mars

someone who should be banned from having a blog on anything ever

[celeryuser]

tipsy in my room listening to sonic youth. this is unironically top 10 moments of my life

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maybe panic attacks are a sign i should do something about it. controversial opinion i know. hottest take known to man

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i thought i'd gotten over my body image issues and fear of continuing to be fat but any time it's suggested to me that antidepressants may be a good idea my first thought is no i don't want to take anything that might make me gain weight

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maybe i feel the way that i do because i've been listening to so much elliott smith lately

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so what do you even do when you've grown to become so ashamed of every one of your emotions that it feels like you can't talk about anything anymore

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day 1 of talking about my feelings: scared. why? that's for day 216

[celeryuser]

so what do you even do when you've grown to become so ashamed of every one of your emotions that it feels like you can't talk about anything anymore

[celeryuser]

in the name of the father son and holy spirit please god can i never be dragged into another conversation with a man on a night out i just can't do this anymore amen

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i love those beautiful moments when i'm learning something and something small clicks and i'm like WAIT there is nothing fundamental about me preventing me from becoming good at this and i genuinely DO just need repetition and trial and error and people weren't lying to me all along

[celeryuser]

found out how to block myself from opening instagram while still getting notifications oh we are SO back

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dude WHATEVER!!!

[celeryuser]

i wish i got really into music when i was like 14 and didn't care if what i played sounded like shit and also that i knew no one who played music whatsoever so i'd have no one to compare myself to ❤️❤️❤️

i need to be as good as all my friends who have been playing music for years RIGHT NOW or i'm ending it all i hate guitar this is so embarrassing

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i say all this after a productive day of guitar playing but my fingers are too sore to perfect what i've learned so now i am full of hatred and self loathing and am deeply humiliated for even trying

[celeryuser]

i wish i got really into music when i was like 14 and didn't care if what i played sounded like shit and also that i knew no one who played music whatsoever so i'd have no one to compare myself to ❤️❤️❤️

i need to be as good as all my friends who have been playing music for years RIGHT NOW or i'm ending it all i hate guitar this is so embarrassing

[celeryuser]

i am never escaping the derealisation 🤗

[celeryuser]

you know what maybe i'm not sad and pathetic and miserable and heartbroken enough for mitski's new album. this is a first

[celeryuser]

getting depressed again just in time for mitski's new album 🙌 only 24 hours away

[celeryuser]

studying for my theory test and you know what i actually don't need to drive ever i hate this

[celeryuser]

feeling emotions today 👎 is there something wrong with me do i need to be shot