My Unpredictable Mind

[celiadaydreamer]

If my dream becomes Reality

Lying down in the bed looking in the empty space beside me while i felt so broken and depressed.With just like that they stomp on what little confidence I have and then I close my eyes you are right there beside me. With that smile plastered on your face. Once again I could hear clearly that voice of yours in my head. My heart is beating fast and I could not stop smiling. Wearing that long scarf around your neck while you wrapped it around leaning your head close to me. The silence in the surroundings as we look deep in the eyes. All the loneliness, the sadness I felt. They all disappear. But somehow I become more desperate to be closer to you, to wish that you are real. I wish you are real. For at last I ask myself what if you are here? Take my hand and dance in that December Night or walk in the crowded place where no one knows us. Holding my hand and calm my restless heart. And when I go somewhere I am not alone. That I am not looking the empty space to the sit across of me. And someday we will walk in that snowy place in your area. Playing with snowballs. Circling around in the freezing winter as we gaze to each other’s eyes. Because I realize when I was depressed and broken. When I felt the world is against me. I close my eyes and your there. My dearest Ivan Braginsky.

[celiadaydreamer]

You’ll be in my heart always <3

[thepersonalquotes]

[hedonist--poet-deactivated20240]

The more I tried to figure it out, the more I got lost.

Hedonist Poet (via hedonistpoet)

[cwote]

You are human. You’re allowed to have off days, okay?

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Ancient lovers believed a kiss would literally unite their souls, because the spirit was said to be carried in one’s breath.

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I try to express how I feel But it changes every day and so I’m finding it hard.

Kate Nash, Take Me To A Higher Plane (via music-and-quotes)

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[celiadaydreamer]

Ivan Braginsky <3 

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[celiadaydreamer]

When love knocks on your door

It’s hard to describe how this feelings can be describe. And how love is complicated and different from just random crushes based on me. I have never felt this way. So when I thought everything is okay I did not realize the door has been knock down. The wall I created in my heart has been thrash down. As the wall for other people grows stronger because someone finally found his way to my heart. I did not know how to deal and be reasonable when it comes to this. For this is my first time that I love someone seriously as this. Sadly, he wasn’t real. He was just an anime created by someone. Maybe there is a parallel world out there that it was me who does not exist and he is the one who is real. But you see, love just cannot be dictate or bribe and that is my case. Though for me it comes at the person who does not exist. Lately you see me posting some post about Ivan Braginski the personification of the country Russia. Well what I show here is more than words can describe or much more can these poem can write. My emotions is stronger than the words can explain. When I could not stop blushing or smiling when I think of him. I start to value of things that does not matter to me before. And perhaps things I took advantage of in the past. And how I used not to care about the green trees or green plants I jusst pass them by but they did not have that value so much and I do not care if there are plenty of sunflowers in my area. But ever since I knew him. I started to care about Sunflowers I wanted to be surrounded by them. I learn to love my climate because Ivan wishes to go to the world with our climate. I suddenly want to stop drinking and smoking cigarette because in Russia. They follow the tradition. You know the tradition where girls are not expected to drink wildly or smoke cigarette and when I go out I do not have that phase where I look ugly anymore because Russian girls always look their best when they go out. I do not know if that is true that kind of stereotype but that is where my knowledge take me. I cannot stop thinking of him every night and every day. He is the wallpaper in my cellphone and my lock screen even the wallpaper in my tablet and lately I have dream of him. But what makes it magnifies is I get jealous. That I end up trying to invalidate my jealousy by researching and researching and verifying since I am a paranoid and anxious people I put my stupid paranoia to research. My mind for once agrees with my heart and she does not want to forget him and always picture him perfectly in my mind. This is the time I realize this is different than the usual crushes. My heart is madly in love with the personification of Russia 

[celiadaydreamer]

You don't have to ask Ivan Hehehe As long as it's you I won't never ever say no And of course why not? Sure. Forever and ever <3.<3 Yessss <3 <3

[celiadaydreamer]

Because we are friends

"Alone again. And this weather is not helpful" he sighed looking at the window hearing nothing but the roaring of the thick winter he placed his palm to the window and was caught in surprise when he heard a knock He hurried to the door frowning cautiously as he open the door welcome by the angry wind of the winter as he heard a woman shivering in cold "Brrr...your country is so cold. Colder during this month" she complain before looking up at him and giggle "I knew I couldnfind you here Ivan" she giggles and suddenly take a sunflower "so far this is the only one that survives in the winter" she said regretfully and he looks at the sinflpwer surprised while blinking "This is for me?" he asked unbelievably before she went in and he closed the door behind her as she sighed in relief "Finally. I thought I will die in that winter I can barely see anything" she giggles before facing him with her usual cheerful self while she giggle ",Man, you really gotta stop being surprised when someone gives you something or if there is someone not scared of you. That is just depressing" she giggles and looks at him proudly "I finally learn how to cook the delicious borscht. It tasted like the one you !ade" she giggles and he chuckle "You are an odd one. But.." she suddenly approached him patting his shoulder "There is nothing odd about that" she beamed at him while she show him her pinky finger "Because we are friends"

[celiadaydreamer]

YESS! Of course! Da! I will hug you Ivan! Of course! Of course! Huggiesss!!! Hugs <3 Hugs ♥😍😍😍😍😍😍