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[celestialscurse]

touch my heart

Major Archive Warnings: Major Character Death Rating: T Series: Persona 5 Pairing(s): Akechi Goro/Persona 5 Protagonist Character(s): Persona 5 Protagonist, Akechi Goro Additional Tags: Canonical Character Death, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Persona 5 Spoilers, Angst, Delusion, Pre-Relationship, Fluffy at the beginning, First Kiss, Not Beta Read Word Count: 1,230 AO3 Link: Click

Goro’s eyebrows pull into his face, his body tensing while his entire face twists with rage.

“Cut it out,” he says, voice cutting into Ren’s brain. “Whatever this is, it isn’t real.”

Ren’s throat dries out, and despite himself, averts his eyes. His palms feel clammy but he isn’t quite sure why. It’s quite… odd. Why is he feeling like this?

Ren wanted the Phantom Thieves to have one day to just relax and calm their minds before they take down Shido, but Goro is acting… weird.

[celestialscurse]

take a seat (for you will not leave this place)

Rating: M Series: Persona 5 Pairing(s): Amamiya Ren/Kurusu Akira, Amamiya Ren/Yaldabaoth Character(s): Amamiya Ren, Yaldabaoth Major Archive Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Death Threat, Persona 5 Spoilers, Tragedy, Persona 5 Bad Ending, Possession, Selfcest if you squint, ficwip Discord's A Picture in 1000 Words Challenge, Not Beta Read Word Count: 1,000 AO3 Link: Click

When Ren snaps out of the darkness that engulfed him after he literally disolved into nothing, a very familiar stone wall greets him. A stone wall he’s seen for the better part of the past year, a stone wall he’s seen in both reality and in his dreams.

His suspicions are confirmed when familiar piano chords pierce through the drumming of his ears, followed by the soprano line. It’s a forlorn delivery, just as it always is.

“Welcome, Trickster.”

Ren’s brain snaps to attention. He knows that voice. That smooth alto follows him everywhere, to the point he daydreams about it.

Ren, surprisingly not dead, wakes up in the Velvet Room, but there seems to be a rare visitor.

[celestialscurse]

could have, would have, should have, didn’t

Series: Persona 5 Pairing(s): Minor Amamiya Ren/Akechi Goro, Minor Amamiya Ren & Kamishiro Nagisa Character(s): Amamiya Ren Major Archive Warnings: Chose Not To Use Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Twins AU, Persona 5 Spoilers, Tragedy, Canon "Death" Scene (it's the shibuya disintegration scene), ficwip Discord's A Picture in 1000 Words Challenge, Not Beta Read Word Count: 1,000 AO3 Link: Click

“No,” Ren snaps. The word is sharp despite Ren’s quickening breath as he gasps for air. “It’s not your fault. It’s no one’s fault.”

The not-cat turns his face towards Ren while his ears flatten against his skull. Defeat. Ren can’t say he can’t understand why Morgana feels that way.

“I’m sorry,” his friend apologizes, “the mission… was a failure.”

Ren’s last thoughts before the world made him disappear. His pain, his regrets. Akechi.

[celestialscurse]

daily routine

Series: Persona 5: The Phantom X Pairing(s): Lufel/Kamishiro Nagisa Character(s): Lufel, Kamishiro Nagisa Major Archive Warnings: None Tags: Fluff, Ambiguous Relationships, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Human/Animal Relationship, Drabble, Not Beta Read Prompt(s): Reward Word Count: 100 AO3 Link: Click

Lufel doesn’t hate their daily routine. Not at all.

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Although Nagisa’s bag is arguably warm and comfortable, Lufel finds the books digging into his bones and the stray pieces of paper grazing his feathers less than pleasant. He doesn’t dislike being stuffed and carried around in it, as it allows him to be around his business partner all day, but it does get excruciating sometimes.

Lufel’s patience is rewarded at night, when he wiggles out of his confinement and spreads his wings, then perches atop Nagisa’s chest the moment the boy lays down for bed, and makes himself comfortable despite the clearly exasperated yet soft sigh leaving Nagisa’s lips.

[celestialscurse]

owl and the princess

Series: Persona 5: The Phantom X Pairing(s): Lufel/Kamishiro Nagisa Character(s): Lufel, Kamishiro Nagisa Major Archive Warnings: None Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Fluff, Ambiguous Relationship, First Kiss, Human/Animal Relationship, Ficlet Not, Beta Read, Dubious Consent (aka Kissing an unconcious person you may or may not date) Prompt(s): All Ships Week 2025 — Day 7: Free day Word Count: 904 AO3 Link: Click

Lufel spreads his wings and flaps them while he lowers himself in front of the blanket. He opens his beak and closes it around the cotton fabric, then flies backwards to drag the blanket over Nagisa’s body.

It’s heavy. It tastes so bad. Nagisa is lucky he is Lufel’s business partner and leader. Lufel wouldn’t do this for anyone else!

Based on Lufel’s research on humans, it seems like they kiss the ones they hold affection for. A mighty task, considering his beak, but Lufel is sure it will be just fine. Nagisa is Wonder, after all—someone who meets and surpasses his expectations at the same time.

[celestialscurse]

rely on me (i’ll make sure not to burn you)

Series: Ensemble Stars Pairing(s): Itsuki Shu/Morisawa Chiaki Character(s): Morisawa Chiaki, Itsuki Shu Major Archive Warnings: None Tags: !!-era, Fluff, Affection, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Established Relationship, Shoulder Massage, Ficlet, Not Beta Read Prompt(s): All Ships Week 2025 — Day 3: a cruise / boat / spaceship Word Count: 877 AO3 Link: Click

“Not at all!” He grins and lifts his hand to hover over Shu’s cheek. “I just wanted to check on you.”

“Just to ‘check in on me’?”

Shu’s eyes dart towards Chiaki’s palm for a brief moment before he nods, the movement unnoticeable had Chiaki not focused on him. Upon receiving his permission, Chiaki closes the gap between Shu’s face and his palm, his thumb stroking the skin underneath softly.

After a successful first day of the Welcome Tour, Chiaki decides to visit Shu in his cabin. Just to make sure Shu takes proper care of himself.

[celestialscurse]

don’t think twice

Series: Persona 5 Pairing(s): Amamiya Ren/Kurusu Akira (Jokercest) Character(s): Kurusu Akira, Amamiya Ren Major Archive Warnings: None Tags: Alternate Universe — Canon Divergence, Childhood Friends AU, Pre-Canon, Pre-Relationship, Mutual Pining, Fluff, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Mild Panic Attacks, Petnames, Slow Burn-ish, Literal Sleeping Together, Codependent Relationship, Separation Anxiety, Not Beta Read Prompt(s): All Ships Week 2025 — Day 2: Literal sleeping together, “I miss you.” Word Count: 5,414 AO3 Link: Click

“Let’s just go home before your parents blame me for getting you kidnapped.”

“They won’t.”

This close, Akira can practically feel Ren’s breath brush against his ear. Even his smile is a vivid image in Akira’s mind, despite him being unable to see Ren’s face right now. Ren’s right arm moves up before his hand gently cups Akira’s chin and strokes his cheeks with his thumb and pointer finger.

Heat rises in Akira’s face, but he huffs and shakes his head, instead leading the way home and dragging Ren along with him.

“They absolutely will. They always blame me when you do things they disapprove of,” Akira groans.

For Ren and Akira, it was supposed to be a normal day. Their ordinary days shatter when Ren finds himself arrested and sued. Now they will just… have to make the best of it before Ren’s fate is decided for good.

That’s way easier said than done.

[celestialscurse]

winter solstice

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Pairing(s): Itsuki Shu/Morisawa Chiaki Character(s): Itsuki Shu, Morisawa Chiaki Additional Tags: Canon Divergent, Established Relationship, Waking up together, Domestic Bliss (kinda), Chiaki is bad with mornings Word Count: 347 AO3 Link: Click

A little laugh leaves Shu’s lips but he firmly wraps his arms around Chiaki’s body and pulls him closer. Now that he sees Chiaki up close, Shu can actually see the exhaustion lining his eyes.

It’s just one of those other mornings.

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The morning sunrays slip between the cracks of the dark curtains, brushing against Shu’s cheeks. His face scrunches up, his eyes twitching at the sudden light shining upon him before the lids flutter open. A strip of sunlight falls onto the bed, pulling the couple lying on it back to consciousness after a good night’s sleep.

Still in a half-asleep state, Shu turns his body to face his boyfriend. Right next to him a little lump has formed where Chiaki was supposed to be—all curled up and covered by a blanket.

Shu sighs and reaches out to let his hand brush against the top, patting the head hidden underneath the sheets. “You aren’t going for your morning run today?”

For a moment the room remains silent, but before Shu can assume that Chiaki must still be asleep, the lump moves and rustles the sheets around with its movements. Hair of chocolate peeks out, eyes of sunset following suit. “No…” Chiaki is whispering, as much as he’s capable of when he has a naturally loud voice. He shifts closer, his movements like a wiggling worm as he tries to remain in the blanket’s embrace, until he settles down in Shu’s arms.

A little laugh leaves Shu’s lips but he firmly wraps his arms around Chiaki’s body and pulls him closer. Now that he sees Chiaki up close, Shu can actually see the exhaustion lining his eyes. “It’s okay,” Shu says and presses his lips against Chiaki’s temple. “Take your time.”

Shu is rewarded by a little grin forming on Chiaki’s face that lights up his face and wanes the clouds away—at least most of them. “Are you going to pick up some croissants?”

“I was planning to,” Shu nods and rubs Chiaki’s back. “I will be back as soon as possible.”

Chiaki nods and presses their lips against each other before Shu pulls away, ready to get their morning started. Usually Chiaki would accompany him. Sometimes Chiaki would go by himself while Shu took care of other things.

Today is just one of those other mornings.

[celestialscurse]

absence makes the heart grow fonder

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Pairing(s): Itsuki Shu/Morisawa Chiaki Character(s): Morisawa Chiaki, Itsuki Shu Additional Tags: Canon Divergent, Established Relationship, Hurt/Comfort, a little jealousy if you squint Word Count: 1,578 AO3 Link: Click Happy Birthday Chiaki!

Concern. That’s the first thing Chiaki registers as they stare at each other before Shu closes the distance between them, wrapping his hands around Chiaki’s own.

Shu tries again, his voice hushed. “Are you… lonely?”

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“Morisawa,” Shu practically spits out his name. His eyes fill up with disgust upon seeing the pieces of merchandise Chiaki holds in his hands.

Chiaki can’t stop a grin from splitting his face. It’s always so endearing to see Shu’s emotions so clearly, so open for the entire world to see. No matter whether they are positive or negative, Chiaki is willing to take all of his feelings in. What kind of hero would he be if he can’t even do that? Besides, the way Shu’s eyebrows twitch from irritation always makes him smile widely. It’s really cute.

“It’s your merch!” Chiaki laughs and holds the bag up proudly. “The first thing I did today was to pick them up from the store.” He reaches into the bag to pull out a photocard, one that has Shu wearing his Shinsekai outfit printed on it. This one goes right next to the Eternal Weaving photocard!

Shu sighs and rubs his temple. “So that's what you did,” he says as deep creases line his forehead. “What do you need these for? You—” His boyfriend pauses while a blush spreads across his face, visible against his pale skin. “…You already have the real thing so don’t be ridiculous.”

“Aren’t you going to Paris tomorrow?” Chiaki’s mouth blabs before he can stop himself. A wince shakes his entire body when he spots Shu’s eyes widen marginally. Chiaki can’t help himself: His head turns away, unable to hold Shu’s gaze.

“Are you…” Shu speaks up but trails off.

Chiaki’s hands tighten around the handle of the paperbag, the copious amount of merchandise inside it staring back at him. Shu’s face is printed on the can badges and other photocards that feature both him and the other half of Valkyrie, but none of those pictures come even close to the radiance the man standing in front of him exudes. He wants to see Shu’s face—his actual face—so badly, but Chiaki keeps his gaze averted. What kind of expression is Shu wearing right now, Chiaki wonders. Disappointment perhaps? Annoyance?

“Morisawa, look at me.”

Shu’s pictures stare holes into his body.

“Morisawa.”

Chiaki stubbornly shakes his head.

“Chiaki.”

His heart leaps in his chest despite the teeth clawing into his lip. Shu rarely addresses him with his given name, so… Despite the worries swirling around in his brain, Chiaki raises his head to look back at his boyfriend.

Concern. That’s the first thing Chiaki registers as they stare at each other before Shu closes the distance between them, wrapping his hands around Chiaki’s own. The action is slow, tender, and Shu’s touch is soft against Chiaki’s skin.

Shu tries again, his voice hushed. “Are you… lonely?”

Chiaki’s eyes widen while his head shakes rapidly from one side to the other and back again. “How could I be lonely! Rather than that, I’m so proud of you Itsuki! You’re going out in the world and showing everyone your art… Everyone gets to see the pieces you’re creating and—”

Oh… Suddenly the ground blurs right in front of him. Chiaki’s eyesight must be growing worse. Watching sentai shows until deep into the night was a bad idea after all; he should have listened to Adonis’ advice. Does Shu prefer him without glasses? He’s seen Chiaki wearing them—after all Chiaki wore them all the time during their first and second year at Yumenosaki. Additionally they shared classes for their third year, and Chiaki did wear them during those as well. But maybe Shu doesn’t really like that look?

“Itsuki, if I had to permanently wear glasses—” The rest of his sentence remains stuck in his throat as a pink blob wraps its arms around him. Ah, and now he’s made Shu worried. What kind of hero makes his beloved worry? Chiaki really does still have a long way to go…

“Don’t talk,” Shu sighs into his ear, his voice low and soothing, a tone very familiar to Chiaki’s ears. “My apologies. I didn’t mean to make you feel like this.” His hand is slow and methodical as it threads gently through Chiaki’s hair to unravel the knots that formed in his strands.

Chiaki stays quiet, but his eyes burn upon receiving Shu’s affection. It’s not like it has been a long time since he received it, but … Shu’s body is pressed up close, so close Chiaki can feel the warmth it emits. Chiaki pushes into it to let his body absorb the provided heat—sighing as he buries his face in the crook of Shu’s neck.

Shu draws away, just barely, to wipe the drops that are sliding down Chiaki’s face and obscuring his vision with shame. How could he make him worry like this? Chiaki is supposed to be a hero; so how could he let himself fall like this? Stupid… He’s so stupid…

“I’m okay,” Chiaki grins after he takes a deep breath, “Don’t worry about me! Really!”

“Don’t be foolish, Chiaki.” The sound of his given name from Shu’s lips shuts his mouth immediately as he waits for whatever Shu is planning to say. “I’m leaving soon, so how could I not worry about you while you’re looking at me like…” Shu looks at his face with furrowed eyebrows, taut with worry. “...like that.”

Chiaki looks away again, the snow piling on the ground much more interesting than the shattered, disappointed heart right in front of him. This wasn’t supposed to happen. They were supposed to meet, spend some time together, a last date before Shu goes back to France. Not a single sound leaves his lips while he watches the snowflakes fall onto the ground, adding onto the layers that already cover the cool pavement.

“Be honest with me,” Shu reaches for Chiaki’s hands and covers them with his own, “Are you lonely?”

Chiaki bites his lip but his head slowly moves up and down, a quiet ‘Yes’ following afterwards.

Shu pulls him closer and presses his forehead against Chiaki’s, purple meeting a red-tinted brown. “...Come with me,” he breathes, the white vapor brushing against Chiaki’s lips.

“Come…? Where to?” Chiaki questions when Shu doesn’t elaborate nor lead the way to the destination he seems to have in mind.

Shu’s face grows a little pink, much like the color of his hair. “Do you really need me to spell it out?!” He sighs and grumbles between his teeth before his shoulders sink and his lips open once again. “…To France. Stay with me.”

“Like…” Blood rushes to Chiaki’s cheeks—his entire face even. “You want me to live with you?”

This time it’s Shu’s turn to look away, his blush now spreading all the way to his ears. Despite the missing eye contact, Shu’s voice doesn’t waver. “Yes. Come live with me. That way you won’t have to be lonely anymore.” His grip on Chiaki’s hands tightens as his thumbs rub little circles onto his skin.

It’s a flawed logic really, considering they both are still idols. They would still have to commit to their work and there might be times they won’t be able to see each other at all due to their packed schedules, but… Chiaki understands. Going to bed with Shu and waking up right next to him in the morning; sharing an early morning breakfast croissant—a warm one, just like Shu likes them… It sounds like a silly little dream that Chiaki occasionally makes up when he’s sleep deprived or delirious from stress.

“Shu…” Chiaki grins at him and pulls his hands away to instead wrap his arms around Shu to pull him into a warm embrace. The one he reserves just for his boyfriend. The one that contains all of Chiaki’s overflowing feelings for him. The one Chiaki gives him every time they had to part from each other—only this time they wouldn’t be parting. This time they would be staying with each other.

“Why are you crying again? You weren’t supposed to cry from this!” Chiaki doesn’t even need to see Shu’s face to know he is scowling and rolling his eyes. Shu made that suggestion—that request—to paint a smile onto Chiaki’s face. Chiaki is supposed to turn into the sun and warm Shu’s cold winter evening upon hearing Shu’s wish, and yet—

“I’m just—” Chiaki sniffles. “I’m just happy! I can’t wait…” He pulls away to wipe his tears away properly, his sleeve cold against his skin, before leaning in to press his lips against Shu’s cheek.

“...You will have to,” Shu mutters as his cheeks glow red, “You can’t move to France without consulting your agency and the rest of your unit’s members.” A flash of horror passes over his face and Chiaki can’t help but wonder what Shu thought about. Tenshouin maybe? That guy is the president of Chiaki’s agency after all, and Shu hates him to the core so maybe that’s it. Chiaki doesn’t have anything against Tenshouin, even feeling twinges of nostalgia towards him, but he doesn’t blame Shu for holding grudges. In fact, it’s a little cute how Tenshouin still evokes this extreme of an emotion out of Shu…

Chiaki laughs softly, watching Shu smile in response, “As soon as I get everything sorted out, I’ll come see you…” He lifts their intertwined hands and presses a kiss onto the back of Shu’s hand. “So wait for me, okay? I’ll definitely come; that’s a promise. Not as a hero, but as a person… As Morisawa Chiaki.”

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wintersweet

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Character(s): Akehoshi Subaru Additional Tags: Canon Divergence, Hurt, (Mentioned) Physical Abuse/Bullying/Harassment, Role Swap AU (kinda), War Era

Despite Kanata’s words—his promise—something tugs at Subaru’s heartstrings the moment he sees those four guys perform. Hidaka and Kagehira—they share classes. Natsume—an Oddball like Kanata. The only unfamiliar face is the guy with magenta hair, the fringes in front curled back to display his face.

This could have been me.

A star, breaking away from its cluster.

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a submission to @ficwip5k!

[celestialscurse]

love and hate (are two sides of the same coin)

Rating: General Audiences Pairing: Tenshouin Eichi/Itsuki Shu Additional Tags: Drabble, Hate Love, Ambiguous Relationship Prompt: love to hate you Read on AO3

“Ah, I’ve missed you so much…” [Eichi] laments, his hand raising to caress Shu’s cheek.

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“Itsuki-kun, welcome back.”

Oh it’s that infuriatingly smooth voice.

“Ah, I’ve missed you so much…” The blonde laments, his hand raising to caress Shu’s cheek, “Don’t scowl at me like that. The time difference between Japan and France combined with our work as idols makes it hard for us to keep in touch. Surely I don’t have to tell you that.”

Shu blushes at Eichi’s touch against his face, familiar and yet foreign at the same time. “Refrain from greeting me so casually, Tenshouin. We aren’t that close.”

And predictably, Eichi’s eyes light up with glee upon hearing Shu’s response.

[hapeemoonlight]

"warmth in the palm of your hands"

Bonus modifier for this incredible fic of the same name written by @celestialscurse! It touched me so deeply I almost cried. Or well, I did, my soul cried. It's still crying jdkdjdkd

Please read it here!:

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

@multifandommatch, you've actually made my heart bigger. Everyone is so talented I'm dead.

[celestialscurse]

warmth in the palm of your hands

Rating: General Audiences Character: Narukami Arashi Additional Tags: Angst, Raw Emotion, Character Study, Gender Study, a poorly hidden callout towards 90% of the fandom, (Mis-)Gendering

…Does she not have a value beyond the gender people assigned her?

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a submission to @multifandommatch!

[distortedwhite]

attempted murder featuring the twins. deleted scene taking place during the Christmas Live story

(lol hi i'm just writing shit don't mind me)

Yuuta’s hands curl around his twin’s throat and squeeze tightly, feeling Hinata’s pulse bang rapidly against his thumbs.

“Y-Yuu—”

“How many times do I have to tell you,” Yuuta snaps at his mirror image, not even bothering to phrase that as a question. Oh how much he hates that face. How much he hates how identical their features are, how much emphasis their unit puts into advertising their status as twins and assimilating their existence as just that: Twins. Twins who look the same; are supposed to be the same to the point of just being clones. Is this what his life has lead up to? To just be Aoi Hinata’s lookalike? Yuuta’s nails dig into Hinata’s skin, leaving pink streaks behind. “I told you, so many times, to not just do things all by yourself!” If Hinata thinks Yuuta can just sit there looking pretty as Hinata takes over all their responsibilities, he is wrong.

Yuuta isn’t just some decoration not capable of doing anything. He’s proved that time and time again, and yet this guy—!

Just as Hinata’s face loses its entire color, two sets of hands rip Yuuta away from him.

[celestialscurse]

shadows

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Pairing: Shu/Chiaki Additional Tags: (some) Fluff, Jealousy/Insecurity, Deleted Scene (Astraea's Atelier), brief Sexual Harassment mention, brief Murder mention

Reluctantly, he loosens his grip around Shu’s hand to wrap his arms around his body instead. A sigh leaves him as he cuddles up closer to his very own human-sized heating bottle. “Besides, Tsukinaga said talking will make us warm up!” He rests his head against Shu’s chest and smiles when he feels fingers threading through his hair.

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[celestialscurse]

k--- me

Rating: Mature Pairing: Yuuta/Rinne Additional Tags: Established Relationship, Collar/Leash, (Pre-)Foreplay, Very Brief Mutilation mention, No Sex

“Rinne-senpai, come with me.” A fire burned in his eyes and displayed his hunger. So of course there was no way Rinne could have refused. Besides, it’s not like that was a question anyway—Rinne would go with him, no matter what he himself wanted.

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