THANKS SM FOR 90K ON TT AND 12K HERE ON TUMBLR!! This community has given me so so much. To give back a little, I wanted to showcase all of the wonderful talent shared during my dtiys. All of these artists are immensely talented and if you see art that you like, I would highly recommend finding the artist and letting them know! The biggest part of why I love this community is the friends I've made here and spreading gratitude is a great way to start friendships
Fuck I’m at a fencing tournament and literally a minute after I reblogged this my dad told me that he talked to the point people and I’m probably going to win a medal.
I need to follow up to say I reblogged this last night, and this morning I got some of the best news of my life, like, a life dream come true news thing.
FUCK, I though it was just another lucky meme but LISTEN. Since a week ago I was waiting a phone call to confirm me if I got a job or not in my university. I reblogged this yesterday’s night “just for fun and because I don’t want any bagel to be mad with me”, and today’s afternoon, while I was losing my time as always, the professor I was supposed to work with called me and asked me for my personal information to start working with her.
Okay, that hurts.... that hurts a lot...rambling under the cut
Sometimes we see characters in media that we really like or gravitate towards. They may be very similar to ourselves, or their story and problems are things we can relate to. Sometimes we like them for their attitude or view on certain subjects. Usually, I understand pretty quickly why I like them. Or I experience something that makes me realize why I like that character.
But I never really understood why I liked Nakamura in particular. Even when the manga just came out. Sure, he's funny, socially awkward, and his crush on Hirose is adorable. The show does a phenomenal job of portraying a young queer person with absolutely no social skills (No offense Okuto), who is still in the closet. But nothing really stood out as to why I liked him so much. And then with ep 12, I realized it.
Nakamura Okuto is my teenage self.
Why am I telling this to a bunch of strangers on the internet? When I was a teenager, I (a fudanshi) fell in love with a guy. Granted, it was before I realized I was Ace and still thought I was Bi. But still, I fell for him. And just like Nakamura, I tried my socially awkward best to get to know him. We sort of became friends, but one day I realized he was straight. There was no way he was going to change and love me. That realization hurt. It really freaking hurts. Just like Nakamura, I also always knew. Even before I realized it, I always knew on some level.
The anime does an amazing job of really driving home how much this hurts him. His family, who have no idea of Nakamura's lost love because he most likely hasn't come out to them. The straight couples as he walks home (honestly, a really d*ck move animation team). The biking to a high place to deal with his feelings (actually a similar experience I had). The ending with no happy retro music.
I just want to give the kid a big hug and tell him it's okay.
Why am I depressed? Because you wanted him to love you.
Isn't his happiness mine too? Yeah, but you want to be a part of his happiness. And those feelings are valid too, and you also deserve to be loved Okuto.
......How the f*ck am I going to survive the next week?
quarterly reminder that if i reblog something ai-generated it is 110% and always an accident and for the love of god please tell me so i can delete it from my blog