Catastrophe

Evidences of Existence.

[catastrophitey]

Nagsimulang umugong ang makinang magdudugtong sa karayom at sa balat kong gutom mula sa tinta ng bulok na sistema. Gumuhit siya ng mga linya na ayon sa kanya ay susundan niya hanggang sa maabot ang dulo ng mga pinta. Nagsimula siya sa pagtusok gamit ang maliliit na espada at tila nakikipagdigma sa walang palag kong katawan. Kinagat ko ang mga labi na matagal ng natuyo kakahintay na masaktan mo ulit, na tanging mga dugo ko nalang ang napapapulang muli. Di nagtagal ay nasanay sa sakit na aking inangkin at pilit na kinukulong sa marikit kong kalamnan. Natapos ang araw at nakayanan ko ang inaakalang pang habang-buhay na kalinisan ay nabahiran nang isang marka. Markang nagpapaalalang nabuhay ka, mapalad ka. //100616

[catastrophitey]

I'm about to pick up my nephew when I smell a familiar scent... it was my ex's old scent. I stopped walking. In the middle of the street, I stop. I remember everything, our first times. Brown eyes that used to stare at me. Lips that seemingly alluring. And your scent... that I used to smell all day and I remember how I promised to myself to keep that scent in my mind. I started to walk again. And as I walk, the scent slowly vanishes. I can't smell it anymore... but I can't stop. Not now. I realized that some things are better left as a memory. We have to move forward... we have to.

[sirjohnmarin-deactivated2017081]

“i hope you remember me the way i remember you. i know you might mistake me with your other exes, but i happen to accept the fact that you have never loved me the way you have loved them; and i don’t want to be sorry for myself anymore or be angry. i wish you happiness and i long for peace.”

-// anonymous message i should’ve not sent you

[catastrophitey]

The funny thing about memory is that it can’t be fully trusted and yet in the end it’s the only truth that we have. And no matter how painful it is, you got to look at the truth because sometimes it’s the only thing that can save you. It’s the only thing that can set you free.

John of Mindscape (2013)

[catastrophitey]

Para Sa...

Para sa mga naniniwala na pag-ibig ang sasagip sa atin magmula sa sakit at pighati. Para sa mga nagsasabing puso ang pakinggan kesa tawag ng kung anong laman. Para sa mga nagsasabing gera ay tigilan at tibok ng dibdib ang pakinggan. Ito ay para sa alipin ng pagmamahalan.

Para kay Juan na kinain na ng sistema. Nilunok ang lingas para pakinggan ka lang. Pinatigil ang oras, makasama ka lang. Binigay na lahat, wag mo lang iwan. Para sa mga ‘tanga’ daw ng lipunan.

Para kay Maria na kinain na ng sistema. Niloloko na pero sige pa. Sinigawan na, nagbingi bingihan pa. Sinaktan na, lumuhod pa. Binalewala na, naghabol pa. Para sa mga 'tanga’ daw ng lipunan.

Ito ay para sa kanila...

[neilthedevil]

I used to be your bad habit.

(via neilthedevil)

[slapping]

We ruined each other by being together. We destroyed each other’s dreams.

Kate Chisman (Run)

[catastrophitey]

A simple 'hello' could change everything, a simple 'good bye' too.

E

[catastrophitey]

052716//

Kinakain na ang utak ko, Sakit na nadarama ko. Wala ng maramdaman, Paralisado ng buong katawan. Himukin ko man sarili ko, Mahalin kang muli ng todo. Parang natabunan na ng sakit, Pighati at muhi. Patawad, Naisin ko ma'y wala na. Tanging natira, Puso kong pagod na.

[catastrophitey]

052216//

A month had past. I thought it will last. The hurt I’ve been bearing. The pain I’m still having. But you came back, telling how you still love me. Telling how it hurts without me being around. I know the pain dear. I’ve been there. You know my weaknesses, You know me well. That’s why I’m here, Hurt but willing to give. Broke but willing to love. This girl is willing to forget. Just to live a life, of course with you in my life.

[catastrophitey]

Forbidden Love

In another life, I would dare to kiss you. I would dare to hold the pieces of you As you destroy yourself. I'll love you, In another life.

[catastrophitey]

The gods you’re praising. Is the ones you’re holding.

E

[catastrophitey]

If I could turn back the time, I would kiss you as low as how the sun falls down. Then I'll let go.

E

[daaamnpaolo]

my eyes seek for you only you and nothing in between even when i know i wouldn’t see you in this crowd i’m in

[daaamnpaolo]

my eyes seek for you only you and nothing in between even when i know i wouldn’t see you in this crowd i’m in

[catastrophitey]

When you’re falling with the same person, with the same feeling at the same place. You’ll realized that at some point, redundant feels kind of right.

E

[catastrophitey]

"Growing up is not the problem. Forgetting is."

The Little Prince