You are allowed to grieve the person you could have been if life had been gentler with you.

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You are allowed to grieve the person you could have been if life had been gentler with you.
btw your witty and creative friend could have npd, the family member that believes fortune tellers and always closes the windows could have stpd, the friendly neighbour that always asks how did your day go could have aspd, the not-so-talkative sweetheart you're dating could have dpd, the classmate that always shares jokes with you could have szpd. personality disorders ain't as special or rare as you think, you just don't know them enough. it's not always obvious!!
You are not a bother. You are not a burden. You are not a waste of space. You are not annoying every person you talk to. Your existence matters. Your presence makes a good difference.
Be weird. Please oh please be weird. I want weird, I crave weird, I love weird. This beige of false normality is a little too much for me. We can be weird together if you want. Tell me meticulously everything about your weird and I'll tell you about mine. Whatever obsessions or hyperfixations you have, tell me about them, I so desperately wanna hear it. We were born in this world, it is just as much our right as it is theirs to take up space the way WE want. Soo please, let's do it.
hey just a little reminder — sometimes when you’re in survival mode, living day by day is literally all you can do. it’s all you have space for. and then when you have the space and time and release to slowly start to come out of survival mode, you have to re-learn how to live with the future in mind. learning from your past. making your future self proud. doing things your future self will thank you for. and I don’t see a lot of people talking about how TERRIFYING that is. but it is. it’s really, really scary to plan and learn what healthy self discipline looks like and how to greet every version of yourself. and so if that’s you today — I’m very proud of you. there’s nothing shameful about relearning something. you’re doing so well! I’m so glad you got this far <3