i leave for inpatient on thursday, thank you to edblur for giving me a safe space to exist in and finding others to relate to
be kind to yourselves x
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i leave for inpatient on thursday, thank you to edblur for giving me a safe space to exist in and finding others to relate to
be kind to yourselves x
something i love about reaching my ugw is how much more i like my legs now
i have the opportunity to go inpatient, but i feel so conflicted. i’m not sure i’m ready to let go of ana, and scared that recovering won’t actually make me happier :,)
but i’m also failing all my mf classes thx to brain fog lmao and my bmi is low enough that i know it could kill me
anyway just ranting
it is insane the way i constantly swing between
my 3d is ruining my life. it is draining me. i am cold and starving and exhausted and weak. i can’t do this anymore. why do i even do this to myself? why can’t 4n0rex1a just k1ll me already ??
and
i love my 3d, i am powerful, i never want to recover. i love feeling sk1nny<3 i am in control, i have willpower, i will reach perfection and purification. i have PURPOSE !!!!
fr makes my blog so chaotic bc one moment i’m reblogging th1nsp0 and weight loss motivation, the next im talking about wanting to d13 💀
it is insane the way i constantly swing between
my 3d is ruining my life. it is draining me. i am cold and starving and exhausted and weak. i can’t do this anymore. why do i even do this to myself? why can’t 4n0rex1a just k1ll me already ??
and
i love my 3d, i am powerful, i never want to recover. i love feeling sk1nny<3 i am in control, i have willpower, i will reach perfection and purification. i have PURPOSE !!!!
i wish i was a ~* 🌷✨🍓🎀apples and strawberries and self care and femininity and feeling pure and empty 🎀🍓✨🌷 ~* an0rex1c
instead of a cigarettes and sugar free monster and dark circles and self hatred and mood swings an0rex1c
i feel like .. now that i reached my ugw .. i should lose another 2 pounds maybe in case of weight fluctuations or smth …
maybe this is why people say that it doesn’t stop at your ugw lmao 💀
after 8 months, i reached my ugw. someone asked for some tips so i figured i’d make a post :)
TIPS FOR REACHING YOUR UGW:
—vary your calories and have 2 maintenance days a week. this is really important to prevent slowing your metabolism and also helps with preventing binges!
—drink LOTS of water. i drink 2L a day. it helps with water retention, digestion, and makes you feel fuller
—volume eating. eating a lot of low calorie food versus eating a small amount of high calorie food will help with feeling fuller
—eat protein! it keeps you full and gives you energy
—get 8 hours of sleep a night. it helps with metabolism, water retention, and will make you feel more energetic
—stay active but have realistic goals. if you’re a student like me, chances are you might not have a lot of time to work out. aim for a daily minimum step count that is doable for you
—if you binge, eat at maintenance the next day. it’s tempting to just fast the next day to “make up for it”, but this will lead to another binge. i got stuck in a binge-restrict cycle for 2 months and lost no weight at all due to it
—laxatives don’t calorie purge, it’s not worth it
—if you HAVE to purge, do it via exercise
—getting an apple watch that tracks how many calories i burn a day helps so much (but i know that’s not an option for everyone)
—working out at an incline burns SO many more calories. if you’re at the gym, do the 12-3-30 (12% incline at 3mph for 30mins). if you don’t have access to a gym, trying walking up and down stairs or walking uphill
—have planned binge days every 3 months. this helped me from having unexpected binges and kept me motivated to just keep restricting so that i can enjoy food on my binge day
i want to end this post by saying: please be kind and patient to yourself. you deserve happiness
I MADE IT TO MY UGW. 80LBS. I FUCKING DID IT
boot up, Bitch
That reply is unexpectedly inspirational.
something i’ve noticed about being really uw is that just a few puffs of a cigarette and i’ll feel extremely lightheaded
fr almost felt like passing out after my morning cigarette, even tho i literally ate breakfast beforehand
something i’ve noticed about being really uw is that just a few puffs of a cigarette and i’ll feel extremely lightheaded
doing 12-3-30 on the treadmill (12% incline, 3mph, for 30 minutes) burns sO MANY CALORIES. according to my apple watch i burn double doing this method than just normal running !!!
if i’m feeling extra i’ll do a 15% incline on 4mph and holy shit it burns but it works, i didn’t gain over the holidays bc i did this workout everyday <3
finally got the courage to weigh myself and i’m 3lbs away from my ugw!!!!!
if only 4nor3xia made me lose fat the way it makes me lose brain cells
i say this bc my brain fog made me forget about a whole ass final. i missed aN ENTIRE FINAL. currently in my professors inbox begging for a makeup
if only 4nor3xia made me lose fat the way it makes me lose brain cells