Alisha Horne Rough Draft Manifesto
Essential Meaning of manifesto
a written statement that describes the policies, goals, and opinions of a person or group
The estinal question here is: why do I make art? What's the motive? What's the killer desire to sabotage my financial security for something I love? Why am I going through 5 years of college and over 175k debt? WHY- I don't know. I’ll be honest, it's all just a feeling, a driving emotion in my gut. Yes, I have actual stomach problems, but why am I here? That's not as easy as taking a blood sample and giving a diagnosis. I don’t know what the hell I am doing, but I'm doing it and for the first time in a while, I feel like I'm doing it pretty damn okay right now too. I’ve felt blind most of life, only when I create do I feel the peace and clarity in my mind. Creating, making, destroying, etc- I have to do something. I can absolutely drone ceaselessly at my desk, but I rather be ceaselessly creating (hence my instagram handle @ Ceasless_creation) Because even when I tried to stop making art, join the military- I was informed I was colorblind. I abandoned my love, for another, love and got rejected. So I crawled back into the warm embrace of art and the cold winters of New York. Here is where I really took off artistically but mentally I also plummeted because my childhood trauma remains painfully resolved but it really does make for good art. I’m driven by the need to create, and the need to create really controls my mentality in life. When I don’t create, I don't function. I feel suffocated, overwhelmed but once I get that break: whether it's a mistake, a gag, or an accomplished artistic goal- it makes me physically, mentally and emotionally feel better. I have to create, if I don't feel alive. And I've been discouraged so much in my life: bullies, doubters, haters or simply non-believers “you can’t do it!” but only when I’m creating does everything finally feel okay. And that's just a small portion of what drives me to create.