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━━━ .°˖✧ (🥀) the chronicles of narnia ⊹ the godfather ⊹ the hunger games ⊹ the maze runner ⊹ pirates of the caribbean ⊹ twilight ⊹ x-men ⊹ x/pearl/maxxxine ˚₊ ⊹
━━━ .°˖✧ (🥀) barbie ⊹ chicago ⊹ conclave ⊹ diary of a wimpy kid ⊹ girl, interrupted ⊹ the great gatsby ⊹ jennifer's body ⊹ maleficent ⊹ mean girls ⊹ the outsiders ⊹ project hail mary ⊹ sinners ⊹ the substance ˚₊ ⊹
━━━ .°˖✧ (🥀) alice in borderland ⊹ all of us are dead ⊹ friendly rivalry ⊹ girl from nowhere ⊹ korea money heist ⊹ squid game ⊹ strangers from hell ⊹ sweet home ˚₊ ⊹
━━━ .°˖✧ (🥀) assassination ⊹ deliver us from evil ⊹ the face reader ⊹ parasite ⊹ the thieves ⊹ seven samurai ⊹ train to busan ˚₊ ⊹
ft. ryland grace, rocky, eva stratt x afab! reader — project hail mary
╰₊✧ how they are when you're on your time of the month┊1.2k words
➤ author's note: genuinely, my period this time around is extra aggressive, i don’t why (also rocky is a little too curious for his own good, be mindful of that, it can romantic or platonic, ortiz or canon, depending on your preference)
━━━ .°˖✧ ryland grace ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ the second you send him a little “also i just started my period :(“ text when he’s in the middle of class, he immediately starts looking up all the things he should buy you the second he gets some free time. he’s had partners in the past who also went through menstruation, sure, but he still wasn’t super experienced about what he was supposed to do when none of them ever really told him about it. maybe they were embarrassed, or they didn’t think it was important, or whatever else, but now that you made it known in passing in between other messages, he was determined to get you everything you could possibly need to make it a less uncomfortable experience.
╰₊✧ the thing is, when he was determined to get you everything, he was determined to get you everything that the article he read online listed, jumping the gun without asking you, and having you return home to a ton of groceries on the kitchen counter. pads with and without wings, liners, tampons, chocolates, over-the-counter pain relievers, all your favorite snacks, and the list goes on. he even got you one of those really cute microwavable heating pad stuffed animals, something that you didn’t even know they sold at the local store, but regardless, you were both filled with endearment and slightly baffled at the same time. (although you might have to give him a talk about how, as sweet as it is, you guys are not in a financial place where he can be impulsively splurging on these things.)
╰₊✧ he doesn’t want you to lift a finger and wants to do everything for you, from the dishes to the laundry to cooking dinner, and he doesn’t want to hear it when you remind him that you don’t magically use your ability to do chores just because you’re on your period. he thinks it’s horrible enough that you’re still expected to go to work or university during these times, suffering from cramps and so many other irritating symptoms, so he wants to make things as easy as possible for you around the house. all you have to do is relax and put your feet up, let him handle everything else!
━━━ .°˖✧ rocky ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ oh, this alien wants to know everything, as expected with his natural and, at times, morbid curiosities about humans. your functions and cultures are so interesting to him, and he quickly developed a fixation on everything related to your species ever since he learned of your existence, affectionately thinking of you and grace as his emotional support leaky space blobs. still, when he learns that it’s blood that’s coming out from between your legs and that’s why you were behaving a little strangely, he immediately assumes that you’re about to drop dead at any second and starts panicking. it’s perfectly understandable when he already knew that the weird metallic red liquid is vital to delivering oxygen to organs, the things that keep humans alive, but he automatically assumes that it’s like having an open wound.
╰₊✧ while you’re on the hail mary, he doesn’t stop asking questions about it, and honestly, even after hours of back and forth, he still doesn’t fully understand it. that’s alright though, you probably don’t fully understand it yourself when you’re an astronaut and not a gynecologist. he might even ask grace some questions and will be confused when he has no answers, so it’s an entire other can of worms to describe different sexes to him (and he is going to want to see all the details from both of you, he’s a visual learner… or a hands-on one…). when you’re on erid, he wants to perform all kinds of tests to see how your body changes, and while it’s slightly exhausting, you could never say no to dedicating some of your time to his research.
╰₊✧ when he learns that it happens because the uterus doesn’t have a baby, then he would propose that you have a baby, like it’s the easiest solution ever. if that’s what you body wants, then that’s what your body should have, right? isn’t it important to listen to what it wants? oh, this sweet summer child, you’re going to have to explain to him that the side effects from pregnancy are infinitely worse than those of a period. once grace gifts him his laptop, or as he calls it, his human thinking machine, the wikipedia articles on how the reproductive system works will hate to see him coming. he’ll also look up all the ways he can help take care of you, since it’s clear that you’re struggling, engineering your own sanitary pads for you to use while on his plant, or possibly creating something similar to a birth control pill. although he’s a little overbearing about learning more at first, he’ll eventually become a great help in managing it.
━━━ .°˖✧ eva stratt ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ it might seem like she doesn’t care all that much at first, considering that she’s much more quiet and nonchalant about it compared to ryland and rocky, but it’s easy to see that she looks after you in her own ways. for starters, if you ever accidentally leak onto your clothing or on the towel laid atop the bedsheets, she has no problem cleaning them up with baking soda or hydrogen peroxide, assuring you that you have nothing to be embarrassed about. she’ll massage your stomach while you’re cuddling to help out with your cramps, and she’ll even stick your pads to your underwear while you’re in the shower, in case you don’t do that already, always having perfect placement that’s both comfortable and protective.
╰₊✧ she isn’t exactly the best at cooking, but she doesn’t mind putting her card out to order yourself all your favorite takeout foods, plus dessert. in fact, she encourages it, both for food and for whatever else you may want. for someone in her position, she makes quite a bit of money, and for someone who has the highest salary of anyone she knows, she’s often too busy to spend any of it when it isn’t for the essential bills and such, so you’re free to purchase anything you want if it would cheer you up (even if it’s unintentional, eva always leans a little more into being a sugar mommy for her lovers—)
╰₊✧ eva also has this uncanny way of knowing when your period will happen before you do, without the help of tracker apps or looking at a calendar. you have no idea how she does it, but with one look at you, she can make a mental note to buy you some more pads or tampons on her way home the next day. does she know from your behavior or from the way you look, you don’t know, and she refuses to answer, probably because you’re suffering from mood swings and because you’re bloating. she knows better than anyone not to point those things out and make you feel insecure about basic human functions, so she just shrugs without another word. she’s ever so mysterious, but it’s one of the many qualities you love about her.
╰₊✧ that time when eva’s personal life and professional life grew dangerously close when she answered the phone while fucking you┊2k words
contains: smut!! dom eva & sub reader┊established relationship (married), strap-ons, slight exhibitionism (with olesya), slight angst
➤ author’s note: happy pride month!! you guys should send me your eva and olesya requests because god knows i should be giving them more attention
everyone who has ever had the pleasure of meeting her knows how eva is an extremely diligent and hard worker, a quality that she’s possessed ever since she was working part-time as a teenager, to now, where she was the madam director who was overseeing the most important project in history to save humanity. she always takes her job very seriously, even if it’s only the little tasks, and she would easily win an olympic gold medal if it were a sport. it’s one of her most famous qualities, along with her unwavering professionalism, and it’s something that everyone admires about her, although they are all slightly baffled at how she always makes it seem so effortless. even after putting her all into her work for hours on end, she never seems to break a sweat or grow exhausted, making some wonder if she’s secretly a robot or if she’s just that good. either way, her confidence and ability to get things done with a snap of her fingers assure everyone that their mission will succeed, putting all of their trust in her and her decisions.
still, despite having the world on their shoulders and working around the clock regardless of where the sun is positioned, she always makes the effort to arrive home in time for dinner and some quality time with her beloved wife. considering the gravity of their situation, most people refuse to leave until they have finished or figured out whatever it was they were working on, but no one is bitter towards eva for leaving at a reasonable time, especially considering that she always arrives as the ass crack of dawn and is in the most stressful position of them all. besides, if anything important happens, then they could easily send a call or a text, and she’ll return like lightning even if it were past midnight.
and every evening, she thanks the universe for giving her such a wonderful and understanding partner. she can’t imagine how difficult it must be for you to be so alone while she’s out working with the fate of the world in her hands, having no one to keep you company aside from your pet cats and occasionally going out with other loved ones to keep the loneliness at bay for months on end. despite the gravity of the situation, most would start feeling frustrated about only being able to see their spouse for maybe two hours of the day if they are lucky before going to bed together, always waking up to find their side of the bed cold and empty, and yet, you have never complained nor commented on it even once. all you do is smile when she comes home, embracing her with a kiss, and enjoying her company while it lasts. it’s true that having your darling wife away from you for so long is difficult, but the fact that she stepped up and accepted such an important role only reminded you of how wonderful and brave she is, and it only makes you remember how you grew to love her in the first place and how, not matter how difficult, you wouldn’t want to have anyone other than her by your side.
it seems that tonight was a special occasion since she returned home a couple of hours earlier than she usually does, allowing you both the time to cuddle up in bed before a simple kiss turned into something more heated. you were a little worried about taking up time she could be using to get extra sleep, because god knows she needs it, but it’s also been so long since the two of you have been intimate that you couldn’t stop yourself from rubbing up against her.
truth be told, your longing to be close to her has been making you feel extra needy, making do with your own fingers or the vibrator you bought her as a gag gift, and eva could tell by the way you were gripping onto her sleeves to pull her closer. still, she didn’t make a comment on it to avoid making you feel too embarrassed to continue. after all, she was starting to feel the heat as well, especially when her fingers trailed down to slip past your underwear, pleasantly surprised to see how soaked you were already.
she’s been missing this just as much as you have, you can tell by the way she kisses you as if she will never have the chance to again, all sensual and tender while her digits begin pumping within you. the little squelching sounds coming from her actions sounded like music to her ears when all she’s been hearing all day were numbers, technical science terms, and the sound of machinery running, although it wasn’t nearly as angelic-sounding as your soft moans while you called out her name and pleaded for more. you’re so impatient, a trait that she would normally tut at you for, but she was willing to let it slide this time around for this special occasion.
before long, the pace had been picked up with eva’s hips snapping into yours, her black strap coated in your creamy arousal while your nails dug into her back. despite her age and her life-long focus on academics rather than any kind of physical training, she still manages to keep a consistent speed that makes your eyes roll back. the building pleasure forming in your abdomen had you gasping, making you realize that it’s really been that long since you last had an orgasm, unable to really get anything done without her help, and often giving up while feeling frustrated.
but then, just as you were about to receive that high that you’ve been waiting to feel for so long, you heard your wife’s phone starting to ring. you could feel yourself freeze at the sound, fully expecting eva to take a pause so that she could answer, but she did something you could have never expected. her eyes flickered over to read the name on the screen, and she looked irritated at first, understandably, but when she looked back at you, she impulsively answered the phone right then and there, putting the caller on speakerphone before putting a finger to her lips to indicate for you to be quiet.
maybe she wasn’t thinking straight, maybe she was just getting annoyed by the sound of her ringtone, but one thing is for certain: she was highly amused by the panicked look on your face as she answered. you didn’t quite understand everything they were talking about, as someone in a field other than rocket science, but it sounded a lot like olesya, and it seemed like she was telling her about how there’s been an important development made that would really help with their mission.
but it was nearly impossible for you to really listen when your lover is inches deep inside of you with the head of her strap massaging against your sweet spot, and she wouldn’t stop wiggling her hips as if she was trying to illicit a reaction out of you, like she enjoyed the sight of you squirming with your hand clasped over your mouth. it truly is out of character for her to be behaving like this, especially considering the fact that she was strict about keeping her personal life separate from her work life. when you once drove over to the facility to drop off her lunch, everyone was struck by the fact that their madam director also had a home and family to go home to, sort of like how little kids get surprised when they realize their teachers aren’t just living and sleeping somewhere in the school.
after the first minute or so of mostly one-sided conversation, she started her movements again, rolling her hips at a slower, more steady pace with her thumb lowering to rub at your clit. the contact was electrifying, making you arch your back while choking back a loud gasp that was just quiet enough not to sound like a strangled cry. you were so embarrassed and yet strangely turned on by the idea of getting caught, and you would be lying if you said the way eva was looking at you wasn’t turning you on even more.
the people around her know she isn’t emotionless, but she never quite seems to show any feelings other than urgency, mild irritation, approval, or disapproval. you, on the other hand, get the privilege of seeing her wide range of emotions, frequently having the honor to see her smile and frown, and at the moment, her pure and unaltered desire for you. it’s a look you’ve seen in passing over the past few days, a flicker that she wondered if she should pursue, but decided against because of how busy she was. now, she was going to have to head back to the facility after thinking that she would finally be able to have a long-awaited night in with you, but she would be damned if she was going to leave without giving you the orgasm that you’ve been aching for all this time.
“i’m a little busy right now, but i’ll be over as soon as possible.”
“it’s almost ten pm, what are you busy doing—?”
once she hung up the phone, five minutes at most which felt like an agonizing hour with how slow the pleasure she was giving you was, she couldn’t help but compliment you, “you did such a good job, i’m surprised.”
“not as surprised as i was, what were you thinking when you picked up the phone like that?”
she let out a little hum of amusement, leaning down to give you another kiss, “i was thinking that you were the most beautiful woman alive, but i already knew that. you weren’t uncomfortable, were you?” she smiled when you grew flustered, knowing full well that both of you had done much worse before, especially when you two were in the honeymoon phases of your relationship.
before you could come up with a witty response, eva moved her hips back and slammed them back into you, making you grab onto her shoulders for stability. after warming her strap all this time, she was finally getting back to business, making you dizzy as she continuously pounded into you. the pleasure you were feeling before was rushing back to you all too fast, your pitched gasps were turning into increasingly wanton moans. she had you reduced to a total pillow princess, which doesn’t happen as often as some may think, but there really was nothing you could do other than take everything she’s giving you, throwing your head back into the pillow and crying out her name until your climax washed over you like a tidal wave.
for a moment, you felt like you had the wind knocked out of you with a faint ringing in your ears to go along with it, feeling eva’s hands caress your face as you came back to. oh, she wanted to stay there with you forever, the way she wanted to when she first fell in love with you and when you got married, yet she still had to grab her things and drive over to work as soon as possible when she should be helping you clean up and cuddling up with you until you fell asleep in each other’s arms.
no matter how much assurance you give her, there will always be a little bit of guilt in her for putting you second to her work, especially since she was already painfully aware that her workaholic tendencies often would put a strain on your relationship. still, you understand her predicament with the cruel fate the world is doomed to suffer without her, and while you wait for her like a woman waiting for her lover to return from a war, all eva can do is hope that their plan will run smoothly so that she can eventually return home with you. she will never be able to relax until one of the astronauts sends back a solution for the dimming sun or until humanity dies out, but no matter what happens, at least she’ll be by your side throughout it all.
requested by anon:
HEYHEYHEYYY GIRLY IT’S ME AGAIN 👅👅👅 ofc I come to BEG more Eva Stratt smut cuz DAMN this woman is fine and DAMN your writing is smooth and GRAH I COULD EAT IT WHOOOLE THE LAST ONE WAS SOOO GOOD GRRRR 👅👅👅
anyways it suddenly came to mind a small idea, perhaps write the scene of the phone call thingy that you added in the nsfw alphabet? HEHEHE THAT WAS MY FAVORITE I COULDN’T STOP READING THAT PART 👅👅👅👅
WHATEVER THANK YOU I LOVE YOU AND YOUR FICS THEY’RE REALLY GOOD MUAK XOXO AND SCISSORS ✂️✂️✂️✂️✂️
im eating so well with all ur eva and ry fics omg you write them perfectly both yan and not... i dunno if you got my request w/olesya and eva bc i think tumblr was bugging or something when i sent the ask but. either way. im still FEASTING on what uve already written its all so good
thank you, you're so kind! i have one or two asks about eva and olesya in my inbox, but they are just requests for more content of them, so if you sent a specific request, i didn't get it, but i would love to write for it if you would like to resend it!
ok i guess a tumblr user owns my soul now. ABSOLUTELY NO REGRETS!!!! (im so giddy omg that was so good i love creep ryland so freaking much)
AHHH IM SO HAPPY IT WAS WELL RECEIVED! i was a little worried about writing yandere ryland content because i haven't really seen very much of it around despite his popularity, but i'm glad people liked it 🤗
➤ author's note: this may be a little rambly and incoherent, i hope my vision of yan! ryland is still clear. these headcanons are for ryland while he’s a teacher and before he was working on the project hail mary! as a result, he’s quite a mild yandere considering that he’s been a lot more mellowed out, but i would be happy to write more insane versions of him, and there are some mentions of him before when he was a researcher!
━━━ .°˖✧ a is for affection ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how do they show their love and affection? how intense would it get?
╰₊✧ ryland’s love for you is all-encompassing and suffocating, the kind that you can never forget about or be free from. it follows you everywhere you go, even if he isn’t there by your side, and it never leaves your mind either. it might not even be fully intentional because, as much as he likes the idea of you constantly being reminded of him, he can be considered as an intense person in general, especially when it comes to the things he loves, and he loves you more than the stars in the skies themselves.
━━━ .°˖✧ b is for blood ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?
╰₊✧ despite all of his faults and flaws, he isn’t a violent person and gets sick at the idea of hurting another human being. sure, he might have gruesome thoughts at times when you’re in the question, like seeing someone flirt with you or get too close for comfort, but he would never actually hurt them. at most, he will give them a dirty look, one that will send chills down their spine and send a clear message to back off. perhaps the only time he’ll take drastic measures is when he sees your safety being threatened where the other guy refuses to back off despite repeated rejection, then he wouldn’t hesitate to throw a couple of punches until they’re all bloody and bruised. it scared you at first, but once you realize that he did it only to protect you and how he isn’t proud of what he did, then you’re willing to forgive him for the sudden outburst almost instantly.
━━━ .°˖✧ c is for cruelty ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how would they treat their darling once abducted? would they mock them?
╰₊✧ honestly, being a teacher has led to him being much more gentle and patient with you once you’re kidnapped since dealing with children all day has made him tolerant of anything you do. even if you swear curses at him, fight against your restraints, and refuse to eat or drink, then he’ll just tut at you and be lenient with your bad behavior, compassionately trying over and over again until you’re too exhausted to continue. if you were stuck with ryland before his change in personality, back when he was a sharp and arrogant researcher who had yet to be humbled by anyone before, then it would be a completely different story…
━━━ .°˖✧ d is for darling ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will?
╰₊✧ he doesn’t quite have it in him to force physical touch on you at first, preferring to die rather than make you feel uncomfortable and hate him in the process, but he isn’t against guilting you into showing you affection by bringing up his lonely and difficult life. it’s only inevitable for you to start feeling bad for him, relenting and allowing him to embrace you as if he never planned on letting you go. however, if you consistently refuse him, he may cooperate at first, but eventually, he might snap and grab you by the wrist before pulling you towards him in a stifling display of love.
━━━ .°˖✧ e is for exposed ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how much of their heart do they bare to their darling? how vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?
╰₊✧ you practically know everything about it, from major events in his life to a random day he recalled from the fourth grade. he’s said it himself, he couldn’t be mysterious for the life of him because he can’t stop yapping. before he kidnapped you, you found it to be endearing, but after the fact, you find yourself irritated at the way he remains so vulnerable around you, making you see him as something other than a heartless captor, always reminding you of his human side and the reasons why you fell in love with him.
━━━ .°˖✧ f is for fight ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how would they react if their darling fought back?
╰₊✧ oh, he hates it so much, it shatters his heart into pieces whenever you fight with him. all he wants is to live a happy and peaceful life with you, something that he’s still hanging on with hope for, but ever since he fucked that up by abducting you in a moment of impulse, all you do is fight with him. as mentioned before, he often remains patient with you and waits until you become too tired, but if he can’t stand it anymore, then he would just straight up leave until you calmed down since he’s scared of his rising anger causing him to harm you.
━━━ .°˖✧ g is for game ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ is this a game to them? how much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape?
╰₊✧ it’s not a game to him and would be extremely offended if you so much as suggested it, regardless of whether it’s during casual conversation or during one of your screaming matches with him. he truly loves you with all his heart and soul, and he’s fully determined to make you realize as well, hoping that you would eventually see things his way and see how much he cares for you. he doesn’t expect you to be as obsessed with him as he is with you, but he wants you to understand the extent of his feelings for you and why he feels the need to do the crazy things he does.
━━━ .°˖✧ h is for hell ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ what would be their darling’s worst experience with them?
╰₊✧ seeing him break down in tears when your fights with him get too intense always throws you into a mental fuck. you’re always so confused when you know damn well that you’re the one who is supposed to be crying and throwing a tantrum, yet in the end, you’re the one apologizing to him and trying to comfort him. in the moment, it’s all you care about, then you grow so angry whenever you think back to it, but to be frank, ryland is quite a mild and timid yandere, so you’re still much better off with him compared to others.
━━━ .°˖✧ i is for ideals ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ what kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?
╰₊✧ it’s so cliché, but he really does want to settle down by getting married and having kids, absolutely adoring the idea of having little ones who share your traits running around who are so eager to learn about the world they have been born in. obviously, these dreams would take some time to come true, especially after he’s taken you, but he’s nothing if not patient.
━━━ .°˖✧ j is for jealousy ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ do they get jealous? do they lash out or find a way to cope?
╰₊✧ just as he feels an intense love for you, he also feels an intense jealousy towards people he deems as threats. even if they don’t explicitly flirt with you or show any interest in you, if he thinks they are more attractive, more intelligent, funnier, or possess any other quality that surpasses him, he grows increasingly envious. he’s deeply insecure about himself and suffers from an inferiority complex, often fearful that any person could come around and steal you away from him with the right look. it often fuels his anger and the possibility of him snapping at any moment, but for the most part, he just holds you in his arms to remind himself that he’s the one in a romantic relationship with you, not anyone else, and he plans on keeping it that way.
━━━ .°˖✧ k is for kisses ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how do they act around or with their darling?
╰₊✧ he’s always worried and fidgety whenever you don’t have your hands on him or when you aren’t engaging with him, feeling as if your affection for him is waning by the second. his behavior is similar to that of the needy pet who can’t stand not cuddling up to their owner for even a second, always staring at you with those puppy eyes while waiting for you to give him more attention. at first you found it to be cute, and for the most part, you were willing to indulge in his behavior, knowing about his troubled past and abandonment issues, hoping that one day, his clinginess would get better, but so far, there’s no end to it in sight…
━━━ .°˖✧ l is for love letters ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how would they go about courting/approaching their darling?
╰₊✧ of course, he’s far too nervous to approach you directly and tell you how he feels, unable to think of anything other than being rejected or scorned, no matter how obvious it is that you already greatly care for him. instead, he would write you love letters, typing up his rough draft on his laptop while his students are busy, before writing them out on paper, since he thinks it’s more meaningful that way. he keeps all of the more extreme things under wraps, of course, he didn’t want to scare you off. while he’s prone to tripping over his words and being clumsy in conversation, the things he puts on a sheet of printer paper and slides under your door make your heart race. it only takes about four or five letters before you’re head over heels for your secret admirer, so when you eventually meet them in person, you practically fall in love with ryland at first sight when you see him all anxious when he’s waiting for you.
━━━ .°˖✧ m is for mask ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?
╰₊✧ everyone knows ryland to be this charmingly awkward guy who only comes out of his shell when he’s really comfortable or really passionate, and for the most part, it’s true. however, deep down underneath it all, where no one has been able to reach aside from you, he’s insecure and obsessive, forever trapped in a cruel cycle of constantly seeking validation and seeking to be loved by you. the knowledge of it alone isn’t enough, he always has to hear it from your lips to believe it, over and over again.
━━━ .°˖✧ n is for naughty ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how would they punish their darling?
╰₊✧ inflicting physical or verbal abuse isn’t in his cards, but emotional and mental abuse certainly are, although he doesn’t quite think of it he would simply handle things by keeping you away from everyone and everything, including him, by locking you up in the basement without ever seeing the light of day until you apologize. you’re stubborn at first, but the isolation eventually starts getting to you, especially when ryland no longer shows himself to you and just slides a tray of food over to you for your meals. you start feeling guilty about what you did, and it drives you crazy to see ryland refusing to interact with you when he always did it excessively. eventually, you’re begging and pleading for him to forgive you after a little more than a week, and he always does, but he isn’t against bringing it up in conversation in the future if you ever get out of line again.
━━━ .°˖✧ o is for oppression ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how many rights would they take away from their darling?
╰₊✧ when ryland is holding you captive, he has a system in place where you can earn and lose privileges depending on your behavior, and he doesn’t care if you hate it because it makes you feel like a kid in his classroom. he knows how important it is to keep your mind occupied while he’s away at work, so you have an entire plethora of books, dvds, and puzzles for you to entertain yourself with. if you’re good, he would start by buying you more, and if you show a pattern of being good, then he would even let you have (limited) access to the internet, allow you to leave the house by his side, and visit your family members. if you’re bad, however, then he won’t hesitate to take away your things and rights until you otherwise manage to prove to him that you deserve them.
━━━ .°˖✧ p is for patience ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how patient are they with their darling?
╰₊✧ as mentioned before, being a teacher who deals with classrooms of children for the better part of the day has made him much more patient than your average yandere. when you’re fighting against him and misbehaving, he would encourage you to take deep breaths or leave until you have calmed down, but even if he stays with you and hears your cruel words stab into him like spears, he still somehow manages to keep his cool where others would snap.
━━━ .°˖✧ q is for quit ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ if their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?
╰₊✧ it’s likely that he would, because ryland finds the world too beautiful to wallow in his own grief and sorrows forever. he would never pursue or enter another romantic relationship for as long as he lives, and he’ll always carry a little sadness in his heart with all the beautiful things reminding him of you, but he’ll find a way to manage.
━━━ .°˖✧ r is for regret ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? would they ever let their darling go?
╰₊✧ oh, he regrets it more than he regrets any other sin he’s even committed in his entire life. even calling that scholar a “staggering waste of carbon” had a silver lining to it, but he has no idea how anything good is supposed to come out of this. he can’t believe he allowed his impulses to ruin everything like this, yet he still refuses to let you go now that he’s done it. he thinks that no matter how much you assure him you don’t leave him and that you aren’t mad, you’ll run for the hills the moment he lets you out, so he’s determined to make do with what he did and fix it, although it’s possible to change his mind that…
━━━ .°˖✧ s is for stigma ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ what brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?
╰₊✧ ryland has horrible abandonment issues as a result of being lonely for nearly all of his adult life with no family or loved ones, clinging onto most who come by him, and permanently attaching himself to you once you came into his life.
━━━ .°˖✧ t is for tears ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?
╰₊✧ while he learned to simply leave you alone during these episodes, the first couple of times he tried tightly embracing you in his arms. receiving hugs always comforted him when he was having a breakdown or suffering, so he hoped that giving you one would help you as well, and he would stay that way even if you try to push him away or claw at him with your nails. of course, he’s decided against it for his own safety now, donning quite a few scars from you that he tells others are cat scratches, but sometimes, you find yourself yearning for him to embrace you again whenever you’re crying.
━━━ .°˖✧ u is for unique ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ would they do anything different from the classic yandere?
╰₊✧ his unwillingness to perform acts of violence unless absolutely necessary sets him apart from most, who are willing to spill blood in a heartbeat if it were in the name of their love. while he can’t play elaborate mind games with his rivals, he can certainly keep them away from you and ruin their image in your eyes without raising any suspicion. he’s confused about how he figured out how to do such things, but he isn’t about to complain about his methods.
━━━ .°˖✧ v is for vice ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ what weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?
╰₊✧ despite his emotional intensities, he can be a pretty rational guy if spoken to correctly, especially because he’s aware that his obsession with you is wrong and wants nothing more than for things to be normal. it’s possible to exploit his guilt for kidnapping you, but it’s also possible to change his mindset and turn his obsession into something healthier. you have much more power over than he has over you, and once you realize that, as difficult as it is, then you can completely turn your relationship around and salvage it.
━━━ .°˖✧ w is for wit’s end ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ would they ever hurt their darling?
╰₊✧ that previous researcher side of him wouldn’t have hesitated to slap you around a bit, shaking you by the shoulders and yelling in your face until you were sobbing. the current him wouldn’t dare to lay a hand on you, no matter how much you resisted him, and if he felt the anger getting to him, then he would take it out on inanimate objects instead, like dishes or pillows.
━━━ .°˖✧ x is for xoanon ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how much would they revere or worship their darling? to what length would they go to win their darling over?
╰₊✧ poor ryland, he’s desperate for your validation and love, getting a high from it that no other drug could ever replicate. he would do anything in the world if it meant having you look at him in a positive light, even if it meant embarrassing himself to make you laugh or overworking himself to accomplish more achievements to make you proud of him, as if you were the goddess who created the universe that he loves so much.
━━━ .°˖✧ y is for yearn ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how long do they pine after their darling before they snap?
╰₊✧ while he’s incredibly patient and a pacifist at heart, his breaking point, where he would snap and abduct you, is when he feels like everything he’s worked so hard for is falling to pieces. sure, you loved him and everything was going swell, but it gets increasingly difficult for you to ignore the subtle red flags in his behavior. that suffocating possessiveness and overwhelming obsession scare you, so while you may not have wanted to end things quite yet, when you both have your first real fight, or you suggest that you might want to take a break, he panics that you hate him and never want to see him again, practically blacking out before coming back to consciousness and finding you locked up in his basement.
━━━ .°˖✧ z is for zenith ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ would they ever break their darling?╰₊✧ assuming you never broke free or you never managed to change him, you wouldn’t quite be broken by him, but you would inevitably give in when you become too exhausted to continue the fight. you don’t find continuing your relationship and ignoring the trauma he gave you too bad, even if you still have to constantly reassure him about your love for him. in the end, perhaps it isn’t too bad, because regardless of all his faults and all he put you through, you somehow still love him.
tagging people who have show interest in yandere ryland in my comments: @littlehippyhehe, @the-grass-under-my-bare-feet, @gremlintheslut, @sl33py-day
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Yesss, more Yandere Ryland Grace, just chefs kiss. Big ole kiss!!!!!!!!
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YANDERE ALPHABET YANDERE ALPHABET YANDERE ALPHABET!!! (i jump with glee) write it and i owe you my love, my life, and my soul
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yandere ryland grace is so good…… need him BIBLICALLY
➤ author's note: prehaps a yandere alphabet next...
━━━ .°˖✧ a is for admiration ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ what’s a quality they absolutely adore about you?
╰₊✧ he loves how you always listen to him talk and actively engage in conversation with him, even when he’s talking about something you know nothing about what he’s talking about or when you truthfully aren’t very interested. he understands that he often goes on tangents and rambles about seemingly the most random things for half an hour before connecting them back to the original conversation, which makes it difficult for a lot of people to follow him, but you always manage and enjoy his unique style of discussion.
━━━ .°˖✧ b is for beauty ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ what do they find to be the most beautiful about you physically?
╰₊✧ the most beautiful thing about you, in his humble opinion, is your mind and personality, but that should be quite obvious to anyone. physically, he loves your smile and the way you laugh. it’s the first thing that caught his attention and reeled him in to falling in love with you, and there’s nothing he loves more than being the reason you’re so visibly happy, taking great pride in being one of your sources of joy, and always finding himself dizzy with joy alongside you because your emotions just have the most infectious energy to them.
━━━ .°˖✧ c is for clingy ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how attached to you are they? how long can they last without you by their side?
╰₊✧ as long as he’s occupied with a lot of work or his newest interest that he need to learn every single little thing about, he can go quite some time without you by his side with how fixated he is. in fact, if you’re leaving him all alone for any reason for a couple of days, going on a work trip or visiting your family, all you have to do is give him some assignments about his favorite topics and the time will pass like an unnoticeable breeze. however, if he doesn’t have anything like that to keep him busy, then he’ll be whining like a toddler who misses their favorite stuffed animal, able to survive but making sure everyone with ears to hear how much he misses you and wants to be able to hold you in his arms again, regardless of whether it’s been one week or one hour.
━━━ .°˖✧ d is for dreams ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how do they picture a future with you?
╰₊✧ to be frank, he doesn’t have too much figured out. he knows he wants to marry you and start a family, but at the moment, all he’s focused on is keeping things stable on his meager teacher’s salary combined with your paychecks. before he brings any new lives into the world, he wants to make the life you two share more comfortable, which includes buying a car and a house instead of riding bikes and renting out a dingy apartment. sure, you’re both happy despite the difficulties, but he would prefer to have no difficulties at all, and at the moment, it’s all financial to the point that he can’t even buy you jewelry for valentine’s day because that money could be going into a savings account. still, neither of you ever goes to bed hungry, and life is so much more manageable when you have each other.
━━━ .°˖✧ e is for emotions ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how do they express their emotions around you?
╰₊✧ ryland is very open about his emotions, not just with you, but with everyone he interacts with. he will not hesitate to be confrontational and admit how he feels about certain things, and even if he decides not to say anything with his words, he struggles to keep a neutral face, and his expressions always give him away. it means he can’t keep secrets or surprises to save his life, but it also prevents misunderstandings and lets you two go without grudges from arguments because he wants things cleared up right away, keeping a consistent rule that you must never go to bed while you’re still upset with each other.
━━━ .°˖✧ f is for family ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ do they want a family? if so, how big?
╰₊✧ originally, back when he was a researcher, he probably didn’t want to start a family, nor did he really like being in the company of children, but once he became a teacher, he realized how much he loved the idea of being a father and how passionate he was about being a part of nurturing the next generation. it became one of his biggest dreams to have kids with you, and being put in charge of entire classrooms of children daily has certainly enabled him to be prepared for any possible situation. he’s already the most wonderful and doting husband, but he would be even better as a dad, and you’ll likely end up having around three or four, all of whom inherited his intelligence and your smile.
━━━ .°˖✧ g is for giving ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ what gifts do they get you? how do they react to gifts given to them?
╰₊✧ he’ll get you anything related to your special interest, whether it’s merchandise from a certain show, materials for arts and crafts, pretty rocks if you like geology, or the classic gifts of roses and chocolates if that’s what you prefer. whatever it is you want, he knows before you need to say a word, almost like he has clairvoyant powers. the presents don’t come frequently because he’s trying to save up as much as he can for a better life, but he never forgets the important dates and always has something prepared for you without fail.
╰₊✧ as for receiving gifts, he’s actually quite happy with the simple things like his favorite candies, sour skittles and twizzlers, but if you have the money to spare, then he’ll be over the moon if you buy him science equipment or anything nice for his classroom.
━━━ .°˖✧ h is for honesty ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ do they keep secrets or are they open with you?
╰₊✧ as mentioned before, he’s very open about his emotions and can’t keep secrets from you if it would save his life. not only is he incapable of it, but he also doesn’t see any reason to hide things from you when he wants to share everything with you, both the good and the bad. you probably even know about the astrophage eating away at the sun and the fact that he’s a part of the project hail mary, even though he had already sworn upon complete secrecy. you would have found out soon enough that he hasn’t been working at the school for quite some time, and he didn’t want to start a web of lies when he knew that he would feel too guilty and trip over it eventually, so he’s completely honest with you in every aspect.
━━━ .°˖✧ i is for inspiration ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how have you changed their lives for the better?
╰₊✧ in his youth, when he was more reckless and arrogant, he was quite selfish in his pursuit of proving his unorthodox theories true, and when he first started as a teacher, he became extremely altruistic and practically a doormat with how generous he was. it wasn’t until he met you that he found a happy medium, able to think of others while also having the ability to put his needs first when needed. he’s embarrassed that it took him so long to learn something so basic when he’s an expert on complex topics like molecular biology, but it’s better late than never, isn’t it?
━━━ .°˖✧ j is for jokes ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ do they like to joke around and prank you?
╰₊✧ he can be quite a comedian at times, and it comes to him very naturally without feeling the need to be funny at all times. most of the time, it isn’t intentional, he just has wit sharper than a knife, the best comedic timing, and line delivery that always lands, no matter the situation, so making you laugh comes to him as easily as breathing. perhaps that’s why he’s one of the most popular teachers in school, making even the most boring topics a delight to learn about. he also isn’t really a prankster, but he would probably know how to do some small magic tricks to mess with you.
━━━ .°˖✧ k is for kisses ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how do they like to kiss you?
╰₊✧ ryland always kisses you like it will be the last, like you’ll disappear at any second and slip through his fingers without warning. perhaps it’s because of how touch-starved he is or the profound loneliness he’s been suffering from, but he holds you close and kisses you with passion, even if it’s just supposed to be a quick one before he heads off to work. although he grew more settled in your relationship as it became more steady and serious, affirming that you love him just as much as he loves you and that it would take hell to separate you, he still kisses and holds you with longing.
━━━ .°˖✧ l is for love ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how long does it take for them to realize their love? how do they confess?
╰₊✧ he’s quick to realize his attraction to you, but he’s also quick to think it’s merely a little crush. for the most part, he’s accepted that love simply wasn’t for him and that he should focus on other things, like researching and teaching, yet all of that is thrown out the window when he sees how compatible you both are, and the infatuation grows out of control once he finds himself dreaming of a future with you. his confession would be impulsive and clumsy, one that had him internally facepalming at how stupid he must have seemed, but of course, you find him so endearing that you accept his feelings on the spot and eagerly make the arrangements for your first date.
━━━ .°˖✧ m is for memory ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ what is their favorite memory of/with you?
╰₊✧ perhaps the time you came to his classroom during career week to talk about your job. while there were a few who stayed on topic, there were quite a few students who wouldn’t stop trying to matchmake you with their teacher after seeing the way he was looking at you. when you admitted that you’ve already been together for quite some time now, they all erupted into such chaos that another staff member had to come in and politely ask everyone to quiet down. seeing how sweet and patient you were with the kids while you talked about your relationship, listening to you speak so fondly of him, and how much you treasured what you had with him, made him fall even deeper in love with you, and it’s a memory that always makes him smile girlishly whenever he thinks of it.
━━━ .°˖✧ n is for nicknames ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ what do they like to call you?
╰₊✧ anything other than a shortened version of your name feels so cheesy and cringeworthy to him at first. nothing that came out of his mouth sounded right, often feeling like he was trying to be an alpha male lead in a tiktok romance show, but sometimes, he likes to call you “beautiful.” he personally doesn’t mind being called pet names, no matter how strange or goofy they may feel, but even just being called “ry” feels so personal since everyone around him has been calling him “dr grace” for nearly a decade now.
━━━ .°˖✧ o is for on cloud nine ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how do they behave when they are in love? can others tell?
╰₊✧ they would only be able to tell if you were in the room with him. ryland is quite infamous for having his head up in the clouds, as diligent as he is with his work and tasks, but when you’re around, everyone can see the way he looks at you as if you hung all the stars in the sky and laughs a little too hard at your words, even if you weren’t exactly making a joke. the way he acts around you is so much more different than how he is around them, so much more comfortable and relaxed with no hesitation to be his authentic self, and it’s so endearing to everyone who realizes it because they’re so happy he’s found someone he adores so much.
━━━ .°˖✧ p is for pda ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how open are they with their relationship in front of others?
╰₊✧ he’s perfectly alright with it if you are, but he doesn’t tend to initiate it since he tends to get so giddy, completely incapable of keeping a straight face when you pull him in for a hug or a kiss, or even when you do something so small like hold his hand. he blushes and smiles like a dork, almost like he’s a little boy receiving attention from his crush rather than a grown ass man receiving the tenth thousandth kiss from his lover, whom he’s in a very dedicated relationship with.
━━━ .°˖✧ q is for quality time ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how do they like to spend time with you? what does their ideal date look like?
╰₊✧ anything that pulls him away from his work by your side is a date to him. while he loves being a teacher and is forever grateful for the little mishap that led him to his job, it can be extremely tiring and taxing, so taking a break to do and focus on other things instead of grading worksheets and making lesson plans all day is like a big mental stretch. he’s partially busy on schooldays and wraps up late, so something simple like dinner and a movie is lovely to him. on the weekends, holidays, or summer days, then he likes going to museums of all sorts and long walks in the park. if he has the extra money, then he’ll take you on a road trip out to national parks since he really loves the exercise and fresh air while appreciating nature to its fullest.
━━━ .°˖✧ r is for rest ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ what are their sleeping habits on your shared bed?
╰₊✧ i hope you’re comfortable with being smothered in bed, because this man loves your personal space ten times more than you do. even if you’re both situated on opposite sides at first, he always manages to wiggle over and put half of his body weight on top of you, and his body runs hot with the covers somehow kicked off by morning. when he doesn’t need to wake up early for his classes, he’s whining for more sleep and refuses to let you go unless you immediately need to use the restroom. while he doesn’t snore or sleep talk, he’s prone to having extremely vivid dreams, often waking up the next morning telling you about how he dreamed of getting strapped to a rocket and being shot off to space by the government.
━━━ .°˖✧ s is for security ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how protective are they of you? how would they like to be protected?
╰₊✧ he’s protective of you to a normal degree, always looking out for you in the way lovers typically do, but if he feels like your safety is being threatened by someone else, then you’ll see the rare side of him that you thought had been discarded years ago. it’s unnerving to see such an easy-going and amiable guy suddenly become cold and intimidating while he becomes confrontational. he wouldn’t hesitate to throw hands if you’re insulted or at risk, although he always tries to resolve things peacefully first, and no one should underestimate him because of his academic appearance because he can throw quite a serious punch.
━━━ .°˖✧ t is for thrill ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ do they want to try new things or do they want to keep a routine?
╰₊✧ while his life may seem pretty repetitive most days, he actually wouldn’t prefer it any other way, finding comfort in how steady things are going. he’s alright with trying new things, although he’s far from an adrenaline junkie, considering that he even gets sick on the elevator, so he refuses to do anything crazy like sky diving or rollercoaster rides, but he’s happy to do the boring unconventional things like dance in the rain or run out to buy snacks at two in the morning.
━━━ .°˖✧ u is for understanding ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how well do they know you?
╰₊✧ oh, he understands you better than you understand yourself. at first, he studied you like a new topic he wasn’t familiar with, taking a technical and scientific approach, but soon enough, he understood you with his entire heart and soul, and he takes great pride in being able to know exactly how you’re feeling and exactly what you need or want with a mere look into your eyes.
━━━ .°˖✧ v is for valentines ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how do they celebrate valentine’s day?
╰₊✧ as mentioned before, ryland usually doesn’t have the funds to go all out during valentine’s day, but to be fair, he’s never been super keen on commemorating it anyway because he would prefer to celebrate on your anniversaries instead. he would probably pluck wildflowers because he thinks the diversity and effort are much more meaningful than buying a bouquet of the same red roses, and he would get you a nice box of assorted chocolates, but truthfully, he doesn’t put as much effort into it as other holidays, just enough for you to know that he remembers.
━━━ .°˖✧ w is for wild card ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ what’s a random fluffy thing they do in your relationship?
╰₊✧ he gets really excited whenever there’s an astrological event happening near earth that can be seen with a telescope, even more excited than a kid on christmas, and he will stay up as late as he needs to in order to witness its greatness. he would be so happy if you would stay up with him and listen to him ramble about everything relating to the occasion, but if you’re too tired, then he doesn’t mind if you go to sleep. although, depending on how beautiful it looks, he might wake you up in the middle of your slumber because he feels like it would be a crime not to let you have a look, and he’s right, because the sights are always worth getting dragged out of bed.
━━━ .°˖✧ x is for xylophone ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ what’s a song that describes your relationship?
╰₊✧ “fly me to the moon” by frank sinatra!!
━━━ .°˖✧ y is for yes ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ how would they propose to you?
╰₊✧ unlike his spontaneous confession, he put a lot more thought into how he would propose to you. by that time, you’re both more settled in with more money to live comfortably, so he doesn’t need to scrape together dollar bills to buy you a nice ring. instead of a traditional diamond, he would likely get you one that has a meaningful gemstone. he hates the idea of public proposals and would do it in private, after you had already had a lengthy discussion about when the right time to get married was, of course, and once you agree to become engaged, he can never tear his eyes away from the ring gracing your pretty finger.
━━━ .°˖✧ z is for zen ˚₊ ⊹
╰₊✧ what makes them feel calm and at ease?
╰₊✧ having any sort of physical contact with you or engaging in conversation with you makes the entire world and all of its trouble melt away until it’s only the two of you on this earth. he loves having you snuggled up against him to where you can feel each other’s heartbeats and listen to you ramble on about whatever is on your mind, whether it’s some rude coworker or the latest episode of your favorite show, hearing your voice and feeling the warmth of your body against his makes everything right as rain, no matter how bad it may seem at the moment, as long as you have each other.
I loved loved loved ur eva stratt x reader x olesya i would love if you wrote more of them 😏😏
ft. eva stratt x f! reader x olesya ilyukhina — project hail mary
╰₊✧ (slighty suggestive!!) eva likes her personal space, but unfortunately, or perhaps luckily, for her, you and olesya also like her personal space┊0.7k words
➤ author's note: i don’t have many ideas for these two so here’s another eva-focused one, but i love them so much, feel free to send any ideas you may have if you want more, it really helps
╰₊✧ eva has spent most of her adult life by herself. it’s not that she struggles to find company or that she’s unlikeable to be around, she just prefers having her own space and peace of mind after a long day of having her focus on other things that will give her a headache if she thinks about them for too long. she isn’t even half as cold or standoffish as she seems to be upon first meeting her, as you and olesya discovered, it just takes her a while to warm up to others, but once she finds that she enjoys your companionship, she can be quite friendly and caring in her own way.
╰₊✧ one of the things that made it obvious to everyone with eyes and ears that the two of you have wormed your way into her seemingly stone-cold heart was how she doesn’t react when either of you invade her personal space. it’s not like you both get handsy with her in public, but rather, it’s the small things, like you putting a kiss on her cheek or olesya wrapping her arms around her for a quick embrace. for someone who always kept people at arm’s length, eva was surprisingly lenient with her girlfriends showing their love whenever you two felt like it, even if there were other people around, as long as it didn’t interfere with work. besides, she secretly loved the casual displays of affection, even though she seemingly brushed them off like they were nothing.
╰₊✧ whenever you and olesya work together, which you so frequently do, it’s even possible to get her flustered, and it’s the cutest thing in the world. there’s nothing like catching the stoic madam director off guard, making her pale complexion turn to a light pink as she trips over her words, followed by the two of you troublemakers running off while giggling like schoolgirls. despite all of the times that she's tamed and punished the two of you, you’re still as mischievous as always, as if you had addictions to pushing her buttons and riling her up, but nevertheless, she knows that she’ll have the last laugh once you all get home.
╰₊✧ the punishment is usually something that involves refusing to have either of you touch her, which she knows damn well is the real torture that’s more effective than anything she could have done in the bedroom. she’ll even be a tease by lounging about the house in more flowy or revealing coffee, sipping her coffee as she watches the nightly news, and shooting you a dirty look whenever you come too close. while you move to embrace olesya instead and whine about how mean eva is, the brunette can’t help but be proud that eva knows exactly what your weaknesses are and how to weaponize them, but her flattery will get her nowhere, considering that she was just as much of a victim of her self-isolation as you were.
╰₊✧ things are almost always sorted out by the end of the day because eva is just as obsessed with having physical contact as you two are, and it just doesn’t feel right to retire to the bedroom without giving you two kisses. waking up in the morning is always a fun event when all three of you are tangled in the sheets with the oldest trying to get up while the younger two are trying to convince her that it’s too early. she almost always falls back to sleep while both of you cuddle up with her with minimal resistance, finding herself unable to say no when you look at her with puppy eyes.
╰₊✧ even if you and olesya aren’t home for whatever reason, the former has several cats that she has brought into your shared home, and they love to take up eva’s personal space almost as much as you both do. like owners like pets, she supposes. it’s a rare moment to see her all alone without one of the pets trying to brush up against her and sit in her lap, and while she usually acts indifferent, she warms up to them just as she did with the both of you, and can never stop herself from reaching out to scratch their little heads.
ft. eva stratt x f! reader x olesya ilyukhina — project hail mary
╰₊✧ smut!! 18+) when you need the job done (you can call us baby!)┊1k words
➤ author's note: i’m not sure how olesya got added to this originally, but i’m not mad
“eva, there’s no fucking way!”
“what? is it so difficult to believe?”
“yes?? how is that even possible?!”
the older woman shrugged at your disbelief, somewhat confused at your reaction. was it really such a shocking thing to hear? she didn’t think it was such a massive deal, but clearly, you thought otherwise about the fact that she just admitted that she hasn’t had an orgasm in twenty years.
“guess that husband of yours really wasn’t shit, huh?”
“well, yes, that’s why i divorced him.”
it wasn’t a conversation she would normally have, especially with a co-worker, considering how unprofessional it was, but when you’re all at a party to help relieve the stress of saving the world with the alcohol flowing like water, things are bound to go off track. you and olesya were busy talking about your own sexual experiences in the past, clearly tipsy while discussing and bonding over the lesbian relationships that you were both forced to hide from your families and society, before asking eva about her personal life.
neither of you actually thought she was going to answer, simply telling that it wasn’t any of your business while you both giggled, but she thought that she might as well have joined the conversation as well when she’s been sitting there and listening for the past thirty minutes. she felt as though the stories she had to share about her long-term husband weren’t nearly as interesting as what you two were telling, but both of you clearly disagreed
she doesn’t even know why she mentioned it in the first place, but after hearing you and olesya talking about your own experiences after too many pints of beer, she thought she might as well join in too. still, she supposes hearing about both of your lesbian relationships throughout the years is more interesting than hearing about her sex life with her ex-husband, but both of you disagreed and found great amusement in clowning on how he could hardly even make her wet, much less make her orgasm. the last time she ever felt such pleasure was during a one-night stand back in university with some girl she hasn’t seen since.
then you both went quiet for a moment, exchanging a look at eva didn’t quite understand at first, but once she saw the way your lips curled into smiles, she could feel her heart racing as you each took one of her hands and dragged her away to somewhere more private.
it’s sort of been obvious to everyone who had eyes and ears that you and olesya were secretly fucking with the way flirtatious and close you two seemed, but something that no one could have ever guessed was that the madam director herself was suffering from a growing attraction that only got worse when she randomly walked in on you both going at it in an empty storage room. it was an accident, obviously, and she promptly apologized and left as though nothing happened, but she could never get the sight of the engineer kneeling between your legs and the erotic look in your eyes out of her head. although, she wasn’t exactly sure if it was something she wanted to forget with how it always returns to her late at night when she’s trying to sleep.
that’s why she thought it was just another one of her wet dreams when the three of you were crammed into the bathroom, olesya locking the door behind you as you pushed eva against the wall and started kissing her. neither of you was fooled by her stoic demeanor and overly professional attitude, since the needy look in her eyes spoke a thousand words, but hearing the little gasps from her lips while she clung onto your top was damn near one of the most adorable things you’ve ever seen.
pragmatic was usually the first word that came to mind when describing eva stratt, but olesya could think of another one, and it was starved. she’s starved for touch and attention, wanting to feel desired and pleasured in a way her previous husband could never do, and the two of you were more than willing to indulge her in her fantasies.
“oh, you’re so wet already?” you teased as you removed the older woman’s clothing, loving how soft and delicate her body was in comparison to her fortified mind.
“her imagination must have been running wild while listening to us talk!”
the said person was somewhat embarrassed about this entire thing. had someone told her that the party she was attending for formanties only was going to end with her naked in between the two amazingly attractive younger women she’s been crushing on (in lack of a better word), she would have scoffed at how insane it sounded.
and yet here she is, her bare back pressed against the brunette with her head thrown back on her shoulder, trying her best to suppress her moans with her hand while you had your head shoved in between her thighs. while you were licking up and swirling your tongue around her clit, olesya had her hand snake down her torso to her needy pussy to help you out, using your spit and her slick as a sort of makeshift lube for her fingers to curl up inside of her and massage her sweet spot.
it didn’t take any more than five minutes before eva’s entire body shook in your grasp, her walls spasming around your tongue as she filled your senses with her first climax in decades. for a moment, you couldn’t stop yourself from continuing to lap her juices, savoring how her sweet palette danced on your tongue despite her getting a little overstimulated.
it would only get worse, because neither of you were done with her just yet, especially when you finally pull away to wipe at your mouth, smiling at the other woman, “come on babe, i know you want a taste too.”
╰₊✧ smut!! 18+) thinking about brat-taming ryland grace┊0.8k words
bratty! ryland grace, who no one would have ever assumed used to be absolutely insufferable for a good chunk of his adult life, specifically from when he secured his first job as a researcher in his mid-twenties to his early-thirties before he got fired. he was a shy nerdy kid well into college, and he’s currently pretty mellowed out as a middle school teacher, but once he started being well-respected and popular in his field, he developed an ego that seemingly could never be deflated. he was far too brilliant, far too orthodox, far too handsome, and far too charming for anyone to resist, reaching a point where most were able to brush aside his overly cocky personality. all except you, who found the bastard to be one of the most detestable people you’ve ever worked with.
bratty! ryland grace, who would always treat you like a child even though you were hardly even a year apart in age, talking down to you and mansplaining to you, ruffling your hair and pushing you over to the side as if he were above you in some way. his behavior is unbearable, and you would say it’s borderline misogynistic, but he treats the other women no differently from the men, only being an irritating bastard around you as if he’s purposely trying to get on your nerves. he’s certainly doing a good job at it as well, you’re certain he’s one of the most vexing people you’ve ever met in your entire life, and your roommate is always the lucky one who gets a lengthy rant about how annoying he is once you get home.
bratty! ryland grace, who is, in fact, purposefully targeting you because he loves to see how much he can rile you up. it’s like a fun pastime that he looks forward to every day in between his pursuits of proving his outlandish theories to be true, he just adores pushing all your buttons and listening to your witty responses, where you essentially tell him to go fuck himself in the most professional manner possible. he knows what his limits are, never wanting to make you uncomfortable or to be reported just for having a little bit of fun, but he always wonders where these games would lead him, if you were going to swallow your pride and push it aside, or if you were going to teach him a lesson like he knows you both want so badly.
bratty! ryland grace, who you want to beat the shit out of so badly, but since you would rather keep your nice job that you’re passionate about, you’ll have to settle for the alternative, pushing him up against the wall while everyone was gone and slamming your lips against his. he didn’t even bother to pretend that he was caught off guard or like he didn’t want it, all he could do was melt into your touch when your hands wrapped around his neck and squeezed ever so slightly, accidentally letting out a pathetic little whimper in the process that made everything click in your mind of why he behaves the way he does.
bratty! ryland grace, who has a shift in behavior after that, and he becomes ever worse now that he knows what you will do to him if he continues getting underneath your skin. he’s especially grown a liking to pulling you close to him and whispering dirty things into your ear in front of others, watching the way you get all flustered, and walking away with a smirk on his face as if he didn’t just tell you that you wanted to tie him up or whatever other freaky fantasy that’s been plaguing his mind ever since you kissed him.
bratty! ryland grace, who loves it when you manhandle him, shoving him around and being rough enough to leave little bruises on his skin as if you had zero regard for his well-being. you probably don’t with how pissed off you are, but he doesn’t mind in the least bit with how badly he wants you to put him in his place. he loves it when you make him get down on his knees and force an apology out of him, pulling on his tie until he goes a little lightheaded when he refuses. maybe you’ll even bend him over and give him a good spanking, and if you jerk him off at the same time, you’ll have him practically crying for your forgiveness in no time.
bratty! ryland grace, who eventually mellows out when he gets fired for calling a leading scholar a “staggering waste of carbon” and is forced to become a middle school teacher. now that he’s been humbled, he’s much easier to date and much better boyfriend material, but that doesn’t mean he’s lost his sass and desire to be tamed by you, it just means he’s more thoughtful about his choice of words and prefers to drag things out until it ends in a satisfying burst of energy where you shove him up against the wall like you did all those years ago when you first started this fun and unconventional relationship.
‧₊˚✧ ❛[ i'll be in the middle (while you two get along) ]❜
ft. eva stratt, ryland grace x f! reader — project hail mary
╰₊✧ what it’s like being shared by the golden retriever scientist and the black cat madam director┊1.7k words
contains: smut!! 18+)dom eva, ryland & sub reader┊hinge polyamory, age difference (eva & ryland are late 40s, reader is early 30s), voyeurism/cuckholding, receiving oral, unprotected piv & pulling out
➤ author’s note: i struggled so much with this, but hopefully now that it’s out my drafts, i can focus on other works
just because the fate in the world is in their hands, doesn’t mean they have to be so strict and serious all the time. it’s never easy for anyone at this government facility to forget about the top-secret mission they are all working towards, saving the earth before the astrophase dims the sun with all life on earth either freezing or starving to death, but if anything, they argue that the entertainment of watching eva stratt and ryland grace fighting for your attention is vital to preventing the workplace from collapsing under the amount of pressure they’re all under. several of the employees have even made bets on who will be the one to take you out and win you over, the youngest and sweetest scientist on the team, who brightens up everyone’s day like it’s what you’re paid to do.
it was ridiculously predictable that ryland would fall for you, a goner the second he saw your smile and asked the people around him about you, but no one anticipated for eva to also start looking at you with the same affectionate look in her eyes, her infamous aloofness only slightly wavering when it came to asking you how your day was.
(just in case you’re wondering. carl and yao bet on ryland while ilyukhina and dubois bet on eva. there’s somewhere between a hundred and two hundred dollars on the line, but that number just seems to keep growing as more people start realizing that they have a love triangle only seen in romantic dramas and fanfictions unfolding before their very eyes.)
while your two love interests weren’t quite aware of how obvious their feelings are to everyone around them, they are painfully aware of the other’s growing infatuation with you. truth be told, even if they had a lot more important things going on, both of them were jealous of the other for possessing traits they lacked and desired to have. eva wishes that she could be as naturally charming and funny as grace despite all the weight he carries on his shoulders; ryland wishes he could be as mysterious, calm, and collected as if nothing ever got to her.
still, it’s not like they actually fight each other while they’re working. there’s a time and place for everything, and they’re both adults who are mostly mature about these things, but that doesn’t stop them from flinging around passive-aggressive comments at each other.
“dr grace, i believe your calculations here are incorrect. perhaps if you spent more time focusing on your work rather than socializing, you would be more productive.”
“well, maybe i wouldn’t feel the need to rush if you weren’t constantly passing by just to ‘admire the sights!’”
yet, even with their differences, all the things they have in common are as clear as day, both to them and the people around them: their passion for science, their determination to do good, their hard-working personalities, their love to protect the planet they are living in, and of course, their taste in women. perhaps that’s why it wasn’t nearly as difficult as they initially thought it would be to put their differences aside and come to an agreement when it quickly became evident that you would prefer not to enter a relationship at all to begin with, rather than risk breaking a heart because you felt forced to pick one over the other.
it’s an awkward thing to pitch for several reasons, mainly because polyamorous relationships of all kinds were still considered a social taboo, because you were all co-workers working together to save the world, and because you were noticeably younger than the two of them. ryland couldn’t stop stumbling over his words, rubbing the back of his neck because of how nervous he was about making you uncomfortable, but luckily for him, eva cut in and explained what they had in mind in less than two sentences, and you were elated and relieved by the fact that you no longer had to stay up late at night trying to figure out how you were going to navigate this tangled web of romance without hurting anyone’s feelings.
of course, it was easier said than done, mainly because of how the two of them would now openly butt heads like irritated rams whenever the three of you were out of the workplace. ryland was insecure, eva was possessive, and they were both stubborn as hell.
“why is it that you always get to sit in the back with her while i always have to drive?”
“well, since you’re always riding a bicycle too and from work, i thought you would enjoy driving a car for once, especially one as expensive and luxurious as this one.”
“alright, i get it, you make more money than me! you don’t need to rub it in!”
it became more common for them to take turns spending time with you rather than doing it together and being in each other’s company, but it also meant that they expected equal time and would get petty over a single extra hour. for a couple of days, it almost seemed like they were children all over again, arguing over whose turn it was to play on the new ipad while you were trying to force them into a compromise.
eventually, and thankfully, they managed to sort things out between themselves. as kind and understanding as you were, the last thing they wanted to happen was for the relationship to break down before it even got off the ground because you were worried things weren’t working out. that doesn’t mean they aren’t still incredibly sassy with each other, but at least they have managed to tone it down to a degree so that they don’t have to constantly reassure you that it’s just how they interact and that they aren’t actually fighting.
oh, and they feel just so guilty about how stupid they were at first as if you weren’t stressed out enough about project hail mary! as your older lovers, they should have been a shoulder for you to lean on instead of making you feel stranded, and no matter how much you promise him that it’s all in past now and that you’re just glad they’re getting along now, they still can’t help but smother you in hugs and kisses until it escalated with you feeling all hot and horny. you’ve slept with the two on separate occasions, with the person who managed to get you in bed first forever gloating about it to the other, but this would be the first time you would be getting intimate with both of them at the same time.
ryland is clumsy with his movements, uncoordinated due to how eager he is when he’s haphazardly tearing off your clothing. eva is more adept and knows exactly what she’s doing, her touch leaving what feels like electricity in its wake as she caresses your exposed skin. the experience she possesses makes it more natural for her to go first, basically pushing him over to the side while she kneels in between your legs. she doesn’t care for the little whimper he lets out when he’s forced to watch from the sidelines for now, all she cares about is making you finish all over her mouth as she digs her tongue into you.
despite seeming so cool and calculated, it doesn’t take long for her more animalistic side to come out, lapping up every drop and sucking at your soaked cunt like a starved woman. it reminds you of how perverted she can actually be behind her completely neutral facade, moving her hand to stick her fingers in and reach as deeply as she can before curling them into your sweet spot, massaging it until she can hear you moaning so loudly that not even your thighs wrapped around her head could muffle out your sounds.
out of the corner of your teary eyes, you could see your boyfriend watching while seated in a nearby chair that gives him a perfect view of you being pleasured, his glasses hanging off his face as they do so often, and his spit-slicked cock in his hands. he stares as if the other woman were giving him a lesson, teaching him how he’s supposed to eat pussy and make you feel good most effectively, often mocking how his passion is always doing the heavy lifting when he goes down on you.
eva can be partially talkative while fucking you, asking you how it feels and if you want her to go slower or faster, praising you for taking it so well and degrading you for being such a dirty slut, but once you climax and she has to move to let ryland have his turn before he loses it, she isn’t opposed to bothering him while she takes the seat that he was in before.
“your thrusts are far too sloppy, you’ll never get her anywhere at that rate.”
“yeah? well, i’d like to see you do a better job.”
“i frequently do, but i feel like it would be too cruel for me to tell you to stop when you’re clearly so far along.”
“oh, so you do know when you’re being too cruel?”
as if he wasn’t shy enough about how he was still getting used to having sex after being non-voluntarily celibate for nearly ten years, his boss was watching like she was trying to give him a grade, and knowing her, he had no doubt in his mind that she was taking off a couple of points for his poor posture or whatever else.
still, if he puts all of his focus on you, listening to your soft sighs, seeing your hands reaching out to intertwine with his, feeling the way your velvet-like walls clench around him without ever wanting to let go, he can forget about his anxieties, focusing on his love for you and desire to make you feel good. it’s amazing how the world can just melt away when he looks into your eyes, fluttering shut with every thrust as you come to your second climax along with him as he pulls out onto your stomach.
eva runs you a warm bath and helps clean you up with a damp towel, asking you if you’re perfectly satisfied for the night and helping you head to the bathroom since your legs were all shaky. she’s kind enough to throw him a towel and a pat on the back, nothing more, but he takes it as approval and acceptance of their partnership in taking care of you, the light of their lives in such turbulent times.
eva stratt fans, i'm so honored that you guys support me and are just as horny for this woman as i am, i have a few more things planned, but if you guys have any ideas, please feel free to send them in!!
if you would like to see the works i've already written for her, then check out the project hail mary masterlist here!!
Eva Stratt x fem!reader age gap smut? PLSSS I’M SO DESPERATE THERE’S NOTHINGGG OF HER ANYWHEREEEEE 😭😭😭
ft. eva stratt x f! reader — project hail mary
╰₊✧ smut!! 18+) thinking about sneaking around with eva around the facility┊0.7k words
one of the first words that comes to mind when thinking about eva stratt is professional. she might seem a little cold at first, but she truly knows how to be caring for all who work under her supervision without crossing any boundaries. it’s something you always admired about her, and was one of the many reasons why you fell for her. even when she’s just going about her day and checking up on status updates at the facility, you can’t help but fangirl from afar about how calm and collected she seems to be with the world on her shoulders.
as part of her professionalism, she keeps her private and work life separate, which includes not talking about her personal life and her relationship with you, but you don’t mind in the slightest when you are extremely familiar with how loving she can be behind closed doors. besides, it’s fine to have all your co-workers tease you about your supposed crush on the older woman, having no idea that you were already lovers.
no one would ever guess that eva’s significant other was someone she was working with, much less a younger employee, but that only makes it more exciting to you, especially when you make lingering touches with her and occasionally pull her into some isolated corner to give her a quick little peck.
obviously, you don’t do anything of the sort on partially tense and busy days, but when you can see that she’s a little more relaxed because of everything moving smoothly and on schedule, you can’t help but tease her a little bit. you’re just too impatient to wait until you both get back to your shared home, and you also just can’t resist showing her a little bit of love when she’s walking around looking so gorgeous like it’s nothing.
she rarely seems to mind these random displays of affection, and while she’s stone-faced and gives you a curt acknowledgement before telling you that you both need to go back to work, but you know how flustered she truly is by the way she struggles to meet your eyes and stutters a little bit. despite being a good decade and a couple extra years older than you, she’s still shy about the bold moves you make since it’s been quite a while since her last romantic relationship.
and she always finds herself aching for a little more after watching you skip away back to work with a smile on your face. it’s a bit embarrassing to her, really, how you manage to ignite a flame in her that she thought had already been snuffed out long ago, but you just have that bit of magic in you that makes her feel like she’s young again.
usually, she can wait until you’re both home before initiating anything, but sometimes, she can’t resist and has to call you into her office for what everyone believes to be a discussion.
little do they know, she has you sitting pretty on her desk with her hands roaming around your body, unbuttoning your blouse to reveal your perfect tits to her while she makes out with you. she’s a little clumsy with it, but you don’t mind and are completely giddy when she peppers your exposed neck in kisses before zipping down your pencil skirt to remove it and put her face between your thighs like you both have been aching for.
you always somehow manage to reach your orgasm faster when you’re in the office compared to when she eats you out in the comfort of your own shared home. perhaps it’s the urgency in her tongue as she laps up your dripping slit as if it’s the sweetest nectar she’s ever tasted, maybe it’s the fact that anyone passing by would be able to hear your moans if you weren’t careful, but chances are it’s the first one, considering that eva loves to suck at your clit until you’re trembling like it’s a mission more important than the project hail mary itself.
later on, when you’re all flustered and adjusting your clothing to look as natural as possible, you’re never certain if your co-workers are looking at you with such curiosity and knowledge because they want to know how the “discussion” went, or if it’s because they knew you were secretly fucking the director.
╰₊✧ “it’s been a long time since i’ve taken a pill from a stranger without knowing what it is”┊1.1k words
contains: smut!! 18+) dom reader & sub ryland┊illict drug use, college, hooking up with strangers in a broom closet, handjobs
➤ author's note: ran into a little bit of writer’s block, so i hope you enjoy this little drabble i cooked up in the meantime!! (i might make a part two, but it isn’t too high on the priority list as of now)
when ryland was about twenty-two, he had a friend who dragged him to a fraternity party because he couldn’t believe that he was about to graduate from college and move on to pursue a higher education in molecular biology without ever attending one. he really didn’t want to go, but he supposed that he should go just for the experience and to be educated on the subject so that he could confidently say he didn’t like them. there aren’t any scientists who would ever make a conclusion without an experiment, so he figured that there wouldn’t be any harm in going.
as predicted, it really wasn’t his scene, far too crowded and loud with too much going on as he was constantly going through crowds of drunk and sweaty strangers who kept yelling to hear each other over the music. everyone seemed so engrossed in their own world, chatting, drinking, making out, passing out— he felt like he was an observer looking into a zoo exhibit, but even after his friend unintentionally ditched him in favor of some girl, he found himself sticking around after running into you.
he doesn’t remember how the discussion started or too many of the details, just that he was yapping nonstop about random science facts, and you seemed to be extremely interested. you were, by far, the prettiest girl at the party in his humble opinion, and he felt like a goddamn idiot for not asking you any questions about yourself, but you didn’t seem to mind his lack of conversation skills in the least bit.
truthfully, it may have been because you seemed to be partially high on some unknown substance, but since you were nodding along and asking questions, ones that made him realize you were actually a lot more intelligent than you were letting on.
then you randomly pulled out a little clear baggie that had two white pills in it and popped one into your mouth without so much as blinking, something that caught him completely off guard, but you had assumed that he made a face because he also wanted one, and not the fact that you were literally doing drugs in front of him. and yet when you offered it to him, he agreed for some damn reason.
he didn’t ask what it was, and you didn’t tell him either. ryland could practically see his guardian angel shaking their head at his bad decisions, taking an unknown substance just because a hot girl offered it to him, but he’s sure they would have gone the same thing if they were in his place. he took it with a surprising lack of nerves and also a surprising lack of care for his own health before smiling at you and continuing with the chat. his logic was that, if you were taking it so casually, then it was probably something that wouldn’t cause major health issues or possible death, but at the time, he didn’t know. as far as he knew, he might have signed a contract with the grim reaper just then without any thought, all to look cool in front of a girl who probably didn’t give a damn to begin with.
at first, it didn’t do anything, just leaving behind a sweet and fizzy aftertaste on his tongue, but once it hit, it hit him hard.
most everything after that was a blur, but he still remembers the most important parts, like how his inhibitions were starting to disappear, and how soon enough, you both were crammed in some broom closet, making out like the end of the world was going to kill you all tomorrow. he was still quite clumsy because of his lack of experience, but you didn’t seem to mind in the least bit with how you were taking control and gushing over how cute he was.
he felt fuzzy all over, like he was melting into your body and your lips while your tongue explored his mouth, allowing him to taste all the sugary alcoholic drinks you had earlier. this definitely wasn’t something that he expected to happen, not because he thought he was better than this, but because he never thought a girl like you would like him enough to go this far, and it’s something he would never do again in his life, especially with how the heated makeout session only escalated from there when he ended up getting a boner.
he’s never been so embarrassed in his entire life, but you wouldn’t stop giggling and rubbing up on him, undoing his belt while asking for his permission to help him out, and of course, he agreed, nodding his head so eagerly that his glasses nearly came off.
your hands were so soft compared to his, and the way your fingers wrapped around his throbbing shaft had him uncontrollably bucking his hips into your touch. his pre-cum was smearing all over the inner fabric of his clothing and your skin, creating a sticky mess that almost acted as a natural lubricant while you jerked him off. he would say that he can’t remember the last time he had his blood pumping through his veins like this with an unfamiliar feverish heat of desire burning him up, but that would be a lie since he’s never really been touched like this by anyone except for himself.
oh, and the sounds coming out of his mouth sounded like a heavenly choir with how he was whining and pathetically begging for you, being so loud that, if it weren’t for how loud the party roaring outside was, everyone would be able to hear him. he couldn’t control himself, not his body nor his voice, but it was difficult to judge if that was because he was unfamiliar with these intense pleasures or if his senses were only heightened because of whatever you gave him, probably a mixture of both which is why it barely took two minutes for him to reach his peak.
he could have died from embarrassment there, but he was really overestimating how much you cared. if anything, you were whispering something about how you could have fallen in love with him right then and there if you weren’t careful.
it’s one of his biggest regrets that he forgot to ask you for your number after that, but perhaps it’s for the best since he has no idea how he would handle dating someone who was probably a junkie. maybe he could have helped fix that? he had no idea. he spent the rest of his weeks on campus looking around for you, even attending a couple more of the frat parties that he found so distasteful, but he never saw you again, and since he had no idea how he would even start looking for you, he moved on for the most part.
still, he thinks about you every so often, and he’s sure that if he ever saw you again, he would be tripping over himself to see if you remember him the same way he remembers you.
