āI just finished medical school. Ā Now Iām heading to residency, which is supposed to be even tougher. Ā Iāve been working sixteen-hour days. Ā Then Iām expected to study every night when I get home. Ā Some of my classmates only sleep three hours per night. Ā I tried that for a few months during my surgery rotation, but I ended up getting really depressed. Ā I felt completely depersonalized. Ā Everything seemed like a dream. Ā To make matters worse, a lot of the instructors are jerks. Ā I think they went through hell when they were students, so they feel like they should put us through hell. Ā On the first day of rotations, my attending physician told me: āIām an asshole, but Iāll make you a better doctor.ā Ā He made fun of me in front of other students. Ā He put me down in front of patients. Ā Heād threaten to kick me out every day. Ā I guess theyāre trying to weed people out and make strong doctors. Ā But theyāre just traumatizing people. Ā Theyāre making us apathetic. Ā I got into medicine because I really wanted to make a difference in peopleās lives. Ā But after going through hell, I just donāt care anymore.ā