ミ★A/N: I am SOOO TERRIBLY SORRY for taking so long to post this. But I could NOT get this scenario out of my head. This angsty fanfic is gonna make me cry uuuugh. I need to share this pain and suffering… Please enjoy, I’ll do my best to write more. My writers’ block has been a real bitch to defeat.😭💔
ミ★Paring: Rafayel x fem!reader
ミ★Warnings: Nightmares, crying, panic attack, mention of being half naked, and vulnerability
ミ★WC: 762
Recently, Rafayel has been a little off for a couple of days. Crankier than usual, starting to get eye bags. I check up with him and he claims that he’s fine and dealing with stress from work.
Of course I’m always gonna be there for him so I tell him that I’m here if he needs me. It feels like he’s pushing me away but at the same time I feel like there’s nothing to worry about.
Until one night, where I finally found out why he’s been acting so strange.
The waves calm, and the moon lit through the thin cream curtains of our bedroom. The soft silky sheets and the comfy fluff blankets covering our half-naked bodies.
It was currently 1:22am in the morning. Rafayel starts lightly turning over, quiet noises escaping him. His breathing starts to become heavier and shorter as he twists and turns. His hands began to shake as they created fists.
Feeling him move around, I open my eyes a little. I hear him start whimpering and try to wake up faster. He stops moving around and is positioned in the fetal position. I then hear sniffling and small cries at first.
“Rafayel??” I say, barely starting to wake up, “What’s going on??”
His sobs louden, his hand gripping the bed sheets so tight, his breathing becomes quicker, like he’s having a panic attack.
“Babe?? Are you okay??” I say getting up as fast as I could, moving towards him.
I tried shaking him awake but it didn’t do anything. I turn him over, but he goes back and forth. I try putting my hand on his head, he feels warm.
“Y-Y/N??” He says as a sob comes out, “Y/N~” he whines, breaking down.
His voice was heartbreaking to hear. My heart was aching so bad that I wanted to start crying with him.
“I’m right here love, you have to wake up!” I say, trying to figure out how to wake him up.
I could hear his heartbeat pounding out of his chest. ‘Shit shit shit shit shit! What do I do, how do I help him?!’
Suddenly, he shoots up, letting out a quick scream.
I get jumpscared, my instincts pulling me back from him. I stare at him for a couple of seconds and then snap out of it.
“Rafayel??”
He looks at me, endless tears pouring out of his eyes. His breathing slows down a little, but his lip trembles. He then throws himself at me, clinging to me like a little kid and sobs. His body tense as I hug him back immediately, rubbing his back.
“Hey love. It’s okay, you’re okay. It’ll be okay, I’m right here, I’m not going anywhere.”
That made him start crying more, harder than a moment ago.
“D-Don’t leave me. Please don’t leave.”
I cup my hands on his face, “Oh my love, I could never leave you. I don’t know what nightmare you were having, but I’m always here for you. I would never leave you alone.”
He puts his hand on my arm, nuzzling into my hand. I put my head against his, wiping away the tears rolling down his cheeks. I gave him a kiss, letting him cry into me for as long as he needed.
A couple minutes later, we were laying down. His arms around my waist, his breathing regulating, and nuzzling into my shoulder.
“Do you feel better, my love??”
“I do.” He says softly, “I’m sorry for not telling you about my nightmares. I just didn’t want you to worry about me. This one just happened to be worse.”
“Raf, even if it was a small nightmare, I’d still be worried about you. You know how I get sometimes when you are struggling by yourself." If I say, "I understand if you wanna handle it on your own, but what were you gonna do if I didn’t wake up??”
He goes quiet for a minute. I sigh, “I just worry about you because I care. I wanna know you’re okay at least if you do have a nightmare.”
He kisses into my neck, “I’ll let you know from here on out. I love you.”
“I love you too, my precious fishy.” I say, turning over into his arms, “Now let’s sleep, we have fun things happening later today.”
He holds me tight, “I love you Y/N, I really love you.”
“I love you too Raf, sleep well okay??”
“I will, now that I’m holding you. I feel safer with you, your warmth is comforting.”
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