thing is for sure. It will take time. Maybe it’ll take years, months, no one can predict how long the process is gonna take. The most important thing is to take things slow, go at your own pace, and never lose hope. I know, it’s easier said than done. But, at least for me, holding onto the tiniest amount of hope is what saved me multiple times. I wanted to see the day when anxiety wouldn’t control my life, I wanted to hope that I could actually get better. I held onto it so tightly, that I finally got what I wished for...
Anxiety will always be there with me, lurking in the corner of my mind and ready to jump on any occasion. But the difference is, it doesn’t control me anymore. It doesn’t have control over my everyday life like it used to. And to be honest, it feels great. There will be times when I’ll have to fight against it again, but now that I’ve done it once I want to believe that I can do it again.
And as a matter of fact, so can you. I believe in you and your strength, so never give up.
