what about wendy?

— tell me how all this, and love too, will ruin us. these, our bodies possessed by light. tell me we'll never get used to it. #usersephy

[catalvarezs]

url change!!!

reyestrands -> catalvarezs

[maddytrout]

It has occurred to me that perhaps this is not the first man in Trinity Santos’ life that got the opportunity to waltz back into it with minimal to zero consequence despite the troubling and severe nature of the crime that he committed while everyone around her makes excuses for him and minimizes the damage he caused……..

[maelancoli]

trinity santos is a study in fandom misogyny because they gave her all the characteristics fandoms usually salivate for in men, being gruff, quippy and misunderstood with a tragic backstory but a heart of gold beneath it all. they put all this into her AND let her be a lesbian. she's everything you could ever want in a character but she's not a man so half the fandom either hates her or constantly mischaracterizes her as petty, callous and aggressive while doing mental gymnastics to baby the male characters around her

[fadel-dani]

If I die, remember that I begged you and asked you for a small donation or to share my post. I will not forgive anyone who sees this post and does not support me with a single word or a small donation and ignores me.

[fadel-dani]

I'm writing this post with tears in my eyes from the intense pain I'm experiencing. I've suffered from severe pain and multiple fainting spells this past two week due to my severe anemia and my inability to afford all the medications I need because of their high cost. All I wish for is to never faint again, so I hope you will stand by me and help me buy my medications quickly. Please donate.

[fadel-dani]

Worse still, I was injured when our house was bombed while we were inside. I was hit by shrapnel that is still embedded in my body, and I need urgent surgery to remove it. Throughout this time, I have been suffering from constant pain. My surgery is very expensive, and I don't have enough money for it. Now I can't sleep because of the intense pain, and I can't afford my medications and painkillers to stop the pain because of their high price.

[fadel-dani]

I need your help to stop my pain and save myself as quickly as possible. Please, I don't want to die. Please help me raise the money for my medication and surgery as soon as possible. Please stand by me. Please donate.

[closet-keys]

Please help my friend Fadel. He has survived bombing, shelling, and gunfire in this horrible war. He is in a lot of pain and really needs relief.

[da-pitt]

Brass balls buddy. See? you haven't lost it

THE PITT | 2.14 8:00 P.M.

[taydaq]

just a little bit of your heart is all i want

[apricustar]

the thing about the 12 steps of recovery is that they aren’t a cure; completing the steps doesn’t mean you’ve crossed a finish line and are in the clear. it’s a cyclical framework—something you live with day in and day out. it is not a reset button.

the step frank is on—step 9—has been called his ‘apology tour,’ but that fundamentally misconstrues the purpose of this stage: in recovery, there is a huge distinction between an apology and making amends—the latter being the proper language of step 9. an apology is often just words; an amend is ownership of past harm, a willingness to repair, and, most importantly, respect for the other person’s readiness.

step 9 even includes an 'except' clause: you don't clear your conscience at the expense of someone else's wellbeing. you can't force someone to forgive you, nor can you force them to listen. this clause is the ultimate safety valve of the program.

in the rooftop scene, frank is seeking absolution, but the steps ask for restitution. by effectively cornering robby—who has been sidestepping him all day—frank is prioritizing his own relief over robby’s comfort. even sober, the pattern lingers: the impulse to shape the situation until it produces emotional relief. almost like he wants the ‘high’ of being forgiven—or at least to be acknowledged by robby, more than he has been this shift so far.

real amends require consent. if the other person isn’t ready, the ‘amend’ is to respect that boundary—even if that means distance or silence—not to force a confrontation. apologizing while they were on that roof—trapped by the arrival of a patient—turns accountability into pressure. robby physically couldn’t rush off, making the moment all about frank, negating the very purpose of an amend: to return agency to the person harmed, to center their needs. if frank were truly focused on making amends to the ER—to robby—he would realize the best way to 'make right' his past is to stay sober, focused, and dependable—letting his actions speak louder than his words, especially when robby has already turned his words away several times this shift. instead, he added to the emotional pressure, forcing robby to react on frank’s timeline rather than his own, and making the act of accountability feel like an ambush rather than a meaningful amend.

robby’s response is a perfectly healthy boundary. what frank did is more than a simple apology can fix. as the attending—the chief!—it is literally robby's job to be on top of things; he is in charge of—and responsible for—the residents, their work, and the safety of every patient.

for a man who believes he should be omnipresent and all-seeing, missing frank’s struggle must have felt like a massive personal failure. robby isn't in the mindset to hear frank out because he’s still metabolizing the betrayal. amongst other things! trust isn't something you regain just because you’ve stopped the behavior; it’s something you earn back through consistency. in a job that requires an extraordinary amount of having each other's backs, robby has every right to say that bridge is still down. that it may never fully be rebuilt.

moreover, frank is likely caught in a kind of 'recovery urgency'—the breathless need to make things right as quickly as possible. he's clouded by his own desperation, especially when it comes to someone like robby, who has not only been his mentor, but arguably the person he looked up to the most. that history intensifies the pressure: frank wants recognition, validation, some amount of closure, and he feels a limited window what with robby leaving for sabbatical. in his mind, time is running out to 'fix' things, and that sense of frantic necessity can override judgement, making him push forward even when the other person isn't ready. i don't think frank is being malicious—he's just being impatient, and self-focused—which isn't how the spirit of the steps work. he's so busy trying to feel forgiven, to ease his own conscience in some way, that he's completely disregarding the actual point of the amend: that it belongs to robby, not him. the reality of it is that robby doesn't even owe him a conversation.

step 9 isn’t a negotiation for forgiveness. it’s a statement of fact—(e.g.: 'i endangered our patients, i lied to you, what i did was wrong.')—followed by an acceptance of the consequences. if the consequence is never speaking to that person again, being kept at a professional distance, or accepting that you are no longer 'the favorite,' then that is the amend. the response belongs to robby in this case, not frank.

one of the hardest lessons of the 12 steps—and one frank hasn’t fully learned—is that accountability repairs the self; it does not entitle you to a place in someone else’s future, nor does it guarantee reconciliation, forgiveness, or access to another person's trust. recovery is internal first. relationships may follow, but only on the timeline of the person who was harmed.

[gryphll]

this moment was so powerful

[archeaphone]

tantric lovers. noah wyle literally called them lovers how is this not the number one ship

[catalvarezs]

just finished the pitt, s1 but it is hilarious to me how langdon thought robby having an emotional breakdown during an incredibly stressful shift was comparable to him STEALING DRUGS

[savemosabfamily]

I will not forgive anyone who sees this post and ignores us.

I am writing these words with tears streaming down my face. I can no longer bear this pain. My wife is suffering from a severe deficiency in vitamins, especially vitamin D, and she urgently needs surgery to save her life. Her body is growing weaker day by day, malnutrition is stealing her strength, and I stand helpless watching her suffer.

All I wish for is to see her alive and healthy. Please help us provide healthy food, her medications, and fund the surgery that could save her life.

Even if you cannot donate, please share this post. Every support, every word, could be the difference between her life and death.

Vetted by #520

[catalvarezs]

destiel fic rec masterlist

okay i've spent the past couple months finally watching supernatural and wading through the vast ocean of destiel fics on ao3 - so here is my (completely subjective, barely coherent) list of winners, my personal favorites that i've reread multiple times.

generally, i don't read a/b/o fics and my taste in smut and shit is pretty vanilla so these are definitely more on the feels end than the sexy end.

canon-verse

so says the sword - if you want gorgeous prose and emotions that will hit you like a freight train at full-speed, look no further. it delves into cas' relationship with heaven and his beliefs, as well as his profound bond with dean beautifully. seriously, top notch.

the law of equivalent exchange - another one that straight up reads like POETRY. it follows cas as he watches dean - and sam, but mostly dean (as is very in character) - get reincarnated over and over again. also very cas-centric.

a turn of the earth - very popular, and for good reason! follows a post-canon cas as he ends up meeting pre-canon dean. i'm a sucker for stanford era fics and the potential for angsty dean therein so this one is truly an experience.

broadway musical - god, this one is fucking hilarious. i can't really describe it other than to say its like if chuck decided supernatural was a rom-com/family drama, did copious amounts of cocaine and was actually funny. probably my favorite characterisation of the angels and lucifer ever written.

being led home - underrated masterpiece and also my nomination for a replacement to that fuckass finale. jack brings his dad home and dean locks him DOWNNNN ugh this is so so good i'm tempted to email it to the showrunners as an example of what good characterisation and endings look like.

the mirror - time travel fics fucking rock, man. don't let anyone tell you otherwise. in which dean gets called a fucking idiot for not making out sloppy with cas by every other version of himself. if you've ever wanted to bonk him in the head and/or yell at him, this will be a pretty validating experience.

I CARRY YOUR HEART (I CARRY IT IN MY HEART) - if you've ever thought about the crazy shit that cw made them do and told us was platonic behavior and said 'man these two are fucking insane' this is for you!! they're weird and possessive about each other, your honor!!

the (mostly accidental) courtship of dean winchester - honestly if these two idiots were to actually get together - aka if eric kripke wasn't a fucking coward - it would be like this. they're both fucking crazy but what else is new

aita for disapproving of my brother’s high sex drive? - someone send out a prayer for sam winchester because he is fucking going through it, dude. but yes this one's also a good schadenfreude-y laugh on sam's behalf and dean is the chaotic bisexual we all know he could have been (fuck you eric)

sam winchester, ally at law - i think we as a fandom are so obsessed with what-if-destiel-happened-like-really-happened-and-not-just-in-a-deathbed-confession-way that we don't think to consider how much more insane these characters would have been. like can you imagine if they let misha and jensen kiss on camera? anyway an alternate title for this fic is 'in which we are all sam winchester'.

au

peace and good luck to all men - a christmas fic!!! no seriously this one gets extra marks for the angel family feels, but its essentially a what-if-dean-and-cas-were-in-an-emily-henry-novel-but-better look into their relationship. destiel is a ship of YEARNING and this fic understood the assignment. half the hits on it are mine btw i've read it so many time and i will do it again. they're just so soft in this :((

it's always the end of the world somewhere - i'm a huge huge fan of destiel-knew-each-other-but-fell-out genre and hs fics so this one checks all my boxes. it features endverse!cas which is an immediate yes from me and explores destiel's typical brand of miscommunicated angst so so well.

ninety-one whiskey - okay kids, sometimes you really do need to listen to your elders because this one is a classic for a goddamn reason. get strapped in for a NOVEL on why wartime aus are the only aus because ao3 writer komodobits did not come out to play. you will cry, you will cheer, you will want to bash cas' head into the nearest wall and also cradle him like a baby. if there was a school for destiel this fic - really, all these fics, but especially this one - would be required reading. seriously, you need to experience this at least once in your lifetime.

the dean winchester beat sheet - i kinda struggled with this one in the beginning but hs aus very rarely let me down!! this was what i would say the most canon-accurate version of early season dean and cas i've read in a modern au, and the plot twist got me gooooood. worth sticking around for !!

for all you young hockey players out there, pay attention - aka copium for anyone left feeling hollow and empty after the heated rivalry final, destiel edition. atp i'm tired of typing it out over and over again but this one is so fucking good, man. all of them are but this one is too!

virga(e) - underrated MASTERPIECE. seriously, this fic not having at least 10000 kudos is proof of life's injustices. ao3 writer shineforthee i will personally devote my life to this cause just you wait. its a stanford era fic featuring unknowable creature cas, and ugh the yearning of it all is so beautiful. please read and leave a hundred kudos this one is impeccable.

anyway this is tumblr user catalvarezs' non-conclusive guide to destiel fanfiction. i'm realizing now that i might be biased towards cas pov fics, which is strange because im obsessed with dean winchester's inner psyche, but i guess that makes perfect sense because so is he!! go show all these authors some love or i will show up at your house.

[catalvarezs]

My name is Abed.

I’m a survivor from Gaza, holding on to hope in a world that has fallen apart around me. 💔

The life I once knew — my home, my family, my sense of safety — has been shattered by war. Today, I live among the ruins, trying to find a path forward through the rubble and heartbreak. 🏚

Every moment is a battle against fear and uncertainty. What was once ordinary — a safe place to sleep, a future to dream of — now feels like a distant memory. 🕊️

I share my story not to seek pity, but to keep hope alive — to believe that even in the darkest places, kindness can still find a way. 🤍

If my story touches your heart, please consider sharing it or offering support. Every voice, every act of care, brings me one step closer to safety. ✨

Thank you for taking the time to listen. 🙏

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hi, i hope you're doing as well as you can. my thoughts and prayers are for your family and community. may we all live in peace and safety again <3

while im so sorry i cannot donate right now, i hope this reaches someone who can.

[catalvarezs]

My name is Arij, I am a 29 year old mother from the Gaza Strip. My life was stable with my children and husband in our beautiful home until the war came. We lost our home, our work, our comfort... We lost our food, our drink, our shelter... Now we just want food and safety... There is nothing more important than food for my children and my baby girl who was born in the war, she needs milk, diapers, clothes and to live in peace...

Please donate just $20 It's up to you to help my family do

Please,

please donate $20 - help us survive.

hi, i hope you're doing as well as you can right now. my thoughts and prayers are for your family and community. may we all live in peace and safety again <3

while im so sorry i cannot donate right now, i hope this reaches someone who can.

[plumpydoll]

Now that zionist occupation announced they are going to occupy all of Gaza, their genocidal intent is clear. This was always about ethnic cleansing. That's why they systematically destroyed Gaza and murdered so many civilians. If you still support Israel, you are openly in favor of genocide.

[plumpydoll]

We failed the people of Gaza. In every single way. And history will not forgive us.

Gaza broke me. Idgaf about anything any more. We let the worst thing in the world happen and I feel like we're all doomed now

[plumpydoll]

What comes after their homes were destroyed and they were forcibly displaced from their homes? Now they are suffering from famine, siege, killing, bombing and starvation. They no longer have money to buy the bare necessities of life. Save Zeina and her family before it is too late. They no longer have a home to return to and they have no one but us to help them and stand by them in these difficult times. Donate to them now through the link to their verified campaign from Gazavetters number 213.

[zinaanqar16]

Sadly, Only 4 people responded today, and we received €30. It’s not even enough for 3kg of flour and water for my family of 6.

We’re surviving day by day — but it’s getting harder. Please donate and share post even share can reach someone who can donate and help me and my family .

[segamascott]

two million people starving to death because it's geopolitically convenient and we're all expected to go about our day normally like the casual cruelty on display for the past two years has been so insane to me like i'm not even trying to make a point it's just truly something i can't wrap my mind around

[victusinveritas]

A young Palestinian boy walking the street with a Superman cape on his back. Symbols of peace and love are awesome actually.