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xstillsane dear arabella van allen (the one i knew in high school).

I always wondered what had happened to the girl I used to love, and now I've realised I lost her. A long time ago, it seems. I doubt if I'll ever see you again, not since you're getting married. Or you already are, I don't know when the wedding date is.

So here's a final Valentine's present, along with one I'd already gotten ready, especially for you on our second Valentine's day together, but you disappeared before I had time to give it to you.

A rose for every year I've spent thinking about you, and loved you alongside that. The diamond bracelet, small but the only thing I could afford at the time. I kept it in hopes that I'd see you again.

I don't care if your fiancé, or husband comes to find me and punches me for this, but it had to happen. I had to give it to you before you disappeared again, for good. So take this as a goodbye if you will, as I doubt we'll see or speak to each other gain. Good luck, with your new life.

love, cayne houston (the same person you knew in high school).

#arabella #gift #valentines #idk it was something i wantede to do

lovelymisteracker

#face #what if i lied and he had a girlfriend #oh wait literally no one cares whEYEHYE he has a girlfriend

xstillsane

"Fucking isn’t your middle name? I’ve been living a lie," Arabella smirked, but took her fiancé’s hand as Cayne motioned for them to get further into the bar. It was weird to see him and listen to him talking like a proper business man, even though she had never really stopped thinking about him. "Yeah, we are planning our engagement party," she added, a small blush on her cheeks as she looked at her ex-lover. "Oh but, I think I should introduce you two? Um, this is Christopher, my fiancé—- Christopher, this is Cayne, we used to be really good friends,” she explained softly, her eyes still not drifting away from the male’s features. “We went to the same school and yeah, that’s it.” A kiss was placed to her fiancé’s cheek, before she flashed another smile at Cayne. “I have to admit that I’m very impressed.”

caynehouston

Cayne took a moment to glance back at the girl he once loved, and knew instantly that she had changed. She used to be sweet, kind, and truly caring, and that was the girl he had fallen in love with. Not the girl who wouldn't stop swearing, or the girl who seemed to dismiss their prior relationship. To him, Arabella Van Allen was now a client. "Congratulations." He told the man he now knew as Christopher. "Thanks." Cayne nodded after a short pause after her statement. "I'll take you through to the restaurant--- obviously this is where you'll have your meal, the kitchen is through those doors, only the best food is cooked, of course." With a dashing smile sent towards Christopher - not Bella - he ushered them towards the double doors on the other side of the restaurant. "And here's the open room fit for any purpose, whether you want it to be a stage area, general dancing area or otherwise."

#arabella #sighsighsigh #this is late im sry

xstillsane

"Cayne fucking Houston, I can’t believe it. I mean I probably should’ve been suspicious because this place is actually named after you…but fuck.”

caynehouston

Cayne glanced from the girl he once knew to the man she was standing with, a sudden look of realisation dawning on his face. "There are lots of Houston's around." He commented, a smaller smile than before crossing his lips. "Anyway, uh-- I'm Cayne Houston, fucking is not my middle name." He joked, his eyes forced to focus on the other man's face. "I own this place, so Mr and.. future Mrs Miller, I'm going to sell it to you. Not literally, but.. show you around so you can book it for the day, for the night, for whatever you need. What're you planning, a party?" He questioned, motioning for them to follow him further into the bar, to begin with.

#arabella #this was longer than i wanted it to be lmfao #HE IS A LITTLE BITCH

"Hey, I'm Cayne, I'm sorry to keep you guys waiting, if you--.. sorry, Bella?"

#arabella #dyin

hlLOe

#hcdihfuisdf #hfekp #hello #my name is fredddddd #idk people are here are they not idk

arabella-van-allen

You’re rude. And you keep saying that you don’t want to hurt me and stuff but that’s bullshit, you enjoy it, don’t you? Saying all those things, judging me for being with someone else, being like that. I don’t get why you’re doing this. Maybe you just like the idea of being in love with me, they all do that- people like the idea of me but not the person that’s beneath, because well…that part of me might not be so likable. But whatever Cayne, if you don’t like having me around you, I have to deal with it, it’s okay.

caynehouston

Oh, I’m rude now? What else is on there, hurtful, sadist, fucked up? No, actually, you don’t know how wrong you are. I’m not liking the idea of being in love with you, I am in love with you. The real you. You know me, better than anybody. And I mean it, anybody. The one person who knew me best, I’m assuming, was my mom. But I fucking killed her in that stupid fucking accident, and you helped me start to remember things. You were the one who got me the address of her grave. You were the one who suddenly when I hung out with, didn’t make everything seem so bad anymore. You were the one who stayed, Bella. You stayed.

#arabella #van houston #love me pls

arabella-van-allen

But isn’t that the point of it all? The fact that I love you too? Never stopped. No matter how hard I tried. We keep making a mess out of things. God, we are such a fucking train wreck. We can’t get anything right.

caynehouston

Isn’t that the whole fucking point? It’s not easy, nothing’s ever easy, Bella. You made it clear when you went out with Dingo, by the way, a whole lot of time you took to do that. But you’re right, we can’t. So it’d be best if you stayed away from me, like I warned you the first time I realised I started liking you.

#arabella #van houston #they hurt me

arabella-van-allen

I know that you don’t care, because maybe you’ve been thinking about me but you don’t really care about what is going on, do you? You don’t care about the fact that I keep throwing up cause I feel so bad for what we did. And you don’t care about how much my chest aches for you to be close. You don’t want me anymore, that’s okay, Cayne. You’re here to hurt me and even that’s okay. Or maybe you want just to sleep with me or something like that and fuck- I don’t even mind that. But don’t think that I’m not hurting and this might not be the same- but believe me, it’s ways more similar than you’d think.

caynehouston

Did you not fucking hear me, Bells? I love you, is that clear enough? I never got over you, that’s what I was saying. I don’t care about Dingo, he’s not here right now apparently. But if you feel that bad, tell me to go. Tell me to leave right now and tell me to never come back, because I’ll go. I promised your best friend that I wouldn’t hurt you, and I’m not fucking here to hurt you. I want the best for you. And obviously I’m just fucking everything up like I always do.

You can go now if you want.

#arabella #he's literally trying to just #be cool #and not feel like dying #van houston #last reply b4 bed

arabella-van-allen

You think I’d sleep with you but wouldn’t talk to you? Just think all of this through, Cayne- really. Think about the things I said to you since you came back. Think about what we did since you came back. Can’t you see? Isn’t it the same way for you?

caynehouston

I don’t know what the ‘same way’ means to you, but it’s obviously not the same thing. See, I never moved on from you. Sure, I slept with quite a few girls, but they never ever compared to you. It wasn’t them I thought about every day, it was the beautiful weirdo that I fell in love with. But you moved on. To Dingo. So no. It’s not the same. I don’t care that I made you cheat on him, because I kissed you, and you kissed me back. It’s not the same. Not one bit.

#hehehehehehe have this before i run #THE FUCKING BIN MEN ARE OUTSIDE AND IT IS LIKE HALF MIDNIGHT #FUCKERS #van houston #arabella

arabella-van-allen

What even is your problem with me? What have I done wrong now? Do you enjoy being angry with me?

caynehouston

I'm not angry at you. I've been thinking, a lot. All those thoughts are being proved and disproved with every conversation we've had since I got back. Why do you talk to me anymore, Bella? What's the point in it?

#he got deep as fuck #because hs'e a little bitch #arabella #van houston

arabella-van-allen

Fucking hell, are you looking for negative things in any of my sentences? I didn’t blame you for anything. I blame myself.

caynehouston

Swearing now? Alright.

#arabella #he's notcommenting on anything she said #just the use of swearing #van houston

arabella-van-allen

You can’t tell me that you don’t think it’s a wrong thing to do. You, me…we shouldn’t have happened that way. I did it because I felt too much and once your lips were on mine, I couldn’t stop.