hello !! i'm luci or ambriel. im 20, i use they/it/he pronouns and some neos aaand i'm a self shipper !!
💕my main f/o is castiel from supernatural and i am nonsharing <3 he is my boyfriend and i love him very much
💕my other current main f/os are: dr. ian kelson (the bone temple, nonsharing), dr. jack abbot (the pitt, nonsharing), and father damien karras (the exorcist, nonsharing)
links:
f/o list // strawpage // taglist form // art masterlist // writing masterlist // tags // trade and comm tracker
please dni if: you're proship/neutral, you ship with any of my nonsharing f/os, you ship with any characters on my fidelity list, or you ship with characters positively associated with cults. i block liberally
fidelity list below
fidelity:
Rowena Macleod | Supernatural | @/rowenasdarling
Asa | Dead Boy Detectives/DC | @/rowenasdarling
Dean Winchester | Supernatural | @/remdeans
Mark Meachum | Countdown | @/remdeans
Michael "Robby" Robinavitch | The Pitt | @/remdeans
John Carter | E.R. | @/remdeans
Sam Winchester | Supernatural | @/bloodspxll
Two-Face | DC | @/flareblitzraleigh
Harvey Dent | DC | @/flareblitzraleigh
Ganondorf | The Legend of Zelda | @/flareblitzraleigh
Have not read the book!! Ill definitely look into it! Imma throw it back at you, Rosemary's Baby both the book and the film are so both beautifully haunting. So good. Also saw that you like Shirley Jackson, peak taste🔥
Cass and Damien are such gentle creatures, I love them. Just truly caring souls.
Biggest reminder for self/yumeshippers due to that account going about (@/selfshipperaffirmations if you have not yet blocked them)(be careful checking their blog)
Your f/o DOES love you and are happy they get to love you
You're NOT a burden to them, that's the last thing you could ever be to them and would never want you to think of yourself in that way
Your f/o DOES care no matter what, they care about your health physically and mentally and want only the best for you
They love you if you're black, mixed, disabled, in the lgbtqia+, no matter what you are LOVED by them and they CARE about you so much more than you could ever know
HELLLOOOOO EVERYONE ✨✨💖💖🩷🩷💓 HOW ARE YOU DOING TODAY!!?! 🥹🫶🏻 i hope you guys are having a beautiful wonderful weekend!!
i cant believe its already July !! 😭😭 time flies so so fast... i have been spending a lot of time outside a lot to get some fresh air and reflect on this year. it has been a long and tiring journey, yet i find my ways to be strong still!! 💛☀️ i cant believe its been 3 years since i selfship with jimmy too... this year has been a roller coaster as always. full of traumatizing things and bad days. but i will survive!
i hope i can be more present on tumblr again! i truly miss everyone here and i had so so much fun seeing everyone's selfship. remember that you are loved and appreciated!! 💛💖
Your f/o doesn’t wish you were better at masking. They don’t wish you acted “more normal” or blended in more with everyone else. They know that sometimes you stand out without meaning to, and that it can leave you feeling awkward or like everyone is judging you. But when they look at you, they don’t see someone who needs to change. They see someone who’s genuine, lovable, and worth being proud of. They’ll always be happy to stand beside you, hold you close, and love you exactly as you are…never asking you to become anyone else.
Helping your f/o get ready in the morning is something I think about often.
Like waking up, leaving your warm cocoon to make their morning routine a little smoother. Making them coffee or tea with a small breakfast. Helping them with their clothes. Maybe you’re helping them decide on what to wear or putting on their accessories. Doing their hair while they brush their teeth, because they might’ve overslept and now they’re rushing to get out the door.
Fixing stray hairs for them and smoothing out wrinkles in clothing just as a final check before they leave your home. Your f/o pressing a kiss to your lips appreciatively for all your help.
Hey, your f/o doesn't think less of you because you can't work because of your disability. They don't think you're lazy or a mooch because you use government assistance like SSI or LCWRA. They don't expect you to "compensate" for your time at home while they're at work by doing errands and chores ; they know you're disabled and don't have to be productive to be worthwhile as a person. Your validity isn't measure by your capital output and they're a firm believer in that.
Never feel ashamed about not working because your f/o surely isn't. They're proud of you for resting and taking care of yourself. That's all they could ever ask of you.
Imagine your f/o knowing exactly how to bring you down from an event (panic attack, PTSD flashback, psychosis, mania, etc). They know how to bring you back to reality and soothe you. All the right things to say, how to hold you, what to do.
Knowing all your triggers and expertly avoiding them in everyday life. They have no issues watching/listening to media before you do so they can scout out any potential triggers.
Always escorting you to your therapies, waiting outside with a treat for you and a big hug, knowing how hard and draining these appointments can be.
Helping you remember to take your medications on time because they know how important your psychiatric meds are.
Holding your hand on bad days, weeks, months. Guiding you through the dark times, even when it feels impossible for you to ever make it out into the light again. But you always do, in part, because of their unwavering support.
You aren't crazy, worthless, a burden, insane, a lost cause to them. You're their world and they're so lucky to go through each day with you. You're so worth the effort.
