• Zlata/Goldie • She/Her, Ze/Zir or any • 18 y.o. & 27 October • Russian & Ukrainian • PFP by me • Background by @FlamingoPudd • My Carrd: catplumage.carrd.co •
I had another art trade organised some time ago with @catplumage and here is my part. Had fun drawing this one. They come up with different scenarios :)
I decided to rewrite it again since I'm more stable now.
Firstly, I do not support the head of development of Pressure and those who covered for him (I hope he will be imprisoned, as he should be) and I hope that Ren will be fine, I wish to find help, legal and psychological.
Secondly …Now I want to talk a bit about how I'm feeling…
(It's not so important)
All this has hit my mental health so hard (to the point that I cried all day yesterday and some really bad thoughts came back (no worries, I'm fine), and today I decided to stay at home), and I still don't know what to do. I'm constantly torn between "exit the fandom and delete fanarts" and "stay in the fandom, make an AU and distance myself as much as possible," but in any case, I definitely won't log into the game anymore (especially not yet… When this "developers" are still working on it), won't buy merch and won't donate too (they'll get the fuck out of me)... I don't know about the rest… I don't know what to do at all… I'm still tossing from side to side. Sometimes I want to cry, sometimes I'm calm. I regret I came… This is the last thing I ever wanted to go throught... I just want to be silly little artist...
