CEE

user is a minor

[cee-views]

intro post or smth idk

hello!!!! welcome to my corner of the Internet!!

about me:

name: cee

age: minor

pronouns: they/xe/it

dni: typical dni... i block freely, feel free to do the same

things I post:

piece of life | rambles | art | writing | my teacher au/main au | my ocs

fandoms I post:

life series ... its mostly that tbf...

fandoms im in:

life series (and hc and empires and all that stuff as a result) | mouthwashing | a few roblox games

genshin impact

tags:

#cee rambles - ramblings / silly posts

#ctau / #cee's teacher au - my teacher au

#i'm all eyes / #iae - my main au

#cee draws - my drawings

#c-ocs / #cee ocs - my ocs!!

I will forget to tag... im an idiot...

[anthonycolonthree]

(guy who's not getting anything done voice) I need to learn every skill and all information

[cee-views]

I'm actually sobbing right now btw

good

[cee-views]

You gotta love ADHD convos.

Me, my dad, and my brother were all in the car, and in the span of 10 minutes it went from the sociopolitical implications of government spending in the US and worldwide, to grinding bones to use as flour and drink mix.

What the actual f u c k

woah

I FINISHED MY DND CAMPAIGN AND AND THEY SAID I WAS A REALLY REALLY GOOD DM AND AND AJJSEJJEBWBJWJJS 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

[cee-views]

Lego set progress!

Guess what it's gonna be?

star wars? or robotic stuff?

[peskybirdonyx]

ok but like I dont hate how it turned out>>>

im feeling a little better, not a lot tho

AAAAAAA I LOVE

<3

[cee-views]

gonna use it for a song album thing trust

[cee-views]

You okay, Cee?

Wish I could help in some way :c

(If I could, I would uhh telepathically steal all your problems and project them onto myself)

I want to cut my hair lwk

i cant but I want to

maybe I can but it would get everywhere I fear

[peskybirdonyx]

I don't know why this is affecting me so much, worse shit has happened and I have cared less

It's the condensation of all the things, rather than one specific thing, I believe.

The straw that broke the camel's back, so to speak.

It's like, all these bigger things have added cups and cups of water to the bowl of your capacity, but this teaspoon sent the water over the lip of the bowl and spilling out.

Or like all these issues are coins on a scale weighed against your mental capacity, and this last coin made it heavier.

This is what it's like from my experience, at least, and may very well be nothing like yours, so keep that in mind. This is not "the normal," it is "my normal"

Does that make sense?

[cee-views]

oh that makes sense tbf thats probably it

I just dont know what went wrong tovause that feelinf

could be the heat

more likely its probably just the way mum's talking to me

and she gets upset when I flinch or step back to build distance.

[peskybirdonyx]

fun fact

one of my ocs was made to cope with mental health shit going on.

canonically, he had such horrible gender dysphoria that he turned to shooting himself

I fear I may need to draw him again.

Please do, you need a release it sounds like.

[cee-views]

I am lol, dw

I had a shutdown earlier when I got home

nobody noticed lol

[peskybirdonyx]

I want to shower and comb my hair until it fucking cuts my scalp istg I hate it so much I hate it I hate it I hate it.

dad is booking me for 2 weeks from now. 2 weeks. thats so fucking long I dont care how short they make it out to be. 2 weeks, 14 days, 296 hours, its fucking forever away I hate it I hate my hair I hate this month I hate summer I dont wabt to be here anymore im so fucking done with this

sorry

No, that's fine.

You mentioned wanting to cut your hair on another post, and I'd say if you need to, do it. Better cutting your hair than yourself, in my eyes, but I understand the fear of getting in trouble.

Two weeks is like forever, I understand, that's really annoying, and people seeing you as overdramatic hurts a lot.

Maybe try to focus on something other than the date? Draw something, write something, work on a new god in that awesome AU of yours, and just take a break from your family for a bit. From what I can tell, I don't think they're who you need right now.

You'll be okay, Cee <3

[cee-views]

here's the thing, theyve already booked it

also it doesnt help my parents make it really unclear when I can leave the conversation so one question (when's dinner) turns into a 10 minute interaction

and they get pissy if I leave halfway through

and they were telling me "look at your mother when shes talking to you" politely I hate eye contact. I had to make an excuse so they wouldnt throw a fit about me not making eye contact

I feel like im gonna vomit omd ive been crying for 30 minutes

i also just feel really guilty for some reason. I dont know.

I also wish I could take a break from my family but theyre very "dont be antisocial come on!" people. its ironic bc viewers aren't allowed to cut their hair because of etiquette

[peskybirdonyx]

my haircut got cancelled bc apparently I have nits (im going through it i swear it just sucks sensory wise) and now i have to reschedule and i think theyre booked for a month at least and I was really looking forward to this and im this close to cutting it myself and I know its my fault I know bur that doesnt help

and my mum was unintentionally rubbing it in and got pissy when I asked her to stop talking about it bc she kept repeating the facts and it didnt help me it just made it worse and when we got home she told everyone im in a pissy mood

void I hate that

Take care of yourself, I'm here for you<3

[cee-views]

its also like

39°C this week.

my hair. sticking to me.

I JUST WANTED A FUCKING HAIRCUT.

I want to cut my own hair atp but im fucking terrified im going to get screamed at for it

[cee-views]

watching GIGGS DND while working on a Lego set is a vibe, highly recommend

especially a complex set

woahhh

im getting a HAIRCUT!!!

[cee-views]

We're done w the line art for Voyd! And also some of the color but we wanna show off the line art rn so we turned that off

Voyd! :D

-Golden Void Anon

AAAAAA

eats eats i love

sorry i didnt answer earlier Im in school

[purplepuppeteer-anon]

DW dw we weren't expecting u to answer right then anyways we know today's a school day

Anyways we finished xie

Voyd!! Xie's a spider :}

Xie/Xieself

Xie also acts in a way that makes xie seem VERY outwardly malicious, but xie just gotta follow the commands xie's been given!

No sense of personal space! Xie will grab u.

We're gonna use xie for 1) character interactions that are outwardly malicious 2) creator shenanigans across all projects that we can't do with the present characters (the only-technically canonization of the 1x blog interactions, for example)

Bonus:

On the job! Go back to the ARG u crawled out of girl

[cee-views]

*wipes sweat from forehead in "i-thought-you-were-on-about-my-xie"*

[asterlynn2728]

hiiii

I was sent here by multishipper...

sfth...? life series..?

Oh hello, why yes! They're my two main fandoms :D

[cee-views]

OH MY GODS ME TOO CAN WE BE FRIENDS

(^rapidly developing a sfth hyperfixation)

[asterlynn2728]

ABSOLUTELY!

(^ actively needs to lock in and watch a sfth long form)

[cee-views]

I WATCHED 3 OF THEIR IMPROVISED PLAYS YESTERDAY AND ANOTHER 3 DAY BEFORE AND ALSO SAW THEIR EP12 WHEN IT PREMIERED ON SUNDAY

also huge flex im in the uk so I could go see them theoretically

[asterlynn2728]

hiiii

I was sent here by multishipper...

sfth...? life series..?

Oh hello, why yes! They're my two main fandoms :D

[cee-views]

OH MY GODS ME TOO CAN WE BE FRIENDS

(^rapidly developing a sfth hyperfixation)

[cee-views]

We're done w the line art for Voyd! And also some of the color but we wanna show off the line art rn so we turned that off

Voyd! :D

-Golden Void Anon

AAAAAA

eats eats i love

sorry i didnt answer earlier Im in school

[aries0nmars]

hi me with gender yap for you

idk if youre experiencing what you described ur character with but it came off like that so here's some info and labels (if you want them)

demigirl- typically describes someone who is like... 0%-50% girl (and outside the binary for the rest (non binary)

girlflux- gender fluctuates between 0-100% girl, excess is also outside binary (non binary)

anyway those are just some silly labels I wanted to throw at you... demigirl can also just mean partially girl partially nb :D

yeah i looked into that before!

my journey has just been:

cis woman :3

demigirl...? maybe demigirl.....

no just woman. but

lemme do some research

bigender??? maybe. no... idk nothing makes sense-

for me currently my biggest problem isn't my gender label, its more like explaining where i stand with my pronous to be exact?? like go both are wonderfull and amazing and i love them but at the same time i have a preference with she/her while also not??????? its weird-

for my dnd character i was wondering if i wanted to maybe delwe into exploring being non-binairy but im not sure. i might just make them non-binairy or just like. not care about gender roles tbh

[cee-views]

tbf you can have a preference for she/her and also use they/them

I personally use they/xe/it with a preference for they or xe, but idm it