CATACLYSM / SALVATION .

indie / low activity / canon divergent / nakahara chuuya / as written by nev.

[catclyssm]

CATACLYSM [ˈkatəˌklɪz(ə)m] (noun) · a large-scale and violent event in the natural world. A STUDY IN · what it means to be human, loyalty, the importance of a name, carving your own path, loss and grief, the pain of becoming, perseverance, the past is a wound that refuses to heal

independent, private, canon divergent, low activity, nakahara chuuya of bungo stray dogs, written by NEV (23, they/he, GMT) minors and personals do not interact. blog roll - @seiigi - @kakarette mains - @prodigls - @vulpesly - @timeveiled

[catclyssm]

i think. i am going to make (yet another) multi muse and try to stick to writing more regularly.... idk i want to be here but life just has not allowed for it recently. i got a new keyboard the other day though so i am itching to write even just to listen to the new clack clacks of the keys ahfgdfghfd

[catclyssm]

>> hi! so... i know i've been mostly (completely) absent recently and it's down to just... stress pure and simple honestly. i've got 51p in my bank account and i can't get any extra work at the moment outside of my store assistant job... meaning i don't get paid until the 28th of this month and i'm supposed to pay for fuel and food and keep my horse going with no money in the bank.

i really really hate asking for money on the internet because i know there are people in much worse situations than i am so i'm going to plug my com.mis.ions on ko.fi again and ask for even just a signal boost to get this out there because i... i just genuinely don't know what to do at this point and i'm making myself ill trying to figure it all out.

thank you so so so much to anyone who boosts this or even considers helping me out of this tight spot - i really appreciate it more than i can put into words

[catclyssm]

uhhhhhh like for a lil starter from chuuya or comment for a starter from @seiigi owo

[catclyssm]

uhhhhhh like for a lil starter from chuuya or comment for a starter from @seiigi owo

[catclyssm]

okay so i'm gonna make more of an effort to be around in the next few weeks but my mental health is uh... spotty at best at the moment so we will see what happens... i missed writing all of my muses though and i miss all of u guys......

[catclyssm]

h hey

[vulpesly-archive]

ft. Jono Saigiku

canon, divergent, oc, + au muses

18+, semi-selective/private

crossover, au, + oc friendly

established '14, re-established '22

✧ please ♡ or ↺ ✧

[catclyssm]

HE IS MINE. FINALLY I AM A JING YUAN HAVER

[catclyssm]

quick update/explanation as to why i'm being so slow on here recently... my 20 hour contract has apparently gone out of the window at work and i've been working full time hours and will be for at least the next month so i'm just exhausted all of the time and rarely get the energy/motivation to write on here... and!!! and i just had to buy a brand new tyre for the car i've got while mine is being worked on to get it back on the road so it really is just one blow after another at the moment.... i'm more active on discord at the moment if u want to talk/plot though

[finalism-a-deactivated20250914]

no, dazai hasn't been looking after himself. he is a shadow of a human being and it's clear in his sunken eyes and pale skin. odasaku said it would be lighter if he saved people but dazai can't do that right now. he can't even begin to start for another year. despite ango's best attempts to keep him alive, dazai isn't sure he'll make it that far.

he's stuck in a limbo -- wanting to carry out his friend's dying wish but having no faith in his ability to do so. he's just withering away like a single flame against the wind.

there is no way for dazai to fight against chuuya in a battle of strength and so he stumbles back as the mafioso pushes himself inside. he's silent as chuuya busies himself in the unused kitchen. the only signs that dazai has been eating is the full trash of emptied cans of crab and instant noodles.

" second from the left, " dazai mumbles. he's never used those plates -- they were already furnished with the safe house. auburn eyes watch his partner stock food that dazai will never eat, not unless someone cooks-- oh.

" just kill me and take me in. " dazai's voice is sharper this time, filled with more purpose. " if anyone finds out then they'll consider you a traitor too. "

[catclyssm]

"shut. up."

the response comes far too quickly, even for chuuya's liking. it comes instinctively and far sharper than he's felt the need to be in the year since dazai left chuuya without even a word... without even a message to say that he's okay he just can't be there anymore. watercolour eyes are narrow as chuuya turns back to glare daggers at his partner, something burning in the pit of his chest at the sight that meets him. he barely looks alive. something else twinges and chuuya has to bite back the urge to cross the room and pull the idiot into a bruising hug. no. he won't make it easy for him. he won't forgive dazai at the drop of a hat. he... can't. can he?

"shut up. i'm not killing you an' i'm not takin' you back there. i can look after myself, asshole. i don't need you actin' like you give a shit 'bout me after you upped and left like that--" regret settles across chuuya's frame the second he's finished talking, vision fixed on the ground between them rather than the dwindling frame of his partner. he's angry. he's angry and hurting and lashing out usually helps but this... this just feels wrong. dazai isn't about to fight back, the guy looks like it's taking all of his effort to keep himself on his feet - let alone fire back a snarky response like he used to.

sucking in a deep breath, chuuya drops the tub of crab in his hand atop the kitchen counter and instead grips the edge with both hands - forcing himself to look up and try to lock eyes with dazai. there's so many things he needs to say, so many things he should say, but chuuya can't find any of them as he watches this shell of his partner barely take up the spot he's stood in. instead, he changes the subject again. back to something easier - something more familiar. "you need to eat more. y' look skin an' bone - even from over here. you can't live on crab an' noodles. when was the last time you saw daylight? what about showered? y' need a haircut, too--"

[vulpesly-archive]

"I thought you told me to be quiet," he delivers the teasing jab lightly, not particularly ruffled or even surprised that Chuuya would tell him to shut up and then immediately ask a searching question. Sometimes he has to wonder if Chuuya's visits are for the sake of venting his frustrations on someone just as willing to bite back.

Even if the fox is not privy to every little detail of the Port Mafia's goings-on, he'd be a poor excuse for an informant if he was oblivious to everything. Especially where the likes of Nakahara Chuuya is involved. He could clearly read the tension, the exhaustion, the fury and sorrow all tangled up in the flesh beneath the fox's fingertips. Here sits an individual being pulled in a thousand directions at once, it's no wonder his mood catapults from one side to the other in a span of breaths whenever the two have a conversation--it hardly helps that Jono goes out of his way to nudge at those coiled emotions simply to see which way they'll bounce next.

"Are you certain I'm the right person to ask that?" The fox lingers a moment, ministrations pausing as well, just long enough to give Chuuya a chance to think twice before he continues in a quiet voice. Tempting although it is to continue with coy commentary, today he'll take a small degree of mercy on Chuuya. He can't imagine Dazai's loyal dog sees much of mercy or honesty, so it may prove interesting as far as reactions go. "Caring about someone--or them caring about me--may as well be a death sentence in my line of work, you know that. I'm merely paid to create an illusion of caring. It's not a curtain you should be tugging at, Chuuya-san."

[catclyssm]

"y'know - i'm getting real sick an' tired of people talkin' to me in riddles, jono," still, there's a significant lack of bite behind the dog's words as he continues to stare off somewhere in the middle distance ahead of him instead of offering the fox beside him a glance. it's stupid, he shouldn't have asked - shouldn't have opened pandora's box like that.

and yet... chuuya wants an answer. he wants some kind of context to put to the whirlwind of his relationship with his partner. he wants to know why it sends a white hot flash of something that isn't anger when dazai talks about his own death - when dazai puts chuuya in impossible decisions and when dazai continues to push his guard dog further and further away while keeping that same vice-grip on the end of his leash.

jono always knows what to say, though. he always knows how to nudge chuuya in any direction he wishes - the same way dazai knows he can ask chuuya to do anything for him and the answer will always be a resounding yes. lifting his chin, chuuya looks back to jono, water coloured gaze flecked with scarlet watches the innkeeper intently as if he might uncoil into something else right before him. as if the stare alone might make the damned man talk like a normal person and not some poet from years ago.

"you didn't answer my question..." his voice is quiet when he finally speaks again, gaze unmoving from jono's features even through the haze of exhaustion and pain intent on obscuring chuuya's vision. it's fine. he's had worse. fought through worse. he's not even really sure he needed jono to tend to his injuries. thinks that maybe he just wanted the company of someone who's not actively trying to push him away. "how am i meant t' know if... if he actually cares?

[catclyssm]

main story quests finished...... that was so much...........

[catclyssm]

i AM HOMEEEEEE

[catclyssm]

// hc posts i need to make when i have a working keyboard:

-body/scars headcanons -chuuya + gender -chuuya+ara -experiences during his time in the lab -chuuya+grief -hsr (and also genshin) chuuya masterpost -beast chuuya masterpost -default chuuya verse's timeline (including @prodigls' dazai involvement)

[catclyssm]

i'm stranded on my laptop for the next week so any writing ii get done will depend entirely on my patience for dealing with the janky keyboard it's got lmao

[catclyssm]

uhhhhh like this and i'll send u a chuuya in ur inbox or go through your memes and send u some owo